Ok let do a quick one.. actually I have alot of things to write... alot of things to update in this scrapbook of mine... but I got no time.. hahaha... if not I am just too lazy and tired to do so...
Anyway today is the eve of Chinese New Year and once again I will be leaving my precious dear dear to go back to Malaysia.. first it was Korea now it is Malaysia.. but we got no choice have't we??? Dun wan to imagine the horrible jam at Johor Causeway... haiz... every year you face the same old thing over and over again... duhz... but this year becoz of my grandpa.. die die also must make our way back home for the reunion dinner... woke up damn early this morning to pack all my things... actually it is partly also becoz i got a stupid running nose that's why I woke up so early...
Previously I met up with my poly mates.. the first thing that everyone is asking everyone is when is everyone getting married.. hahaha.. I think when we reached this kind of age, that is the typical question that get shooted into your face everytime.. I am prepared for that question too when I go back to Malaysia... my grandparents, uncles and aunties will be so anxious to know if I have a bf, what is he doing, how old is he, when we are getting married and when we are going to have kids.... the most impt thing I guess all of them are trying to guess is if I will be having a shot gun marriage.. hahaha.. too bad... they waited too long for the bad news... and it is still not happening yet... anyway I am glad all my poly mates are doing fine.. hehehe... we only have one gathering once in a year so we kinda of treasure it more...
To my darling...
I am soooooooo going to miss ya... but remember what I have been trying to nag at U the entire of yesterday night k... dun smoke too much while I am not around to keeep a lookout on U hor... hehehe.... will sms u whenever I can.. and I got a surprise for U in your wallet... hehehe.. so conduct a search for it k?? hehehe.. muackz.. I love ya....
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Seeing me in someone's arms
I just read this email that a frenz sent to me a few days ago... it talks about this couple... the gal was involved in an accident and was seriously injured and unconscious... the boy was besides her all along... hoping and praying that she will be awake someday and after waiting continously for a few months, God was touched by him and offered him a deal.. he will become a dragonfly for 3 yrs in exchange for the gal's life.. which he agreed. He was always there besides the gal, silently accompanying her... but after the 2nd year, there was a new guy besides the gal who happens to be the doctor who healed her. The dragonfly was very upset.. and on the last day of the 3rd year period, the gal got married to the doctor... the email ended with this sentence "There are some relationships that was fated to have no endings, there are some relationships that was fated to be lost. Loving a person doesn't mean that you have to hold on to him/her, but having the person, you got to make sure you love him/her properly". 有些緣份是註定要失去的﹐有些緣份是永遠不會有好結果的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他.
After reading this email there are some words that came up to my mind which I need to say to the two important persons who once make an impact on my life....
I am sorry I hurted U
And I know it hurts to see me in someone else's arms
But U know that we are not right for one another no matter how much we try to compromise for each other.....
And U told me before you so much wanted me to be happy....
I sounded selfish but I know one day U will find ur true happiness also..
And till then, I will give U my true blessings...
Knowing that U are happy too..
Thanks for all the memories..
After reading this email there are some words that came up to my mind which I need to say to the two important persons who once make an impact on my life....
I am sorry I hurted U
And I know it hurts to see me in someone else's arms
But U know that we are not right for one another no matter how much we try to compromise for each other.....
And U told me before you so much wanted me to be happy....
I sounded selfish but I know one day U will find ur true happiness also..
And till then, I will give U my true blessings...
Knowing that U are happy too..
Thanks for all the memories..
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Ginger Tea & Flu...
Holding on to a hot cup of ginger tea besides me now trying to prevent myself from getting a flu.. hehehe.... just putted down the phone with my darling deary who urgently need to go to sleep because he need to be in camp tomorrow at 9am to disarm. Then he will have to go down to Changi to get his staff pass done. As for me, I am supposed to wake up at 9am too (asked my darling to give me a morning call tomorrow when he reached camp) because I need to go to the doc for my semi annual blood test... hahaha.. then maybe go photocopy all my resumes and certs because I have an interview at NUH tomorrow at 4.30pm, get some undies and I need to do something else which I can't remember what is it now.. hahahaha.. sad case... my memory is just failing me isn't it?? Oh I need to wash my slippers and my shoes which I haven't got the chance to do so... hardly spend time at home now... I am either at work or I am with my darling...spent most of my free time with him yet we still both think it is so not enough... hahaha.. he blamed me for his flu... I blamed him for all the silly things that he do... but that is what is so cute abt him.. he is just like a small little kid to me.. and I am just like a small little ger to him... in front of me u will see a totally different guy.. a guy who know jolly well how to sulk and grumble in a cute way to try and get his way through.. hehehe... we both agreed that this blog should become like a scrapbook for both me and him.. because since our memories are so poor... maybe 10 days, 10 months or 10 years down the road.. we can't even remember what happen previously.. at least we can still look back at this blog (provided it is still there) and remember all the small little details that contributed to our lifes.. hehehe.. there is just so much that we want to do.. but we just keep on postponing it because we do not have the time.. haha.. swimming and playing badminton are one of those things on the list...let see what happe previously...
12th & 13 January 2006
Can't really remember what happen.. i bet darling must be in camp and I must be working.. hehehe..
14th January 2006
Met up with darling for lunch at blk 166.. it is the 1st or the 15th of the chinese lunar month therefore I need to eat vegetarian food.. so blk 166 is the only neaby kopitiam that offered veg food... hehehe.. anyway we met up abt 1.30pm... then after which we went back to darling's place for a rest and nap session... then after being woken up by Ah Qiam, Ah Boon and Wenliang because they jio us to drink at Ginza.. hehehe.. we haven't been down to that place since Christmas.. hehehe.. anyway darling's mum cooked our favourite dish "bittergourd with egg" and sardines.. so we ate dinner before we went out to meet up with the rest of the guys around 8pm... when we reached there.. only Ah Xiong, Ah Boon and Wenliang were there together with Celest.. hehe.. the 3/4 Martell that was left over during Christmas was once again on duty.. hehehe... mission was to be completed by end of the day.. so the guys started with Dai Di.. hehehe... which was not my favourite because I am damn lousy at it.. but anyway darling's hands was damn poor that day because he nv got any of the biggest cards which is a 2 at all... his cards were all damn small and miserable... so I took the cards for him.. hehehe... I am damn toopidz at this game.. I can never game even though I always get gd cards.. hahaha... so ended up I took the cards for him but he was the one playing the game.. hehehe.. the tables has turned baby.. hehehe.. then they switched to bluff.. hahahaha... dear was playing it at the beginning while I am just watching... then dear went to the gents and asked me to took over.. hahahaha... I am becoming super gd at it.. heheh.. Ah Xiong and Ah Boon both got a taste of my terror.. hahaha... then it is me vs Wenliang!!.. hahaha.. but anyway I didn't lose much anyway.. hehehe... finshed up the Martell well before Junxian comes.. continued on to beer.. then I got to be on my way home le... as it is already 12midnight so darling sent me home on the bike.. hehehe...
15th January 2006
Oh Oh.. this day is special for both of us.. because we went on our first overseas road trip.. jotted it down jotted it down.. hehehehe... we crossed the causeway and went to Malaysia.. the main purpose was to go there and pumped petrol of course.. but anyway we are both very excited abt it.. hahaha.. deary came over and fetched me in the morning.. we went over to his place for a short nap while waiting for Ah Xiong to finish washing his bike... the weather looked bad like it is going to rain any minute so we are also not very sure if we should risk going into Malaysia.. so we waited until abt 6pm.. then as we are both hungry.. we decided to go down to Old WDL central for dinner while waiting for Ah Xiong to confirm with us if he want to go into Malaysia.. anyway we need to change some RM also.. so we changed our money... then we headed to Mackays to try the new Fan-tastic burgers... they were ok... but not really fantastic though.. but they are damn filling.. because they are made of sticky Japanese style rice.. hahaha... then Ah Xiong called to say we will use the Tuas second link and arranged for a place to meet... so at about 7.10pm we set out for the beginning of our first road trip overseas... but first we made a detour to Shell station to pump a little bit of petrol.. met up with Ah Xiong at 7.50pm.. then we went in.. it was a smooth clearance... Ah Xiong was speeding like crazy (160+??) and dear was super pissed because his bike can only clock to a max of 118 max.. hehehe... we went to eat herbal chicken which was yummy... I always loved Malaysian food.. then we came back using the WDL Checkpoint after getting their ciggies and pumping a full tank of petrol... end of a tiring day.. hehe
16th January 2006
Hmm.. what happened on 16th?? I think darling was in camp and I was working from 3 - 11pm.. but there was some delays at the workplace resulting in me only able to leave PS at around 11.30pm.. darling is already so tired because he got not enough sleep... and I felt so guilty for making him wait outside for me for so long... even though he kept on reassuring me it is alright.. hehe...
17th January 2006
Darling was in camp until 7pm.. I am at work from 3pm to 11pm.. then darling came and fetched me off work at 11pm.. although we finished real early today because it is Kenji's shift... we finished closing at about 10.30pm and Kenji asked me to go out for supper together with his gf Jane and our baker Jeffrey which I so much wanted to go because I wanted to eat clams and mussels (lalas with extra chilli)... hehhee.. but I know darling is tired.. so by dragging him to supper mean he will get home later and get even lesser sleep so I decided to forgo supper.. anyway we have plenty of time to eat it next time anyway... so I stood outside and waited for him until 11pm... then we came home.. passed him some ginger tea and medicine for his flu... then we spoke on the phone after I showered and he was grumbling abt me not spending enough time with him at night... and that's why he got a flu.. hehehehe... because I am not there to cover the blanket for him...
12th & 13 January 2006
Can't really remember what happen.. i bet darling must be in camp and I must be working.. hehehe..
14th January 2006
Met up with darling for lunch at blk 166.. it is the 1st or the 15th of the chinese lunar month therefore I need to eat vegetarian food.. so blk 166 is the only neaby kopitiam that offered veg food... hehehe.. anyway we met up abt 1.30pm... then after which we went back to darling's place for a rest and nap session... then after being woken up by Ah Qiam, Ah Boon and Wenliang because they jio us to drink at Ginza.. hehehe.. we haven't been down to that place since Christmas.. hehehe.. anyway darling's mum cooked our favourite dish "bittergourd with egg" and sardines.. so we ate dinner before we went out to meet up with the rest of the guys around 8pm... when we reached there.. only Ah Xiong, Ah Boon and Wenliang were there together with Celest.. hehe.. the 3/4 Martell that was left over during Christmas was once again on duty.. hehehe... mission was to be completed by end of the day.. so the guys started with Dai Di.. hehehe... which was not my favourite because I am damn lousy at it.. but anyway darling's hands was damn poor that day because he nv got any of the biggest cards which is a 2 at all... his cards were all damn small and miserable... so I took the cards for him.. hehehe... I am damn toopidz at this game.. I can never game even though I always get gd cards.. hahaha... so ended up I took the cards for him but he was the one playing the game.. hehehe.. the tables has turned baby.. hehehe.. then they switched to bluff.. hahahaha... dear was playing it at the beginning while I am just watching... then dear went to the gents and asked me to took over.. hahahaha... I am becoming super gd at it.. heheh.. Ah Xiong and Ah Boon both got a taste of my terror.. hahaha... then it is me vs Wenliang!!.. hahaha.. but anyway I didn't lose much anyway.. hehehe... finshed up the Martell well before Junxian comes.. continued on to beer.. then I got to be on my way home le... as it is already 12midnight so darling sent me home on the bike.. hehehe...
15th January 2006
Oh Oh.. this day is special for both of us.. because we went on our first overseas road trip.. jotted it down jotted it down.. hehehehe... we crossed the causeway and went to Malaysia.. the main purpose was to go there and pumped petrol of course.. but anyway we are both very excited abt it.. hahaha.. deary came over and fetched me in the morning.. we went over to his place for a short nap while waiting for Ah Xiong to finish washing his bike... the weather looked bad like it is going to rain any minute so we are also not very sure if we should risk going into Malaysia.. so we waited until abt 6pm.. then as we are both hungry.. we decided to go down to Old WDL central for dinner while waiting for Ah Xiong to confirm with us if he want to go into Malaysia.. anyway we need to change some RM also.. so we changed our money... then we headed to Mackays to try the new Fan-tastic burgers... they were ok... but not really fantastic though.. but they are damn filling.. because they are made of sticky Japanese style rice.. hahaha... then Ah Xiong called to say we will use the Tuas second link and arranged for a place to meet... so at about 7.10pm we set out for the beginning of our first road trip overseas... but first we made a detour to Shell station to pump a little bit of petrol.. met up with Ah Xiong at 7.50pm.. then we went in.. it was a smooth clearance... Ah Xiong was speeding like crazy (160+??) and dear was super pissed because his bike can only clock to a max of 118 max.. hehehe... we went to eat herbal chicken which was yummy... I always loved Malaysian food.. then we came back using the WDL Checkpoint after getting their ciggies and pumping a full tank of petrol... end of a tiring day.. hehe
16th January 2006
Hmm.. what happened on 16th?? I think darling was in camp and I was working from 3 - 11pm.. but there was some delays at the workplace resulting in me only able to leave PS at around 11.30pm.. darling is already so tired because he got not enough sleep... and I felt so guilty for making him wait outside for me for so long... even though he kept on reassuring me it is alright.. hehe...
17th January 2006
Darling was in camp until 7pm.. I am at work from 3pm to 11pm.. then darling came and fetched me off work at 11pm.. although we finished real early today because it is Kenji's shift... we finished closing at about 10.30pm and Kenji asked me to go out for supper together with his gf Jane and our baker Jeffrey which I so much wanted to go because I wanted to eat clams and mussels (lalas with extra chilli)... hehhee.. but I know darling is tired.. so by dragging him to supper mean he will get home later and get even lesser sleep so I decided to forgo supper.. anyway we have plenty of time to eat it next time anyway... so I stood outside and waited for him until 11pm... then we came home.. passed him some ginger tea and medicine for his flu... then we spoke on the phone after I showered and he was grumbling abt me not spending enough time with him at night... and that's why he got a flu.. hehehehe... because I am not there to cover the blanket for him...
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Stomachache
Oh... having a stomachache right now... I haven't update my blog for quite some time right? No leh... only less than one week ago ba.. why I feel like it has been so long leh?? Look like the blog have become quite a part of my life le.. hehehe
My dear is in camp for reservist.... sad le... have to wait until Sat before he can be out from camp... can't wait for Sat to come.. but anyway he might be able to come out tomorrow night so most likely he will come and fetch me off work at 11pm.. hehehe...
Ok what's been happening since my last blog.. I need to recap sia.. my memory is failing me.. I can't even remember what happen on Mon... OMG....
6th December 2006
Can't remember what happen...
7th December 2006
Can't remember too.. hahaha....
8th December 2006
Dear dear went to camp... and I think I went to work... Oh yah.. I went back to Informatics in the morning at 9pm to return my keys and my staff pass... then met up with some ex-collegues for a smoke and a bit of chit chat.. then I rushed down to Ngee Ann City for a appt of mine... then off to Paragon in the rain to transfer some stuffs then to work at 1pm to 8pm.. then dear dear called me to tell me he is able to book out that night so he came and fetched me home on his bike.... Okok I know I know after much persuasion.. I decided to sit on his bike.. so we went down to BLk 211 for dinner... then we went home because we both very tired... hehehe
9th December 2006
Ok dear dear is not working.. I am not working too... But what did we do? Hmmm... I think dear went to wash bike with Ah Xiong and Jinlong in the morning around 11am while I stayed at home... then I decided to go out to the library to realise that the library is closed on public holidays... duhz.. I was pissed abt it... then I went to buy my printer ink which is super expensive.,... $45 bucks for the black ink cartridge... then went to rent some shows and went back to my darling's place to watch the show that he always wanted to watch "Shen Hua". But I think we fell asleep half way throughout the first disk.. sad case... then I think we woke up and went out to Blk 883 for dinner.. yummy.. Tom Yam soup and pineapple rice again... then we went to Mustafa Centre to get some stuffs for darling's bike and went back... took the bike out for a ride.. hehehehe... blow air.. hehehe.. but I am in shorts so darling very scared i cold.... he was stroking my feets in order to give me some warmth.. so sweet of him... then he sent me home and just outside my door he realised that one of my earrings is gone!!! but becoz it is very late le.. so he asked me to go in first.. and he will help me to look for my earrings.. and poor thing he was really looking onto the floor for my small tiny earrings... but he found it on the ground next to his bike... oh my god.. hehe he know I really love the earrings alot... and trust him to even notice that my earrings are gone.. hahaha
10th December 2006
Rainy day again as usual... darling went out with Ah Xiong to change his bike's tyres as they are spoilt... then he ended up changing his brakes' pads as well... toopidz previous owner sold him a lousy second hand bike... in the end so much things need to be changed.. and it costs more money than buying a good bike... anyway.... I went out to the library to get some books as well as to DBS Bank to process some transactions on my account... then darling called me to tell me that he will be going down to Tuas at 1+ becoz Kelvin met up with an accident and they need to go down to help him out.. so I thought it is ok.. I let him go.. while waitinffor him in the library.. then the next thing U know I looked at my watch it is already 4+.. half a day is gone and he is still not done yet... I got pissed... but I dun want to disturb him.. so I didn't message or called him but I am super pissed and fed up... then he called me to tell me he is on his way home so I went and met up with him at his place.. it is raining like crazy so he couldn't come and pick me up on his bike and he know I wun sit on it too... so when I met up with him.. being my darling he know straight away that I am super pissed out abt something.. and he certainly know what it is... so he apologised to me.. how can I bear to be angry at him for long.. after a while we were ok... hugging and snuggling in bed... hehehe... sweet then we fell asleep again.. duhz.. actually he fell asleep first then I decided to take a short nap too.. hahaha... then we woke up at around 7+.. went out to blk 19 for dinner... then home again for a while.. actually want to take the bike out for a ride again but toopidz weather... it start to rain again so in the end he took the van and drove me home... hehehe...
End of my boring life..
My dear is in camp for reservist.... sad le... have to wait until Sat before he can be out from camp... can't wait for Sat to come.. but anyway he might be able to come out tomorrow night so most likely he will come and fetch me off work at 11pm.. hehehe...
Ok what's been happening since my last blog.. I need to recap sia.. my memory is failing me.. I can't even remember what happen on Mon... OMG....
6th December 2006
Can't remember what happen...
7th December 2006
Can't remember too.. hahaha....
8th December 2006
Dear dear went to camp... and I think I went to work... Oh yah.. I went back to Informatics in the morning at 9pm to return my keys and my staff pass... then met up with some ex-collegues for a smoke and a bit of chit chat.. then I rushed down to Ngee Ann City for a appt of mine... then off to Paragon in the rain to transfer some stuffs then to work at 1pm to 8pm.. then dear dear called me to tell me he is able to book out that night so he came and fetched me home on his bike.... Okok I know I know after much persuasion.. I decided to sit on his bike.. so we went down to BLk 211 for dinner... then we went home because we both very tired... hehehe
9th December 2006
Ok dear dear is not working.. I am not working too... But what did we do? Hmmm... I think dear went to wash bike with Ah Xiong and Jinlong in the morning around 11am while I stayed at home... then I decided to go out to the library to realise that the library is closed on public holidays... duhz.. I was pissed abt it... then I went to buy my printer ink which is super expensive.,... $45 bucks for the black ink cartridge... then went to rent some shows and went back to my darling's place to watch the show that he always wanted to watch "Shen Hua". But I think we fell asleep half way throughout the first disk.. sad case... then I think we woke up and went out to Blk 883 for dinner.. yummy.. Tom Yam soup and pineapple rice again... then we went to Mustafa Centre to get some stuffs for darling's bike and went back... took the bike out for a ride.. hehehehe... blow air.. hehehe.. but I am in shorts so darling very scared i cold.... he was stroking my feets in order to give me some warmth.. so sweet of him... then he sent me home and just outside my door he realised that one of my earrings is gone!!! but becoz it is very late le.. so he asked me to go in first.. and he will help me to look for my earrings.. and poor thing he was really looking onto the floor for my small tiny earrings... but he found it on the ground next to his bike... oh my god.. hehe he know I really love the earrings alot... and trust him to even notice that my earrings are gone.. hahaha
10th December 2006
Rainy day again as usual... darling went out with Ah Xiong to change his bike's tyres as they are spoilt... then he ended up changing his brakes' pads as well... toopidz previous owner sold him a lousy second hand bike... in the end so much things need to be changed.. and it costs more money than buying a good bike... anyway.... I went out to the library to get some books as well as to DBS Bank to process some transactions on my account... then darling called me to tell me that he will be going down to Tuas at 1+ becoz Kelvin met up with an accident and they need to go down to help him out.. so I thought it is ok.. I let him go.. while waitinffor him in the library.. then the next thing U know I looked at my watch it is already 4+.. half a day is gone and he is still not done yet... I got pissed... but I dun want to disturb him.. so I didn't message or called him but I am super pissed and fed up... then he called me to tell me he is on his way home so I went and met up with him at his place.. it is raining like crazy so he couldn't come and pick me up on his bike and he know I wun sit on it too... so when I met up with him.. being my darling he know straight away that I am super pissed out abt something.. and he certainly know what it is... so he apologised to me.. how can I bear to be angry at him for long.. after a while we were ok... hugging and snuggling in bed... hehehe... sweet then we fell asleep again.. duhz.. actually he fell asleep first then I decided to take a short nap too.. hahaha... then we woke up at around 7+.. went out to blk 19 for dinner... then home again for a while.. actually want to take the bike out for a ride again but toopidz weather... it start to rain again so in the end he took the van and drove me home... hehehe...
End of my boring life..
Sunday, January 08, 2006
First week of 2006
Yesterday was my last day at work.... had a small lunch gathering with some of my closest collegues which include Shiwei, Thomas, Tim, June, Lay Yong etc in the office on Thurs. Did Delifrance catering, Canadian Pizza delivery and me and Ms Teo went out to get drinks, paper plates, plastic forks and a cake to celebrate Sharifah's birthday at the same time. The gathering was nice and happy... hehehe... Although I think I wasn't a very good host really.. hehehe... too much ppl for me to entertain.. lost focus...
Then Fri I was busy trying to clear all my barang barang from the office. Two bouquets of flowers, lots of soft toys which include a teddy bear from Ms Teo for Christmas and a pair of Piglet slippers from Sharifah plus all my food stuffs which I have stocked up after half a year. Also trying to clear my work and emails to make sure no backlogs was left behind for Ms Teo and Sharifah... not very sure if I have cleared all though because too much cases... some I dun even remember what are them abt... But at least most of them have been cleared I guess.. Dear dear came and fetched me off work... because first it was raining secondly he know I have lots of barang barangs to carry...
Today I have my first taste of freedom.. hehehe.. offically declared jobless.. hahaha.. me and dear we went gai gai again.. went to visit my ex staffs at Bugis Delifrance... went to the Guan Yin temple at Bugis to pray pray because Darling just got his X9 bike today!!! hehehe... pray pray that he will be safe and sound... Then we walked walked around Bugis for a while..went to eat Dear's favourite food... then went down to Suntec continue walk walk... then went down to Lawrence's Bistro Delifrance store for some chit chat plus coffee and tea.. hehehe... wanted to have desserts but I guess me and dear are too full from our dunno lunch or dinner at Bugis...
Dear planning to get a raincoat and a helmet for me so that I can ride on his bike.. hmmm... I promised myself ever since my closest god-kor kor died in a moterbike accident a few years ago that I will never sit on a bike again... got a phobia of bikes just like someone being scared of water after nearly drowning before.... after that accident I think bikes are so so so unsafe... I mean yah I am woried abt my dear riding a bike too.. but first he loves bikes, secondly he need a better and more efficient transport to work... so haiz... got to let him get the bike... but me myself riding on it... eh.... I think I still need some time to convince myself that... I think my god kor kor from Heaven above will sure keep a watch out for me... I think i will make myself look funni also considering I haven't ride a bike for so long... OMG.. and I hate riding bikes on rainy days becoz I hate wearing the toopidz raincoat which makes me look like a clown.... OMG can't think abt it...
Then Fri I was busy trying to clear all my barang barang from the office. Two bouquets of flowers, lots of soft toys which include a teddy bear from Ms Teo for Christmas and a pair of Piglet slippers from Sharifah plus all my food stuffs which I have stocked up after half a year. Also trying to clear my work and emails to make sure no backlogs was left behind for Ms Teo and Sharifah... not very sure if I have cleared all though because too much cases... some I dun even remember what are them abt... But at least most of them have been cleared I guess.. Dear dear came and fetched me off work... because first it was raining secondly he know I have lots of barang barangs to carry...
Today I have my first taste of freedom.. hehehe.. offically declared jobless.. hahaha.. me and dear we went gai gai again.. went to visit my ex staffs at Bugis Delifrance... went to the Guan Yin temple at Bugis to pray pray because Darling just got his X9 bike today!!! hehehe... pray pray that he will be safe and sound... Then we walked walked around Bugis for a while..went to eat Dear's favourite food... then went down to Suntec continue walk walk... then went down to Lawrence's Bistro Delifrance store for some chit chat plus coffee and tea.. hehehe... wanted to have desserts but I guess me and dear are too full from our dunno lunch or dinner at Bugis...
Dear planning to get a raincoat and a helmet for me so that I can ride on his bike.. hmmm... I promised myself ever since my closest god-kor kor died in a moterbike accident a few years ago that I will never sit on a bike again... got a phobia of bikes just like someone being scared of water after nearly drowning before.... after that accident I think bikes are so so so unsafe... I mean yah I am woried abt my dear riding a bike too.. but first he loves bikes, secondly he need a better and more efficient transport to work... so haiz... got to let him get the bike... but me myself riding on it... eh.... I think I still need some time to convince myself that... I think my god kor kor from Heaven above will sure keep a watch out for me... I think i will make myself look funni also considering I haven't ride a bike for so long... OMG.. and I hate riding bikes on rainy days becoz I hate wearing the toopidz raincoat which makes me look like a clown.... OMG can't think abt it...
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Simple Things In Life
Humans sometimes got to learn to be contented with the simple things in life... Yes money is very important in the Singapore society, you can't basically live in this world without money but it is not the most important thing in this world I suddenly realise... there are so many things that money can never buy.. like true love, laughter etc... there are thousands of millionaires or billionaires out in this world... they have the biggest landed properties, nice houses overlooking magnificant views, all the diamonds they ever wanted, the branded goods, the fame, best holidays, private islands, nice penthouse offices etc... but they may still lack the most basic and simple things in life like love and laughter... half the times they are stressed over work... or even buried in work.. people are frenz with them because of their money not because they truly like them as a frenz... they might even have lost the word laughter or smile in their dictionary.... how pathetic can it be? Yet they have all the things that thousands and millions of people are chasing after.... I too wanted the best things in life, nice holidays etc.. but I dun think I will ever give up anything in exchange for it because it is not worth it... Buddhism taught us that in this world, in this life, we come into this world with nothing... and we will leave with nothing... there is nothing in this life that is precious that we can hold on to... but I hold on to some of the precious things to me in life.. my family, my relationships, my frenz and my life... other than that.. nothing is that important anymore...
I have a frenz who ask me to join his company in the hopes of making more money so I can live a better life... probably own a car, stay in a condo, go for expensive luxurious holidays... I admit I was tempted at the first thought of it.. but come to think abt it.. do I need it? I am happy with what I have now... yes humans are always greedy... but I am happy with what I have and I am contented with it...my deary boyfrenz, my family and frenz... and I surely wun go against my own principles in sales to achieve my targets giving up precious relationship with frenz and family members just to achieve my own goals in life..... afterall frenz and family will always be there for U.. money U can always do with less of it...
Rich people might have the biggest parties in the hippest disco or pub in town with all the famous celebrities and people attending it in branded gowns and sparkling jewellery... but I am contented and happy drinking with my group of frenz at a chalet with no special countdown or fireworks.. just laughter accompanied by the hugs and kisses of my beloved deary plus the gentle touch of his arms around me.. what else can I ask for..
I have a frenz who ask me to join his company in the hopes of making more money so I can live a better life... probably own a car, stay in a condo, go for expensive luxurious holidays... I admit I was tempted at the first thought of it.. but come to think abt it.. do I need it? I am happy with what I have now... yes humans are always greedy... but I am happy with what I have and I am contented with it...my deary boyfrenz, my family and frenz... and I surely wun go against my own principles in sales to achieve my targets giving up precious relationship with frenz and family members just to achieve my own goals in life..... afterall frenz and family will always be there for U.. money U can always do with less of it...
Rich people might have the biggest parties in the hippest disco or pub in town with all the famous celebrities and people attending it in branded gowns and sparkling jewellery... but I am contented and happy drinking with my group of frenz at a chalet with no special countdown or fireworks.. just laughter accompanied by the hugs and kisses of my beloved deary plus the gentle touch of his arms around me.. what else can I ask for..
New Year 01.01.06
Yippess!!! Welcome to year 2006. Let hope this year will be a better year for all.... heehe... and especially for me of coz... hehehe
31th December 2005
Went over to dear dear's place in the afternoon after finishing some household chores at home.... dear dear walked over from his place to pick me up... hehehe.. I was taking a leisurely walk over, he called me on my mobile and I didn't hear.. hehehe... but anyway we met up and went up to his place... lazed in the bed the entire afternoon eating jelly beans and watching boring TV shows.. hehehe.. then we took a short nap and the next thing u know we woke up around 7pm.. then dear went shower while we waited for JX to give us confirmation on our tiuz.. at first supposed to go over to Litque's chalet at Chervons then we decided to go to Cosy Bay instead... then Litque called us and told us that there was quite little people at the chalet so we decided to go down and support him.. hehehe.. but first we picked up Alex at blk 17, then Wenlin at Sembanwang then we headed to Blk 925 Yishun to meet Junxian, Ah Xiong and Jinlong for dinner.. Then Wenlin ordered beer.. then all started drinking le.. haiz...in the end we had 4 bottles of beer in total at the coffeeshop.. hahha.. then after dinner.. we drove down to Chervons with two bikes following behind us... hehehe... becoz we are leading the way...
Reached Chervons le at around 10+.. quite late le... played around with the kids, watched TV for a while.. took a walk around the place... actually we are looking for a place to drink some more.. hehehe.. then me, dear and Wenlin drove out to 7-11 to get some mixers for Volka.. we got coke, green tea and 7up.. hehe.. then drove back and we started drinking... yippess.. hehehe.. at first just drink no game.. then Junxian suggested we play "Zhong Ji Min Ma" so we got the game rolling.. so funni... then we shifted outside becoz got Zhiwei's baby sleeping in the chalet.. then we continued the game. By that time, Wenlin is already half drunk and when someone is drunk... everything get funni.. hahahaha.. then we left the chalet at abt 3am in the mrning.. luckily dear still can drive and we didn't kana any roadblocks on our way back.. hehehe..then we got back to dear's place and slept until 12noon this afternoon.. hehehe...
Final conclusion.. it is a nice start for the year 2006.Some nice photos to share..
Alcohol and more alcohol over the New Year!
Me & my darling 1st full length photo..
Darling trying to act dao...
Nice one... hehehe... love his smile
A nice photo underneath a blur image
Last one!!!
31th December 2005
Went over to dear dear's place in the afternoon after finishing some household chores at home.... dear dear walked over from his place to pick me up... hehehe.. I was taking a leisurely walk over, he called me on my mobile and I didn't hear.. hehehe... but anyway we met up and went up to his place... lazed in the bed the entire afternoon eating jelly beans and watching boring TV shows.. hehehe.. then we took a short nap and the next thing u know we woke up around 7pm.. then dear went shower while we waited for JX to give us confirmation on our tiuz.. at first supposed to go over to Litque's chalet at Chervons then we decided to go to Cosy Bay instead... then Litque called us and told us that there was quite little people at the chalet so we decided to go down and support him.. hehehe.. but first we picked up Alex at blk 17, then Wenlin at Sembanwang then we headed to Blk 925 Yishun to meet Junxian, Ah Xiong and Jinlong for dinner.. Then Wenlin ordered beer.. then all started drinking le.. haiz...in the end we had 4 bottles of beer in total at the coffeeshop.. hahha.. then after dinner.. we drove down to Chervons with two bikes following behind us... hehehe... becoz we are leading the way...
Reached Chervons le at around 10+.. quite late le... played around with the kids, watched TV for a while.. took a walk around the place... actually we are looking for a place to drink some more.. hehehe.. then me, dear and Wenlin drove out to 7-11 to get some mixers for Volka.. we got coke, green tea and 7up.. hehe.. then drove back and we started drinking... yippess.. hehehe.. at first just drink no game.. then Junxian suggested we play "Zhong Ji Min Ma" so we got the game rolling.. so funni... then we shifted outside becoz got Zhiwei's baby sleeping in the chalet.. then we continued the game. By that time, Wenlin is already half drunk and when someone is drunk... everything get funni.. hahahaha.. then we left the chalet at abt 3am in the mrning.. luckily dear still can drive and we didn't kana any roadblocks on our way back.. hehehe..then we got back to dear's place and slept until 12noon this afternoon.. hehehe...
Final conclusion.. it is a nice start for the year 2006.Some nice photos to share..
Thursday, December 29, 2005
mISS mISS mY dARLING
Haiz.. didn't get to meet up with my darling yesterday because I got to go home and be a good ger... have to help out in some household chores... then I didn't get to talk much with my darling also because I was quite tired and not feeling very well yesterday so most of the times I was trying very hard not to doze off.... then darling went out for supper with his parents and relatives who just arrived in SG from Indonesia so I went to bed early hoping to be able to catch more sleep in order to cure my "unknown" illness... frankly speaking I have no idea why am I so tired when first of all, I didn't do much this entire week at work, second of all, I am working 9 to 6pm sharp, third of all, I have 6 to 8 hours sleep everyday.. why am I still so tired... I think it is just breakdown of my body functions.. hahahaha...
I think my mum is too greedy... considering that the past 2 weeks I have been going home alot more for dinner.. she is still unpleased with it... humans are just so hard to satisfy... I told her today I meeting one of my best female buddies for dinner becoz I need to get the basic theory book from her in preparation of my basic theory test.. she asked me why I have been going out with her recently? Hello.. in the first place I only met up with her once on Mon after like ages.... haiz.. complicated human emotions.....
To my darling..
Our love might have commas but there will never be a full stop... you might have reservist to go to, I might have to be away from SG during the new year... we might not be able to meet up that often after you and I both start work.. but our love will still remain unchanged... and strong.. dun worry k?? Miss miss ya as always...
I think my mum is too greedy... considering that the past 2 weeks I have been going home alot more for dinner.. she is still unpleased with it... humans are just so hard to satisfy... I told her today I meeting one of my best female buddies for dinner becoz I need to get the basic theory book from her in preparation of my basic theory test.. she asked me why I have been going out with her recently? Hello.. in the first place I only met up with her once on Mon after like ages.... haiz.. complicated human emotions.....
To my darling..
Our love might have commas but there will never be a full stop... you might have reservist to go to, I might have to be away from SG during the new year... we might not be able to meet up that often after you and I both start work.. but our love will still remain unchanged... and strong.. dun worry k?? Miss miss ya as always...
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
New Year Resolutions..
OK.. the new year 2006 is coming.. time to set some new year wishes... heheheheh.... usually half the times, it doesn't come true, second it doesn't work.. third I nv follow.. hahahaha.. but haiz let console myself.. at least I make the efforts to set some guidelines for myself in the new year. Hehe
1. Find a relaxing office admin job (5 working days from 8am to 5pm)
2. Get my driving license which includes passing my basic and advanced theory and my TP. As my frenz, you should be wishing me luck considering I am a idiot when it comes to cars!! Haha
3. Go for a holiday in Korea, Nepal, Bintan or Australia. Me and my dear planning to go Ausssie in mid 2006 becoz just in time to see my frenz's baby arriving into this complicated world.. hehehe
4. Drink & smoke lesser. This resolution goes for U too darling... No more merlioning and no more talking rubbish and no more crab walking catwalk...
5. Get a start on my Sport and Wellness Diploma program.
6. A new wardrode for me and darling too.
7. Get married??? A well planned wedding?? We will see... hahaha
8. More freedom.. thinking of moving out... hmmmmm
9. World Peace!!! No more terriost attacks, no more natural disasters... no more deaths by the thousands and millions...
10. More money for shopping.. haahahaha...
This list will keep on going longer as we count down to New Year.. hehehe
1. Find a relaxing office admin job (5 working days from 8am to 5pm)
2. Get my driving license which includes passing my basic and advanced theory and my TP. As my frenz, you should be wishing me luck considering I am a idiot when it comes to cars!! Haha
3. Go for a holiday in Korea, Nepal, Bintan or Australia. Me and my dear planning to go Ausssie in mid 2006 becoz just in time to see my frenz's baby arriving into this complicated world.. hehehe
4. Drink & smoke lesser. This resolution goes for U too darling... No more merlioning and no more talking rubbish and no more crab walking catwalk...
5. Get a start on my Sport and Wellness Diploma program.
6. A new wardrode for me and darling too.
7. Get married??? A well planned wedding?? We will see... hahaha
8. More freedom.. thinking of moving out... hmmmmm
9. World Peace!!! No more terriost attacks, no more natural disasters... no more deaths by the thousands and millions...
10. More money for shopping.. haahahaha...
This list will keep on going longer as we count down to New Year.. hehehe
Monday, December 26, 2005
Christmas...
I think I got short term memory problem.. wanna to come up and summarize my Christmas weekend.. but I kinda of forgetten most of it.. hahahaha.... terrible right??
23th December 2005
Went back to work... then off work around 6pm.. got to go home for dinner and be a good ger.. as usual darling came and fetch me off work.. hehehe
24th December 2005
In the mrning, stay at home for breakfast and lunch... then my darling came and fetch me... then we went to his house for a chit chat... while we confirm our next destination.... then around 6+ as we are not driving.. we meet up with Alex and ah Ger at WDL mrt control station... then go Yishun meet JX and Maggie... then go shopping for a while then we went to Chong Pang for dinner... hehehehe... then we went to Ginza!!!!! at around 8pm... then we started drinking.. order one Chivas Regal and one jug of beer... damn it.. dear drank quite a lot with Derick and guys... even before 12am... I taught Ger how to play bluff... then in the end she drank quite alot too.. worried abt her.. hahahaha... asked Alex to guard her just in case... then the merry christmas song start playing around 11.45pm.. then we already havoc in the Christmas mood le... hehehehe.. spray confetti and snow like crazy.... I kana sprayed like crazy.. luckily dear dear hugged me and protected me from everyone else.. in the end he himself become the snowman.. hahahaha... poor thing... then one of dear dear frenz got into a fight.. then he and JX became very busy trying to settle the things... then after that I got a bit dizzy becoz I drank Martell straight from the bottle.. so when dear finished settling the things.. although i am still conscious.. i dun dare to drink anymore martell liao.. scared i Merlion.. hehehe.. sad case.. hahahaha...then in the end me and darling we went back first... and we sat at the staircase chatting... and he walked home and i called him and we chatted all the way till 4+ in the mrning... nice heart to heart talk.. hehehe
25th December 2005
What did I do.. oh yah I think I slept quite late until 1+ in the afternoon.. woke up helped mum to cook noodles soup for lunch and curry chicken for dinner.. then after dinner.. me and dear went to Yishun dam..went for a walk around the dam... then we met up with Litque, Peiling, Ah Xiong and Jinlong and we had a chat about bikes, cars, insurance... everything under the sun.. hehehe
26th December 2005
Met up with Sui Hui and Xiang Ling for lunch at 1pm at Sakae Sushi.. chatted like nobody business... as usual.. 3 gers come together become a market.. hehehehe.. then we went shopping... window shopping.. then dear dear come and fetch me..... went looking for my basic theory book... but the queue super long so nv buy in the end.. then we went home... and watch TV.. wanna to meet with Ah Gong and Alex for dinner... but in the end when we realise that they wanna meet up too late liao.. hehehe.. we ta bao dinner and went home again.. another day over...
But after all final conclusion.. it is a nice Christmas.. hehehe.. tomolo got to go back to work after one week of long holiday... haiz.. sad case.. i dun wan...
23th December 2005
Went back to work... then off work around 6pm.. got to go home for dinner and be a good ger.. as usual darling came and fetch me off work.. hehehe
24th December 2005
In the mrning, stay at home for breakfast and lunch... then my darling came and fetch me... then we went to his house for a chit chat... while we confirm our next destination.... then around 6+ as we are not driving.. we meet up with Alex and ah Ger at WDL mrt control station... then go Yishun meet JX and Maggie... then go shopping for a while then we went to Chong Pang for dinner... hehehehe... then we went to Ginza!!!!! at around 8pm... then we started drinking.. order one Chivas Regal and one jug of beer... damn it.. dear drank quite a lot with Derick and guys... even before 12am... I taught Ger how to play bluff... then in the end she drank quite alot too.. worried abt her.. hahahaha... asked Alex to guard her just in case... then the merry christmas song start playing around 11.45pm.. then we already havoc in the Christmas mood le... hehehehe.. spray confetti and snow like crazy.... I kana sprayed like crazy.. luckily dear dear hugged me and protected me from everyone else.. in the end he himself become the snowman.. hahahaha... poor thing... then one of dear dear frenz got into a fight.. then he and JX became very busy trying to settle the things... then after that I got a bit dizzy becoz I drank Martell straight from the bottle.. so when dear finished settling the things.. although i am still conscious.. i dun dare to drink anymore martell liao.. scared i Merlion.. hehehe.. sad case.. hahahaha...then in the end me and darling we went back first... and we sat at the staircase chatting... and he walked home and i called him and we chatted all the way till 4+ in the mrning... nice heart to heart talk.. hehehe
25th December 2005
What did I do.. oh yah I think I slept quite late until 1+ in the afternoon.. woke up helped mum to cook noodles soup for lunch and curry chicken for dinner.. then after dinner.. me and dear went to Yishun dam..went for a walk around the dam... then we met up with Litque, Peiling, Ah Xiong and Jinlong and we had a chat about bikes, cars, insurance... everything under the sun.. hehehe
26th December 2005
Met up with Sui Hui and Xiang Ling for lunch at 1pm at Sakae Sushi.. chatted like nobody business... as usual.. 3 gers come together become a market.. hehehehe.. then we went shopping... window shopping.. then dear dear come and fetch me..... went looking for my basic theory book... but the queue super long so nv buy in the end.. then we went home... and watch TV.. wanna to meet with Ah Gong and Alex for dinner... but in the end when we realise that they wanna meet up too late liao.. hehehe.. we ta bao dinner and went home again.. another day over...
But after all final conclusion.. it is a nice Christmas.. hehehe.. tomolo got to go back to work after one week of long holiday... haiz.. sad case.. i dun wan...
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Continuation...
Superb angry... all after I opened my company's emails.... spoilt my beautiful day today and spoilt my beautiful week... I dread going to work... and I dragged my feets to work.. so sorry to say.. and I got my darling superb pissed off also to see me get so stressed, irritated, frustered and angry over work... frankly speaking I have no idea why I worked until so late everytime... I think I deserve my break.. I deserve my Sat and my Sun and I deserve my public holidays and since the company is too poor to give me OT pay.. I think I deserve to go back home at 6 considering I went into office around 8am in the morning... but no.. for the past 3 weeks before I went on leave.... I am working from 8am in the morning to 8pm - 10pm at night...that is like more than 12 hours at work.... I am superb tired after 3 weeks.. really... I should put on a strike or something for inhuman practices in the company since the mgrs get to relax and yet the executives slogged their way through hell considering that the mgrs get a higher pay.. and a nicer position... and since I already quitted I have no idea why i still get so much shit... now I know why the employees who is leaving the company all threw their stuffs and goes.. I thought of doing a proper handover in the beginning too but at the rate.. hack la.. I am counting down to 9 days..
Me and my dear just drove all the way from WDL to Changi Village just to eat Subway.. hehe.. we had a craving for it for ages.. finally managed to get our hands on it today.. hehehe... so happy and satisfied... oh oh did I say I brought a wallet for my dear today as a Christmas present.. hehe I am proud of that wallet.. took a long time to choose it... and i think it is really nice and suitable for my darling... hehehehe...
To my darling...
Love ya so much.... I am glad we had a nice heart to heart talk today... hehehe.. I am glad that you are willing to open up ur heart and share with me stuffs that I am curious to find out and know but nv really wanna to ask... not that I am trying to dig into your past or whether your past matters or not to me.. but I just wanna to know becoz I wanna to be able to play a part in it too... But I am glad that we can be so truthful to each other... without being afraid of saying anything that will hurt each other feelings.. it is so blissful to have you by my side, to be in your arms always.... to have you as my protective shelter from my surroundings... Love ya...
Me and my dear just drove all the way from WDL to Changi Village just to eat Subway.. hehe.. we had a craving for it for ages.. finally managed to get our hands on it today.. hehehe... so happy and satisfied... oh oh did I say I brought a wallet for my dear today as a Christmas present.. hehe I am proud of that wallet.. took a long time to choose it... and i think it is really nice and suitable for my darling... hehehehe...
To my darling...
Love ya so much.... I am glad we had a nice heart to heart talk today... hehehe.. I am glad that you are willing to open up ur heart and share with me stuffs that I am curious to find out and know but nv really wanna to ask... not that I am trying to dig into your past or whether your past matters or not to me.. but I just wanna to know becoz I wanna to be able to play a part in it too... But I am glad that we can be so truthful to each other... without being afraid of saying anything that will hurt each other feelings.. it is so blissful to have you by my side, to be in your arms always.... to have you as my protective shelter from my surroundings... Love ya...
At my darling's place...
Now at my darling's place... hehehe.. waiting for him to shower so we can go out for some nice dinner..i think we are driving out to get subway.. hehehe.. they better not tell us they are out of bread this time... so hungry...actually not hungry... just mouth itchy.. wanna eat alot of things.. as usual.. my fickle minded weakness start to show... steamboat... bbq... stingray... subway... nasi bryani..korean food... thai food...japanese ramen with extra chilli powder... curry fish head.. herbal chicken... pig trotter in vinger...chilli crabby!!! hahaha... hmm.. suddenly feel like eating anything that is hot... just went for tom yum soup and pineapple rice in the afternoon.. superb nice sia the tom yam soup.. hehehe...
On leave for coming to one week le.. hehehe.. enjoyable sia... rot and "nua" the entire week starting from Sat until now... 6 days of "nuaing" hahaha... everyday stick with my darling.. yesterday we went Orchard to look at the Christmas lights... and at the same time look for some Christmas presents for my collegues in the office... in the end we walked from 12noon to 10pm... legs so painful.. but still happy... hehehe... tell u a secret... this is the first time we went to Orchard Road after me and my darling be together for more than 2 mths.. can u believe it? We have been together so long but yet we never go Orchard Road before.. I have no idea what have we been doing for the past 2 months... hehehe... anyway yesterday my darling brought me an EYORE soft toy.. hehehehe... and today I brought him a wallet.. hahaha.. EYORE.. my favourite... hehehe.. then we brought 3 photo frames for my collegues.. I like them all... haiz.. can I also get them for myself... hehehe..
oOk Ok my darling is waiting for me to go out for dinner le ... i continue this update tonight ba... update U guys on what happen during my 6 days of "nuaing".. sad le.. got to go back to work tomolo... for one day.. then all the way "nua" until 26th.. hahahaha... yippess...
On leave for coming to one week le.. hehehe.. enjoyable sia... rot and "nua" the entire week starting from Sat until now... 6 days of "nuaing" hahaha... everyday stick with my darling.. yesterday we went Orchard to look at the Christmas lights... and at the same time look for some Christmas presents for my collegues in the office... in the end we walked from 12noon to 10pm... legs so painful.. but still happy... hehehe... tell u a secret... this is the first time we went to Orchard Road after me and my darling be together for more than 2 mths.. can u believe it? We have been together so long but yet we never go Orchard Road before.. I have no idea what have we been doing for the past 2 months... hehehe... anyway yesterday my darling brought me an EYORE soft toy.. hehehehe... and today I brought him a wallet.. hahaha.. EYORE.. my favourite... hehehe.. then we brought 3 photo frames for my collegues.. I like them all... haiz.. can I also get them for myself... hehehe..
oOk Ok my darling is waiting for me to go out for dinner le ... i continue this update tonight ba... update U guys on what happen during my 6 days of "nuaing".. sad le.. got to go back to work tomolo... for one day.. then all the way "nua" until 26th.. hahahaha... yippess...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Hungry...
HmMmMmM... I suddenly have a very strong craving for steamboat... brought me back to the times in OZ where in winter times we love to cook steamboat for dinner.. becoz first of all it is easy to cook.. just pour the stock into the rice cooker, switch it on and everyone help themselves. hahaha.. second.. when u are having something hot in the cold weather... wooah.... always love steamboat since then.. hehehehehehe... but too bad I am a person with super no life because even though today is a Sun.. I am stuck in office conducting examinations.... sad case man...
But anyway this is the last examination term that I will be running... went to take a walk around the campus just now because my office is super freezing cold... suddenly got hit by those sad feelings of not bearing to leave this company... I mean yah there are some fucked up people and fucked up rules and regulations in this shit company but I have also met up with some nice people like my collegues... and afterall I'll been working in this company for so long.. at the beginning I just wanna to get a job which I can bury myself in work 24/7 so as to numb myself from the surroundings.. now that I am leaving.... I think I am going to seriously miss this place and some of the nice collegues that I have met.... going to miss running around for examinations... going to miss doing invilgilation.. hahaha...
Haiz.... I am falling asleep... quite tired after a long day yesterday... woke up at 7am because I am meeting my dear for breakfast... then work in the afternoon due to an examination, then worked straight to 9pm at night after which my dear picked me up from work and we went to Ginza to meet up a couple of frenz.... shocked and surprised to see a frenz of me and Leon there too.. hahah.. I think everyone must be thinking why Christina have so much frenz in Ginza.. hahahaha... anyway I didn't drink much yesterday.. just enough to quench my thrist... one glass of Chivas Regal with green tea (My cup has more green tea than Chivas.. dunno who mix it for me..) hahaha.. but anyway it was nice... then one glass of beer.. that's it... hahahahahaa... end of the day Cindrella went home to report to her cruel step-mother... hahaha... ok.. back to work...
But anyway this is the last examination term that I will be running... went to take a walk around the campus just now because my office is super freezing cold... suddenly got hit by those sad feelings of not bearing to leave this company... I mean yah there are some fucked up people and fucked up rules and regulations in this shit company but I have also met up with some nice people like my collegues... and afterall I'll been working in this company for so long.. at the beginning I just wanna to get a job which I can bury myself in work 24/7 so as to numb myself from the surroundings.. now that I am leaving.... I think I am going to seriously miss this place and some of the nice collegues that I have met.... going to miss running around for examinations... going to miss doing invilgilation.. hahaha...
Haiz.... I am falling asleep... quite tired after a long day yesterday... woke up at 7am because I am meeting my dear for breakfast... then work in the afternoon due to an examination, then worked straight to 9pm at night after which my dear picked me up from work and we went to Ginza to meet up a couple of frenz.... shocked and surprised to see a frenz of me and Leon there too.. hahah.. I think everyone must be thinking why Christina have so much frenz in Ginza.. hahahaha... anyway I didn't drink much yesterday.. just enough to quench my thrist... one glass of Chivas Regal with green tea (My cup has more green tea than Chivas.. dunno who mix it for me..) hahaha.. but anyway it was nice... then one glass of beer.. that's it... hahahahahaa... end of the day Cindrella went home to report to her cruel step-mother... hahaha... ok.. back to work...
Friday, December 09, 2005
scary thoughts...
Isn't it scary when one day U can say that U love this person forever and the next day U realise U no longer love him as much as U thought u do..
Isn't it scary when one day U realise that U dun really wanna to spend the rest of ur life with the guy U always thought U wanted to spend the rest of ur life with ?
Isn't it scary when one day U realise U can live on pretty fine alone without the someone U thought U can nv live without?
Isn't it scary when U realise that U have nothing to speak to the someone who U used to spend hours chatting on the phone with?
Isn't it scary if U realise one day that the person who is supposed to understand U the most actually do not even understand U at all..?
Today I thought back about my past relationships.. does anyone realise that big impact and phobia that I have with regards to BGR relationships after all that have happen?? I dun wish to lie to myself that I do not have any fears with regards to a BGR relationship... after all a 6 yrs relationship can vanish into thin air... what else cannot happen?? Until now I am still asking myself the question to what happen and when did that happen and why did that happen.. I wanted so much to find out the root of the problem so I can learn from it and not make the same mistake again.. like what my dear say.. we need to learn from experience so as to make sure that we dun repeat the same mistake again.. if not the same cycle will happen again and again.. that is what I am so scared of right now... suddenly words dun seem to make any more sense.. the word I LOVE U dun contain any particular meaning anymore... I have lost my trust... I have once again put up my defences to guard against my feelings... in order not to get hurt...
I have always been truthful to myself even though most of the times my thoughts are rather negatve,.. but hey that is me... I think about the good and the bad... and I concentrate more on the negative side of things becoz I rather get myself prepared for the worst consequences... and not get a shock when it really happen.. that is my way of getting myself prepared for the worst.. I convince myself that it might really happen... if it doesn't all the good for me.. if it really happen.. well at least I anticipate the worst.. I alays strongly believe in communication and honesty... in a relationship both parties should be able to communicate their true feelings and thoughts to one another.. be it good or bad, positive or negative... therefore I am able to communicate my feelings and thoughts so well.. I dare to express myself... becoz I am being true... I dun hide anything becoz I dun see any point of doing so... in the first place I should't be writing a blog then... Yes sometimes being humans we do think too much... and when you say it out.. it might lead to unnecessary confusion and thoughts..and thoughts snowball.. it might hurt the relationship even... but if U are not going to say it out...then the relationship dun even have the foundation of honesty.. and comunication... how long can the relationship last when the foundations are not even being laid properly from the beginning.
I am a simple gal who just want simple things in life.. I dun need condos, cars and credit cards.. all I want is just a nice family, a proper family life, a good career, having the chance to go travel every year... simple things in life.. no luxury expected... although once in the while we do like to pamper ourselves... with spas, massages etc..
Isn't it scary when one day U realise that U dun really wanna to spend the rest of ur life with the guy U always thought U wanted to spend the rest of ur life with ?
Isn't it scary when one day U realise U can live on pretty fine alone without the someone U thought U can nv live without?
Isn't it scary when U realise that U have nothing to speak to the someone who U used to spend hours chatting on the phone with?
Isn't it scary if U realise one day that the person who is supposed to understand U the most actually do not even understand U at all..?
Today I thought back about my past relationships.. does anyone realise that big impact and phobia that I have with regards to BGR relationships after all that have happen?? I dun wish to lie to myself that I do not have any fears with regards to a BGR relationship... after all a 6 yrs relationship can vanish into thin air... what else cannot happen?? Until now I am still asking myself the question to what happen and when did that happen and why did that happen.. I wanted so much to find out the root of the problem so I can learn from it and not make the same mistake again.. like what my dear say.. we need to learn from experience so as to make sure that we dun repeat the same mistake again.. if not the same cycle will happen again and again.. that is what I am so scared of right now... suddenly words dun seem to make any more sense.. the word I LOVE U dun contain any particular meaning anymore... I have lost my trust... I have once again put up my defences to guard against my feelings... in order not to get hurt...
I have always been truthful to myself even though most of the times my thoughts are rather negatve,.. but hey that is me... I think about the good and the bad... and I concentrate more on the negative side of things becoz I rather get myself prepared for the worst consequences... and not get a shock when it really happen.. that is my way of getting myself prepared for the worst.. I convince myself that it might really happen... if it doesn't all the good for me.. if it really happen.. well at least I anticipate the worst.. I alays strongly believe in communication and honesty... in a relationship both parties should be able to communicate their true feelings and thoughts to one another.. be it good or bad, positive or negative... therefore I am able to communicate my feelings and thoughts so well.. I dare to express myself... becoz I am being true... I dun hide anything becoz I dun see any point of doing so... in the first place I should't be writing a blog then... Yes sometimes being humans we do think too much... and when you say it out.. it might lead to unnecessary confusion and thoughts..and thoughts snowball.. it might hurt the relationship even... but if U are not going to say it out...then the relationship dun even have the foundation of honesty.. and comunication... how long can the relationship last when the foundations are not even being laid properly from the beginning.
I am a simple gal who just want simple things in life.. I dun need condos, cars and credit cards.. all I want is just a nice family, a proper family life, a good career, having the chance to go travel every year... simple things in life.. no luxury expected... although once in the while we do like to pamper ourselves... with spas, massages etc..
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
25 days to Christmas
Today is the 6th December. roughly about 25 days to count down to year 2006. Eventful year for me I suppose... make a couple of big and shocking changes in 2005... I changed a job and I changed a bf...
But with the beginning of year 2006, I will start off with another change in job.. seriously going to miss my collegues but I just can't stand that school anymore.. the students get on my nerves, the school gives me bad nightmares and sleepless nights and it manage to worsen my already seriously bad temper... I feel so apologetic to my collegues (I think they might be glad that I am leaving that place in fact because they has less one grumpy and angry person to spoil every single one of their day).. really I feel damn apologetic to my collegues whenever I scream and bark at them for something that is not really their fault.. haiz.. what the hell has make me become such a bad person like this.... I noe it is pathetic wrong... I know I am wrong to do so... but haiz sometimes when u haven't had enough sleep and you haven't got a chance to eat ur breakfast, lunch and dinner, and you are working from morning until night, you just reach your limitations that you erupt like a super volcano.. uncontrollable, unpreventable.. hahaha... really.... I hope leaving that place do me some good...
I think it is partly due to my perfectionist attitude... too much of it makes a person crazy.. i went into that school thinking that I can try and reeduce the mistakes and error rate by reducing my own mistakes.. I thought as long as I reduce the mistakes significantly on my side, things will turn better... but I guess I am just seriously wrong.. even though you try very hard not to crop up things, ppl will still do you a favor of cropping up things for you... and in the end you just think that it is your responsibility to solve the problems and correct the mistakes because you wanted so much to reduce the error rates on your side and in the end you end up taking whatever shit that come along your way... I take it upon myself for some of the mistakes committed even though it is not entirely my fault in the first place. YOu start to go like "oh maybe if I check earlier before, this mistake could have been avoided". I wanted so much for things to go perfectly but apparently that is seldom the case... sad case.... in fact nothing in that school does... as much as I tried not too....
I met a frenz of mine from USQ Toowoomba Australia.. surprised to hear him say that he will be coming into my school to work.. shld have call me beforehand and I would have seriously advise him against that decision of signing upon that appointment letter... what to do.. and OMG.. he also changed his gf... bye to his gf for 8 yrs... I am shocked.. throughly shocked.. hahaha... but things comes and go.. what is yours will be your eventually.. what is not will nv be... so let fate and destiny control my life....
But I simply can't wait to leave that pathetic school.. counting down from today... the day I leave... i might become the happiest woman on earth when you know all the burdens and responsibilities have been lifted off your shoulders.. i am just someone who dunno how to play tai ji and act toopidz...
But with the beginning of year 2006, I will start off with another change in job.. seriously going to miss my collegues but I just can't stand that school anymore.. the students get on my nerves, the school gives me bad nightmares and sleepless nights and it manage to worsen my already seriously bad temper... I feel so apologetic to my collegues (I think they might be glad that I am leaving that place in fact because they has less one grumpy and angry person to spoil every single one of their day).. really I feel damn apologetic to my collegues whenever I scream and bark at them for something that is not really their fault.. haiz.. what the hell has make me become such a bad person like this.... I noe it is pathetic wrong... I know I am wrong to do so... but haiz sometimes when u haven't had enough sleep and you haven't got a chance to eat ur breakfast, lunch and dinner, and you are working from morning until night, you just reach your limitations that you erupt like a super volcano.. uncontrollable, unpreventable.. hahaha... really.... I hope leaving that place do me some good...
I think it is partly due to my perfectionist attitude... too much of it makes a person crazy.. i went into that school thinking that I can try and reeduce the mistakes and error rate by reducing my own mistakes.. I thought as long as I reduce the mistakes significantly on my side, things will turn better... but I guess I am just seriously wrong.. even though you try very hard not to crop up things, ppl will still do you a favor of cropping up things for you... and in the end you just think that it is your responsibility to solve the problems and correct the mistakes because you wanted so much to reduce the error rates on your side and in the end you end up taking whatever shit that come along your way... I take it upon myself for some of the mistakes committed even though it is not entirely my fault in the first place. YOu start to go like "oh maybe if I check earlier before, this mistake could have been avoided". I wanted so much for things to go perfectly but apparently that is seldom the case... sad case.... in fact nothing in that school does... as much as I tried not too....
I met a frenz of mine from USQ Toowoomba Australia.. surprised to hear him say that he will be coming into my school to work.. shld have call me beforehand and I would have seriously advise him against that decision of signing upon that appointment letter... what to do.. and OMG.. he also changed his gf... bye to his gf for 8 yrs... I am shocked.. throughly shocked.. hahaha... but things comes and go.. what is yours will be your eventually.. what is not will nv be... so let fate and destiny control my life....
But I simply can't wait to leave that pathetic school.. counting down from today... the day I leave... i might become the happiest woman on earth when you know all the burdens and responsibilities have been lifted off your shoulders.. i am just someone who dunno how to play tai ji and act toopidz...
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Liking my blog now
Hehe..just change the concept of my blog, the skin and the song... I like my blog now... even though the pic can be made a little bit bigger... but anyway it is fine this way... hehehe.. and I really like the song... hahaha... the precious one "Journey" is not too bad too.. but this song is nice too.. fickle minded.. like every single thing.. hahaha... I stole this song from my darling's blog.. hahahah.. copycat... hehehe
Anyway it is raining now... justsuddenly thought of coming up and saying how sweet I feel now.. hehehehe... I know I am the envy of many frenz around me.. hahaha... sorrie guys to make u all so jealous always... but I am a ger sweetly in love... pampered and loved by my precious darling... I think we treasure each other alot...
Anyway it is raining now... justsuddenly thought of coming up and saying how sweet I feel now.. hehehehe... I know I am the envy of many frenz around me.. hahaha... sorrie guys to make u all so jealous always... but I am a ger sweetly in love... pampered and loved by my precious darling... I think we treasure each other alot...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Feeling Lonely...
Just saw my dear sms that he will be going down to Blk 19 to drink with Ah Gong and Alex... then gave him a call and he is already at the coffeeshop drinking... not sad that he is drinking though although in fact being down with a terrible stomachache and on medication, he shouldn't drink at all... just suddenly felt that pinch of loneliness suddenly... I have no idea why... I mean ever since we started this relationship other than those days when I am in Korea, we haven't been really apart from one another... in fact we met up everyday.. even though it might be for a short period of time when he just come and fetch me home from work... but still we spend everyday together... actually I am not supposed to be meeting him today but in the end he still come and fetch me off work.. But I just felt sad that I cannot accompany him to Blk 19 to drink... maybe not drink but just being besides him is enough... then I cannot talk to him also.. time spent with him is always not enough.. so bad until we dun even dare to let ourselves fall asleep at night scaring that the night will just flew past and mrning will come within the next min...
I think I have become too dependant on him in my life... which is good.. because I nv wanna to be that independant anyway.. and my darling said the more dependant I am on him the better... hahaha.. good enough... we go out together always.. including gatherings with frenz... everything.. nothing is missed without each other by the side other than when I go out with my family and at work... hahaha.. can't help it really... when we are not together I missed all the moments when we are together... sad case....
A quick update for my birthday.. hehehe...
on the 19th me and dear we went to Wenliang's wedding at Sun Plaza.. so sweet to see him and Tammy together married as a couple.. hehe.. too bad I have to attend my school graduation.. if not I would have joined the guys in the morning session.. hahha.. anyway I rushed down in a cab after my graduation ceremony and luckily I managed to reach there in time before the dinner starts... met up with JX, Ah Xiong, Wenlin, Maggie, Peiling, Litque, Ah B, LiYan, YingYao, Jinlong, Weijie.. oh my god the list is nv ending becoz we have 3 full tables to our entire gang.. hahaha... then the next thing U know Wenlin and Junxian start drinking with Derrick's table... wah.. Martell, Bacardi 151... (70+% alcohol level for your info... do U know how serious that bottle of hard liquer can be.. ppl are crazy I tell you.. they drink it nik somemore... crazy fellows..).. me and my dear we sat quietly by the side.. pretending to be in our own world hoping that noone will ask us to drink.. hahaha... I pretended to be super busy talking to Maggie... which in fact I am busy talking to Maggie really.. ehhe Dear pretended to be busy accompanying me, taking photos even though he is not the appointed main photographer, smoking and going out to take additional Martell from the car and going to the toilet.. hahaha.. then the night went past and Wenlin starts to get a bit rowdy... Junxian and Chris face become super red.... but they insist they are not drunk.. after drinking like one full glass of Martell and Baracardi 151 nik.. no ice at all.. anyway I shall give both of them the benefit of the doubt.. hahaha... then later when the wedding is over, dear is the driver for the wedding car and he very much wanted to drive me to WenLiang house together in the Mercedes.. hahaha.. but too bad there wasn't any chances and he got quite a bit disappointed and pissed abt it.. hahaha.. relax dear.. I am alright.. in the end all thanks to Litque who drove me to Wenliang house to meet up with my dear.. along the way me, Peiling and Liyan was talking non stop.. and dear told me Ah B commented the next day that 3 of us together become the United Nations.. hahaha... talk non stop... hahaha.. anyway after that Litque dropped me and dear off at his blk and we went back home... then his auntie dragged me out of bed and the room to sit in the living room to chit chat and watched a toopidz show which make no logic on TV.. hahaha... then we slept.. yah I was too tired.. I remember I forced himm to sang me a birthday song.. hahaha.. But i did mention that I am very fortunate... hehe
then the next mrning came.. we were still sticking to one another when I am supposed to be making my way home becoz mum wanna to go to IMM.. in the end went home, shower, went out to IMM for dinner then came back home.. that was it.. that is my birthday for this year.. i told my dear I dun need any birthday present but yet he went back to get a bear for me.. hehe.. so sweet of him.. then I went back office the next day and there was tons of presents on my office table.. a bouquet of flowers, sweets, a bottle of wishing star.. thanks to my collegues eh... Sharifah I know you will be reading this sometimes.. hahaa
I think I have become too dependant on him in my life... which is good.. because I nv wanna to be that independant anyway.. and my darling said the more dependant I am on him the better... hahaha.. good enough... we go out together always.. including gatherings with frenz... everything.. nothing is missed without each other by the side other than when I go out with my family and at work... hahaha.. can't help it really... when we are not together I missed all the moments when we are together... sad case....
A quick update for my birthday.. hehehe...
on the 19th me and dear we went to Wenliang's wedding at Sun Plaza.. so sweet to see him and Tammy together married as a couple.. hehe.. too bad I have to attend my school graduation.. if not I would have joined the guys in the morning session.. hahha.. anyway I rushed down in a cab after my graduation ceremony and luckily I managed to reach there in time before the dinner starts... met up with JX, Ah Xiong, Wenlin, Maggie, Peiling, Litque, Ah B, LiYan, YingYao, Jinlong, Weijie.. oh my god the list is nv ending becoz we have 3 full tables to our entire gang.. hahaha... then the next thing U know Wenlin and Junxian start drinking with Derrick's table... wah.. Martell, Bacardi 151... (70+% alcohol level for your info... do U know how serious that bottle of hard liquer can be.. ppl are crazy I tell you.. they drink it nik somemore... crazy fellows..).. me and my dear we sat quietly by the side.. pretending to be in our own world hoping that noone will ask us to drink.. hahaha... I pretended to be super busy talking to Maggie... which in fact I am busy talking to Maggie really.. ehhe Dear pretended to be busy accompanying me, taking photos even though he is not the appointed main photographer, smoking and going out to take additional Martell from the car and going to the toilet.. hahaha.. then the night went past and Wenlin starts to get a bit rowdy... Junxian and Chris face become super red.... but they insist they are not drunk.. after drinking like one full glass of Martell and Baracardi 151 nik.. no ice at all.. anyway I shall give both of them the benefit of the doubt.. hahaha... then later when the wedding is over, dear is the driver for the wedding car and he very much wanted to drive me to WenLiang house together in the Mercedes.. hahaha.. but too bad there wasn't any chances and he got quite a bit disappointed and pissed abt it.. hahaha.. relax dear.. I am alright.. in the end all thanks to Litque who drove me to Wenliang house to meet up with my dear.. along the way me, Peiling and Liyan was talking non stop.. and dear told me Ah B commented the next day that 3 of us together become the United Nations.. hahaha... talk non stop... hahaha.. anyway after that Litque dropped me and dear off at his blk and we went back home... then his auntie dragged me out of bed and the room to sit in the living room to chit chat and watched a toopidz show which make no logic on TV.. hahaha... then we slept.. yah I was too tired.. I remember I forced himm to sang me a birthday song.. hahaha.. But i did mention that I am very fortunate... hehe
then the next mrning came.. we were still sticking to one another when I am supposed to be making my way home becoz mum wanna to go to IMM.. in the end went home, shower, went out to IMM for dinner then came back home.. that was it.. that is my birthday for this year.. i told my dear I dun need any birthday present but yet he went back to get a bear for me.. hehe.. so sweet of him.. then I went back office the next day and there was tons of presents on my office table.. a bouquet of flowers, sweets, a bottle of wishing star.. thanks to my collegues eh... Sharifah I know you will be reading this sometimes.. hahaa
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Blew it baby.
Ok I just blew it baby... just blew everything........ blew the perfect relationship by making things complicated, by saying the wrong things, by doing the wrong things... am I too late for regrets... I bet so.... but I so regretted telling my dear stuffs that I shouldn't have.. maybe by keeping to myself things will forever remain perfect in our relationship... there wun be any scars and there wun be any complications........I know you simply hate hearing his name... and anything that got to do with him and my past.. but but I wanna to be truthful.... I dun wan to hide anything from my dear....... I promise him I will tell him everything.... I promise him we will work things out together...... I promise him I will be truthful.... but maybe I shouldn't have say it for the sake of the relationship and for the sake of my dear's feelings......... why didn't I learn my mistakes from the past.... I simply hate myself to this point of time...
Maybe we just care too much about each other... like what my dear say maybe we are too serious about each other....
To my dear...
Dear I love ya... U know it deep within your heart.... nothing will affect my true love for you.... nothing at all.... so you dun have to think or worry too much really.... I know there will be a scar in your heart with regards to what we spoke about yesterday but that is not the problem... nothing is a problem as long as me and you we are willing to work things out... I am so sorry I spoilt the perfect relationship in your mind and make things complicated...I know things have been going sweetly until now....until I brought up the issues... I didn't meant to.. please forgive me for my ignorance and recklessness....
Maybe we just care too much about each other... like what my dear say maybe we are too serious about each other....
To my dear...
Dear I love ya... U know it deep within your heart.... nothing will affect my true love for you.... nothing at all.... so you dun have to think or worry too much really.... I know there will be a scar in your heart with regards to what we spoke about yesterday but that is not the problem... nothing is a problem as long as me and you we are willing to work things out... I am so sorry I spoilt the perfect relationship in your mind and make things complicated...I know things have been going sweetly until now....until I brought up the issues... I didn't meant to.. please forgive me for my ignorance and recklessness....
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Happenings..
Ok I haven't update my blog for a very long time... short summary then I am going to sleep le.. so late.. tomolo still got meeting cum presentation plus a fire drill.... in which I have to evacuate the entire building.. hahaha.. ask them to fook off liao... I shall be the first to evacuate myself.. hahahaha.... humans are selfish...
Been rather busy recently.. been through some ups and downs over the week due to work... as usual... being the responsible me.. usually is the work till u die type in which ppl always like to exploit and bully...
Took one day leave on Wed 9th November becoz it is my darling's birthday.. hehehe... spent half of the day lazing around in bed... bcoz we are both very tired.. and we can't just get enough of cuddling and hugging each other.. hahhahaha... but the remaining half of the day was spoilt after receiving a call from work becoz I can't get quite get my mind off work after that.. then went to GINZA with JX, Leon, Shi An and dear dear to get some drinks.. and meet some ladies Maggie & Ash.. hehehehe... things didn't went really well there as usual.. and i was practically waiting for my HP to ring the entire night... which it didn't but I got into a big fight with my mum becoz Cindrella didn't manage to reach home before 12 midnight.. damn it...
Then over the last weekend, dear dear had a chalet at Downtown East to celebrate his birthday.. and he got drunk... and he spoke tons of rubbish... hahahaha... first time I see him drunk... although I have seen Leon and Shi An drunk too many times.. seeing my dear drunk was a totally different case.. in the end.. he went to sleep without his own knowledge abt 10+ and I stayed up until 5am in the morning drinking with his frenz... WenLIn, Ah Xiong, Jinlong and JX.. Huiqi and Ying Yao + Chris dropped by later in the night.. very late in fact when everyone has already pi in bed.. hahaha.. Jim Bean, Volka, Jack Daniel, Beer... woo hoo.. hahaha it is back to the OZ days.. hahaha... but we all had fun.. hehehe... too bad Leon didn't manage to come... the next day his uncle and whole family came down to BBQ then i got to make my way home.. sianz...
Ok till here... I think I got to go back and chit chat + entertain 3 gay guys...hahaha... take care...
Been rather busy recently.. been through some ups and downs over the week due to work... as usual... being the responsible me.. usually is the work till u die type in which ppl always like to exploit and bully...
Took one day leave on Wed 9th November becoz it is my darling's birthday.. hehehe... spent half of the day lazing around in bed... bcoz we are both very tired.. and we can't just get enough of cuddling and hugging each other.. hahhahaha... but the remaining half of the day was spoilt after receiving a call from work becoz I can't get quite get my mind off work after that.. then went to GINZA with JX, Leon, Shi An and dear dear to get some drinks.. and meet some ladies Maggie & Ash.. hehehehe... things didn't went really well there as usual.. and i was practically waiting for my HP to ring the entire night... which it didn't but I got into a big fight with my mum becoz Cindrella didn't manage to reach home before 12 midnight.. damn it...
Then over the last weekend, dear dear had a chalet at Downtown East to celebrate his birthday.. and he got drunk... and he spoke tons of rubbish... hahahaha... first time I see him drunk... although I have seen Leon and Shi An drunk too many times.. seeing my dear drunk was a totally different case.. in the end.. he went to sleep without his own knowledge abt 10+ and I stayed up until 5am in the morning drinking with his frenz... WenLIn, Ah Xiong, Jinlong and JX.. Huiqi and Ying Yao + Chris dropped by later in the night.. very late in fact when everyone has already pi in bed.. hahaha.. Jim Bean, Volka, Jack Daniel, Beer... woo hoo.. hahaha it is back to the OZ days.. hahaha... but we all had fun.. hehehe... too bad Leon didn't manage to come... the next day his uncle and whole family came down to BBQ then i got to make my way home.. sianz...
Ok till here... I think I got to go back and chit chat + entertain 3 gay guys...hahaha... take care...
Friday, November 04, 2005
Feelings...
Sometimes feelings are just hard to control....
My mum thinks I fall too easily in love.... any guys who treat me well enough.. I will fall in love with him... I have to agree.. it is way too easy to fall in love with someone.. but there might be a possibility that U will get hurt in the end when U realise that that love is just a one sided viewpoint in a two sided relationship.. like what people always say.. it is hurtful to fall in love with someone who dun love you.... it is of course nice to find someone who love you, who is willing to give up everything for you... but however U wun be able to appreciate and accept that love.. becoz if you have no feelings for that person... you have no chemistry... it will just be a gift if both of U goes into a relationship with one party loving another with all his/her heart but one party simply meaning thank you for loving me.... Eternal love comes from true love... both parties love each other on the same level... they share the same thoughts, same sentiments, same ideals, same goals.. as one entity.. not two seperate entities...
Everyone must be thinking "wah Christina just fall out of love, out of a long term relationship which she once thought as eternal love and now she is happily in love again"... but like I just said... feelings sometimes are just hard to say and hard to control... I know I haven't know my dear for a very long time... we are not one of those frenz like leon in which we know each other for like 8 yrs and then we get together... surprise to say we barely know each other for like a week... hahahaha... but from the very first time we met up and talked heart to heart at the jetty.. we both know we are the one for each other... we both know the feelings between us will lead to something different in the future... we both know there is something special between us... surely not looks attraction becoz we both dun loook very handsome and pretty anyway... but it is just that different feeling..... hard to describe and hard to say... but we fell hopelessly in love... identifying each other to be the one whom we wan to share a future with... and you know sometimes we dun even have to talk but I know he know we both know we share the same thoughts, the same feelings... it is like our hearts and our minds seems to be as one... I dun have to repeat many times that I love him to tell him how much I truly love him from the bottom of my heart.. I know he know I really love him alot... that love dun have to be expressed to be make known... becoz that strong love... I have no idea how to put it into words... and I dun need him to repeat himself umpteen times a day how much he love me.. becoz I also know he truly love me too... every single min of the day I know he know we truly missed each other and we are both truly looking forward to the time we see and meet each other.... I know he know we both wan to spend every single min of the day with each other... sometimes i think it is just so blissful to have him by my side.. and he thinks the same way too... to have him to share every single min of my life...
In the past I have no idea what my other party is thinking... I have to guess I have to ask I have to probe... I have unconfirmed doubts.... but it is just so different with him.... even our uncertainty about each other are the same... we are both unsure if this is just one of God tricks on us and will our relationship ever last... that feeling will always exist in our relationship but hey that exists in every relationship.... even after couples get married.... we dun have to make our feelings known to each other becoz we know we both share the same thoughts and we both know each other will understand what we are truly thinking... we are as one....
Therefore I say yah I know i fall too easily in love but when the feeling is there.. sometimes chances are for you to take before it become an opportunity.. before it become reality... if you dun catch the chance when it is there for you.. you nv know what you are missing for life... I am glad he come into my life and I am just glad I follow my feelings and make it into reality... even though it might seem a bit reckless... even though I might get myself hurt and upset in the end... at least I took my bet and wun ever regret it in the future...
My mum thinks I fall too easily in love.... any guys who treat me well enough.. I will fall in love with him... I have to agree.. it is way too easy to fall in love with someone.. but there might be a possibility that U will get hurt in the end when U realise that that love is just a one sided viewpoint in a two sided relationship.. like what people always say.. it is hurtful to fall in love with someone who dun love you.... it is of course nice to find someone who love you, who is willing to give up everything for you... but however U wun be able to appreciate and accept that love.. becoz if you have no feelings for that person... you have no chemistry... it will just be a gift if both of U goes into a relationship with one party loving another with all his/her heart but one party simply meaning thank you for loving me.... Eternal love comes from true love... both parties love each other on the same level... they share the same thoughts, same sentiments, same ideals, same goals.. as one entity.. not two seperate entities...
Everyone must be thinking "wah Christina just fall out of love, out of a long term relationship which she once thought as eternal love and now she is happily in love again"... but like I just said... feelings sometimes are just hard to say and hard to control... I know I haven't know my dear for a very long time... we are not one of those frenz like leon in which we know each other for like 8 yrs and then we get together... surprise to say we barely know each other for like a week... hahahaha... but from the very first time we met up and talked heart to heart at the jetty.. we both know we are the one for each other... we both know the feelings between us will lead to something different in the future... we both know there is something special between us... surely not looks attraction becoz we both dun loook very handsome and pretty anyway... but it is just that different feeling..... hard to describe and hard to say... but we fell hopelessly in love... identifying each other to be the one whom we wan to share a future with... and you know sometimes we dun even have to talk but I know he know we both know we share the same thoughts, the same feelings... it is like our hearts and our minds seems to be as one... I dun have to repeat many times that I love him to tell him how much I truly love him from the bottom of my heart.. I know he know I really love him alot... that love dun have to be expressed to be make known... becoz that strong love... I have no idea how to put it into words... and I dun need him to repeat himself umpteen times a day how much he love me.. becoz I also know he truly love me too... every single min of the day I know he know we truly missed each other and we are both truly looking forward to the time we see and meet each other.... I know he know we both wan to spend every single min of the day with each other... sometimes i think it is just so blissful to have him by my side.. and he thinks the same way too... to have him to share every single min of my life...
In the past I have no idea what my other party is thinking... I have to guess I have to ask I have to probe... I have unconfirmed doubts.... but it is just so different with him.... even our uncertainty about each other are the same... we are both unsure if this is just one of God tricks on us and will our relationship ever last... that feeling will always exist in our relationship but hey that exists in every relationship.... even after couples get married.... we dun have to make our feelings known to each other becoz we know we both share the same thoughts and we both know each other will understand what we are truly thinking... we are as one....
Therefore I say yah I know i fall too easily in love but when the feeling is there.. sometimes chances are for you to take before it become an opportunity.. before it become reality... if you dun catch the chance when it is there for you.. you nv know what you are missing for life... I am glad he come into my life and I am just glad I follow my feelings and make it into reality... even though it might seem a bit reckless... even though I might get myself hurt and upset in the end... at least I took my bet and wun ever regret it in the future...
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