Sometimes feelings are just hard to control....
My mum thinks I fall too easily in love.... any guys who treat me well enough.. I will fall in love with him... I have to agree.. it is way too easy to fall in love with someone.. but there might be a possibility that U will get hurt in the end when U realise that that love is just a one sided viewpoint in a two sided relationship.. like what people always say.. it is hurtful to fall in love with someone who dun love you.... it is of course nice to find someone who love you, who is willing to give up everything for you... but however U wun be able to appreciate and accept that love.. becoz if you have no feelings for that person... you have no chemistry... it will just be a gift if both of U goes into a relationship with one party loving another with all his/her heart but one party simply meaning thank you for loving me.... Eternal love comes from true love... both parties love each other on the same level... they share the same thoughts, same sentiments, same ideals, same goals.. as one entity.. not two seperate entities...
Everyone must be thinking "wah Christina just fall out of love, out of a long term relationship which she once thought as eternal love and now she is happily in love again"... but like I just said... feelings sometimes are just hard to say and hard to control... I know I haven't know my dear for a very long time... we are not one of those frenz like leon in which we know each other for like 8 yrs and then we get together... surprise to say we barely know each other for like a week... hahahaha... but from the very first time we met up and talked heart to heart at the jetty.. we both know we are the one for each other... we both know the feelings between us will lead to something different in the future... we both know there is something special between us... surely not looks attraction becoz we both dun loook very handsome and pretty anyway... but it is just that different feeling..... hard to describe and hard to say... but we fell hopelessly in love... identifying each other to be the one whom we wan to share a future with... and you know sometimes we dun even have to talk but I know he know we both know we share the same thoughts, the same feelings... it is like our hearts and our minds seems to be as one... I dun have to repeat many times that I love him to tell him how much I truly love him from the bottom of my heart.. I know he know I really love him alot... that love dun have to be expressed to be make known... becoz that strong love... I have no idea how to put it into words... and I dun need him to repeat himself umpteen times a day how much he love me.. becoz I also know he truly love me too... every single min of the day I know he know we truly missed each other and we are both truly looking forward to the time we see and meet each other.... I know he know we both wan to spend every single min of the day with each other... sometimes i think it is just so blissful to have him by my side.. and he thinks the same way too... to have him to share every single min of my life...
In the past I have no idea what my other party is thinking... I have to guess I have to ask I have to probe... I have unconfirmed doubts.... but it is just so different with him.... even our uncertainty about each other are the same... we are both unsure if this is just one of God tricks on us and will our relationship ever last... that feeling will always exist in our relationship but hey that exists in every relationship.... even after couples get married.... we dun have to make our feelings known to each other becoz we know we both share the same thoughts and we both know each other will understand what we are truly thinking... we are as one....
Therefore I say yah I know i fall too easily in love but when the feeling is there.. sometimes chances are for you to take before it become an opportunity.. before it become reality... if you dun catch the chance when it is there for you.. you nv know what you are missing for life... I am glad he come into my life and I am just glad I follow my feelings and make it into reality... even though it might seem a bit reckless... even though I might get myself hurt and upset in the end... at least I took my bet and wun ever regret it in the future...
