Yah.. I need some friendship... some nice and strong companionship... someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on when I am upset, disappointed and depressed.. someone to let me lean on when I am tired, someone to move/push me along when I dun feel like using too much strength to walk or stand... someone for me to chat to when I need to talk... someone to bring me out at night when I feel like going to the beach to blow wind... or go driving around Singapore looking at lightbulbs... someone who knows my ups and downs... who understand how stressful my work is... someone who can give me solutions to my problems or even help me to solve them.... someone to pamper me with soft toys and gifts when I need some pampering.... someone to help me pick up my life again.... and fix it back together... someone who can help me to get rid of all my troubles and bad luck... someone to hug me when I need some tight hugging and loving... to tell me that everything is alright.... someone who can make me feel comfortable and smile... someone to hold me in the arms when I am tired and wanna fall asleep....
Am I asking too much or there is no such dinos in this world.....
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
Sleepless Night
I just finished my payroll... supposed to go to slp becoz I am real tired but I can't... there is too much things on my mind..... dun talk abt work problems becoz it will always be there.... can nv solve it... so why think about it... although it is also one of the things on my mind... but I am trying hard to push it behind... my head is hurting.... having a serious headache...
I just realise how lonely I have always been... I have a lot of frenz.. but when I am down.. there isn;t any besides me to hear my stories.. I wanna to go to the beachside.. to have the wind blowing on my face... and let it blow my troubles away... wanna to go think things over... although there isn't much things that I wanna to think abt... be it I am trying to avoid the real world and facts ba... but the sad thing is.. I scrolled thru the entire hp contact list and there isn't anyone for me to call.. some with gfs... some busy.. some MIA, some aint that close to me... and I know some wun bother to come out so late at night.... do I still have my so called best frenz or buddies? So sad and lonely... I dunno whether I have been mixing with the wrong crowd from the very beginning or is it that from a very long time ago... it is only a one sided point of view with regards to my best frenz and buddies... or is it that I have lost them long ago... for so long have I been living in my own world... surrounded with nothing but thin air... ? Why dun I have anyone to call?? Why dun I have anyone to go out with?? becoz of work? becoz of my schedule...?? I haven't been out for a very long time thinking back... only with my bf... and my collegues.. no other frenz... going out with collegues we only talk abt work... who else can I talk with abt other things in life?? Maybe all along I have been hiding in my own tiny world, ignorant about anything going on around me... and that why I am so miserable now...
I just realise how lonely I have always been... I have a lot of frenz.. but when I am down.. there isn;t any besides me to hear my stories.. I wanna to go to the beachside.. to have the wind blowing on my face... and let it blow my troubles away... wanna to go think things over... although there isn't much things that I wanna to think abt... be it I am trying to avoid the real world and facts ba... but the sad thing is.. I scrolled thru the entire hp contact list and there isn't anyone for me to call.. some with gfs... some busy.. some MIA, some aint that close to me... and I know some wun bother to come out so late at night.... do I still have my so called best frenz or buddies? So sad and lonely... I dunno whether I have been mixing with the wrong crowd from the very beginning or is it that from a very long time ago... it is only a one sided point of view with regards to my best frenz and buddies... or is it that I have lost them long ago... for so long have I been living in my own world... surrounded with nothing but thin air... ? Why dun I have anyone to call?? Why dun I have anyone to go out with?? becoz of work? becoz of my schedule...?? I haven't been out for a very long time thinking back... only with my bf... and my collegues.. no other frenz... going out with collegues we only talk abt work... who else can I talk with abt other things in life?? Maybe all along I have been hiding in my own tiny world, ignorant about anything going on around me... and that why I am so miserable now...
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Falling in & out of LOVE
I noe I got to do my payroll but it has been a very long time since I update myself on any recent happenings with my frenz so decided to come up and catch up with some of them... and at the same time wait for a silly ugly guy called Lawrence to finish his stock take and send me an email so that I can continue my work.... he is lucky that I have the bloody patience to wait up for him and that I am working in the mid shift from 12 - 8 tomolo....
Anyway.. came onto MSN and got some good and bad news.... some of my frenz just broke up with their gfs and bfs, some just got married, some frenz kid is one mth old this coming wed.. and some just fall heads over heels in love... so end up I got quite a mix of feelings after all.. happy for some but not for all...
I have this very good secondary frenz of mine... she and her bf used to stick together like sticky glue.... and all of us will really envy her relationship.. not becoz her bf was real gd to her but becoz she is really so damn gd to her bf.. like those who really listen to their bf... a perfect gf who maintain the relationship well... when I have problems with my relationship in OZ, she was the one who told me that once u get a gd guy, U shldn't let him go... becoz U might not be able to find someone as gd as him in the future... she used a bus theory which I remember very clearly... she say... when we are on this bus, we will think that this bus is lousy with no air con etc... we will always think that other buses will be much more better.. with air conditioning, cushioned seats blu blu blu... so we might choose to get down this bus and board some others... but when we board the other bus, we might come to realise that actually even though this new bus has airconditioning, it is damn packed and not as comfortable and cosy as the first one.. and we come to regret our decision but the first bus has already go off onto its own way and U miss it once and for all... it really make sense... she has always hold on to her own relationship believing that this bus is good enough for her and she nv wannna to alight it... no matter how gd other buses might be... even until now... on the verge of breaking up.. actually her bf went missing... no contacts no nothing... silent breakup ba I guess... i dun believe in crappy stuffs such as being too busy... dun give me such lame excuses... all I can say... this guy is not the right one... fate make it out this way.. all U can do is to let it go and move on to board some other buses... no use hanging on to this bus.. U will just get cuts all over u... Just tricks only Jackie Chan can do..
A frenz of mine just got married.. they sound happy.. and romantic... beginning of what I call a honeymoon period... I hope they are happily in love and be able to maintain it this way... two persons living a life together is not easy.... dun say forever.... sometimes long term relationships like my frenz wun even work out after some time... dun talk abt a marriage with even more committments, responsibilities, trust etc etc... a frenz of mine just become a father one mth ago... and now he is opening a dinner to celebrate... sounds like a happy father but behind those happy scenes he got to worry abt his child's expenses, his wife's expenses... considering that his pay is only abt 1000SGD per mth... and that he is only 19 years old... on my god... dun ask me to envy him becoz I can't.... U just dunno what U are getting urself into... this is a tough world to survive... and U still got to drag so many ppl with U... can't believe it...
A frenz of mine just got dumped... becoz his gf got a new bf.. actually I think she already got this bf when she is still with my frenz... make my frenz so sad but what to do... he nv open up his eyes and look carefully... and I told him before... young gers are nv easy to be with... arghh what the hell... love is a fucking toopidz word... I tell U... my frenz ask me.. can she find a better one... ? I told her.. I dun even noe the answer myself.... becoz for my case.. there aren't even a single bus travelling on the same road and journey that I am on... other than the current bus that I am taking... for 6 yrs..
Anyway.. came onto MSN and got some good and bad news.... some of my frenz just broke up with their gfs and bfs, some just got married, some frenz kid is one mth old this coming wed.. and some just fall heads over heels in love... so end up I got quite a mix of feelings after all.. happy for some but not for all...
I have this very good secondary frenz of mine... she and her bf used to stick together like sticky glue.... and all of us will really envy her relationship.. not becoz her bf was real gd to her but becoz she is really so damn gd to her bf.. like those who really listen to their bf... a perfect gf who maintain the relationship well... when I have problems with my relationship in OZ, she was the one who told me that once u get a gd guy, U shldn't let him go... becoz U might not be able to find someone as gd as him in the future... she used a bus theory which I remember very clearly... she say... when we are on this bus, we will think that this bus is lousy with no air con etc... we will always think that other buses will be much more better.. with air conditioning, cushioned seats blu blu blu... so we might choose to get down this bus and board some others... but when we board the other bus, we might come to realise that actually even though this new bus has airconditioning, it is damn packed and not as comfortable and cosy as the first one.. and we come to regret our decision but the first bus has already go off onto its own way and U miss it once and for all... it really make sense... she has always hold on to her own relationship believing that this bus is good enough for her and she nv wannna to alight it... no matter how gd other buses might be... even until now... on the verge of breaking up.. actually her bf went missing... no contacts no nothing... silent breakup ba I guess... i dun believe in crappy stuffs such as being too busy... dun give me such lame excuses... all I can say... this guy is not the right one... fate make it out this way.. all U can do is to let it go and move on to board some other buses... no use hanging on to this bus.. U will just get cuts all over u... Just tricks only Jackie Chan can do..
A frenz of mine just got married.. they sound happy.. and romantic... beginning of what I call a honeymoon period... I hope they are happily in love and be able to maintain it this way... two persons living a life together is not easy.... dun say forever.... sometimes long term relationships like my frenz wun even work out after some time... dun talk abt a marriage with even more committments, responsibilities, trust etc etc... a frenz of mine just become a father one mth ago... and now he is opening a dinner to celebrate... sounds like a happy father but behind those happy scenes he got to worry abt his child's expenses, his wife's expenses... considering that his pay is only abt 1000SGD per mth... and that he is only 19 years old... on my god... dun ask me to envy him becoz I can't.... U just dunno what U are getting urself into... this is a tough world to survive... and U still got to drag so many ppl with U... can't believe it...
A frenz of mine just got dumped... becoz his gf got a new bf.. actually I think she already got this bf when she is still with my frenz... make my frenz so sad but what to do... he nv open up his eyes and look carefully... and I told him before... young gers are nv easy to be with... arghh what the hell... love is a fucking toopidz word... I tell U... my frenz ask me.. can she find a better one... ? I told her.. I dun even noe the answer myself.... becoz for my case.. there aren't even a single bus travelling on the same road and journey that I am on... other than the current bus that I am taking... for 6 yrs..
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Updates....all in one
Haha.. I noe I haven't been on for a very long time.. there are alot of things that I wanna revamp about my blog such as adding a tagboard, changing the colour scheme... which I am getting quite sick and tired of... getting music... somehow my past music went missing... kaos... upset becoz I really like that song... but I simply dun have the time to do so.. so in another sense I have the time but I am too lz.. haha.. but todae is my off day so let make this blog a long long one.. haha...
Just went to Woodlands Polyclinic for a routine check up and a blood test.. I think I haven't been to that polyclinic ever since I left for Australia... calculating back to about 2 or 3 years ago.. anyway I was confused about where to take queue number where to make payment etc.. not that I dunno how to read English but becoz instructions simply wasn't handed down properly but anyway I got my way thru.... the entire checkup took me 3 hours can u believe it.. in which I spent like 2 hours waiting for my queue number at 3 different locations.. kaos... first the doc, then the lab, then to fix my next appt date and time... dunno why there are so many polyclinics in SG and it is never enough to service all the singaporeans fast.. and why are there so many ppl falling sick everyday....
My "wishing to go travelling" illness is coming back again.... although I just came back from Bangkok end of last mth... I think I haven't got enough of the aeroplane ride, the shopping sprees and others.... but I can't take leave even though I have plenty... and I got no more capital... but anyway I am giving myself some motivation to move on by planning my next few trips to Pulau Redang in May, Korea in Oct and Taiwan in Dec or Jan next yr... haha.. yippess.. so so looking forward to them.... I noe I am planning too far ahead of time when I dun even know what is going to happen tomolo.. but such holiday trips.. it is always better to have a plan so that I can start saving my money... and accumulating my leave balance... haha... but I got some advice from a temple lady that I always go and pray in KL that I am not supposed to go travelling anywhere btw Sept and Dec.. she say there will be misfortune happening if I go travelling btw those months... OMG.. but I badly wanna to bring my family to experience the beautiful scenary and autumn weather in Korea in OCT... how????
My last trip to Bangkok... consists of endless shopping sprees from day to night... I actually woke up at 9.30 in the morning just to go shopping.. and breakfast of coz... I can't believe I am so hardworking.. hahaha.... anyway from the clothes that I buy... I can see my character and taste for colours and clothes have changed throughout the years due to age and what else.. I dunno.. Anyway I brought a lot of colours like green, yellow, pink, purple and of coz black and blue... and I brought clothes and skirts with flowery prints and stuffs... frankly speaking... give me flowery printed pink or purple skirt 2 yrs ago I will straight away throw it into one corner of my wardrode without even looking at it... a few years ago my wardrode only consists of plain shirts, pants, skirts and jeans of 3 colours... black, blue and white.. no others..... not even oone piece of brown clothing dun mention stockings of coz... recently on Monday my mum washed up all the clothes that I brought from Thailand and she was also surprised at the variety of clothes that I brought... but she laughed and say I am becoming more ah soh as my age goes by.. becoz only ah sohs like to wear flowery prints..... what rubbish.... at first my BF objected to me buying some of the skirts and clothes becoz he say given my character and preferences I wun wear them... impulse buying only... I tell u I will prove everyone wrong...... I will wear it out... when I got the time.. anyway due to the shopping sprees in Bangkok.. I am going to request for a bigger wardrode.. one of those push doors type becoz my old wardrode is full..... all the clothes are so squeezed together hanger to hanger.. no use ironing also becoz it will still turn up like salted vegetables... but I am happy.. hahaha.... new clothes new skirts.... new bag... yah my mum also say the bag that I brought is like those bags that ah sohs bring to the market when they go buy vegetables in the morning... haiz... am I really getting old or wat???
How I wish I can go travelling everyday... my mum hear me say that everytime so she suggest for me to go and be a tour leader so everytime I get to lead group to overseas.. some sort similiar to travelling for holidays anyway... I told her it is crap.. travelling for business in the sense of leading a group and travelling for leisure are two very different things man... one U get to enjoy and the other one U get to see ppl enjoy... one get to eat good food and one get to see lousy food.. one get to sleep in good hotels one maybe have to sleep in the staff quarters... I will seriously rather travel for leisure even though it mean cutting down on my trip frequency... at least I know I will enjoy myself without having to see and hear ppl complain about the food, the hotel, the bus, the rooms and the itinerary...
ok.. it is 1.16pm in the afternoon.. I need to go and have my lunch.. have a shower and wait for my frenz cum collegues to go off work at 3pm becoz I am meeting him to go Johor together..... got to go and get ready.... so to the next update.. take care.. hehe
Just went to Woodlands Polyclinic for a routine check up and a blood test.. I think I haven't been to that polyclinic ever since I left for Australia... calculating back to about 2 or 3 years ago.. anyway I was confused about where to take queue number where to make payment etc.. not that I dunno how to read English but becoz instructions simply wasn't handed down properly but anyway I got my way thru.... the entire checkup took me 3 hours can u believe it.. in which I spent like 2 hours waiting for my queue number at 3 different locations.. kaos... first the doc, then the lab, then to fix my next appt date and time... dunno why there are so many polyclinics in SG and it is never enough to service all the singaporeans fast.. and why are there so many ppl falling sick everyday....
My "wishing to go travelling" illness is coming back again.... although I just came back from Bangkok end of last mth... I think I haven't got enough of the aeroplane ride, the shopping sprees and others.... but I can't take leave even though I have plenty... and I got no more capital... but anyway I am giving myself some motivation to move on by planning my next few trips to Pulau Redang in May, Korea in Oct and Taiwan in Dec or Jan next yr... haha.. yippess.. so so looking forward to them.... I noe I am planning too far ahead of time when I dun even know what is going to happen tomolo.. but such holiday trips.. it is always better to have a plan so that I can start saving my money... and accumulating my leave balance... haha... but I got some advice from a temple lady that I always go and pray in KL that I am not supposed to go travelling anywhere btw Sept and Dec.. she say there will be misfortune happening if I go travelling btw those months... OMG.. but I badly wanna to bring my family to experience the beautiful scenary and autumn weather in Korea in OCT... how????
My last trip to Bangkok... consists of endless shopping sprees from day to night... I actually woke up at 9.30 in the morning just to go shopping.. and breakfast of coz... I can't believe I am so hardworking.. hahaha.... anyway from the clothes that I buy... I can see my character and taste for colours and clothes have changed throughout the years due to age and what else.. I dunno.. Anyway I brought a lot of colours like green, yellow, pink, purple and of coz black and blue... and I brought clothes and skirts with flowery prints and stuffs... frankly speaking... give me flowery printed pink or purple skirt 2 yrs ago I will straight away throw it into one corner of my wardrode without even looking at it... a few years ago my wardrode only consists of plain shirts, pants, skirts and jeans of 3 colours... black, blue and white.. no others..... not even oone piece of brown clothing dun mention stockings of coz... recently on Monday my mum washed up all the clothes that I brought from Thailand and she was also surprised at the variety of clothes that I brought... but she laughed and say I am becoming more ah soh as my age goes by.. becoz only ah sohs like to wear flowery prints..... what rubbish.... at first my BF objected to me buying some of the skirts and clothes becoz he say given my character and preferences I wun wear them... impulse buying only... I tell u I will prove everyone wrong...... I will wear it out... when I got the time.. anyway due to the shopping sprees in Bangkok.. I am going to request for a bigger wardrode.. one of those push doors type becoz my old wardrode is full..... all the clothes are so squeezed together hanger to hanger.. no use ironing also becoz it will still turn up like salted vegetables... but I am happy.. hahaha.... new clothes new skirts.... new bag... yah my mum also say the bag that I brought is like those bags that ah sohs bring to the market when they go buy vegetables in the morning... haiz... am I really getting old or wat???
How I wish I can go travelling everyday... my mum hear me say that everytime so she suggest for me to go and be a tour leader so everytime I get to lead group to overseas.. some sort similiar to travelling for holidays anyway... I told her it is crap.. travelling for business in the sense of leading a group and travelling for leisure are two very different things man... one U get to enjoy and the other one U get to see ppl enjoy... one get to eat good food and one get to see lousy food.. one get to sleep in good hotels one maybe have to sleep in the staff quarters... I will seriously rather travel for leisure even though it mean cutting down on my trip frequency... at least I know I will enjoy myself without having to see and hear ppl complain about the food, the hotel, the bus, the rooms and the itinerary...
ok.. it is 1.16pm in the afternoon.. I need to go and have my lunch.. have a shower and wait for my frenz cum collegues to go off work at 3pm becoz I am meeting him to go Johor together..... got to go and get ready.... so to the next update.. take care.. hehe
Monday, February 28, 2005
Post Holidays Depression....
Just came back from Thailand yesterday.. damn sad.... I dun wan to come back... I haven't got enough of shopping yet... I tell u the shopping there in Thailand is crazy.... haha... big bag small bag all 199bahts... haha.. not even 10SGD... haha.. buy here buy there.. Baiyoke Sky Hotel was great.. the breakfast.. the spectacular views..... woohoo.. give me one more chance.. i dun mind going back there again... even though I might need to spend more... but it is really worth the bargain.. and underneath the hotel is the garment centres... wholesales... imagine how many clothes there are to buy!!!!!! Ok i slowly update u on my trip k.. but for now.. i need to go to slp.. i got not enough slp in Thailand and my situation is going to worsen from todae onwards.. haha
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
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Toopidz Holidays...
Really.. it is toopidz.. in fact it is not even a holiday..... I slept like 1am coming to 2am in the mrning.. toss and turn to abt 3am... get woken up once at 6am to 7am... and a last mrning call at 9.30am... and out we go for the whole day..... continously for 2 days.... and I came back to SG even more tired than before I go for my "so called holiday".. really I am even more tired, more tired than relaxed.. I dunno what kinda of relaxation is that.....
Once we reached.. we went home.. shower, change and went to a very popular tourist destination in KL... walk here walk there climb up and down... then went to makan curry fish head until abt 11pm... then chit chat until abt 1.30am in the mrning... in fact the bus journey is already very tiring.. 5+ hrs... then the next day went out for breakfast abt 9.30am in the mrning... went to pray pray (main purpose of this trip).. went to two seperate places... then shopping at 1 Utama shopping centre.. nothing to see nothing to buy... then back home..my family went for a foot massage which I opt out for... a quick nap in the afternoon... my eyelids are so heavy I could hardly open it while shopping sia... then dashed for a quick shower and out for dinner with my uncle, cousins... at the restaurant famous for crabs.. OMG they got 31 various ways of cooking crabs... we try creamy lemon butter crab (which was nice), one spicy dry crab and steamed crab in wine... all very nice although i didn;t really like the spicy one thou.... and all went back to my auntie's place.. opened a red wine... and chit chat until abt 2am in the mrning... the third day we went out for breakfast abt the same time in the mrning.. went to the 2 temples to get some amulets... and then back home again... as my auntie got to fetch the kids.... to and from school.. then rushed out to catch a bus back to SG... can someone tell me what kinda of holiday is there?? Although it is gd to catch up with my auntie and uncle... becoz they always pamper me.. hehe...
I told my darling.. my Thailand holiday.. if someone is going to wake me up before 10.30am.. I am going to throw my xiao jie temper man... although it is true that U have to wake up early for brekky and shopping.. pls spare me..... that one hr of slp...
Once we reached.. we went home.. shower, change and went to a very popular tourist destination in KL... walk here walk there climb up and down... then went to makan curry fish head until abt 11pm... then chit chat until abt 1.30am in the mrning... in fact the bus journey is already very tiring.. 5+ hrs... then the next day went out for breakfast abt 9.30am in the mrning... went to pray pray (main purpose of this trip).. went to two seperate places... then shopping at 1 Utama shopping centre.. nothing to see nothing to buy... then back home..my family went for a foot massage which I opt out for... a quick nap in the afternoon... my eyelids are so heavy I could hardly open it while shopping sia... then dashed for a quick shower and out for dinner with my uncle, cousins... at the restaurant famous for crabs.. OMG they got 31 various ways of cooking crabs... we try creamy lemon butter crab (which was nice), one spicy dry crab and steamed crab in wine... all very nice although i didn;t really like the spicy one thou.... and all went back to my auntie's place.. opened a red wine... and chit chat until abt 2am in the mrning... the third day we went out for breakfast abt the same time in the mrning.. went to the 2 temples to get some amulets... and then back home again... as my auntie got to fetch the kids.... to and from school.. then rushed out to catch a bus back to SG... can someone tell me what kinda of holiday is there?? Although it is gd to catch up with my auntie and uncle... becoz they always pamper me.. hehe...
I told my darling.. my Thailand holiday.. if someone is going to wake me up before 10.30am.. I am going to throw my xiao jie temper man... although it is true that U have to wake up early for brekky and shopping.. pls spare me..... that one hr of slp...
Friday, February 18, 2005
HOLIDAY... Here I come!!!
Counting down counting down.... 1 more day of work..then on Sunday I will start my holidays... arghhh arghhh.. can't wait can't wait... Will be going up to Malaysia for 3 days... then come back to SG to work for 2 days and then to Thailand Bangkok for another 3 days with my dear... OMG OMG.. can't wait can't wait.. legs and body shaking sia.... I waited for ssooo looong for a break man.. finally it is here... finally I got a chance to collapse and RELAX!!! I dun care if the trip is rushed or whatsoever... as long as I get to stay away from work.. I am happy.. haha.. even though I believe my phone will still ring while I am away.. just like what happen at Tioman... haha.. but noone is going to spoil my holidays.... I wun allow that to happen...
OMG OMG Thailand... arghhh.. shopping shopping.... with my dear dear.. we are going to romantic romantic.. haha... staying in Baiyoke Sky Hotel.. the tallest hotel in entire Bangkok... the views will be spectacular I believe... no worries.. I will take a lot lot of photos for u guys to see... hehehe.... envy me?? I envy myself sia... have to keep on reminding myself.. just one more day... survive in there Christina!!! U can make it...
OMG OMG Thailand... arghhh.. shopping shopping.... with my dear dear.. we are going to romantic romantic.. haha... staying in Baiyoke Sky Hotel.. the tallest hotel in entire Bangkok... the views will be spectacular I believe... no worries.. I will take a lot lot of photos for u guys to see... hehehe.... envy me?? I envy myself sia... have to keep on reminding myself.. just one more day... survive in there Christina!!! U can make it...
Monday, February 14, 2005
Stoned..
I have been working non stop since chinese new year eve.... running full shift one after another... now I am sitting in front of the com... stoned... after one whole day of full shift.. again..... trying to do my payroll... I fucked up man... becoming more and more forgetful recently... even forgot the dateline to submit my payroll.. everytime have to wait until like one day b4 when ppl remind me then I get a big shock back to reality... dunno what is my donkey brain thinking recently.. I dun think I have too much things on my mind.. except that maybe my brain just need a rest... self declare break and refused to think!!! Oh man.. tedious work in front of me and my eyelids are as heavy as a rock..... I spent the entire of yesterday walking around the zoo with my cousins.. I can't believe it... actually I didn't walk becoz I got to run after those small idiots... who dashed around like crazy... imagine 4 kids to follow.. U go crazy.. that why I simply hate kids.. one is enough.. no more than that... toopidz kids...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Long time no SEE!!!
Haha.. true right.. I haven't update my blog for a long time.. at least in my viewpoint la.. I was off on Sun... after working for 1 week and a few days... tiring... but still can manage.. at least I am not sick.. so I still got the physical strength and energy to push myself on.... But anyway.. me and my piggy darling.. spent the entire off day slping sia... I think I got at least 20 hrs of slp.. haha.. slp at abt 1+ woke up at 1pm the next day afternoon.. eat breakfast... 3 plus go slp again... to 8 plus... eat dinner.. went home.. slp again.. OMG... which cause me to have no mood to work the other day.. and todae after one day of work.. I am off again.. Haha... crappy schedule.. haha.. then after today off day.. I wil be working and working non stop liao......... mrning to night night to morning...
Went out on Sat night with my poly classmates.. Oh my god... I think this is like one of the few outings that was organised in which every single click turn up...becoz one of our classmates is flying to Australia to pursue his future... hehe.. good choice I have to agree... Becoz I love studying in OZ.. it was one of the best periods in my life.. noone to nag at me.. I can go drink, go chiong until late night, slp at my frenz place.. do whatever I wan.. buy whatever I need... or dun need... Anyway went to Billy Bombers for dinner.. all 14 of us in total.actually 12 plus 2 bfs.. haha.. one of the longest and noisest table in the entire small shop.. haha... but it was fun... and then we went to LIPS for some desserts and drinks... and continue to chit chat.. Glad to see that every frenz is doing well... and being happy.. hehe.. we were all wondering who will be the next to get married.. haha.. anyway we are organising a chalet in July... haha.. just like the one we had at Pasir Ris when we are in year 3... mahjong all the way sia.. damn pathetic.. I remember I lost quite a lot.. becoz I am not expert at that time.. haha.. this time we will see.. hahaha... and then the last night everyone crashed and slp.. haha.. poly time was fun... we were talking abt all the memorable times that we had in poly.. haha.. toopidz things that happen inside our lectures..
Anyway me and my bf finally got our couple rings.. nice design and not so expensive... we did some engravings on the inside.. LUV 1314 .. didn't wanna to put name.. becoz oh come on that is so old fashioned... what love forever, i love ya... that's old fashion too.. mine is different.. yaya.. like real.. haha
Went out on Sat night with my poly classmates.. Oh my god... I think this is like one of the few outings that was organised in which every single click turn up...becoz one of our classmates is flying to Australia to pursue his future... hehe.. good choice I have to agree... Becoz I love studying in OZ.. it was one of the best periods in my life.. noone to nag at me.. I can go drink, go chiong until late night, slp at my frenz place.. do whatever I wan.. buy whatever I need... or dun need... Anyway went to Billy Bombers for dinner.. all 14 of us in total.actually 12 plus 2 bfs.. haha.. one of the longest and noisest table in the entire small shop.. haha... but it was fun... and then we went to LIPS for some desserts and drinks... and continue to chit chat.. Glad to see that every frenz is doing well... and being happy.. hehe.. we were all wondering who will be the next to get married.. haha.. anyway we are organising a chalet in July... haha.. just like the one we had at Pasir Ris when we are in year 3... mahjong all the way sia.. damn pathetic.. I remember I lost quite a lot.. becoz I am not expert at that time.. haha.. this time we will see.. hahaha... and then the last night everyone crashed and slp.. haha.. poly time was fun... we were talking abt all the memorable times that we had in poly.. haha.. toopidz things that happen inside our lectures..
Anyway me and my bf finally got our couple rings.. nice design and not so expensive... we did some engravings on the inside.. LUV 1314 .. didn't wanna to put name.. becoz oh come on that is so old fashioned... what love forever, i love ya... that's old fashion too.. mine is different.. yaya.. like real.. haha
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Upset....
I just kinda of scolded someone todae... I didn't mean it... but that someone took it real hard... My temper is just going from bad to worse... I feel bad now for scolding her.. but eh.. I am angry also becoz she went around telling everyone that I scolded her... oh come on.. do U have to spread things.. I simply hate big mouth radios.... toopidz idiot... I mean ok... she is just being grumpy but.. haiz things just grow from big to bigger and bad to worse... I have no idea why I am taking it so hard anyway.. haha... thoughts snowball remember??
Some changes happen at work recently... give me 5 mins into it.. and I am starting to miss my comfort zone.. I am comfortable before changes happen... I just find it hard to adjust to changes.. especially sudden changes.. give me a break.. I am not tired seriously.. just trying hard to adjust myself to fill in the new changes... I miss the guy who always scold me for my sake... I miss the whole old working environment.. although ppl dun share the same feelings.... there will be more changes in the following few weeks to come... and it will be even worse... why...? why?? Ppl just like to play around with other comfort zones... dun they? I dun wanna to change.............
Anyway on the overall.. I am upset... haha
Some changes happen at work recently... give me 5 mins into it.. and I am starting to miss my comfort zone.. I am comfortable before changes happen... I just find it hard to adjust to changes.. especially sudden changes.. give me a break.. I am not tired seriously.. just trying hard to adjust myself to fill in the new changes... I miss the guy who always scold me for my sake... I miss the whole old working environment.. although ppl dun share the same feelings.... there will be more changes in the following few weeks to come... and it will be even worse... why...? why?? Ppl just like to play around with other comfort zones... dun they? I dun wanna to change.............
Anyway on the overall.. I am upset... haha
Friday, January 28, 2005
Sick AGAIN..
Haiz.. I noe I noe.. I was just sick a couple of weeks ago... now I am sick again.. I tell u horz.. when ur sickness haven't fully recovered and U start to push the body to work again.. the likely thing is U will fall sick again... That's ME!! Haha.. poor me... toopidz nose keep on running like water tap non stop, toopidz fever and headache switching on and off... How pathetic can I be to rely on swallowing panadol every single minute of the day...
I was alright the day b4 thou... then it suddenly came.. out of the blue..... must be the herbal chicken that I ate.. oh my god.. can it be that toopidz illness that U get from eating infected chickens?? Guys U better stay away from me.. haha... and I still got one mth to survive before I can go for my next holiday... how am I looking forward to it man....
The last true holiday that I went was like to Tioman in May or June last yr.... I mean true holidays in terms that I actually get to sit down and do nothing for the entire day and not stressing myself out or rushing anyway.... coounting back... comng to one yr liao lo... after that in Sept I went back to OZ but that was a very rushed trip... I spent my days travelling on the car rushing my dad from attractions to attractions, shopping centres to shopping centres.... from Brisbane to Toowoomba to Gold Coast then back to SG to start work the very next day. We stayed in Brisbane for one day so within that one day I got to bring him around every significant attraction that is nearby our hotel.. Toowoomba 2 days.. one full day for graduation and one full day travelling to and fro... Gold coast was the same thing.. then I went back to my grandma's place in Batu Pahat.. that was a rushed trip too for 2 days... rushed down in the early mrning to avoid the jam.. back to grandma's place... chit chat chit chat visiting visiting... then slp... then mrning wake up.. brekky plus lunch and back to SG again.. haha...
I am going on 2 seperate trips this time.. a 3 days 2 nights trip to KL which is to pray mainly.... so one day will be spent on travelling, one day to pray and one day to travel back to SG. Haha.. that is what I call a TRIP.... u spent ur time travelling to and fro.... and I got to try and squeeze in time to meet up with my frenz from OZ who I am very close with and in KL at the moment... and my cousins so we could go party and drink... hehezzzz... then I will be going to Bangkok with my darling... b ecoz it is his birthday and we dun have that much money to go Banyan Tree so we decide to go Bangkok instead... But that is a shopping trip so we will be hitting the shopping centres too... no rest again.... oh my god... life is always like that.. u rush from one thing to another.. the only time u stop is when U retire or when U are dead.... ya and now they are pushing the retirement age to 72 so I got to work for another additional 10 yrs before I get to retire... how crap... from 55 to 62 to 72... a total different of 17 yrs... and I am just 22 now... to work until 72... argghhhh I got to work another 50 yrs.. ya and I get to retire and probably spend my rest of the days in an old folks hotel singing and chit chatting with other guests of the hotel... (I think old folks home will probably change to old folks hotel by then..sounds nicer)... I hope I will give birth to a gd son or daughter who will let me live in a condo or bungalow, take me out for expensive dinners... and continue to travel thou... provided I can still walk by then...
I was alright the day b4 thou... then it suddenly came.. out of the blue..... must be the herbal chicken that I ate.. oh my god.. can it be that toopidz illness that U get from eating infected chickens?? Guys U better stay away from me.. haha... and I still got one mth to survive before I can go for my next holiday... how am I looking forward to it man....
The last true holiday that I went was like to Tioman in May or June last yr.... I mean true holidays in terms that I actually get to sit down and do nothing for the entire day and not stressing myself out or rushing anyway.... coounting back... comng to one yr liao lo... after that in Sept I went back to OZ but that was a very rushed trip... I spent my days travelling on the car rushing my dad from attractions to attractions, shopping centres to shopping centres.... from Brisbane to Toowoomba to Gold Coast then back to SG to start work the very next day. We stayed in Brisbane for one day so within that one day I got to bring him around every significant attraction that is nearby our hotel.. Toowoomba 2 days.. one full day for graduation and one full day travelling to and fro... Gold coast was the same thing.. then I went back to my grandma's place in Batu Pahat.. that was a rushed trip too for 2 days... rushed down in the early mrning to avoid the jam.. back to grandma's place... chit chat chit chat visiting visiting... then slp... then mrning wake up.. brekky plus lunch and back to SG again.. haha...
I am going on 2 seperate trips this time.. a 3 days 2 nights trip to KL which is to pray mainly.... so one day will be spent on travelling, one day to pray and one day to travel back to SG. Haha.. that is what I call a TRIP.... u spent ur time travelling to and fro.... and I got to try and squeeze in time to meet up with my frenz from OZ who I am very close with and in KL at the moment... and my cousins so we could go party and drink... hehezzzz... then I will be going to Bangkok with my darling... b ecoz it is his birthday and we dun have that much money to go Banyan Tree so we decide to go Bangkok instead... But that is a shopping trip so we will be hitting the shopping centres too... no rest again.... oh my god... life is always like that.. u rush from one thing to another.. the only time u stop is when U retire or when U are dead.... ya and now they are pushing the retirement age to 72 so I got to work for another additional 10 yrs before I get to retire... how crap... from 55 to 62 to 72... a total different of 17 yrs... and I am just 22 now... to work until 72... argghhhh I got to work another 50 yrs.. ya and I get to retire and probably spend my rest of the days in an old folks hotel singing and chit chatting with other guests of the hotel... (I think old folks home will probably change to old folks hotel by then..sounds nicer)... I hope I will give birth to a gd son or daughter who will let me live in a condo or bungalow, take me out for expensive dinners... and continue to travel thou... provided I can still walk by then...
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Thoughts....
Too much free time on my hand ba I guess.. actually got things to do but dun wish to do them.... P&L analysis report.. haiz... see the invoices also sianz.... my sweet darling is in the army ma now doing his first reservist so I am all alone out there... with no where to go and no money to shop... since pay is not out yet until 2 days later...
Went to read some of my frenz friendster testimonials... some married liao... surprising how every frenz of mine in poly or from IRC think I will be the first one among everybody else to get married and now... thousands of my frenz are getting married ahead of me.. haha... yah... all my frenz thought since my relationship has been running for 6 yrs liao... I shld be the first one to give out wedding invitations... how I hope so.. haha.. but anyway... my cousins and frenz have all gotten married in front of me... and they look so SWEET together.. damn it.. I am jealous.. very jealous... and some even have babies liao... I went back to my grandma place and one of my cousins brought her new born babygal back for me to see.. they look so happy and sweet together.... with the baby hugging both her mummy and daddy.. haiz... and the toopidz baby called me auntie... arghh.. couldn't get over it... seriously thinking back.. I also wan to get married.. for now... that is my thinking for now.. maybe 5 mins later it will be different again.. haha.. mind always confused ma.. hehe.. get the chance to choose my wedding ring... wedding gown.. select my wedding venue... go for my honeymoon... take wedding photos... but too bad... my grandpa passed away last yr so accordingly to chinese traditions I got to wait 3 yrs before having any weddings.. hahaha...
Anyway me and my bf decide to get a pair of rings for Valentine Day this yr... so we went around looking for nice ones... and they are all so expensive!!!! a nice pair of wedding bands cost like $1200++ bucks...!!!!! Can U believe it??????? OH MY GOD and the cheapo ones are so damn ugly and plain.... kaos..... headache sia...
Went to read some of my frenz friendster testimonials... some married liao... surprising how every frenz of mine in poly or from IRC think I will be the first one among everybody else to get married and now... thousands of my frenz are getting married ahead of me.. haha... yah... all my frenz thought since my relationship has been running for 6 yrs liao... I shld be the first one to give out wedding invitations... how I hope so.. haha.. but anyway... my cousins and frenz have all gotten married in front of me... and they look so SWEET together.. damn it.. I am jealous.. very jealous... and some even have babies liao... I went back to my grandma place and one of my cousins brought her new born babygal back for me to see.. they look so happy and sweet together.... with the baby hugging both her mummy and daddy.. haiz... and the toopidz baby called me auntie... arghh.. couldn't get over it... seriously thinking back.. I also wan to get married.. for now... that is my thinking for now.. maybe 5 mins later it will be different again.. haha.. mind always confused ma.. hehe.. get the chance to choose my wedding ring... wedding gown.. select my wedding venue... go for my honeymoon... take wedding photos... but too bad... my grandpa passed away last yr so accordingly to chinese traditions I got to wait 3 yrs before having any weddings.. hahaha...
Anyway me and my bf decide to get a pair of rings for Valentine Day this yr... so we went around looking for nice ones... and they are all so expensive!!!! a nice pair of wedding bands cost like $1200++ bucks...!!!!! Can U believe it??????? OH MY GOD and the cheapo ones are so damn ugly and plain.... kaos..... headache sia...
Thursday, January 20, 2005
No time no TIME!!!
Oh man.. I got too many things on my "to do" list sia... I dun even think if I dun slp I got time to finish or even start.... first of all work already take up like 10 hrs of my day... including the time to travel to and from work... plus handing over shifts and doing minor paperworks.... then I got my major paperworks like payrolls and analysis reports to do and update.... ok plus and minus 12 hrs... haha.. what else can I do.. Sufficient sleep.. min 8 hours.. I still got eh... 4 hrs left in a day... haha...
I want to take up swimming lessons.. basically I already signed up but I can't slot my lesson into any of the available timeslots.. becoz my timetable go mrning and night... crazy timetable... can't fix a time.. then I wanna take up dancing classes.. haha.. surprise surprise... salsa or R&B dance.. then I wanna to learn piano le.. ok.. 3 different classes in a week... give it one lesson per week... where got time??? So I say... humans huh.. no money complain no money cannot do anything... got money no TIME to spend... I dun even have time to go shopping other than my off day.. which is spent on trying to compensate the lacking amount of sleep accummulated from work and trying to cure my panda eyes.... @_@. I need to look for a better job... not necessary with a better pay thou.. but wah liao.. got better pay who dun wan... but I dun have time to go through the ads on the website... what I got time.. take a peek at the Classifieds... no jobs ok close... back to work... how to look?? Haha.. I brought a new book... called "what went wrong in love". Read the first page.. now already sitting on my printer starting to accumulate dust liao... poor book...
Last week took 2 days leave.. wanna to clear up all the things... in the end spent one whole day clearing and cleaning my room and wardrode... another day shopping... and one off day accompanying my frenz who is flying back to Australia the next day.. in the end play mahjong until 6am in the mrning sia... one day just fly by like that......... sad sad... i hope my list of "to do" will stop for now.... this year got too many things to do and too many places to travel liao... haha...
I want to take up swimming lessons.. basically I already signed up but I can't slot my lesson into any of the available timeslots.. becoz my timetable go mrning and night... crazy timetable... can't fix a time.. then I wanna take up dancing classes.. haha.. surprise surprise... salsa or R&B dance.. then I wanna to learn piano le.. ok.. 3 different classes in a week... give it one lesson per week... where got time??? So I say... humans huh.. no money complain no money cannot do anything... got money no TIME to spend... I dun even have time to go shopping other than my off day.. which is spent on trying to compensate the lacking amount of sleep accummulated from work and trying to cure my panda eyes.... @_@. I need to look for a better job... not necessary with a better pay thou.. but wah liao.. got better pay who dun wan... but I dun have time to go through the ads on the website... what I got time.. take a peek at the Classifieds... no jobs ok close... back to work... how to look?? Haha.. I brought a new book... called "what went wrong in love". Read the first page.. now already sitting on my printer starting to accumulate dust liao... poor book...
Last week took 2 days leave.. wanna to clear up all the things... in the end spent one whole day clearing and cleaning my room and wardrode... another day shopping... and one off day accompanying my frenz who is flying back to Australia the next day.. in the end play mahjong until 6am in the mrning sia... one day just fly by like that......... sad sad... i hope my list of "to do" will stop for now.... this year got too many things to do and too many places to travel liao... haha...
Monday, January 17, 2005
Memories...
Todae on my way to work.. I saw this guy who really look very much like my ex bf... suddenly memories start flooding back in my brains... this ex bf of mine is the first guy I really like... I think I was abt 14 that yr... He is not perfect... but somehow I just fall heads over heels with him... He was the first guy who I brought to meet my parents... but my parents surely wasn;t happy to see him.. haha... He was a AH BENG... he was there smoking in front of my parents.. and his wearing... oh my god.... But after he went into the Boys Home, we lost contact.. on the day he was supposed to come out.. I called him and a gal saying to be his gf picked up the phone... I mean all along I noe he wasn;t serious and he has like tons of gfs behind my back.. but still.. silly of me right?? But really give me a chance I would really like to meet up with him once... dun have to sit down and chit chat over a cup of coffee or anything... just look and know what he is doing now..? Is he doing well now.. or still the same old fellow going in and out of jail.. I will be happy enough... when I saw the look alike guy todae.. I nearly thought it was him... but too bad it wasn't.... not to say if I still have feelings for him though... becoz oh come on.. it has been like so long ago... 8 yrs.... just missing ba i guess....
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Easily Contented...
I did some editing on my blogskin.. add in background music, change the fonts and colours, add in scrolling text at the bottom.. not too bad huh... for someone who noe nuts abt HTML stuffs... so happy... feel that big sense of achievement...
U noe what.. love is actually just so simple... I dun need a 10 carat diamond, a condo or bungalow, a ferrari car or some expensive dinner at a restaurant to be happy u noe.. Just a simple hug is enough.. haha.. when I need it la of coz... I was sick the other day... my bf was all over me... for the first time in my life and my relationship with him... i felt pampered.... last time there was this guy frenz of me... who I am very close with.. he also pamper me alot... like I am a princess.... when I am sick.. he will send me medicine.. buy things for me to eat... keep on asking if I am alright... blu blu blu... like very scared i will just faint in front of him.. i like that feeling... in fact who dun..?? every gers wish to be pampered like a princess dun they..? Of coz not everyday la.. u will get irritated after a while.. and of coz not too extreme la.. I have seen extreme cases... who the ger basically dun even have to walk or stand.. the guy basically just lift her off the ground... kaos... that is too protective ba.. haha... Ok back to me.. I was sick.. and we were taking a cab home 6+ am in the morning from a frenz house... he noe I was cold.. so he was there hugging me and trying to keep me warm by rubbing me and stuffs... so sweet isn't it..? And he hugged me to slp... and went out to buy breakfast for me.. fish porridge... cooll.... that was sweet to me.. Although like most of the guys will do that to their gfs ba.. I guess.. haha... not so much to boast abt anyway... hehe... sounds true...
Anyway.. we went shopping todae.. brought a pink scarf and a new cup for tea and milo in the mrning... haha... actually wanna buy a tank top and a white pearly bag but... after trying on the tank top.. I realise it doesn't really look that gd as compared to on the model.. haha... it is too plain... and the colour look old.. haha... anyway I believe I will be able to find more...
U noe what.. love is actually just so simple... I dun need a 10 carat diamond, a condo or bungalow, a ferrari car or some expensive dinner at a restaurant to be happy u noe.. Just a simple hug is enough.. haha.. when I need it la of coz... I was sick the other day... my bf was all over me... for the first time in my life and my relationship with him... i felt pampered.... last time there was this guy frenz of me... who I am very close with.. he also pamper me alot... like I am a princess.... when I am sick.. he will send me medicine.. buy things for me to eat... keep on asking if I am alright... blu blu blu... like very scared i will just faint in front of him.. i like that feeling... in fact who dun..?? every gers wish to be pampered like a princess dun they..? Of coz not everyday la.. u will get irritated after a while.. and of coz not too extreme la.. I have seen extreme cases... who the ger basically dun even have to walk or stand.. the guy basically just lift her off the ground... kaos... that is too protective ba.. haha... Ok back to me.. I was sick.. and we were taking a cab home 6+ am in the morning from a frenz house... he noe I was cold.. so he was there hugging me and trying to keep me warm by rubbing me and stuffs... so sweet isn't it..? And he hugged me to slp... and went out to buy breakfast for me.. fish porridge... cooll.... that was sweet to me.. Although like most of the guys will do that to their gfs ba.. I guess.. haha... not so much to boast abt anyway... hehe... sounds true...
Anyway.. we went shopping todae.. brought a pink scarf and a new cup for tea and milo in the mrning... haha... actually wanna buy a tank top and a white pearly bag but... after trying on the tank top.. I realise it doesn't really look that gd as compared to on the model.. haha... it is too plain... and the colour look old.. haha... anyway I believe I will be able to find more...
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