I just finished my payroll... supposed to go to slp becoz I am real tired but I can't... there is too much things on my mind..... dun talk abt work problems becoz it will always be there.... can nv solve it... so why think about it... although it is also one of the things on my mind... but I am trying hard to push it behind... my head is hurting.... having a serious headache...
I just realise how lonely I have always been... I have a lot of frenz.. but when I am down.. there isn;t any besides me to hear my stories.. I wanna to go to the beachside.. to have the wind blowing on my face... and let it blow my troubles away... wanna to go think things over... although there isn't much things that I wanna to think abt... be it I am trying to avoid the real world and facts ba... but the sad thing is.. I scrolled thru the entire hp contact list and there isn't anyone for me to call.. some with gfs... some busy.. some MIA, some aint that close to me... and I know some wun bother to come out so late at night.... do I still have my so called best frenz or buddies? So sad and lonely... I dunno whether I have been mixing with the wrong crowd from the very beginning or is it that from a very long time ago... it is only a one sided point of view with regards to my best frenz and buddies... or is it that I have lost them long ago... for so long have I been living in my own world... surrounded with nothing but thin air... ? Why dun I have anyone to call?? Why dun I have anyone to go out with?? becoz of work? becoz of my schedule...?? I haven't been out for a very long time thinking back... only with my bf... and my collegues.. no other frenz... going out with collegues we only talk abt work... who else can I talk with abt other things in life?? Maybe all along I have been hiding in my own tiny world, ignorant about anything going on around me... and that why I am so miserable now...
