Humans have a habit of pushing things to later or next time.. later then I do this... later then I do that... or I do it next time..
What if later or next time never come?? Will it constitute to regret for the rest of your life..?
Read a book that said.. "If you want to do something.. you do it now... coz it is now or never... there is no such things as later or next time...". But humans always like to postpone or delay things, don't they? Unless a deadline is given, if not nothing is as urgent as it can be..
Sometimes some things don't wait for you..
I actually wanted to go back and see my ah gong the weekend before he died.. but I thought better to myself and decided to instead book my bus ticket for the next weekend..since I just saw him the previous weekend before.... in the end before I could make my trip back to see him, he passed away.. and I so hate myself for missing that crucial weekend... If I have gone back, I perhaps could have seen him for the one last time...
This week my dad repeated the same mistake...my 三姑婆 has been diagnosed with cancer... she was hospitalised a couple of months ago and was since placed in a ward where all the cancer patients who are at the last stage slowly wait for their death... my dad have been visiting her every week during his day off... but last week he decided to skip one week coz his day off was on a Sunday and it happened to be the first week my bro came out from Tekong.. so he wanted to stay at home and accompany my bro... so he thought "never mind.. I will visit her this coming Tuesday during my next day off". But he wun have the chance to do it now becoz my 三姑婆 passed away yesterday... 2 days before he is supposed / planning to visit her... and now he kept saying that he should have known.. he should have gone down to visit her... blu blu blu...
Regret always come right after a missed opportunity, doesnt it? The opportunity was there.. you decide to postpone it to later/next time.. and when it's gone, all that is left is regret and self reproach...
sSo like what I said .. dun say later, for later might not come..
Monday, August 04, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Reality is cruel?
Wah.. my last post is exactly one month ago.. what is wrong man?? I am not running out of things to write.. just too lazy I guess..
Just finished watching "Perfect Cut" the new show on Channel U on plastic surgery... everytime I watch this show I get the constant reminder that reality is cruel.. there are indeed people.. alot of people in this world who base their judgements purely on looks alone.. Fat people are called Pigs.. people with no breasts are called Airport.. Ugly or disabled people are stared and pointed at... endless things to be said to anyone who is out of the norm...
Why do people resort to plastic surgery.. seriously if I have the money and I am not scared of pain/death.. I would have got for the easy solution myself.. why not?? Jus spend the money, someone else do the job for you and you come out looking perfect.. from being despised at .. you almost immediately turn into a phoenix or a queen who everyone admire at.. everywhere u go you turn heads.. you are the centre of attention...
Everytime the show finishes.. I find the need to remind myself that there are still people in this world who go for inner beauty.. that I do have the inner beauty inside me.. which is why I have so many frenz and a loving husband (at least for now.. can't guarantee in the future)... that I dun have to care about what other people say about me... that I am already much better off than others.. that inner beauty is the only thing in this world that will last whereas outer beauty wun..
But the funni thing is I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF or perhaps LIE TO MYSELF that reality is not as cruel as it seems to be.. and that there is still another side that I can rely on.. that there is still some beauty in this world... that inner beauty sometimes do win over outer beauty... hahahaha...
But somehow despite going through all the dilemas.. I still continue to watch the show everyday.. not sure whether I want to be constantly reminded that reality is cruel or whether I want to constantly try and convince myself that inner beauty is all that matters... weird right?? Maybe I like self torment.. or maybe I just want to face up to reality... accepting it for what it is.. reality is like that.. it can be good it can be bad it can be average.. depending on how you choose to see it... if you see the bad side, you can choose to move on and ignore it or wallow in misery.. if you see the good side, you can choose to take it for granted and ask for more or you can choose to be glad that you are already quite fortunate than the rest.. soo it just depend on how you see reality.
In the show today, one of the lady said "if you dun care about what other people say or think.. does your disability/your looks matter any more??" Her husband love her for who she is despite her having a huge patch of birthmark over the right side of her face... and when the main lead Alex Tan asked him how come they never consider plastic surgery to remove the birthmark.. he replied saying that they see each other through their hearts so their looks dun matter at all.. seeing each other through their hearts mean seeing the other person inner beauty and not their external appearance.
So does looks really ever matter??
Just finished watching "Perfect Cut" the new show on Channel U on plastic surgery... everytime I watch this show I get the constant reminder that reality is cruel.. there are indeed people.. alot of people in this world who base their judgements purely on looks alone.. Fat people are called Pigs.. people with no breasts are called Airport.. Ugly or disabled people are stared and pointed at... endless things to be said to anyone who is out of the norm...
Why do people resort to plastic surgery.. seriously if I have the money and I am not scared of pain/death.. I would have got for the easy solution myself.. why not?? Jus spend the money, someone else do the job for you and you come out looking perfect.. from being despised at .. you almost immediately turn into a phoenix or a queen who everyone admire at.. everywhere u go you turn heads.. you are the centre of attention...
Everytime the show finishes.. I find the need to remind myself that there are still people in this world who go for inner beauty.. that I do have the inner beauty inside me.. which is why I have so many frenz and a loving husband (at least for now.. can't guarantee in the future)... that I dun have to care about what other people say about me... that I am already much better off than others.. that inner beauty is the only thing in this world that will last whereas outer beauty wun..
But the funni thing is I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF or perhaps LIE TO MYSELF that reality is not as cruel as it seems to be.. and that there is still another side that I can rely on.. that there is still some beauty in this world... that inner beauty sometimes do win over outer beauty... hahahaha...
But somehow despite going through all the dilemas.. I still continue to watch the show everyday.. not sure whether I want to be constantly reminded that reality is cruel or whether I want to constantly try and convince myself that inner beauty is all that matters... weird right?? Maybe I like self torment.. or maybe I just want to face up to reality... accepting it for what it is.. reality is like that.. it can be good it can be bad it can be average.. depending on how you choose to see it... if you see the bad side, you can choose to move on and ignore it or wallow in misery.. if you see the good side, you can choose to take it for granted and ask for more or you can choose to be glad that you are already quite fortunate than the rest.. soo it just depend on how you see reality.
In the show today, one of the lady said "if you dun care about what other people say or think.. does your disability/your looks matter any more??" Her husband love her for who she is despite her having a huge patch of birthmark over the right side of her face... and when the main lead Alex Tan asked him how come they never consider plastic surgery to remove the birthmark.. he replied saying that they see each other through their hearts so their looks dun matter at all.. seeing each other through their hearts mean seeing the other person inner beauty and not their external appearance.
So does looks really ever matter??
Monday, June 23, 2008
The Human Spirit
Wah my last post is more than 1 mth ago.. that's long...
Anyway I just finished an documentary on Arts Central called "The Human Spirit". Today episode "The Man With No Face".
Looking at him, I really pity him for all the things that he had to go through... to cope with the illness is already bad enough, he still have to cope with other people's stares and extreme behaviour... you will have to be mentally strong to cope with all these and not go into depression.... you have to keep telling yourself it's okay.. you wun have to bother with what people say or think.. you just have to be yourself..
Dar asked me "how come you always like to look at such documentaries".. actually I also not sure myself.. my best answer will be that "only looking at such documentaries, I can tell myself that there are other people out there who are suffering more than me.. and I am already one of the lucky ones... and I should be glad for it.. hahaa"
My mum always used to tell me "you are already quite good le.. what about those handicapped / disabled people who cant hide any of their disabilities.. at least you can hide under a shirt / a dress".. that's true.. there are alot of people out there who cant hide and they have learned to cope with people's stares... and move on with their lifes.. why cant I??
When I went back to my primary school after two months hospitalisation leave, I was named / called FREAK.. I dun even know what I did / said to deserve that label of FREAK... on the exterior I dun look any difference before and after I do my operations.. it is just that I am exempted from PE lessons and all the teachers are extremely careful with me, afraid of tiring me out, afraid of stressing me out, afraid of touching me for fear that my spine / body might hurt... other than that I am perfectly normal and looks normal... and I insists to even my parents to treat me like a normal person... but just from that, everyone in school treat me like a freak..I go to school alone.. noone want to walk with me... everyone stand one arm length from me when we line up for national anthemn, noone eats with me during recess, noone wanna sit with me in class or at the hall.. best... seriously a primary 4 kid having to deal with all this.. at the time when you really wanna make frenz.. I am really surprised I went through that from primary 4 to primary 6... hahaha I cried (which is all I can do).. seriously I dunno how I did it...
But anyway somehow that piece of memory was blocked in my brain.. that period is like a blank space in my biography.. sometimes they said our brains will automatically block the unhappy moments and only allow the good memories to remain.. how good... hahaha.. anyway I survived and there are indeed people with worse fate out there.. these people have to face with it everyday... people staring at them wherever they go... I hope they have the courage to move on and be themselves regardless of whatever that happens.. because life is precious and is meant to be lived...
Anyway I just finished an documentary on Arts Central called "The Human Spirit". Today episode "The Man With No Face".
Looking at him, I really pity him for all the things that he had to go through... to cope with the illness is already bad enough, he still have to cope with other people's stares and extreme behaviour... you will have to be mentally strong to cope with all these and not go into depression.... you have to keep telling yourself it's okay.. you wun have to bother with what people say or think.. you just have to be yourself..
Dar asked me "how come you always like to look at such documentaries".. actually I also not sure myself.. my best answer will be that "only looking at such documentaries, I can tell myself that there are other people out there who are suffering more than me.. and I am already one of the lucky ones... and I should be glad for it.. hahaa"
My mum always used to tell me "you are already quite good le.. what about those handicapped / disabled people who cant hide any of their disabilities.. at least you can hide under a shirt / a dress".. that's true.. there are alot of people out there who cant hide and they have learned to cope with people's stares... and move on with their lifes.. why cant I??
When I went back to my primary school after two months hospitalisation leave, I was named / called FREAK.. I dun even know what I did / said to deserve that label of FREAK... on the exterior I dun look any difference before and after I do my operations.. it is just that I am exempted from PE lessons and all the teachers are extremely careful with me, afraid of tiring me out, afraid of stressing me out, afraid of touching me for fear that my spine / body might hurt... other than that I am perfectly normal and looks normal... and I insists to even my parents to treat me like a normal person... but just from that, everyone in school treat me like a freak..I go to school alone.. noone want to walk with me... everyone stand one arm length from me when we line up for national anthemn, noone eats with me during recess, noone wanna sit with me in class or at the hall.. best... seriously a primary 4 kid having to deal with all this.. at the time when you really wanna make frenz.. I am really surprised I went through that from primary 4 to primary 6... hahaha I cried (which is all I can do).. seriously I dunno how I did it...
But anyway somehow that piece of memory was blocked in my brain.. that period is like a blank space in my biography.. sometimes they said our brains will automatically block the unhappy moments and only allow the good memories to remain.. how good... hahaha.. anyway I survived and there are indeed people with worse fate out there.. these people have to face with it everyday... people staring at them wherever they go... I hope they have the courage to move on and be themselves regardless of whatever that happens.. because life is precious and is meant to be lived...
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Piano and me...
I always love piano music...
Becoz they are relaxing, calm and beautiful....
Since young, I always thought that I have the talent for playing the piano.. becoz my fingers are long and slender... what people always told me.. your fingers are perfect for playing the piano!
But too bad I didnt have any chance to even touch a piano before.. and somehow I blame it on my parents who didnt send me for piano lessons and instead chose to send me to art classes which I horribly hate!! I have no talent for drawing absolutely... (although I manage to draw a decent peanut sketch for my O Level and barely survive through with a pass...) I remembered I spent all my days at art classes drawing a seaside with sea waves and coconut trees, a square house with a triangle roof and one pathetic small window and the smiling sun plus clouds.. even though my art teacher came out with various themes to fulfill for each lesson... every week I handled in the same picture.. theme = zoo me draw seaside, theme = animals me draw seaside.. I think if I remembered correctly.. I got kicked out of art classes becoz my art teacher just gave up on me.. hahahaa
So now I shall be contented with listening to piano music eh.. hahhaha...
Becoz they are relaxing, calm and beautiful....
Since young, I always thought that I have the talent for playing the piano.. becoz my fingers are long and slender... what people always told me.. your fingers are perfect for playing the piano!
But too bad I didnt have any chance to even touch a piano before.. and somehow I blame it on my parents who didnt send me for piano lessons and instead chose to send me to art classes which I horribly hate!! I have no talent for drawing absolutely... (although I manage to draw a decent peanut sketch for my O Level and barely survive through with a pass...) I remembered I spent all my days at art classes drawing a seaside with sea waves and coconut trees, a square house with a triangle roof and one pathetic small window and the smiling sun plus clouds.. even though my art teacher came out with various themes to fulfill for each lesson... every week I handled in the same picture.. theme = zoo me draw seaside, theme = animals me draw seaside.. I think if I remembered correctly.. I got kicked out of art classes becoz my art teacher just gave up on me.. hahahaa
So now I shall be contented with listening to piano music eh.. hahhaha...
Monday, May 12, 2008
Piano Spa 4
Piano Spa 4 is out and I brought it yesterday!!!
Good frenzs of mine will know I dun buy CDs becoz I always thought they are not worth the money...
But Piano Spa albums is a must buy!!!
I brought Piano Spa 2 in 2006.. that was the last album I brought till yesterday.. wahaha.. 2 years
Seriously the music is good and the cover is fantastic!! I fell in love with the cover.. I wish I could frame it up and look at it everyday and imagine I am in some paradise with nice music accompanied by the sound of the sea waves and breezes, with a good book and a nice drink in hand.. I could fall asleep in pure happiness and wake up in pure happiness.. hahahaha...
How can anyone not fall in love with the cover..
I am playing the CDs now... and I wish I have a CD player just beside my bed instead of having to play it on my laptop and having to stop the music when I close my laptop for the night.. I used to play it on my CD player and plugged it in while I am in bed so I will fall asleep with music in my ears... Somemore falling asleep in a relaxed mood seems much better than trying to force yourself to fall asleep just becoz you need to sleep...
I have been trying to look for Yiruma's CDs in SG but I cant find any.. most probably becoz I didnt look hard enough.. But Chester.. you're still good... *claps*
Good frenzs of mine will know I dun buy CDs becoz I always thought they are not worth the money...
But Piano Spa albums is a must buy!!!
I brought Piano Spa 2 in 2006.. that was the last album I brought till yesterday.. wahaha.. 2 years
Seriously the music is good and the cover is fantastic!! I fell in love with the cover.. I wish I could frame it up and look at it everyday and imagine I am in some paradise with nice music accompanied by the sound of the sea waves and breezes, with a good book and a nice drink in hand.. I could fall asleep in pure happiness and wake up in pure happiness.. hahahaha...
I am playing the CDs now... and I wish I have a CD player just beside my bed instead of having to play it on my laptop and having to stop the music when I close my laptop for the night.. I used to play it on my CD player and plugged it in while I am in bed so I will fall asleep with music in my ears... Somemore falling asleep in a relaxed mood seems much better than trying to force yourself to fall asleep just becoz you need to sleep...
I have been trying to look for Yiruma's CDs in SG but I cant find any.. most probably becoz I didnt look hard enough.. But Chester.. you're still good... *claps*
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Whales eat Whales ~ Shocking Truth!!`
All along I thought whales despite their enormous size feeds on tiny creatures like plankton or krills..
I am shocked to find out today after watching the 1st episode of The Blue Planet that killer whales not only kill warm-blooded animals like fishes and seals.. they also kill turtles, otters, penguins and polar bears (all very cute animals to me)
Most importantly they kill whales!!! The 1st episode of The Blue Planet shows them killing a baby whale.. despite the mother frantic attempts to protect her baby whale.. there is practically nothing much she can do.. especially when the baby whale have no more energy to swim...(and the killer whales just keep chasing)...they tried to drown the baby whale by pushing it underwater so it cant breathe and the mother frantically try to support it above water.... and then one of the killer whale took a bite and the baby whale is dead....
Goodness.. how sad the mother is... she is pregnant with the baby for 13 months.. (that's what i thought i heard and remember - need to be checked).. and now that her baby is dead, she will have to carry on the migration journey alone... arghhh..
Anyway the killer whales after killing the baby whale only eats the lower jaw and the tongue.. then they swim away and leave the body of the baby whale floating in the middle of the water until it sinks and become the food of others in the deep ocean...
And the best thing of all, killer whale is the type of whales shown in Free Willy.. and the same type that we see in big aquariums.. alamak.. they kill whales for goodness sake...
(contributed by http://www.coolantarctica.com)
To know more, read this article.. http://www.seaworld.org/infobooks/killerwhale/dietkw.html
You will be shocked man... i am really shocked...
I am shocked to find out today after watching the 1st episode of The Blue Planet that killer whales not only kill warm-blooded animals like fishes and seals.. they also kill turtles, otters, penguins and polar bears (all very cute animals to me)
Most importantly they kill whales!!! The 1st episode of The Blue Planet shows them killing a baby whale.. despite the mother frantic attempts to protect her baby whale.. there is practically nothing much she can do.. especially when the baby whale have no more energy to swim...(and the killer whales just keep chasing)...they tried to drown the baby whale by pushing it underwater so it cant breathe and the mother frantically try to support it above water.... and then one of the killer whale took a bite and the baby whale is dead....
Goodness.. how sad the mother is... she is pregnant with the baby for 13 months.. (that's what i thought i heard and remember - need to be checked).. and now that her baby is dead, she will have to carry on the migration journey alone... arghhh..
Anyway the killer whales after killing the baby whale only eats the lower jaw and the tongue.. then they swim away and leave the body of the baby whale floating in the middle of the water until it sinks and become the food of others in the deep ocean...
And the best thing of all, killer whale is the type of whales shown in Free Willy.. and the same type that we see in big aquariums.. alamak.. they kill whales for goodness sake...
(contributed by http://www.coolantarctica.com)
To know more, read this article.. http://www.seaworld.org/infobooks/killerwhale/dietkw.html
You will be shocked man... i am really shocked...
Monday, April 21, 2008
Dinner @ Long Beach Seafood Restaurant IMM
Yesterday me and dar went out for dinner with my parents, my bro and his gf to Long Beach Seafood Restaurant at IMM. Waited for dar to finish his RT before we drove with a carful of people in baby pica to IMM.. hahaha.. dun think baby pica is built to carry 4 people in the backseat. Thanks god me and Hui Teng are skinny.. hahaha
Anyway I didnt make any reservations because I thought there isnt any people.. in the end we were put onto the waiting list.. haha.. the hostess told us to come back around 8pm.. if not she will call me but in the end when we finished window shopping and made our way back, there was plenty of seats and no calls.. duhz..
1. Twin Combination Platter (jellyfish with abalone and roasted duck)
2. Shark Fin with Crab Meat in Superior Stock
3. Golden Stripes Lobsters
4. Chilli Crab
5. Steamed Garoupa
6. Dried Scallops with Spinach
7. Fried Glass Noodles
8. Pulau Hitam with Icecream
Dish 1, 2, 5, 6, 7 and 8 were good... in fact the fish was so good that even my dad who seldom eat steamed fish finished up the entire side by himself.. hahaha.. but dish 3 Golden Stripes Lobsters really sucks.. I actually wanna to change to Lobsters in Soup or something.. at least the taste of the lobsters will still be there.. but the captain said that is their main signature dish so i decided to stay with it.. in the end the lobsters were dry and chewy..
The chilli crab should be good la.. but because i think the kitchen is in the rush to go off work.. they came out with all the dishes at one go.. including the chilli crab.. so by the time we had it after finishing all the rest of the dishes, it is already cold.. what a waste...
The entire meal costs me $380+ bucks.. but I think it is worth it la..after all my parents seldom get to enjoy such luxuries...
Anyway I didnt make any reservations because I thought there isnt any people.. in the end we were put onto the waiting list.. haha.. the hostess told us to come back around 8pm.. if not she will call me but in the end when we finished window shopping and made our way back, there was plenty of seats and no calls.. duhz..
1. Twin Combination Platter (jellyfish with abalone and roasted duck)
2. Shark Fin with Crab Meat in Superior Stock
3. Golden Stripes Lobsters
4. Chilli Crab
5. Steamed Garoupa
6. Dried Scallops with Spinach
7. Fried Glass Noodles
8. Pulau Hitam with Icecream
Dish 1, 2, 5, 6, 7 and 8 were good... in fact the fish was so good that even my dad who seldom eat steamed fish finished up the entire side by himself.. hahaha.. but dish 3 Golden Stripes Lobsters really sucks.. I actually wanna to change to Lobsters in Soup or something.. at least the taste of the lobsters will still be there.. but the captain said that is their main signature dish so i decided to stay with it.. in the end the lobsters were dry and chewy..
The chilli crab should be good la.. but because i think the kitchen is in the rush to go off work.. they came out with all the dishes at one go.. including the chilli crab.. so by the time we had it after finishing all the rest of the dishes, it is already cold.. what a waste...
The entire meal costs me $380+ bucks.. but I think it is worth it la..after all my parents seldom get to enjoy such luxuries...
Friday, April 11, 2008
Unlucky gal..
Once a fortune teller told me.. i am a bad mother in law in my previous life who poisoned and killed my own daughter in law.. thus this life i have to suffer and pay back my debt.. the only way I can redeem myself is to do more good and be a vegetarian.. I tried being a vegetarian before but i did it only for full 3 weeks (lunch and dinner was all tofu & vegetables.. got so sick of tofu after that).. I tried being a vegetarian on every 1st and 15th of the lunar month. but in the end i did not have any determination and pesistance to continue it for the entire of my life..
And I think I am indeed punished for whatever I have done in my previous life (although thank god I am born a human and not a beast)
I got scoliosis when I was young.. and for the rest of my life now.. I have to carry two metal rods which is screwed into my spine in my back... even though i can still walk, run, swim, talk, hear like normal... (already much better than others and i am gladful for that).. I have to be on my guard becoz even falling down the stairs in the wrong way can kill..
And now I have a suspicious lump in my breast... went for a breast biopsy called Mammotome today to remove the lump so they can send it to the lab to test whether the lump is cancerous.. the operation was only for half an hour.. they give me anesthesia to numb out the breast area where they are going to do a small cut and insert a probe/needle.. other than that I am pretty conscious.. you know something is going on.. you know there is a wound and a needle poking into your breast.. it is just that you dun feel the pain.. how great.. i rather be knocked out.. by alcohol or whatsoever.. just let me sleep throughout so I wun know what the hell is going on..
Anyway i went through the entire thing and now i am back at home with a swollen breast... and pain.. I seriously have quite a high threshold of pain.. but i just hate the pain that comes after anesthesia beooz it is those that really got you off guard.. it is like a while you are okay.. the next thing u know u have pain in a area when you know you never even hit or cut yourself in.. the nurse asked me to take panadol if the pain is really intolerable.. but I think i rather try and survive through it.. and live with it... you know why? Pain is something you can get used to.. as in if it is very painful the first day and you survived through it without any medications.. you will feel less painful the next day.. but if you take medication to numb out the pain.. you will still feel the pain the next day and the whole cycle of pain and medication will continue until the wound heals.. which is not really advisable.. relying on painkillers and panadol.. So i am just going to make do with it.. and hopefully tomorrow will be better
The best thing is the doc gave me 8 days MC!!!! I was damn surprised to look at my MC and see the number 8... i looked at dar and went "they give me 8 days MC lei.." and he went "huh!! really ah" while looking at me in disbelief.... hahaha.. In normal circumstances.. i think anyone holding on to a 8 days MC will go WOOHOO!!! For me.. my reaction is more of.. "for what??"... Siao.. 8 days of nua-ing at home.. with no nice TV shows to watch, no holidays to go, no websites to surf, no games to play, no shopping to do... just wake up eat sleep wake up eat sleep will drive me BONKERS seriously... I remember previously when i plucked out my wisdom tooth i got a MC of 5 days.. in the end i only utilised dunno 1 or 2 days then i went back to work... 8 days lei... what to do...?? Damn it.. if I know i will get a 8 days MC i can rest for 3 days (as specified by the nurse that I shouldnt move much for 48 hours after the opp) then book a 5 days trip... damn it.. that would be such a great plan!!!! After all I have 14 days MC which 8 days will make full use of half of it..
Wasted.. damn it...
And I think I am indeed punished for whatever I have done in my previous life (although thank god I am born a human and not a beast)
I got scoliosis when I was young.. and for the rest of my life now.. I have to carry two metal rods which is screwed into my spine in my back... even though i can still walk, run, swim, talk, hear like normal... (already much better than others and i am gladful for that).. I have to be on my guard becoz even falling down the stairs in the wrong way can kill..
And now I have a suspicious lump in my breast... went for a breast biopsy called Mammotome today to remove the lump so they can send it to the lab to test whether the lump is cancerous.. the operation was only for half an hour.. they give me anesthesia to numb out the breast area where they are going to do a small cut and insert a probe/needle.. other than that I am pretty conscious.. you know something is going on.. you know there is a wound and a needle poking into your breast.. it is just that you dun feel the pain.. how great.. i rather be knocked out.. by alcohol or whatsoever.. just let me sleep throughout so I wun know what the hell is going on..
Anyway i went through the entire thing and now i am back at home with a swollen breast... and pain.. I seriously have quite a high threshold of pain.. but i just hate the pain that comes after anesthesia beooz it is those that really got you off guard.. it is like a while you are okay.. the next thing u know u have pain in a area when you know you never even hit or cut yourself in.. the nurse asked me to take panadol if the pain is really intolerable.. but I think i rather try and survive through it.. and live with it... you know why? Pain is something you can get used to.. as in if it is very painful the first day and you survived through it without any medications.. you will feel less painful the next day.. but if you take medication to numb out the pain.. you will still feel the pain the next day and the whole cycle of pain and medication will continue until the wound heals.. which is not really advisable.. relying on painkillers and panadol.. So i am just going to make do with it.. and hopefully tomorrow will be better
The best thing is the doc gave me 8 days MC!!!! I was damn surprised to look at my MC and see the number 8... i looked at dar and went "they give me 8 days MC lei.." and he went "huh!! really ah" while looking at me in disbelief.... hahaha.. In normal circumstances.. i think anyone holding on to a 8 days MC will go WOOHOO!!! For me.. my reaction is more of.. "for what??"... Siao.. 8 days of nua-ing at home.. with no nice TV shows to watch, no holidays to go, no websites to surf, no games to play, no shopping to do... just wake up eat sleep wake up eat sleep will drive me BONKERS seriously... I remember previously when i plucked out my wisdom tooth i got a MC of 5 days.. in the end i only utilised dunno 1 or 2 days then i went back to work... 8 days lei... what to do...?? Damn it.. if I know i will get a 8 days MC i can rest for 3 days (as specified by the nurse that I shouldnt move much for 48 hours after the opp) then book a 5 days trip... damn it.. that would be such a great plan!!!! After all I have 14 days MC which 8 days will make full use of half of it..
Wasted.. damn it...
Saturday, April 05, 2008
What if I have cancer??
I seriously havent thought of that qns.. but there are some things in this world you will never know..
Watched a show in the morning and the female lead got cancer in the 3rd stage.. doc told her that she only have 3 months to live.. . treatment will only be to prolong her life not to cure... and she is the typical female lead who live her life happily and positively.. but such things got to happen to her... (typical of drama serials)... she decided to keep her illness to herself, didnt tell any of her best frenz including the one she love.. and she started finishing off whatever she need to do.. like handing over her business... spending time with her parents... telling her frenz to be happy etc...
And I thought to myself.. if I have cancer, what would I do??
Surely if it can be cured, I will go through any means to cure it.. but what if it cannot be cured?? What if it is already at the last stage?? Would i tell my frenz, my parents, my husband?? I remembered when i was in poly, our lecturer posted a similiar qns... what would you do if you are going to die?? I think everyone in the class said they will not tell the truth.. neither would they choose to hold on to the one they love.... i was the only one in the entire class who insisted on getting married to the one I love.. in order to fulfil my last wish... and it resulted in a debate between me and my classmates with regards to how selfish I am to hold on to the one I love even though I am dying...
Thinking about it now.. yes it is selfish.. what is my husband supposed to do after my death.. how sad and painful would it be for him to suffer the loss of his wife right after marriage....how long will he take to recover from the pain.. will he be able to move on in his life and marry someone else??
Would I have the courage and determination to keep it to myself and bleed internally by doing so... knowing that I wun be in this world, knowing that there is so many things that i havent get the chance to do, knowing that I wun be able to see the one I love, my parents and my frenz anymore... I still have to put on a false front and pretend that there is nothing going on... only to have all of them attend my funeral a few months later?? Would the hurt be there too??
Would it hurt more to tell or not to tell? Would it hurt more if I choosed to leave quietly with noone by my side?? Would it hurt more to see everyone in pain knowing that I will be leaving soon?? I wonder what my grandpa was thinking when he was lying on the sickbed struggling for his life?? Does he feel very upset to see everyone around him in pain and unhappiness because of his illness and yet there is nothing he can do... it seriously hurt to see him in pain but there is nothing i can do for him... to see his illness deteriorate day by day..at the beginning he still managed to cover up his pain and console me that everything is alright (even though I know is not..).. i guess at that point all he wanted was to spend more time with everybody while he is conscious.. but as he get worse.. he can no longer cover up his pain and it hurts everyone to see him in such great pain but there is nothing we can do to lighten it for him... at that point I think he can no longer recognise anyone... or perhaps he can but there is just no way he can express it to us.. if his mind is conscious.. i am sure lots of things are going through his mind... things he should have done.. things he shouldnt have done... I dun want to go through the same thinking process... because I know I still have alot of things i havent got the chance to do and fulfil...
So would it be better to die straight away or would it be better if you know ahead of time how much time you have left.. perhaps the latter might give you the chance to complete what you want to do... but the first option leave you without a choice at all.. neither do you have to go through the thinking process.. but the latter let you go through all the pain.. to see the pain ard you too... and most probably there will be so much things to do and you just cannot do enough then... for ex: you wanna spend more time with the one you love and your parents but you do not have enough time to do so...
Death is a natural thing in life.. one have to go sometime.. but how and when is the thing that people are scared of.. not death
Watched a show in the morning and the female lead got cancer in the 3rd stage.. doc told her that she only have 3 months to live.. . treatment will only be to prolong her life not to cure... and she is the typical female lead who live her life happily and positively.. but such things got to happen to her... (typical of drama serials)... she decided to keep her illness to herself, didnt tell any of her best frenz including the one she love.. and she started finishing off whatever she need to do.. like handing over her business... spending time with her parents... telling her frenz to be happy etc...
And I thought to myself.. if I have cancer, what would I do??
Surely if it can be cured, I will go through any means to cure it.. but what if it cannot be cured?? What if it is already at the last stage?? Would i tell my frenz, my parents, my husband?? I remembered when i was in poly, our lecturer posted a similiar qns... what would you do if you are going to die?? I think everyone in the class said they will not tell the truth.. neither would they choose to hold on to the one they love.... i was the only one in the entire class who insisted on getting married to the one I love.. in order to fulfil my last wish... and it resulted in a debate between me and my classmates with regards to how selfish I am to hold on to the one I love even though I am dying...
Thinking about it now.. yes it is selfish.. what is my husband supposed to do after my death.. how sad and painful would it be for him to suffer the loss of his wife right after marriage....how long will he take to recover from the pain.. will he be able to move on in his life and marry someone else??
Would I have the courage and determination to keep it to myself and bleed internally by doing so... knowing that I wun be in this world, knowing that there is so many things that i havent get the chance to do, knowing that I wun be able to see the one I love, my parents and my frenz anymore... I still have to put on a false front and pretend that there is nothing going on... only to have all of them attend my funeral a few months later?? Would the hurt be there too??
Would it hurt more to tell or not to tell? Would it hurt more if I choosed to leave quietly with noone by my side?? Would it hurt more to see everyone in pain knowing that I will be leaving soon?? I wonder what my grandpa was thinking when he was lying on the sickbed struggling for his life?? Does he feel very upset to see everyone around him in pain and unhappiness because of his illness and yet there is nothing he can do... it seriously hurt to see him in pain but there is nothing i can do for him... to see his illness deteriorate day by day..at the beginning he still managed to cover up his pain and console me that everything is alright (even though I know is not..).. i guess at that point all he wanted was to spend more time with everybody while he is conscious.. but as he get worse.. he can no longer cover up his pain and it hurts everyone to see him in such great pain but there is nothing we can do to lighten it for him... at that point I think he can no longer recognise anyone... or perhaps he can but there is just no way he can express it to us.. if his mind is conscious.. i am sure lots of things are going through his mind... things he should have done.. things he shouldnt have done... I dun want to go through the same thinking process... because I know I still have alot of things i havent got the chance to do and fulfil...
So would it be better to die straight away or would it be better if you know ahead of time how much time you have left.. perhaps the latter might give you the chance to complete what you want to do... but the first option leave you without a choice at all.. neither do you have to go through the thinking process.. but the latter let you go through all the pain.. to see the pain ard you too... and most probably there will be so much things to do and you just cannot do enough then... for ex: you wanna spend more time with the one you love and your parents but you do not have enough time to do so...
Death is a natural thing in life.. one have to go sometime.. but how and when is the thing that people are scared of.. not death
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Redang Island (March 20 - March 23 '2008)
WARNING: LONG POST
One week since I am back from Redang.. finally I have time on hand to upload my photos and write about it.. while dar is away to the workshop putting new rims for baby pica...
We took a free and easy package from Five Stars / Gurung Raya.. stayed at Laguna Redang Island Resort - Premier Seaview Room.. at first we just wanted the deluxe seaview room but it is all booked and not available so we went for the Premier Seaview..(thinking that perhaps the seaview is much better than deluxe room since it is more expensive)..
My parents in law drove us to Golden Mile Complex whaere we boarded our bus at 10.30pm... everything was fine until we reached Tuas Checkpoint.. there was a HORRIBLE jam!! surprisingly it wasnt the lorries, neither was the motorcycles & cars.. it was the tour buses... freaking long queue.. toopidz Mas Selemat.. anyway while we waited, me and dar dozed in and out of sleep and finally at ard 12 midnight we finally managed to clear the customs.. after like 1 and 1/2 hour later... sianz..
Anyway we did a stopover at Yong Peng at 2am in the morning.. Dar was hungry so he had mee rebus.. I was half asleep and half awake so I cant swallow any food neither do I dare to drink any water (considering the long journey ahead).. so after a short break it is back to the bus and we slept all the way.. not sure about dar.. ut I slept all the way.. not as in those super slam dunk.. those in and out type.. the bus aircon like dun need money.. my legs were super cold, I caught a flu and I was uncomfortable.. so I couldnt sleep well..
Expecting to reach Merang jetty at around 7am (from my parents previous experiences).. in the end by 10am we were still on the roads.. started to get a bit irritated and not even the nice coastal scenary along the way manage to cheer me up a little.. anyway when we finally got to the jetty at ard 11am, it was straight up the ferry hoping to get to the hotel as soon as possible.. tiring journey man...
On the ferry
Cant believe I still manage to smile
View from the ferry
not very nice la..
And finally we arrive
at REDANG!!!!
One little confession: this photo was only taken on the day we are leaving Redang and coming back to Singapore.. hahaha.. cant help it la.. too tired & hungry to take photos le..
Anyway when we got down, we were ushered to the arrival hall where we have to attend a briefing.. after the briefing the resort arranged for a tram to fetch us to the main reception which was about 10 mins walk away.. we got a welcome drink.. then we went to register for our room.. we got the room number but we cant check in yet.. only after 1pm they said.. so they gave us our meal vouchers and asked us to have our lunch first..
The idea of food sound nice.. even though i have no appetite.. got a spliting headache + flu + cough.. just not feeling very well.. anyway we still need to get some food in the stomach so off to the buffet restaurant we went.. I thought the food will at least be average considering that the resort is quite upper class.. but sad to say it wasnt nice at all..
Anyway we went to check in after a short lunch.. got our room keys and proceeded to our room.. I was quite looking forward to it but haiz perhaps I have too high expectations.. it was another disappointment again.. the only difference between Premier Seaview and Deluxe Seaview was the balcony.. as in we got a longer balcony than others and I thought the view will be much better.. but....
Our Premier Seaview balcony
View from our balcony
NO DIRECT SEAVIEW LO...*felt so cheated.. my view is blocked by tall palm trees / coconut trees and the buffet restaurant!!! Why would I want to pay that much to see the buffet restaurant!!! Yeh I do get a glimpse of the sea through holes here and there but still..!!
Anyway this got me really pissed... and my headache isnt doing me any good either.. so dar went to buy panadol.. I ate one and decided to go to bed in order to get some proper decent sleep... and this time me and dar really concussed... woke up around 5pm.. even though I am not feeling any better.. I decided to go take a walk with dar.. spent so much go there lay in bed a bit wasted ma.. right??
At least there is the clear blue sea, crystal clear waters and white sands...if not I sure vomit blood..
After that we went back to shower, then dinner at the buffet restaurant..(yucky dinner again.. not worth mentioning..). Headache came back.. suspect not enough panadol taken or panadol effect is gone.. dar suggested we go for a drink.. saying that perhaps some beer will do me some good.. so we went to the beachfront bar where there was a live band.. dar had 2 stouts and I had a tequilla sunrise.. then it was back to the room and straight to sleep..anyway we got to wake up early the next day for breakfast in order to go snorkelling at 9am..
First day is gone just like that.. fucking wasted... lousy me..
DAY 2
Woke up at 8am in the morning wanting to go for the 9.30am snorkelling trip.. headache is still there and dar checked my forehead temparture and thinks I am running a fever.. as much as i dun feel like getting out of bed.. i did but in the end we still decided to give the morning snorkelling trip a miss.. I think dar was quite upset even though he nv say..
Had another panadol and then we went for breakfast.. i only had some bread becoz bread will never go wrong!! and true to the fact it didnt ruin my breakfast.. didnt have anything else.. dar tried the nasi lemak and he commented that it wasnt very nice.. thank god I didnt try..
After breakfast, we decided to go swimming in the pool.. so we changed into our swimming costume and went for a dip in the pool and jacuzzi.. soaking there till about 1pm then we went for lunch.. (again not worth mentioning...). After lunch I was feeling much better so we decided to go snorkelling.. already the last snorkelling trip liao for our entire trip..so die die must go le... if not dunno go Redang for what..we went for the 2.30pm trip to Kalong Bay...
It was dar's first snorkelling trip so he was very exited!! But it was all good.. managed to see alot of fishes & beautiful corals (even though I commented to dar that it wasnt as nice as the one in Tioman.. I think my few swimming lessons did me some good as I could now at least swim through the water.. yippess... however i still ended up drinking a good amount of salty seawater.. oh and I got bitten by the fish.. becoz I tried to act clever by holding a piece of bread in my hand underwater to attract the fishes.. and in the midst of the fishes frenzy, one toopidz fish decided to bite me on my hand instead of the bread.. fish cant even see properly.. dotz..
After we got back to the resort, dar and I decided to continue snorkelling at the house reefs in front of our resort.. so off we went.. as it was in shallow waters, I cant really swim properly and I kept hitting onto rocks.. got quite frustrated.. next thing u know I felt a sharp pain on my thighs.. thinking that I might have brush myself against a rock, I stood up to check my wound.. there was small rashes popping up all over my leg... and it was painful!! I panicked and told dar i dun want to continue snorkelling anymore.. so dar and I returned to shore.. dar then suggested that we go to the medical bay to check out what is it.. and when we got there, it was closed... so we went to the dive center to return our snorkelling equipment.. I then decided to try my luck by asking the staff if they know what could have cause my injury since they have been there for so long and would have possibly see all kind of injuries.. the staff upon seeing the rashes immediately went to the first aid box and took out a bottle.. asking us to spray onto the rashes.. dar then asked what was it and he said jellyfish... I am like "wat!! jellyfish!!?? then how..?? what should I do.. could it kill me??....." Meanwhile dar sprayed the medication onto the rashes and asked the staff if everything is going to be okay.. dar asked "huh just like that can liao??" and the staff went (he couldnt speak english that well) "yeh okay okay.. go back relax.. nothing nothing.. "
I was really suspicious man.. but anyway I thought he must have encountered alot of such cases and probably know what to do.. so we went back to the room.. dar said that he saw a similiar spray at the grocery store so he went off to buy it.. After my shower, I sprayed the medication again and indeed the pain is gone and the rashes wasnt that red anymore.. so indeed the medication work...
Me and dar then went out to take photos since it is our last day at Redang.. and of coz must take while there is still sunlight right...
More More Tea Inn - from the movie Summer Holidays
SO BLUE.....
After the photo taking session, we then went for dinner.. finally the chef decided to buck up on his cooking skills and delivered a average meal on my last day at Redang... there was satay, grilled chicken wings and so so fried beehoon (already much better than the fried rice & noodles before)..
Even the moon at night seem more beautiful..
After a walk by the beach, we brought beer at the grocery store and went back to our room.. with the intention of fully ultilising the long balcony that we paid so much for... how toopidz right.. so there we were.. two silly idiots sitting at the balcony (while everyone was at the beach) with absolutely nothing to see.. chatting with one another over beer.. even Avillion fare much better since we had a proper seaview then.. .. anyway we drank and then we slept.. that is pretty much how we ended our last night in Redang.. sad case..
Before we end Day 2, let have a look at what the jellyfish have done to my leg.. absolutely amazing experience I would say.. sick for the first day, bitten by fish, stung by jellyfish.. hahaha..
Jellyfish wound - After medication
Day 3
Woke up damn freaking early at 7am for breakfast since we have to check out by 8.30am..
Sunrise at Redang
Again i stuck to bread for breakfast..quick breakfast then it is back to the room to pack & check out... walked to the jetty, took the ferry, onto the bus and back to Singapore.. nothing much to say about the trip back as nothing much happen.. other than it is a freaking long journey back loh.. hahaha... anyway I was expecting to reach Sin at around 7pm.. counting 9hours from Trengganu.. but haiz.. in the end we only got back at 11.45pm close to midnight.. there wasnt a traffic jam at the checkpoint though.. although there was a long queue of humans at the luggage checkpoint.. But that's expected la.. so no complaints..
Conclusion:
I always wanted to go Redang after watching the movie "Summer Holiday".. but I am not sure if the long journey is really worth it...
One week since I am back from Redang.. finally I have time on hand to upload my photos and write about it.. while dar is away to the workshop putting new rims for baby pica...
We took a free and easy package from Five Stars / Gurung Raya.. stayed at Laguna Redang Island Resort - Premier Seaview Room.. at first we just wanted the deluxe seaview room but it is all booked and not available so we went for the Premier Seaview..(thinking that perhaps the seaview is much better than deluxe room since it is more expensive)..
My parents in law drove us to Golden Mile Complex whaere we boarded our bus at 10.30pm... everything was fine until we reached Tuas Checkpoint.. there was a HORRIBLE jam!! surprisingly it wasnt the lorries, neither was the motorcycles & cars.. it was the tour buses... freaking long queue.. toopidz Mas Selemat.. anyway while we waited, me and dar dozed in and out of sleep and finally at ard 12 midnight we finally managed to clear the customs.. after like 1 and 1/2 hour later... sianz..
Anyway we did a stopover at Yong Peng at 2am in the morning.. Dar was hungry so he had mee rebus.. I was half asleep and half awake so I cant swallow any food neither do I dare to drink any water (considering the long journey ahead).. so after a short break it is back to the bus and we slept all the way.. not sure about dar.. ut I slept all the way.. not as in those super slam dunk.. those in and out type.. the bus aircon like dun need money.. my legs were super cold, I caught a flu and I was uncomfortable.. so I couldnt sleep well..
Expecting to reach Merang jetty at around 7am (from my parents previous experiences).. in the end by 10am we were still on the roads.. started to get a bit irritated and not even the nice coastal scenary along the way manage to cheer me up a little.. anyway when we finally got to the jetty at ard 11am, it was straight up the ferry hoping to get to the hotel as soon as possible.. tiring journey man...
Cant believe I still manage to smile
not very nice la..
One little confession: this photo was only taken on the day we are leaving Redang and coming back to Singapore.. hahaha.. cant help it la.. too tired & hungry to take photos le..
Anyway when we got down, we were ushered to the arrival hall where we have to attend a briefing.. after the briefing the resort arranged for a tram to fetch us to the main reception which was about 10 mins walk away.. we got a welcome drink.. then we went to register for our room.. we got the room number but we cant check in yet.. only after 1pm they said.. so they gave us our meal vouchers and asked us to have our lunch first..
The idea of food sound nice.. even though i have no appetite.. got a spliting headache + flu + cough.. just not feeling very well.. anyway we still need to get some food in the stomach so off to the buffet restaurant we went.. I thought the food will at least be average considering that the resort is quite upper class.. but sad to say it wasnt nice at all..
Anyway we went to check in after a short lunch.. got our room keys and proceeded to our room.. I was quite looking forward to it but haiz perhaps I have too high expectations.. it was another disappointment again.. the only difference between Premier Seaview and Deluxe Seaview was the balcony.. as in we got a longer balcony than others and I thought the view will be much better.. but....
NO DIRECT SEAVIEW LO...*felt so cheated.. my view is blocked by tall palm trees / coconut trees and the buffet restaurant!!! Why would I want to pay that much to see the buffet restaurant!!! Yeh I do get a glimpse of the sea through holes here and there but still..!!
Anyway this got me really pissed... and my headache isnt doing me any good either.. so dar went to buy panadol.. I ate one and decided to go to bed in order to get some proper decent sleep... and this time me and dar really concussed... woke up around 5pm.. even though I am not feeling any better.. I decided to go take a walk with dar.. spent so much go there lay in bed a bit wasted ma.. right??
After that we went back to shower, then dinner at the buffet restaurant..(yucky dinner again.. not worth mentioning..). Headache came back.. suspect not enough panadol taken or panadol effect is gone.. dar suggested we go for a drink.. saying that perhaps some beer will do me some good.. so we went to the beachfront bar where there was a live band.. dar had 2 stouts and I had a tequilla sunrise.. then it was back to the room and straight to sleep..anyway we got to wake up early the next day for breakfast in order to go snorkelling at 9am..
First day is gone just like that.. fucking wasted... lousy me..
DAY 2
Woke up at 8am in the morning wanting to go for the 9.30am snorkelling trip.. headache is still there and dar checked my forehead temparture and thinks I am running a fever.. as much as i dun feel like getting out of bed.. i did but in the end we still decided to give the morning snorkelling trip a miss.. I think dar was quite upset even though he nv say..
Had another panadol and then we went for breakfast.. i only had some bread becoz bread will never go wrong!! and true to the fact it didnt ruin my breakfast.. didnt have anything else.. dar tried the nasi lemak and he commented that it wasnt very nice.. thank god I didnt try..
After breakfast, we decided to go swimming in the pool.. so we changed into our swimming costume and went for a dip in the pool and jacuzzi.. soaking there till about 1pm then we went for lunch.. (again not worth mentioning...). After lunch I was feeling much better so we decided to go snorkelling.. already the last snorkelling trip liao for our entire trip..so die die must go le... if not dunno go Redang for what..we went for the 2.30pm trip to Kalong Bay...
It was dar's first snorkelling trip so he was very exited!! But it was all good.. managed to see alot of fishes & beautiful corals (even though I commented to dar that it wasnt as nice as the one in Tioman.. I think my few swimming lessons did me some good as I could now at least swim through the water.. yippess... however i still ended up drinking a good amount of salty seawater.. oh and I got bitten by the fish.. becoz I tried to act clever by holding a piece of bread in my hand underwater to attract the fishes.. and in the midst of the fishes frenzy, one toopidz fish decided to bite me on my hand instead of the bread.. fish cant even see properly.. dotz..
After we got back to the resort, dar and I decided to continue snorkelling at the house reefs in front of our resort.. so off we went.. as it was in shallow waters, I cant really swim properly and I kept hitting onto rocks.. got quite frustrated.. next thing u know I felt a sharp pain on my thighs.. thinking that I might have brush myself against a rock, I stood up to check my wound.. there was small rashes popping up all over my leg... and it was painful!! I panicked and told dar i dun want to continue snorkelling anymore.. so dar and I returned to shore.. dar then suggested that we go to the medical bay to check out what is it.. and when we got there, it was closed... so we went to the dive center to return our snorkelling equipment.. I then decided to try my luck by asking the staff if they know what could have cause my injury since they have been there for so long and would have possibly see all kind of injuries.. the staff upon seeing the rashes immediately went to the first aid box and took out a bottle.. asking us to spray onto the rashes.. dar then asked what was it and he said jellyfish... I am like "wat!! jellyfish!!?? then how..?? what should I do.. could it kill me??....." Meanwhile dar sprayed the medication onto the rashes and asked the staff if everything is going to be okay.. dar asked "huh just like that can liao??" and the staff went (he couldnt speak english that well) "yeh okay okay.. go back relax.. nothing nothing.. "
I was really suspicious man.. but anyway I thought he must have encountered alot of such cases and probably know what to do.. so we went back to the room.. dar said that he saw a similiar spray at the grocery store so he went off to buy it.. After my shower, I sprayed the medication again and indeed the pain is gone and the rashes wasnt that red anymore.. so indeed the medication work...
Me and dar then went out to take photos since it is our last day at Redang.. and of coz must take while there is still sunlight right...
After the photo taking session, we then went for dinner.. finally the chef decided to buck up on his cooking skills and delivered a average meal on my last day at Redang... there was satay, grilled chicken wings and so so fried beehoon (already much better than the fried rice & noodles before)..
After a walk by the beach, we brought beer at the grocery store and went back to our room.. with the intention of fully ultilising the long balcony that we paid so much for... how toopidz right.. so there we were.. two silly idiots sitting at the balcony (while everyone was at the beach) with absolutely nothing to see.. chatting with one another over beer.. even Avillion fare much better since we had a proper seaview then.. .. anyway we drank and then we slept.. that is pretty much how we ended our last night in Redang.. sad case..
Before we end Day 2, let have a look at what the jellyfish have done to my leg.. absolutely amazing experience I would say.. sick for the first day, bitten by fish, stung by jellyfish.. hahaha..
Day 3
Woke up damn freaking early at 7am for breakfast since we have to check out by 8.30am..
Again i stuck to bread for breakfast..quick breakfast then it is back to the room to pack & check out... walked to the jetty, took the ferry, onto the bus and back to Singapore.. nothing much to say about the trip back as nothing much happen.. other than it is a freaking long journey back loh.. hahaha... anyway I was expecting to reach Sin at around 7pm.. counting 9hours from Trengganu.. but haiz.. in the end we only got back at 11.45pm close to midnight.. there wasnt a traffic jam at the checkpoint though.. although there was a long queue of humans at the luggage checkpoint.. But that's expected la.. so no complaints..
Conclusion:
I always wanted to go Redang after watching the movie "Summer Holiday".. but I am not sure if the long journey is really worth it...
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Updates...
Everytime I open my own blog and hear this song... I will feel so touched, emotional and happy.. This is my march in song on my big day.. and at the same time this is the same very song that started off our relationship...
Just came back from a day trip to Mersing... went up with hubby in a car and my parents in law in their own car... nothing much there.. just to walk around and do something different..
Going to Redang on the 20th - 23th March over the Good Friday long weekend.. Stupid Mas Selamat is still nowhere to be found.. which most probably mean my tour bus will get stuck in the long queue of lorries & buses at the checkpoint.. sianz...but still looking forward to it.. i heard soo many beautiful testimonials about Redang.. it's time to see it for myself... blue crystal clear sea, beautiful corals & colourful fishes... here I come..
i realised I havent blogged about my big day eh.. it's been like one mth coming to two mth and I havent wrote anything that details it properly.. hahaha.. next time ba.. anyway i was looking back at my photos and i think my shoes didnt match my dress.. quite ugly.. but anyway it's my BIG day.. who cares about my dressing... I remember the day forever as my special day... the day I got married.. no matter what I am wearing, where i am marrying.. the most important thing is I got married.. hahaha..
Went back last weekend to have a small banquet dinner for my mum side relatives.. around 5 tables.. didnt really enjoy the dinner much.. quite boring... not as fun & comfortable as our solemnisation in which both me and dar kept walking ard and chit chatting with others.. that one we just sat there & ate through the entire dinner without even moving our butt.. wahahaha.. anyway I hope my grandma & my parents & my relatives at least enjoy the dinner..
K will update my blog again once I come back from Redang
Just came back from a day trip to Mersing... went up with hubby in a car and my parents in law in their own car... nothing much there.. just to walk around and do something different..
Going to Redang on the 20th - 23th March over the Good Friday long weekend.. Stupid Mas Selamat is still nowhere to be found.. which most probably mean my tour bus will get stuck in the long queue of lorries & buses at the checkpoint.. sianz...but still looking forward to it.. i heard soo many beautiful testimonials about Redang.. it's time to see it for myself... blue crystal clear sea, beautiful corals & colourful fishes... here I come..
i realised I havent blogged about my big day eh.. it's been like one mth coming to two mth and I havent wrote anything that details it properly.. hahaha.. next time ba.. anyway i was looking back at my photos and i think my shoes didnt match my dress.. quite ugly.. but anyway it's my BIG day.. who cares about my dressing... I remember the day forever as my special day... the day I got married.. no matter what I am wearing, where i am marrying.. the most important thing is I got married.. hahaha..
Went back last weekend to have a small banquet dinner for my mum side relatives.. around 5 tables.. didnt really enjoy the dinner much.. quite boring... not as fun & comfortable as our solemnisation in which both me and dar kept walking ard and chit chatting with others.. that one we just sat there & ate through the entire dinner without even moving our butt.. wahahaha.. anyway I hope my grandma & my parents & my relatives at least enjoy the dinner..
K will update my blog again once I come back from Redang
Monday, March 03, 2008
Heartwarming Wishes...
Jacelyn blogged about my solemnisation... view it here @ http://my-little-life-jacey.blogspot.com/2008/01/congras-christina-hubby.html
And to my surprise Lawrence did too.. but I only realised it today.. hahhaa.. reason being he dun update his blog often so I am too lazy to look into it...
But I was so bored today I checked into his blog to see if he happen to be in a good mood and write some updates.. and he did.. so I was reading and scrolling down today when I caught my name... and I paused.. and then I started laughing.. so typical of Lawrence... also at the same time so nice of him.. (in a duhz way) hahaha...
You guys can see his blog here @ http://eswee.blogspot.com/
It is really heart warming to see his "confessions" and his "true" feelings towards me.. Jace i dun mean anything eh... hahahahah.... that guy hates me.. for goodness sake..!!! How is it possible he say such nice things about me.. he cant wait to step me underneath his foot like an ant.. wahahaha
No la.. if our relationship is that bad I wouldnt have invited him to my solemnisation.. hahaha.. we started off real bad when I got posted to his store at Bugis Delifrance.. everything just dun click... I think there was a couple of times we screamed and shouted at each other too.. both stubborn and arrogant creatures and he is egolistic.. wahahaha.. he just cannot take it that I have a degree.. and I am a female.. but anyway things somehow work out and we both realised something good about each other.. he did find out my usefulness when it comes to paperwork.. and hmm he did some nice things for me also la.. i cant really remember.. oh.. when he first got his car.. he came and picked me up from work at Informatics to bring me to Mt Faber becoz he know I never been there before and always wanted to go to see the light bulbs.. hahaha..
But anyway now we are frenz.. even though we cant help but suan each other sometimes.. we are still frenz..
And so i wanna say thanks.. both to Jace & Law.. you two can share that one word k.. hahaha.. thanks for all the well wishes... I hope my turn will come soon to say congrats to both of you... Cheeers
And to my surprise Lawrence did too.. but I only realised it today.. hahhaa.. reason being he dun update his blog often so I am too lazy to look into it...
But I was so bored today I checked into his blog to see if he happen to be in a good mood and write some updates.. and he did.. so I was reading and scrolling down today when I caught my name... and I paused.. and then I started laughing.. so typical of Lawrence... also at the same time so nice of him.. (in a duhz way) hahaha...
You guys can see his blog here @ http://eswee.blogspot.com/
It is really heart warming to see his "confessions" and his "true" feelings towards me.. Jace i dun mean anything eh... hahahahah.... that guy hates me.. for goodness sake..!!! How is it possible he say such nice things about me.. he cant wait to step me underneath his foot like an ant.. wahahaha
No la.. if our relationship is that bad I wouldnt have invited him to my solemnisation.. hahaha.. we started off real bad when I got posted to his store at Bugis Delifrance.. everything just dun click... I think there was a couple of times we screamed and shouted at each other too.. both stubborn and arrogant creatures and he is egolistic.. wahahaha.. he just cannot take it that I have a degree.. and I am a female.. but anyway things somehow work out and we both realised something good about each other.. he did find out my usefulness when it comes to paperwork.. and hmm he did some nice things for me also la.. i cant really remember.. oh.. when he first got his car.. he came and picked me up from work at Informatics to bring me to Mt Faber becoz he know I never been there before and always wanted to go to see the light bulbs.. hahaha..
But anyway now we are frenz.. even though we cant help but suan each other sometimes.. we are still frenz..
And so i wanna say thanks.. both to Jace & Law.. you two can share that one word k.. hahaha.. thanks for all the well wishes... I hope my turn will come soon to say congrats to both of you... Cheeers
Monday, February 25, 2008
Long awaited photos (27th Jan 2008)
Photos from my solemnisation are finally up.. took me quite long to upload them due to their mega file size... 3 albums in total.. 1 from my studio shoot, 2 from the actual day by my good frenz Xiang Ling as well as my photographer..
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=n0fpqyq.14wqu0hy&x=0&y=9kvipq
Leave me some comments k.. hahaha
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=n0fpqyq.14wqu0hy&x=0&y=9kvipq
Leave me some comments k.. hahaha
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I am on the News!
Not public news... jus internal news bulletin.. Haha
But they accidentally spelled my husband name wrongly.. it should be KOH instead of GOH..
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Final Countdown
Less than 8 hours to the big day now..
Legs becoming more and more shaky..
Jialat.. starting to panic..(sweat)
Unable to calm myself down...
As much as I kept telling myself to relax..
Even though I kept telling myself nothing has changed much...
Legs becoming more and more shaky..
Jialat.. starting to panic..(sweat)
Unable to calm myself down...
As much as I kept telling myself to relax..
Even though I kept telling myself nothing has changed much...
Sunday, January 20, 2008
My Wedding Photos
Hmm I dun really have much time to edit all the photos becoz they are really huge files and will take tons of time to upload onto Blogger.. so I am just going to let you guys peek into the first 8... and then you guys will have to patiently wait for the rest to be up when I have the time again to edit and post..
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
More Frustrations, More Troubles..
I dun understand why everyone want to have a say on who to invite for my solemnisation.. is it my big day or theirs..?? Shouldnt have invite anyone in the first place.. invite also wrong.. dun invite also wrong.. invite this nv invite that also wrong...
Hello if it is ur big day.. i dun freaking care who u invite k? I just get my invitation and go down... no more questions...
I get questions like "why didnt you invite your bosses, why didnt you invite blu blu blu, why you invite that place, why you do buffet and not banquet dinner, why you not wearing a wedding gown.. why this why that!!!" Wah piangz eh!!!
Firstly I am not having my solemnisation at a kopitiam k... if not I can pretty much invite whoever that walk in to the kopitiam and treat them to a plate of char kway tiao anytime..!!! I have a budget and pax numbers to work with!!!!
Dar said "u dun go freakingly invite those people that you never contact in a year or more one hor.. for wat?? that is not the time for gathering lei!!" True la.. thus I can only invite people I am close with right...if not I will most probably end up with the whole of my secondary school, the whole of my polytechnic, the whole of my university, the whole of my office, the whole of my social circle... whoever that walked into my life before right?? like that i just treat all to pancakes can liao la.. since my mum operating a stall selling pancakes.. everyone just come sit in the kopitiam and eat pancakes enough liao.. then people will ask "how come you only treat people to invite pancakes"... still can complain.. even better... machiam now i am providing a service and you are the one being serviced.. what is this world changing to??!! Now i getting married also need to satisfy my guests machiam like they are my clients.. if not they will complain...
Hello I invited you.. good enough.. you want you come.. you dun wan you shut up!!! at first thought of inviting only 30 paxes.. then the list stretches to 50.. and now it is overflowing to 60.. and there is still the "invite this must invite that" names still coming in... I am not increasing my list anymore le.. this is nv ending... cap at 60.. max le.. dun give myself more headache..
Imagine I already have so much problem confirming pax count for a buffet.. imagine a seat down dinner.. still have to confirm whose coming and arrange seating arrangements.. good luck guys!!!
Hello if it is ur big day.. i dun freaking care who u invite k? I just get my invitation and go down... no more questions...
I get questions like "why didnt you invite your bosses, why didnt you invite blu blu blu, why you invite that place, why you do buffet and not banquet dinner, why you not wearing a wedding gown.. why this why that!!!" Wah piangz eh!!!
Firstly I am not having my solemnisation at a kopitiam k... if not I can pretty much invite whoever that walk in to the kopitiam and treat them to a plate of char kway tiao anytime..!!! I have a budget and pax numbers to work with!!!!
Dar said "u dun go freakingly invite those people that you never contact in a year or more one hor.. for wat?? that is not the time for gathering lei!!" True la.. thus I can only invite people I am close with right...if not I will most probably end up with the whole of my secondary school, the whole of my polytechnic, the whole of my university, the whole of my office, the whole of my social circle... whoever that walked into my life before right?? like that i just treat all to pancakes can liao la.. since my mum operating a stall selling pancakes.. everyone just come sit in the kopitiam and eat pancakes enough liao.. then people will ask "how come you only treat people to invite pancakes"... still can complain.. even better... machiam now i am providing a service and you are the one being serviced.. what is this world changing to??!! Now i getting married also need to satisfy my guests machiam like they are my clients.. if not they will complain...
Hello I invited you.. good enough.. you want you come.. you dun wan you shut up!!! at first thought of inviting only 30 paxes.. then the list stretches to 50.. and now it is overflowing to 60.. and there is still the "invite this must invite that" names still coming in... I am not increasing my list anymore le.. this is nv ending... cap at 60.. max le.. dun give myself more headache..
Imagine I already have so much problem confirming pax count for a buffet.. imagine a seat down dinner.. still have to confirm whose coming and arrange seating arrangements.. good luck guys!!!
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Frustration...
I dun think anyone can understand how frustered I am feeling now...
The big day is coming nearer and nearer... yet I dun feel a bit of happiness at all.. All I seriously hope deep down is that day will pass with me being happy and no major crop-ups.. pretty sad right?? I am a perfectionist... as much as I am expecting crop-ups.. I cant tolerate them... and I surely hope there isnt any....
All I feel is frustration...
I thought I will be very happy to plan all the little details.. but now I realised time is the thing I dun have...
All I have is 3 weekends left.. and usually I will be feeling so tired after a week of work that I dun even feel like doing anything at all expect for staying at home and nua... yet I have to drag my feet out to finish all the unfinished stuffs..
And more and more problems just keep popping up from nowhere... and it is starting to make me regret again why I find more trouble for myself in the first place by having a solemnisation buffet... I should have just go on a ROM honeymoon in Maldives...
My thoughts are since I already booked the solemnisation, might as well do it to the best I can... but then you simply just get more troubles along the way...
Dar auntie asked her children to be our page boy and flower gal.. that wasnt part of my plan... and now I have 2 additional things to bother and coordinate about...
Dar just got promoted at work... but his staff just left him so he is basically alone.. that make things even worse.. becoz I dun want to bother him with the minor details so i took them upon myself to make sure everything goes as planned..
I wanted to finish all preparations as soon as possible.. so that the day before will be all clear for me to enjoy some quiet times with my family... and besides I never like to do things last min as it makes me more frustrated and kan chiong.. but looking at my tight schedule.. I might still be rushing around trying to get things then.. how sad....
I think we finally managed to persuade his frenz not to get him drunk on that day.. becoz all things can happen once he get drunk and that is cetainly not the sight i want to see... but still nothing can be guranteed.. been asking my frenz (whoever can drink) to help in prevention.. and hopefully they are able to prevent anything bad from happening.. but when you have a crowd of more than 50 people.. I think crowd control is going to be a damn difficult thing to do... And besides I always hate entertaining.. yet this time I have / need to do the exact same thing.. I am just not as onz as I am in the past.. i think that comes with age... as you grow older, you just want things to do as planned in the book and you no longer can take anything outside the book...
Been searching ard for the ideal wedding guest book but till date, couldnt find any... feel like giving up but the mind just cannot let go... then there are others... started simple ended up making it more and more complicated... how funni..
Just hope the big day will run smoothly... no more complications.. no crop ups...
The big day is coming nearer and nearer... yet I dun feel a bit of happiness at all.. All I seriously hope deep down is that day will pass with me being happy and no major crop-ups.. pretty sad right?? I am a perfectionist... as much as I am expecting crop-ups.. I cant tolerate them... and I surely hope there isnt any....
All I feel is frustration...
I thought I will be very happy to plan all the little details.. but now I realised time is the thing I dun have...
All I have is 3 weekends left.. and usually I will be feeling so tired after a week of work that I dun even feel like doing anything at all expect for staying at home and nua... yet I have to drag my feet out to finish all the unfinished stuffs..
And more and more problems just keep popping up from nowhere... and it is starting to make me regret again why I find more trouble for myself in the first place by having a solemnisation buffet... I should have just go on a ROM honeymoon in Maldives...
My thoughts are since I already booked the solemnisation, might as well do it to the best I can... but then you simply just get more troubles along the way...
Dar auntie asked her children to be our page boy and flower gal.. that wasnt part of my plan... and now I have 2 additional things to bother and coordinate about...
Dar just got promoted at work... but his staff just left him so he is basically alone.. that make things even worse.. becoz I dun want to bother him with the minor details so i took them upon myself to make sure everything goes as planned..
I wanted to finish all preparations as soon as possible.. so that the day before will be all clear for me to enjoy some quiet times with my family... and besides I never like to do things last min as it makes me more frustrated and kan chiong.. but looking at my tight schedule.. I might still be rushing around trying to get things then.. how sad....
I think we finally managed to persuade his frenz not to get him drunk on that day.. becoz all things can happen once he get drunk and that is cetainly not the sight i want to see... but still nothing can be guranteed.. been asking my frenz (whoever can drink) to help in prevention.. and hopefully they are able to prevent anything bad from happening.. but when you have a crowd of more than 50 people.. I think crowd control is going to be a damn difficult thing to do... And besides I always hate entertaining.. yet this time I have / need to do the exact same thing.. I am just not as onz as I am in the past.. i think that comes with age... as you grow older, you just want things to do as planned in the book and you no longer can take anything outside the book...
Been searching ard for the ideal wedding guest book but till date, couldnt find any... feel like giving up but the mind just cannot let go... then there are others... started simple ended up making it more and more complicated... how funni..
Just hope the big day will run smoothly... no more complications.. no crop ups...
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Happy New Year 2008!
The title says it all...
New year resolutions to be written soon... (that is when i have e time)
Been busy watching Huang Zhen Yi recently... Seriously beautiful, touching, emotional and sad....
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