I dun think anyone can understand how frustered I am feeling now...
The big day is coming nearer and nearer... yet I dun feel a bit of happiness at all.. All I seriously hope deep down is that day will pass with me being happy and no major crop-ups.. pretty sad right?? I am a perfectionist... as much as I am expecting crop-ups.. I cant tolerate them... and I surely hope there isnt any....
All I feel is frustration...
I thought I will be very happy to plan all the little details.. but now I realised time is the thing I dun have...
All I have is 3 weekends left.. and usually I will be feeling so tired after a week of work that I dun even feel like doing anything at all expect for staying at home and nua... yet I have to drag my feet out to finish all the unfinished stuffs..
And more and more problems just keep popping up from nowhere... and it is starting to make me regret again why I find more trouble for myself in the first place by having a solemnisation buffet... I should have just go on a ROM honeymoon in Maldives...
My thoughts are since I already booked the solemnisation, might as well do it to the best I can... but then you simply just get more troubles along the way...
Dar auntie asked her children to be our page boy and flower gal.. that wasnt part of my plan... and now I have 2 additional things to bother and coordinate about...
Dar just got promoted at work... but his staff just left him so he is basically alone.. that make things even worse.. becoz I dun want to bother him with the minor details so i took them upon myself to make sure everything goes as planned..
I wanted to finish all preparations as soon as possible.. so that the day before will be all clear for me to enjoy some quiet times with my family... and besides I never like to do things last min as it makes me more frustrated and kan chiong.. but looking at my tight schedule.. I might still be rushing around trying to get things then.. how sad....
I think we finally managed to persuade his frenz not to get him drunk on that day.. becoz all things can happen once he get drunk and that is cetainly not the sight i want to see... but still nothing can be guranteed.. been asking my frenz (whoever can drink) to help in prevention.. and hopefully they are able to prevent anything bad from happening.. but when you have a crowd of more than 50 people.. I think crowd control is going to be a damn difficult thing to do... And besides I always hate entertaining.. yet this time I have / need to do the exact same thing.. I am just not as onz as I am in the past.. i think that comes with age... as you grow older, you just want things to do as planned in the book and you no longer can take anything outside the book...
Been searching ard for the ideal wedding guest book but till date, couldnt find any... feel like giving up but the mind just cannot let go... then there are others... started simple ended up making it more and more complicated... how funni..
Just hope the big day will run smoothly... no more complications.. no crop ups...
