Once a fortune teller told me.. i am a bad mother in law in my previous life who poisoned and killed my own daughter in law.. thus this life i have to suffer and pay back my debt.. the only way I can redeem myself is to do more good and be a vegetarian.. I tried being a vegetarian before but i did it only for full 3 weeks (lunch and dinner was all tofu & vegetables.. got so sick of tofu after that).. I tried being a vegetarian on every 1st and 15th of the lunar month. but in the end i did not have any determination and pesistance to continue it for the entire of my life..
And I think I am indeed punished for whatever I have done in my previous life (although thank god I am born a human and not a beast)
I got scoliosis when I was young.. and for the rest of my life now.. I have to carry two metal rods which is screwed into my spine in my back... even though i can still walk, run, swim, talk, hear like normal... (already much better than others and i am gladful for that).. I have to be on my guard becoz even falling down the stairs in the wrong way can kill..
And now I have a suspicious lump in my breast... went for a breast biopsy called Mammotome today to remove the lump so they can send it to the lab to test whether the lump is cancerous.. the operation was only for half an hour.. they give me anesthesia to numb out the breast area where they are going to do a small cut and insert a probe/needle.. other than that I am pretty conscious.. you know something is going on.. you know there is a wound and a needle poking into your breast.. it is just that you dun feel the pain.. how great.. i rather be knocked out.. by alcohol or whatsoever.. just let me sleep throughout so I wun know what the hell is going on..
Anyway i went through the entire thing and now i am back at home with a swollen breast... and pain.. I seriously have quite a high threshold of pain.. but i just hate the pain that comes after anesthesia beooz it is those that really got you off guard.. it is like a while you are okay.. the next thing u know u have pain in a area when you know you never even hit or cut yourself in.. the nurse asked me to take panadol if the pain is really intolerable.. but I think i rather try and survive through it.. and live with it... you know why? Pain is something you can get used to.. as in if it is very painful the first day and you survived through it without any medications.. you will feel less painful the next day.. but if you take medication to numb out the pain.. you will still feel the pain the next day and the whole cycle of pain and medication will continue until the wound heals.. which is not really advisable.. relying on painkillers and panadol.. So i am just going to make do with it.. and hopefully tomorrow will be better
The best thing is the doc gave me 8 days MC!!!! I was damn surprised to look at my MC and see the number 8... i looked at dar and went "they give me 8 days MC lei.." and he went "huh!! really ah" while looking at me in disbelief.... hahaha.. In normal circumstances.. i think anyone holding on to a 8 days MC will go WOOHOO!!! For me.. my reaction is more of.. "for what??"... Siao.. 8 days of nua-ing at home.. with no nice TV shows to watch, no holidays to go, no websites to surf, no games to play, no shopping to do... just wake up eat sleep wake up eat sleep will drive me BONKERS seriously... I remember previously when i plucked out my wisdom tooth i got a MC of 5 days.. in the end i only utilised dunno 1 or 2 days then i went back to work... 8 days lei... what to do...?? Damn it.. if I know i will get a 8 days MC i can rest for 3 days (as specified by the nurse that I shouldnt move much for 48 hours after the opp) then book a 5 days trip... damn it.. that would be such a great plan!!!! After all I have 14 days MC which 8 days will make full use of half of it..
Wasted.. damn it...
