Preparation for my wedding......

Haha dun get shocked by my title... I am not getting married yet neither am i preparing for my wedding....

It is all a dream.... Yes... Yesterday i dreamt that i am getting married... I am looking around for a bridal package consisting all of my needs.. Trying on wedding gowns.... Looking for my wedding ring and my honeymoon destination... In my dream i am so happy, blissful and rosy... (you know happy people deep in e sea of love always have this rosy feeling shown from e face? That's how i look la)

i think hor i think too much about getting married man.. Plus so many of my frenz getting married.... And plus my office is located above a long stretch of bridal studios lo.... Oh my god....

Christmas is coming....

Yup yup Christmas is coming soon... Can you feel it?

Last year Christmas... Me and dar enjoyed ourselves... We went to Orchard to look at e Christmas light ups... We went to Mt Faber to look at e tallest Christmas tree and got ourselves scared by e sudden explosion of fireworks.... We went to Ginza Pub for e largest gathering of frenz and e wildest celebration for Christmas countdown.... That party was one of e best i guess... We made an advanced reservation for 10 people... Instead more than 10 turned up... Alex, Yeeling, Jesper, JX, Mag, Wenliang and many many more.... We sprayed e entire pub white... With artifical snow and confetti. Dar became a snow man within a few seconds trying to protect me from his frenz spraying tricks.....

What's up for this year? My appt book is open 4 booking liao...

Stories on the MRT 4

Not all ang mos babies are cute you know....

There is this ang mo baby is screaming and crying himself hoarse right now in e mrt... I dun think he is cute lo... Even though i do have maternal instincts myself too....

E mother or nanny... (who is an indian) simply let him cry and scream lo... Wah piangz... Despite e numerous stares from e MRT passengers...

Can i press e red button on e train? There is a human baby "bomb" on e train...

Stories on the MRT 3

Two small little ah-lians are staring / glaring / looking at me now as in i am some freak from outer space lei...

And it is not one of those stares hor when you look up and catch their eyes, they will look away one you know.... they still continue to stare right at me lei!!!.... like got two pairs of eyes & four eyeballs penetrating through me

wah piangz what is wrong with kids nowadays..?

Nice song, meaningful lyrics

Jaci Velasquez - Imagine Me Without You

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you

I can't imagine me without you

Reservist

Qns: What happens when u have a frenz who is doing his part for e nation on reservist?

Ans: U get wake up sms at 5.20am in e mrning.

Very nice smses wishing u gd mrning n showing how much he cares (by waking u up 3 hours b4 ur appointed waking time). *duhz* All becoz he is on night shift n cannot slp. So he picked up his phone n started playing with it. N i happen 2 be e few names he picked on his sms list.

BUT BUT

Mr L.W.E.S u forgot that in e modern days, mobile phones have a silent mode waiting to be chosen under e profiles list... Haha i am not toopidz u know.... Neither am i that much of a phone idiot to ignore that 'miserable small yet wei da' function on my mobile

*winner*

Genting Trip (14th - 16th October)

Ok.. I am meeting dar at 10am to collect our Batam vouchers for tomorrow.. so let do a very quick one.. Hahaha...

14th October 2006 (That is about a month ago.. can't believe I am soooo late).. me and dar went up to Genting.. first proper bus trip...(not on a bike this time)....havent been up to Genting for quite some time oredi.. surprised at the so many changes that have come along so far... however still very much amazed by the same two things (the cold weather and the clouds).. just like when I was young.. hahaha

Genting: City of Entertainment in the sky!! 
On the bus at 6.30am in the morning 
Still smiling, still smiling.. 
 
At Genting while waiting for our lunch 
I like this picture alot.. i think the mixture of colours are very nice 

At Starbucks having a nice hot coffee in the cold weather 
Our first couple tees




Start of the Genting Skyway journey into the rainforest!!... actually the cable cars arent as scary as I thought.. although it is quite steep.. but it is actually quite nice... as you can see in the following few pics



Start of our indoor theme park rides... hahaha just like two little kids...  
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Okok not enough time.. dar is here!! got to go liao.. I will tidy up when I get back on Monday!! Yippess!!! Batam here we go!!!

Stories on the MRT 2

Do some people in SG really have so much work to do...? Do they really have no time to finish it all...?

Why do they have to hold on to their laptop while barely balancing themselves on the MRT? Dun they think it is damn troublesome editing documents and writing reports / proposals in this way?

Or are they just trying to act it all? Pretend that they are super busy, super hardworking or super rich to own a thin laptop?

Stories on the MRT 1

My day today start off with a weird incident on e MRT. Dunno to laugh or to cry...

I was sitting besides 3 poly guys (I assumed they are poly guys because they got off at D***R)on e MRT towards Jurong today... When suddenly the one next to me turned to me and asked me a question out of the blue..

Guy: "Are you from ** poly?" (Assumption made : on the way to Jurong.. only 2 possibilities)
Me: "No?"
Guy: "Then which poly u study in? ** poly?"
Me: "....." Hello! I finished uni liao lo!
Me: "No I not studying le.. I working now..."
Guy: "Huh? You finished poly liao meh?"
Me: "Yes..."
Guy: "How old are you?"
Me: "24...?"
Guy: "Dun bluff..."
Guy's Frenz: (Decided to join in the fun) "Cannot be la..."
Me: "....."
Me: "What you mean cannot be la... i am 24yrs old.. finished poly 4 yrs ago, finished uni 2 years ago and now working liao...." *duhz*
Guy & Frenz: "....."

I think those guys got my hint and shutted up... Apparently they think I small mei mei.. easy to tackle and sian..hello.. you so many years younger than me.. still think i younger than you meh.. wan to tackle lao char bo me... wait long long ba.... hahahaha

But come to think of it hor.. i really look that freaking young meh??

Death of a relationship....

What leads to death of a relationship..?

It certainly doesnt happen overnight..

Given a case of a third party / a mistress / a gigolo in a relationship, one wun / cant fall in love with another guy / ger overnight.. (unless it is love at first sight.. which I dun bloody hell believe in..... I mean it will be toopidz to break off with your bf / gf for someone you love at first sight right??

Or maybe one partner had a one night stand with someone else and you happen to find out about it... but unless you catch your bf / gf on the spot with the other party... you will most likely only find out about that after some time... but come to think about it... that is surely not the one and only one night stand ur bf / gf has... you might have just caught the 37th one.. which means your bf / gf has been out playing for quite some time oredi..

You certainly wun run out of topic to talk to one another overnight.. (like yesterday you were still chatting about everything under the sky and today you totally have nothing to chat about...)

The only thing I can think of that will break up a relationship overnight is maybe both of you had a super doopy big agrument.. and you think no point being together anymore.. and both of you really broke off overnight... but it will still take some time before you will reach that eruption stage right??

Ok why am I saying all this... I am thinking since nothing can break up a relationship overnight.. it means that warning signs should have shown the alert that your relationship is collapsing, crumbling and falling out of pieces long ago right? Then what are the warning signs to look out for....?

1. You have nothing to chat to one another.. complete silence over the phone or when you go out... and this situation last for a few days continually..to a few weeks... (if it really lasts for a few weeks.. oh my goodness arent u bored??).. you will most likely have already give up talking to each other by then man...

2. You no longer do things together... or maybe you dun even have the urge to see each other.. ex: each of you have ur own plans for the weekdays or the upcoming weekends...not inclusive of ur partner in ur plans.. and this situation too last for a few days / weeks... so end up you havent seen each other for a few days to a few weeks...

The two scenarios are the most common killers in a relationship.. but I had one comical scenario... that is.............

3. When you happily put in a relationship / married on ur Friendster Account when you are attached / happpily married, all the while uploading sweet photos of you and your bf... BUT suddenly you removed all the photos leaving no trace of your bf / gf and change the status back to single...

If your bf / gf starts doing that.. beware man.. they are trying to get themselves hooked up with someone else... hahaha

I hate year end...

I seriously hate year end.... not becoz Christmas or the New Year is coming... not becoz I will need to start racking my brains for Christmas exchanging of presents... not becoz I have tons of weddings to attend resulting in a hole in my pocket...

Becoz becoz I have tons of people calling me with regards to how much I am getting for my year end bonus.!!! Pls la people.. can you just give me a break..?? I know I am lousy, I know I am poor, I know I am useless so stop comparing with this miserable chap here can or not?? Stop stepping on me as if I am grapes from the vineyard...!!

I seriously dun understand why people like to call me...am I such a good example for comparsion?? Why cant you find someone better to compare with?? Someone who is higher and much better than you... set some standards for yourself can or not?? Why people like you like to compare with those who you know cant match up to you...?? WHY WHY WHY!!!! dun start calling me out of the blue pretending to be nice... chat with me about my life, my relationship, my work.. and then the topic starts to divert to.. "hey where you working now huh? oh ang moh company hor.. bonus should be not bad right? How much you getting for your year end bonus this year huh?" fuck off la.. if you are seriously my frenz I bet you will be more concerned about how is life with my family, how is life with my bf and how is life for me on the overall right?? Rather than how much my pay is and how much year end bonus I am getting...

Not only my frenz.. my aunties and uncles also start calling me around this period of time... "hey how are you huh? where you working at now huh? my son / daughter working at blu blu blu company you know... his / her pay is $3600 per month and this year hor he / she getting 4 mths bonus leh!! how much you getting for your year end bonus huh?? No bonus... why??? Cannot be la... how can your company so lousy.. never even give one mth bonus!!" What is wrong with these people... why are you so interested in my pay and my bonus... it is my life wat!! Nothing to do with you right??? 4 mths, 6 mths... let me tell you now and for all ok.. I GOT NO BONUS THIS YEAR LA.. SO STOP ASKING ME THAT FUCKING TOOPIDZ QUESTION ABOUT MY BONUS!!! I got a lousy job in a lousy company, with a lousy pay and no fucking lousy bonus ok??

Idiots!!! Seriously idiots.. fuck off you bloody morons!! the next person who is going to call and ask me anything about my year end bonus... I am going to seriously ask the person to fuck off from my bloody life!!!

New couple on the block..

I must blog about this man.. there is no way I can cover up the happiness I am experiencing now...

Two of my best buddies in Australia are getting married... I am soooo happie for them you know... haha...

They came together during the final year of our university life... the guy was one of my best mates in Aussie.. we practically attended most of our classes together, did most of our projects together, chiong clubbing together, get drunk together.. haha... and he lived just opposite me... hehee... the female was a frenz although not very close until they became together as a pair...I was encouraging the guy to go after the ger for quite some time and he didnt have much confidence that the entire thing might work out.. but it did... and when we finished our studies in Aussie, we all kinda of splited up when we came back to our own countries... the guy to Malaysia, the ger to Indonesia and me to Singapore...

Met the guy during New Year this year in Batu Pahat.. oh one of the reasons why I clicked with the guy was becoz he is from Batu Pahat too.. hehehe.. he lived somewhere near when my grandparents live currently... hehe.... anyway I met him at Seaview Restaurant at Batu Pahat.. he happens to be there with his frenz and I was there having reunion dinner with my entire family tree... and we were so shocked and happy to see each other there.. U cannot believe it.. haha

But anyway their long distance relationship between Malaysia and Indonesia has been going on for about 2 to 3 years now..ever since we came back from Australia... and you know how miserable it is.. to fly to each other country every half a year to meet for only a couple of days? But I am so glad everything worked out and now THEY ARE GETTING MARRIED...

Congratulations Mr Koh and Diana.. (soon to be Mrs Koh!!) Wish you two ever lasting happiness..

Quite accurate personality test results...

You are Orange Panther, who is emotional and gentle, but are also fragile and have graceful atmosphere

Inside, you are rather proud, and have inner strength.

Your personality is passionate, and will not give up what you have decided half way through. You have perseverance.

You are not very skilful, and believes you are dependent and weak minded yourself. You have great talent in coming up with new ideas and creating things.

You have will power to challenge anything, but tend to lack the last push. mYou don't become inpatient even if you are put in a difficult situation.

You have a capacity to find a way to overcome a difficulty with calm. Your negotiation tactics are brilliant.

In daily life, you are influenced by your preferences, and may act unreasonably. You are also calculative, and become persistent.

Nevertheless, you are sociable person, and can be passionate on things you do.
You have a quality to be a leader.

You are rich in originality, and can come up with new ideas from existing things.
You can find better ways from them.

After marriage, you can be obsessed with your children's education. You may find something worthwhile to do out side your home.

Try it yourself at http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/result.php

人生的失去

有些东西我不想等到失去了才来后悔。因为有些东西失去了，就无法挽回。

有些东西如钱财等失去了，你还能再去赚回。但人的生命却是永远地消失，永远都无法挽回。

到那时才来后悔有很多东西还没跟身边关心你和你关心的人做，很多话还没说，都己经太晚了。因为他(她)永远都不会在回到你身边。

Song on my blog...

I got many friends reading my blog asking me about the music piece that is playing in the background...

Very nice right?? Hehehe.. I like it alot myself personally... and I am glad so many people share the same sentiments as I do...

The title of the music piece is "Kiss The Rain".. the writer is a Korean pianist by the name of Yiruma...to know more about him, you can check out this website http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yiruma. He do have his own fansite at www.yiruma.com.. however that is all in Korean.. so I didnt bother to check through it...

Other than this music piece, he has various other works that are also very nice, smoothing and beautiful... You can listen to some of his works here at http://www.91blog.com/user1/1072/archives/2005/5363.shtml and http://www.myspace.com/yiruma

Enjoy folks...

Bad dream at night vs fear in reality

Yesterday night I had a very bad dream...

I dreamt of the following scenario .............

It was a long boring day and I was alone at home... surfing through the net ... looking through some popular gal's blog (who I dunno and I am not personal frenz with)... there is this new blog entry about the writer meeting up with a guy that she really like... they went on a date today to the seaside.... she was writing about how much she love this guy... how well this guy treat her... how much fun they have together.... and right after the trip to the beach... they went to take neoprints together... she had attached the neoprints to the blog entry.... scrolling down through the pictures.. I saw a familiar face...

I know the guy in the neoprints.. the exact same guy I have spent my life with, the exact same guy I have taken my marriage vows with.... how can it be? Maybe it is just another guy who looks alike... maybe it is not him..... maybe .............

Thoughts flashes through my mind as I continue staring at the neoprints..... he has been coming home late due to work... he said he has been very busy..... he hasnt been spending much time at home even during weekends... we no longer go out together... we no longer eat dinner together..... we no longer have any physical contacts.. but but his work has been busy... i cant blame him for being so busy and tired due to nature of his work can't I?.... I never dare to call or msg him at work... it wouldnt be nice to disturb him when he is so busy handling so many other things.... and i trusted him not to lie or cheat on me.... he said he will never do anything like that.... then who is this guy in the prints then??

Tonight I waited for him to come home.... again he was home late around midnight... the same routine happen tonight as with many other nights.. he went into the shower and then straight to bed... both of us never speak... everything happen in silence... so silent I can hear the wind blowing from the airconditioner.... the room suddenly seem so cold....... and me... I suddenly feel the pangs of loneliness haunting me from the shadows... maybe he is tired from a rough day of work.. in the silence, I finally mustered out the courage to ask... "on XX day & XX mth.. did u go out with ABC gal?" He turned around and stared at me in the eyes... "why did u ask?"... I replied in a shiver "I saw neoprints of you and her on her blog".. he turned on his back.. looking at the ceiling he replied "so you found out................"

My mind turned blank..... I wanted to cry but I can't............. my heart feel cold even though it is already in bits and pieces... that wasnt what I wanted to hear... I wanted to hear the word no... I wanted some comforting words to tell me that he still love me... and he will always do... like in the past.... he promised to love me forever till eternity... he made a promise that nothing of such sorts will ever happen to me... then why is it happening now..?? Did i do something wrong... if not why he love another gal now......... what does the ger have that i dun... why he dun love me anymore... why did he tell me he is busy at work.... we are married... we took the vows to stay with each other through all ups and downs in life, till death do us part... have he forgotten all about that?? why cant he just hug me like in the past and asked me not to think too much.... that everything is going to be ok and alright....

In the midst of my thoughts he said "you should have realised long ago that this marriage is gone.. there are no longer feelings between us... there is no way we can continue living like this anymore u know... why dun we just get a divorce and relieve each other of the heavy load... at least we might be happier... and maybe you will find someone better"... is this the end?? after so many years of marriage... this is all it has come to?? what should I do? what can I do??

I woke up at 4am in the morning in sweat.. even though my air con is switched on at 23 degrees celsius. People say dreams represent fear in real life... in the day whatever you think of, whatever you are afraid of.. it remains in your sub conscious resulting in dreams at night... and yes I do agree to that... because I do have a fear of losing you.... just like someone clinging on to the edge of a cliff... I feel myself clinging on to you...... our occasional conversations involving pretty & beautiful gals with good figures further add on to my insecurity.. resulting in the downs of my confidence level ......... External beauty is something that I do not have and can never provide.... yet I find my inner beauty diminishing with all the negatives thoughts and fears.... questions seem to forever run hrough my head.. how long can I hold you for? will I ever lose you from my side....? will things like that ever happen.. maybe not now.. what about in the future... 10 years, 20 years, 30 years, 40 years down the road?

I guess I will never know the answer till the day I die... but it did make me sleepless for now...

Marriage...

everyone is getting married... when is it my turn!!!

can you guys wait for me or not?? why all run ahead one sia... maybe we can have a double or a mass wedding ma... that will be so fun loh... at least help me to save a few bucks in the pocket.. wahahaha

coming to end of the year... i got 3 wedding invitations one after another... this does not include people i know is getting married and whose weddings i am not invited to loh... including that will make a total of 6!!

incredible sia... hehehe

hmm... on my side lei.. i am still deciding between a car or a wedding..?? hahaha... wah piangz what kind of choices are that sia... it is now or never loh.. you either buy a car and postpone the marriage plans or get married but forget about the car...

hmm.. after serious thinking and consideration.. i think i will stick with the car for now... wahahahaha... for those who are pain-stakingly waiting for my wedding invitation, who keep on asking when am I getting married... do you mind buying me a car first..?? a small KIA Picanto will do... hehehe.. then I will get married immediately... hehehe

Daddy Birthday..

On the 19th October this year, we had a grand celebration for my daddy's birthday. This year with a new addition to the family.. my dar! Hehe.. anyway he is already considered part of the family sooner or later... *orh dar dar*

We went out for dinner at Blk 306. Just a simple dinner with seafood, spare ribs, assam fish head, yam and veggies. Was thinking of Crystal Jade actually but thought otherwise. Anyway it was a cheap and tasty alternative considering that we might be paying for the bill at the end of the meal.. ultimately we didnt.. becoz my dar lost the battle with my stubborn daddy.. haha...

Then while walking back home from Blk 306, we stopped by "the Cake Shop" at Marsiling Mrt to buy him a cake... daddy just keep on insisting that he dun wan a cake.. but anyway we went ahead regardless his constant reminder... SO we brought the following cake (see below).. quite special I suppose.. considering that it is chocolate and peppermint.. actually i am not a fan of mint.. but I just thought it is a good change as compared to the usual chocolate, cream and fruit cakes that we have been eating for so many years... taste is still ok.. although my mum complained it to be a little too sweet...

 
 
My daddy with his cake 
And in the morning of his birthday, we last min decided to order a birthday present for him (which happens to be the second most expensive present I have ever gotten for my daddy so far.. the most expensive was a hotel stay at Marina Mandarin a couple of years ago when somehow I got a discount voucher for that hotel.. this of coz does not take into account the expensive dinners we had the previous years)... anyway this year me and dar decided on a table fountain named Cascading Waterfall from Far East Flora.. ordered that over the Internet and rushed to have it delivered the same day... I like it alot... I think it is very beautiful... what do you think??.. maybe because all along I always have a soft spot for anything to do with water....

 
  

Contentment

On 18th Oct 2006, a 40 years old Chinese man died after jumping into e tracks of an incoming MRT train at Chinese Garden. Behind e tragedy unfolds a truly heart breaking story.

The deceased n his family were ants (becoz they were very poor) living in e rich materialistic realistic world of Singapore. Money is an important factor, never to do without. Food, water, shelter education all need to be brought with money. How much you get depends on how much money you have. The more e merrier of coz.

E family of 4 survived on a bare min of $1400 for a double income n $500 when e deceased loses his job. Here i am complaining that my pay (of similar range to their double income) is never enough for myself.

They lived in a 3 room flat with e bare essentials. A dining table, a study table, a small tv, matresses for a bed, a wardrode n fans were basically so much of what they have. They often have to go hungry n often only get to survive on maggie mee. They can't afford anything much more than the necessary essentials. N here i am complaining that i wan more features in my room (including a larger bed, a water feature, a bigger wardrode etc) and tasty foods in expensive restaurants. N never once in my life have i tasted the pangs of hunger.

I think i or we should really re think about how lucky we are to have all that we have and all that we have achieved. There are people out there who survived n live days by days on e bare min n here we are chasing the ever more gains.

Love in my life...

I am not e most perfect person in this world... Maybe I am e most inperfect one. Indeed I do have flaws in me... Alot in fact....

But I am so glad that in my past 23 (coming to 24) years of life journey, I have found so much love in my life. Love from my family, love from my frenz, love from my darling especially.

Thank you all for loving me for who I am, despite all my flaws. Just like a mountain flower accompanying a ugly looking rock high up e snow capped mountains.. You all shine up my life... And make me feel that life is so precious and beautiful... That I never ever want to risk losing you in my life