Summ 2006

Time flies really and we are now near to the end of 2006. Time to summarize the whole entire year and set new resolutions for the new year of 2007!! (In order to do this summary, I have to read back all my blogs in the past one year… then I realize one thing… how come I got so many blogs!!) *aiyoz*

Ok here we go….

I started year 2006 with dar at Chevrons - Litque & Peiling's chalet together with JX, Mag, Jinlong, Ah Xiong, Wenlin, Alex etc etc… the night is filled with drinks & tons of laughter…

I quitted my job at Informatics..my last day was a emotional one... with a farewell gathering among some of my nice colleagues Ms Teo, Sharifah, Shiwei, Lay Yong, Thomas, Tim, Julian.... Dar came and fetched me off work becoz I had too much barang barang to carry home... after being free and jobless for a while, Dar and me both got ourselves a new job.. He started his new job at Changi Airfreight Centre around Feb... his first job after handing his retail business to his parents.... and me.. I started off my new job at a online media company Bunkerworld around March... and we are still doing well in our job till now... everything seems to be going smoothly and well under control...

Dar dar got his first bike, an X9 scooter at the beginning of the year mainly for transportation purposes... I was so scared and most unwillingly to ride on it at first.. but dar managed to help me overcome my fear and everything become so natural after... we went into JB to pump petrol a couple of times as well as to get our hands on some very cheap and good food in JB such as the begger chicken at Gelang Patah...around May we even drove the X9 all the way to Malacca... the first trip which also happen to be the furthest and the last trip ever made on a bike... we stayed at Shah Beach Resort and had a very nice, sweet and romantic short holiday away from home together with Zhaowei and Lily who went with us too.. however they went in a car and stayed separately at Rivera Bay.. the lousy bike took us all the way to and from Malacca... even though we had major problems with it during the trip.. at least it still manage to send us back to SIngapore safely before it died on us... then dar got himself a new bike.. a Yamaha XXX... he is damn proud of it at first.. as it looked superb cool with the two side panniers / boxes by the side... everything was going well until July.. when darling met up with an accident... his first accident in the many many years of riding... I freaked out.. luckily it was a minor one and he wasnt that hurt other than a fractured leg... thanks god.... dar went on a 1 mth plus MC... we wasted some money... but I still think it is a blessing in disguise.... I think our relationship went a step further during this entire incident as it seems to bring us closer together... but I guess ever since that accident.. i think we both had a little bit of phobia when it comes to riding.. so after many months.. we decided to sell the bike and finally we sold it this month... yippess!!!

My fifth auntie and her entire family drove out during Chinese New Year from Batu Pahat for a holiday... we brought them to the Science Centre specially for the 3 kids.. and me intelligently took on the co-driver position but being the road idiot, I got lost in Singapore…despite the numerous times dar reminded me on the correct route to take.. ahhaa… how can this ever happen to me…haha so after my first day blunder, my dar took the co-driver for the second day and led the way to Sentosa… it is also the first time my darling officially made an appearance in front of my family and my relatives... he was worried about it.. but I guess it all went well in the end... Then during the beginning of November, me and dar went up to Genting Highlands… first bus trip and we really enjoyed ourselves… hehe.. dar love the weather and I love being with him… hehehe… we took the cable car, we took the theme park rides, we gambled and win lots of money (but lost almost all when we are leaving.. sad case)… anyway it was fun… then almost one or two weeks after that, we went to Batam for my birthday… hahaha.. first time visiting Batam and we two spent some nice neat time together… going on a trip with dar is always fun to look forwards to…

However I got "seperated" from my dar a couple of times this year too... first during Chinese New Year when I got to make my way back to Batu Pahat for a reunion dinner... nowadays we tried to make our way back to BP as much as possible now ever since Grandpa got diagnosed with the final stage of cancer.. but he is a strong one... he has experienced World War 2, he has been to the toughest of the toughest experiences as a sailor... he will survive in there I am sure... second time when i got to attend my cousin's wedding in Batu Pahat too.. a grand affair I would say for simple Malaysians like us... but who cares.. she & her hubby got tons of money to spend as she is marrying a Korean American and moving to the US.. you get shitloads of money just by exchanging currency rates between US dollars and Malaysian RM.. what else more can you hao lian about ...third time when I went up on a road trip to KL, Cameroon Highlands and Selangor together with my parents, my fifth auntie and her entire family... visited a couple of places like the Kuantan Fireflies Park etc.... then there was one time when darling got to go back to Batam to attend his cousin's wedding….. as much as we tried to do everything together, sometimes it just didn’t work out perfectly… I am sure things will change when we get married and priorities change…

I got a lot of happy news this year….we attended Wenliang's new born baby boy’s first month aniversary celebration .... the post-ROM celebration of Huiqi and Yingyao at their chalet in Pasir Ris, dar attended Yongsheng & Lynn's wedding at Orchid Country Club and Quiwen's wedding at Sheraton Towers.. and I attended Aisha's wedding together with some of my poly mates and I got Koh & Diana wedding coming up in Pontian end of the year which I dun think I will be attending... Eying and Blacks are also getting married end of the year...together with Chermaine & her hubby (whose name I didn’t manage to catch)…Rob got married and gave birth to a new baby boy around May in Australia... I didnt get the chance to give her my best wishes... and I didnt get the chance to hug the new baby.. so sad.... hehehe.. but she is doing well... good for her..
hmmm so now everyone is asking when it will be my turn.. hahaha... I go back to Batu Pahat every relative asked me the same question.. I go out with dar’s relatives kana shoot the same question also.... do i have the words "I WANT / NEED TO GET MARRIED" written all over my forehead??

I took my basic theory test in August and I passed!! So happy with my results... especially after failing it 5 times in Aussie.. hahaha... on my way to my Advanced Theory .. I actually booked my Advanced Theory in Sept but I chickened out last min becoz i didnt have enough time for preparations and i just wasnt that confident enough to pass it.. so I postponed it till today and I flunked it again… damnzit!!!! Why is the bloody thing so tricky and difficult… haiz.. never mind… dar said try again.. at least now I know which parts to concentrate on… coming 16th Jan 2007, I will once again enter into the examination hall and take the final theory test… wish me luck guys…

I got a couple of new hairstyles this year.. for people who have been reading my blog for a long time.. you would have seen pictures of my new hairstyle.. for people who have no idea about how I look.. please kindly refer back to my archives and search through it month by month.. hahaha... but anyway I did some new hairstyles this year and i looked good man!! Hahaha not that i am praising myself for being pretty (which in fact I am not) but i think the new hairstyles are a good change for me...

Ok I think I have basically done it all… hahaha… I seriously cant remember much anyway… sooo many things to summarize

It's Christmas....

Yes yes it's Christmas.. Merry Christmas everyone!!! Cheeros...

This year me and dar wasnt as active as last year.. last year we went to Mt Faber to see the spectacular light display and the Christmas lightings at Orchard... we didnt do anything special at all.. reason being we didnt had any transportation... hahaha...

But anyway this year Christmas Eve we went to One Night Stand at Clarke Quay together with his colleagues and superiors for drinks.... reached there at 8pm... very early in fact... there wasnt even a soul in the pub yet during that time excluding people working there.. hahaha... but anyway the pub started to get really packed as time get closer to Christmas... they have a live band that started around 10pm.. the gers are superb sexy... I just cant take my eyes off them.. so think about the guys.. they must be drooling like crazy... but anyway they took a break around 11.30pm i think and the dance floor got really heated up.. hahaha... the countdown wasnt really that fantastic i would say.. as compared to last year at Ginza where everyone just went crazy spraying artificial snow and popping balloons... hahaha.... but it was ok... i got dar by my side... hehehe.... and we danced.... dar first time saw me dance.. and he thought i danced quite well.. hahaha.. quite a compliment lei... hehehehe....

Anyway we still got tons of drinks at the end of the day.. abt 7 bottles of stout unaccounted for... hehehe... everyone is already half tipsy and noone is willing to step with the drinks so me and dar started hiding a few bottles underneath the table... wahaha.. anyway his boss is paying for it not us.. so who cares... then we ran off together with his boss.. hahahaha... cant make it sia... i shall not let history repeat itself.... so i dragged darling away before anything ugly happens...

That's basically it for my Christmas eve... i hope everyone enjoy themselves man... hehehe

Continuation for Christmas...

We slept in on Christmas Day till late.. hehehe... had lunch, laze around the house for a bit more in the afternoon, did some cleaning up for his room... then went out at 6pm to meet the guys for dinner at 1063 Seafood Restaurant at Sembawang Road for dinner... Wenliang and Tammy brought their baby boy!!! Hhehe.. super cute but I dun seem to be very good at kids lo... Wenliang asked me to hug the baby but I dun dare to carry becoz I scared i carry in the wrong position.. then the kid just looked at me only.. started crying... arghhh * scratches head* anyway I think the baby quite hard to manage becoz we havent start dinner yet, the baby just keep on crying non stop so Tammy and Wenliang decided to bring the baby home first before joining us for dinner... JX, Ah Xiong, Xiao Shun and YongLin joined us for dinner too... we ordered damn lot of food sia... black pepper crabs, chilli crabs, sweet and sour pork, sambal kangkong, "three cups chicken" steamed fish, butter sotong... for 8 persons all for SGD 140! damn cheap sia... ahahha... I must go back there and eat crabs again... hehehe... anyway after dinner we proceeded to the nearby Nelson Pub for drinks... one barrel SGD 50.. so they just kept the barrels coming non stop... until it reached the point i think my stomach cannot take it liao sia.. bloated and full..... eeks i hate beer still... anyway we started playing dice... hahaha.. long time never play.. quite fun... Xiao Shun kana the most... hehehe... drink non stop... anyway we left around 11pm becoz i need to come home and study for my advanced theory test today (which i flunked.. damnzit).. Ah Xiong and Jinlong came in two different vans to pick us up... so each of us took one.. Dar took Jinlong's van and I took Ah Xiong and all together they sent me home!!... ahhaha..

I think dar and me are getting the frustration without any transportation at all.. no bikes no car... cabs so expensive.... how??

Stories on e MRT 6

Hiding in e corner of e MRT, with my ear phones plugged deep into my ears listening to darling retro music...

Then i turned around and see someone damn familiar....

Alamak. Ah Beng!!

Still rushing to tiu on e MRT. Still bragging on his mobile phone... Aiyooo

Dream again.......

I came home from work and saw your car parked underneath our block... quite surprised to see it as it has been a long time since you last came back home early at 7pm.. however there was a lady sitting inside... very pretty gal with permed hair, nice complexion, nice figure... dressed in smart office wear with a pink lace spaghetti top and a black bazzar jacket... I have never seen her before.. but not surprisingly becoz I have never met any of your office colleagues before anyway...

I went upstairs trying not to think too much about things.. maybe you dropped by to pick up some documents that you have forgotten... reaching our doorstep, I could hear our kids crying.... "Daddy dun go... daddy dun go...." My heartbeat stopped.... almost completely... you were standing there in the living room... holding on to your suitcase.... big suitcase... like you were going away for a few years.... or a long long holiday.... our kids are holding on to my hands, hugging me crying.. asking me to stop you from leaving... "mummy mummy.. ask Daddy not to leave..."

I stared at you.... while you slowly walked over to me with your suitcase.... you stopped right in front of me... and passed me a yellow envelope... "Inside are the divorce papers... I have already signed mine"..... my heart went blank... maybe even dead.... I mumbled almost to myself... "why...?? after alll that we have been through....... this is how you treat me........?" I looked up at you... and you stared back at me blankly.... with no facial expression.. and no emotions at all.... at that point i no longer see love.... and i know i will never see your smile again........... now you will only smile for someone else.... not me, not for the kids..... i know there is no place for me or the kids in your heart... becoz it has long been gone.......... I hate myself.... hate myself for trusting you, for believeing in you, for supporting you.... what do I get in exchange..? Nothing..... nothing at all.... wasted my youth, wasted a few years of my life and stuck with a burden of debts and kids..... and you just happily walked out of me like that...continue your life elsewhere with another ger... just like you have never even participate in any of these from the beginning............ and expect me to continue with the rest.....................

"what about the house...." I said. "sell it off and we split the remaining.........." nice reply..... nice answer.... so where do I go... where do the kids go?? now i realise the selfishness of humans... they only think about themselves... never about others.......... never about me, never about your kids.... what have I done to deserve all these?? after all these years, when you are at the lowest... I was the only one by your side... i was the only one who was besides you through scraps and scrimps.. never have I complain a single word... and now that you are successful in life, you no longer need me... neither do you want me.... yah... I shld have seen this coming.....

"is there nothing left for you to stay....? what about your kids, what about your family... our family?".... listening to your answer shattered my heart...nthing can be worst then to hear the truth from your mouth when you said..."look at you.. you are forever a turkey... dun even know what i see in you in the first place... no looks, no figure, no money... dunno how to cook a proper meal, dum and toopidz... with no fucking intelligence... totally lousy............. how can u match up to me??"

Yeah.. when we are both turkeys... you cant look for a dragon becoz they are flying too high and you can never reach out to them... but now that you have become a dragon...... u have forgotten about the turkey who encountered and supported you to flap your wings and learn to be a dragon......... you have completely forgotten everything......... in your eyes, you only see dragons and the wide blue sky... no more about turkeys and the brown dirty ground..............

Driving myself insane.....

Ya... I think I am really driving myself nuts...

I missed him sooo much... last week I was away to Batu Pahat for my grandpa's birthday dinner... and I only managed to rush back to SG and meet him for less than 6 hours on Sun night....

Yesterday night he went out for dinner with his clients... and after that went to drink... I was so sick I could hardly stay awake in bed to wait for him to get home.. but before I went to sleep, I got him to promise me that he will sms me when he reach home... in the end I woke up at 4am in the mrning in a shock to realise there isnt any sms on my mobile...... first thought that came to my mind... he must have drank so much, got so drunk and reached home sooo late that he didnt remember / didnt manage to sms me.... after that, I drifted in and out of slp for the remaining of the early mrning.. until 8 when I smsed him to double check he is safe and sound... and i got a reply from him and I was so relieved to see that... after making sure he got to work safely at 9am.. I went back to slp... and this time i managed to crash in till 12noon....

He gave me a call around afternoon when he was at work.. as he was busy, we didnt get to talk much... i didnt want to disturb him during his work too as he needs lots of concentration to prevent errors and mistakes... so the next time we spoke it was ard 4pm when he got home after work... he said he want to go rest for a while.. and ya i agreed that he should really go and take a rest.. considering that he got back home so late last night, and only managed to get so little slp before having to wake up again for a long stretch of work early this morning.... and he got a wedding dinner to attend ard 7pm tonight so he should need all the rest he can....

Now that he is away attending his frenz wedding dinner... i really miss him alot.... i really dunno... maybe i am just so used to having him besides me whenever he or I go.. so now that we are doing things seperately on our own, by ourselves... I just cant put myself to ease.. blame it on my wild imagination, blame it on my low confidence... blame it on whatever... even though he will tell me where is he going, and what is he doing...

i dunno...thoughts are running wild in my mind.. is he drinking alot now.. is he drunk now... is he safe.... is he tired... is he talking properly... smoking i know i cant control.. there is just this horrible fear whenever he drinks especially without me by his side... in fact he did change... i know he only drinks occasionally now.. seriously he dun drink as often as he used to... only once or twice a month when he meet up with his frenz etc... but i am scared whenever he go drinking with his frenz.. somehow everything will spun out of control and he will always end up drinking too much.... i cant imagine.. really...

Am i not understanding enough??

I cant control him right, can I? I do expect to go out with my frenz too.. even though not to drink... I do expect to have my own freedom sometimes too... I also threw him alone in Singapore over the weekend to go back to Batu Pahat especially when he is not working both on Sat & Sun... and he got to spend both days alone at home without me... So this is only one Fri and Sat when he has his own activities planned out... I cant complain right??

I think the missing element is just too strong beyond my control... so strong until I become selfish... so strong until I want him for my own.... so strong it is driving me nuts...

Batam .......

After the last Genting trip to celebrate our 1 yr aniversary... we went for a 1 night trip across the sea to Batam Island for my birthday!!... I know it is another long wait for my Batam photos.. hahaha... sorry guys...here are the photos....

 
 
Me and darling on the ferry waiting to set off to Batam Island.. even though we boarded the ferry quite late, luckily we still manage to get the open deck seats.. yiippesss... sea breeze and the sun.. here we go 
Out at sea... cooling man 
Arrival at Batam Island, this photo was taken at the only restaurant at KTM Resort where we were staying for the night 
Our beachfront villa.. very pretty and nice considering I always love such wooden chalet style accommodation.. 
However the weather wasnt quite good when we arrived though... huge storm coming our way.. look at how dull and angry the sky is... dark and gloomy welcome to Batam.. 
After the storm, we setted out for a exploration walk to check out neighbouring areas... but our camera got all misted up due to the aircon in the room.. just like when we were in Genting.. hehe 
The backside of our chalet... there is this wooden bridge walkway to the front door.. so cooll.... 
Huge Kwan Yin statue overlooking the sea right in the middle of the resort 
The sea behind me 
Beautiful landscape.. how can me and dar not take a picture together.. 
 
 
Marking Christina and Rikk offical arrival as a pair at KTM Resort... we have been here / there before!!  
You see my chalet on slits? The first one from the left... hehe...the next time we wan to get the family style villa on the top... hahaha  
Oh.. we just love the sea..... 
Us and Kwan Yin Godness 
 
 
We can actually see the night landscape of SIngapore from our chalet / villa (whatever you call it)... and we tried to take many many photos of the beautiful scenary but all photos turned out to be a failure so we turned the camera and shot ourselves instead.. waahhaah turned out quite nice le... hahaha 
 
 
 
Oh you see the rows of chalets right in front.. those are actually the spas villas.. i went for one of their massages.. they are super good you know.. and becoz of its good location on the rocks, you hear the sounds of natural waves splashing on the rocks.. not from CDS anymore.... beautiful... so beautiful you wont want to doze off and miss the entire experience...and I took some artistic photos that turned out really nicely blue... woah.. I am so proud of my photo taking skills... 
 
 
 
 
 
Ok last photos at KTM Resort before check out and bye to Batam 

Ok that is all for photos... missed out on quite alot of details actually... like the spas people, the good view from the spa villa, the nice food that we ate.... never mind la... i got my previous memories...

After we checked out, we went for a one day tour around Batam, shopping and shopping only loh.. quite boring.. nothing much to buy also really... the original POLO tees are real cheap but becoz me and dar both soo small size, very hard to find the correct size so we gave up looking.. ended up buying a packet of crackers back to SG.. damn cheapo sia.. as if Singapore cannot find...

Wedding Preparations 2....

Ok.. I am a bit kiasu... but all the thoughts are already in my mind lo.. dunno why also.. i am not preparing to get married so easily and early also wat... damnz toopidz brain and mind...no determination and persistence at all...

Anyway... I went searching for everything relevant today.. (since i am bloody hell sick, stuck at home and have better nothing to do)... in the end ended up with tons of questions but no answer... haiz.. must start preparing early la.. if not sure make a mess of it one... how can I make a mess out of my wedding!! dotz...

Location? outdoor or indoor? in a four walled room, by the beach or in the nature? then where....?? four walled room.. you got lots of choices... community centres, hotels, ROM private suites, yacht clubs, Suntec, restaurants... BUT BUT i dun want a four walled ceremony for my solemisation. that is going to be soooo boring lo.... so it must be somewhere outdoor then... (unless objection raised, suggestion shall be overthrown)...

By the waterfront or pooside you got yacht clubs, Aloha chalets and hotels... very nice lei.. but very expensive wor... actually i thought of Sembawang clubhouse (I have been there before with darling for drinks and the toopidz restaurant there is blocked by lots of yachts in front...) saw a few couples holding their solemisation ceremony at Singapore Yacht Club and Changi clubhouse.. wah chio sia... haiz...

I think i am sticked on to the last option unless a better and cheaper alternative comes along.... in the nature should be it ba.. anyway it was decided to be Romantic Garden at the Registry of Marriage long time ago due to budget restraints.. and that is one of the places that allows buffet catering which serves me well since I am not planning for a wedding dinner also... let just invite all frenz and relatives to buffet and let them know I am officially married... wahahaha simple and easy... no hassle at all... BUT hor.. today I found two new places: one is The Olive Ristorante & Café at Labrador Park (but they only serve western food and both my families are traditional chinese), another is Altivo at Mt Faber..

Ok frenz without transportation will start scolding me for that becoz both places are super doopy out of the way... wahahahahaha.. I think me and darling found this place at Sembawang beach that have a very nice platform overlooking the beach (covered by trees)... that was long time ago.. but again.. it is a ulu place..and the restaurant serves Western cusines as well.. haiz.. back to square one.. why are all the nice places out in the middle of no where? anyway I am still open for options so hmmmm let see what else I can find ba

See... location already so ma fun liao.. I was checking out the ROM website then it says "We would also appreciate your helping us keep ROM pleasant and clean for all marrying couples by not showering things such as flowers, rice, confetti, etc.".... watz!!! no rose petals on the ground for me?? but i have been sooo looking forward to stepping on rose petals for my wedding.... it is a MUST lo.... haiz....... this is so frustering.... hahaha

Then there is still the rings, bridal package , the gown and suit, make up, bridal bouquet, videography, photography, wedding guest book, wedding invitation cards, ring pillow (do you know the ring pillow that I found quite to my liking costs $80!!!! you can see it here http://www.elflinks.com/product%20photos/Ring%20Pillows/ring_pillows.html).... dotz... just a pillow lo.. to be used once and then kept away in the cupboard costs near to 100 bucks...!!!!arghhh why so expensive....??? Maybe I shld find something sweet and simple.. something like these two... Ring Pillow 1 or Ring Pillow 2. Seriously what the big deal about the pillows huh?? Hahahaha...

Sick and still sick...

My nose tap is running non stop....

I have a bloody headache spinning through my head messing up my brain cells....

My body feels like a volcano in the middle of the Arctic Circle....hot lava flowing on the inside, icy cold on the outside....

My heart is thumping like I just finished a 20km marathon...

I just feel so sicko!!

Stories on e MRT 5

TOOPID AH BENG.!!!!

A real Ah Beng ( i mean those really with power one ) will never act like one lo... They will most likely be dressed in a broken tee and shorts with slippers... Sitting in a kopitiam drinking coffee...

Those only know how to act one will be bragging about his history over his mobile on e MRT. "Who who is in trouble i rushing down to settle... You help to find who who first and wait for me to reach" (settle problem you still take MRT, take cab liao la....) "you know hor i have been to jail before for hurting people lei why would i be sacred of such things"

talking like a Ah Beng (e vulgar hokkien ah beng language) on e MRT is just so "xia suai" sia

Dying attraction....

Sometimes I wonder....

When e attraction between a couple dies out.....

When e conversation topics run dry.....

When e time spent together get lesser and lesser.....

What happen next?

Does it give a couple a reason to go out have fun, fling or have a second relationship as a mean to find e another someone out there more suitable?

Does it give a reason for a couple to break up and use e excuse of we are not right / suitable for one another?

I seriously wonder......

A . C . C . T in a relationship

What is trust in a relationship? Is it just as simple as trusting you that you will be forever faithful and never do something that betrays me and my feelings for you?

What is committment in a relationship? Is it just as simple as staying together for e lifetime with you and only you?

What is acceptance in a relationship? Is it just as simple as accepting you for who you really are and never expecting anything more that that?

What is compromise in a relationship? Is it just as simple as letting you do what you like despite my unwillingness ignoring / burying my true feelings underneath?

Preparation for my wedding......

Haha dun get shocked by my title... I am not getting married yet neither am i preparing for my wedding....

It is all a dream.... Yes... Yesterday i dreamt that i am getting married... I am looking around for a bridal package consisting all of my needs.. Trying on wedding gowns.... Looking for my wedding ring and my honeymoon destination... In my dream i am so happy, blissful and rosy... (you know happy people deep in e sea of love always have this rosy feeling shown from e face? That's how i look la)

i think hor i think too much about getting married man.. Plus so many of my frenz getting married.... And plus my office is located above a long stretch of bridal studios lo.... Oh my god....