I came home from work and saw your car parked underneath our block... quite surprised to see it as it has been a long time since you last came back home early at 7pm.. however there was a lady sitting inside... very pretty gal with permed hair, nice complexion, nice figure... dressed in smart office wear with a pink lace spaghetti top and a black bazzar jacket... I have never seen her before.. but not surprisingly becoz I have never met any of your office colleagues before anyway...
I went upstairs trying not to think too much about things.. maybe you dropped by to pick up some documents that you have forgotten... reaching our doorstep, I could hear our kids crying.... "Daddy dun go... daddy dun go...." My heartbeat stopped.... almost completely... you were standing there in the living room... holding on to your suitcase.... big suitcase... like you were going away for a few years.... or a long long holiday.... our kids are holding on to my hands, hugging me crying.. asking me to stop you from leaving... "mummy mummy.. ask Daddy not to leave..."
I stared at you.... while you slowly walked over to me with your suitcase.... you stopped right in front of me... and passed me a yellow envelope... "Inside are the divorce papers... I have already signed mine"..... my heart went blank... maybe even dead.... I mumbled almost to myself... "why...?? after alll that we have been through....... this is how you treat me........?" I looked up at you... and you stared back at me blankly.... with no facial expression.. and no emotions at all.... at that point i no longer see love.... and i know i will never see your smile again........... now you will only smile for someone else.... not me, not for the kids..... i know there is no place for me or the kids in your heart... becoz it has long been gone.......... I hate myself.... hate myself for trusting you, for believeing in you, for supporting you.... what do I get in exchange..? Nothing..... nothing at all.... wasted my youth, wasted a few years of my life and stuck with a burden of debts and kids..... and you just happily walked out of me like that...continue your life elsewhere with another ger... just like you have never even participate in any of these from the beginning............ and expect me to continue with the rest.....................
"what about the house...." I said. "sell it off and we split the remaining.........." nice reply..... nice answer.... so where do I go... where do the kids go?? now i realise the selfishness of humans... they only think about themselves... never about others.......... never about me, never about your kids.... what have I done to deserve all these?? after all these years, when you are at the lowest... I was the only one by your side... i was the only one who was besides you through scraps and scrimps.. never have I complain a single word... and now that you are successful in life, you no longer need me... neither do you want me.... yah... I shld have seen this coming.....
"is there nothing left for you to stay....? what about your kids, what about your family... our family?".... listening to your answer shattered my heart...nthing can be worst then to hear the truth from your mouth when you said..."look at you.. you are forever a turkey... dun even know what i see in you in the first place... no looks, no figure, no money... dunno how to cook a proper meal, dum and toopidz... with no fucking intelligence... totally lousy............. how can u match up to me??"
Yeah.. when we are both turkeys... you cant look for a dragon becoz they are flying too high and you can never reach out to them... but now that you have become a dragon...... u have forgotten about the turkey who encountered and supported you to flap your wings and learn to be a dragon......... you have completely forgotten everything......... in your eyes, you only see dragons and the wide blue sky... no more about turkeys and the brown dirty ground..............
