A fast update... the time now is 12.17am in the morning.. I am real tired after a day's work... was simply too angry, annoyed and pissed off in the afternoon over work matters... stressed... but now since I am not home.. I might as well just forget all about it huh... hehehe... have to wake up very early tomolo becoz I am bringing my cousin who is in SG for a visit back to Batu Pahat to visit our grandma and grandpa... a day trip... which I bet will make me even more tired in the end.. but what to do.. as if I have a choice right?? Haha I got to play host...
Just got a bad new today... disappointing in fact as I just lost a frenz.. actually not my frenz.. is my frenz's frenz in Malaysia who I only met once in KL over coffee.... a very nice person in fact... but too bad he is dead... he committed sucide two days ago over his gf... sad right?? I would nv understand why there are so many silly ppl in this world who will committ sucide and give up their precious life over the word LOVE.... I really wanna call that "CHI QING".. like what ppl always say.. loving someone means u are willing to even give up ur life for that person U love... if U are doing it in a honourable manner by saving ur gf/bf... I call that "CHI QINg".. it will surely touch me a lot to know that in the world there will be someone who will love me and protect me to the extent of even giving up his life for me... just to make sure nothing will ever happen to me... but to give up ur life over a failed relationship is toopidz... U love the person alot.. but that person dun even love U at all.. isn't it not worth... maybe she really regret it and find out that she really love U but U are already dead... she can cry for all she want over ur grave.. but she will move on to marry someone... memories will be there.. but it will no longer be of any importance at all at her wedding night... unless U tell me the ger also committ sucide in order to follow U in death I got nothing to say abt that... one failed relationship doesn't mean nothing better will come along.. maybe she is just not the right one.. maybe there is someone else better than her.. who is waiting for U.. but bloody hell.. U gave it up... looking in the short term but not the long term..... I have seen so many frenz gave up their life becoz of LOVE... horrible.... if U look into my precious blogs... I spoke abt another frenz who also died becoz of LOVE and I said I dun wan to see another one again... or attend another funeral... the next thing U know.. the same thing happen again.... what can I say?? Yah I know it is hard to get over a failed relationship, the misery in losing the someone U love.. but... still I have to insist it is not worth losing ur precious life for LOVE.... one can do fine without it... the most be like me... be upset and terrible for a few weeks or maybe months.. then things will be alright again.... I believe...
One closed door opens itself to another..... there is nothing in this world that will last forever.... U can't bring ur loved one and money to the grave... in Buddhist teachings, they always say such things are temporary.. U can well live without these things in life... one got to learn to let go... and not hold on to it...
Well U have went missing in my life... but I have to say thanks to U for going missing... becoz then I am able to stand up and move on by myself... yah I felt bad for the previous few weeks.. but I am slowly adapting myself again.... at least these few days I no longer need music to force myself to slp... I no longer dream of U... and even though I still think of U alot... at least now the thoughts do not linger in my mind for too long... memories are scary sometimes.. they fade off with time... the memories of U are fading off gradually which I believe I shld be thankful for it... even though I lost a gd frenz but I still have to say I will nv be able to forget U... U will always have a place in my heart as well as in my mind.. as part of my memories becoz I once promise U before i will nv forget u... I stand by my promise even though U also did promise me before we will stay in contact no matter what and U will nv forget me... but anyway thanks for playing a part in my life... thanks for everything that U have given me... thanks for teaching me so much and increasing my knowledge about so many things... Cheers..
