Haven't been with contact with u for two weeks liao... no sms, no calls, no chats on MSN.. in fact I dun even get to see U on MSN anymore... maybe ur ex moved back with U liao..because I remember U once told me that if she moved back with U, U wun be able to chat with me on iNTERNET anymore becoz U got to accompany her... true... or maybe U are busy at camp...
I am moving on... but I still think of you.. maybe like people used to say... sometimes things that U dun get U always think it is the best... but when U get it.. U dun treasure it anymore... true... that's what I thought too... Because we can nv be together and we will nv be together, you will always be that perfect in my eyes... if we are ever going to be together, maybe I wun think of U as so great anymore... but come to think abt it.. it might be fate too.. because within 2 days of knowing you... we become so close... the relationship grew at such a fast rate that it become simply unbelieveable...
So now.. i am really scared... I dun wan it to be a one sided thing anymore.. i promise myself I wun be that toopidz anymore... frenz is always better.... recently I keep on hanging out at the jetty overlooking johor near my place... doing something that I used to like alot.. drinking... hahaha... it is cool really... I haven't been there for a very long time and I really love that place alot becoz it used to be the place where I will go whenever I am upset or frustered abt something... I talked to my frenz.. about U... I am able to talk about you like U are one of my normal frenz... even though underneath I really wish I can hate U.... but like I say I am letting it go.. so being able to talk to someone about U is good... at least for one thing I know I am facing up to my own feelings... at least I can talk about U like normal and not hang on to U in my mind... I wished U all the best... from the bottom of my heart.. I wished one day I will be able to find someone like U who pamper his gf... like his one and only princess too... U always make me feel protected and loved... maybe that is why it has been so hard for me to let U go... so hard for me to forget U..it is surprising why something that short can be that memorable... and can creat such a strong feeling....
