Dreams are scary... now then I realise.. dreams in the past dun mean anything to me.... I can dream abt anything everything on earth and it doesn't signify anything at all coming back to the realisitic world... but these couple of days... I realise how scary dreams can be... the more I dun want to think about U... somehow after successfully forcing myself to fall asleep... I would dream of U... there is no one day which I will not wake up in the middle of the night because I dreamt of U... I dun wish for the dream to continue... I must wake myself up to tell myself.. whatever happening is just a dream... a beautiful dream that will nv happen... the same goes for tonight.. I am real busy after running around the entire day... I failed miserably in my attempt of trying not to sms you.. in the end I got myself all disappointed and fed up when U didn't reply... so I said fine... I will go to sleep as I am real tired... went to sleep at 11pm plus... then i dreamt abt U.. so I woke up.. now I can't sleep becoz my brains is filled with thoughts of U...
It seems that the harder U try to forget the person, the harder U remember him.... I tried all means and ways to forget U... tried making myself hate U by telling myself maybe U are with another ger now... maybe U have another target.. maybe U are just a cassanova playing around with gers' hearts... maybe U are with ur ex now... tried telling myself I am alright being single even before your appearance... I tried consoling myself saying that I dun wan to lose a frenz like U.. therefore I rather keep U as a frenz than lose U forever... we can still be good frenz like the past.... I will still be there for U whenever U need me although nowadays U dun seem to need me that much anymore.. maybe U found someone else to replace the position... maybe nowadays U are going out with her... like u did with me in the past... a late night movie plus supper until 2 or 3 in the mrning.. i remember when we are going out.. you also nv replied to ur sms or calls at all...
Went to watch "Shen Hua" today... and my brother keep on playing the theme song... so disturbing.. becoz it is too touching.... ok go listen to my Bossa Nova... maybe I will be able to fall asleep again... I dunno how long this is going to continue for...
