To that someone out there...

I admit I am disappointed when U happily told me that u finally got her as your gf.... I ask U how did U manage to do so... and U told me it is a long story and U dun want to talk abt it.. I am glad U didn't... becoz the more U say abt her.. the deeper my heart sink to the ground... I noe I dun have the right to do so... and I noe being your gd buddy I shld be happy for you that U finally found the one that U love so much and is willing to give up ur entire life for her.... I am happy... truly.. really from the bottom of my heart.. I know she is the one who can really make U happy.. like what U told me.. she lights up ur life... give ur life colours right?? But I have to admit... for that moment... my heart dropped... I think I am silly.. I dun love U... but why do I have such a feeling of wanting to hold on to U... I noe U and I will nv be a match... our characters, our lifes, our qualifications are way too apart from each other... U are nv the guy that I want and I am nv the gal that U would ever go for... but still I have no idea what am I thinking and what is going thru my mind... am I jealous becoz U got a gf and I dun? Am I sad becoz I like U but even though I know we are not right together.. U nv give me a chance to prove my theory wrong... maybe we can always work things out (yah right.. crap... nothing ever work out..).. maybe I am just feeling inbalanced becoz I didn;t get what I wanted...?? Maybe I dun wish to lose you as a gd frenz... am I angry becoz U used to spend time chit chatting with me and now all U have is ur gf on ur mind.... that U forgot abt ur single buddy?? U asked me to go back to Deli... I would seriously love to... but I can't imagine facing U and ur gf... I dunno if I can forever control my weird feelings towards you and nv let it show... I dun want to let you see the sad look on my face whenever U spoke abt her... whenever U told me U are going to fetch her off work and meet up with her... I wanna to share ur happiness and unhappiness... I say I would let it go if it is nv meant to be mine... I can do it... anyway I believe U will nv truly know how I feel becoz U have no time to read this blog anymore... haha... u are so bz with deli and ur gf... what else do u have time for besides slping... I wish I can tell u straight in the face she is not the one for U... but would U listen to me?? U are so deeply in love with her... U hope u are her last bf in her life... U love her more than she love U... usually such guys get hurt in the end.. haha... woman are trouble.. they can nv get in touch with what they want and what they feel.... as much as I wan to say.. why didn;t U give me a chance and see if this relationship work out... I think i am able to understand you better than others... I wun ask for a chance becoz I know chances wun work.. it nv do... All the best to U.... and ur relationship... from the very bottom of my heart.... My relationship dun work... doesn't mean that urs wun... so gd luck... truly..