Went to Boat Quay today to meet up with a friend of mine... that is one of the places that I have been avoiding ever since the break up 3 mths ago.. it brought back too much memories.. memories that I have been trying very hard to dump behind my brains...
It is the place that he worked at... during weekdays as much as I can, I tried and avoid Raffles City MRT and the surrounding areas... I can't meet up with him... I dunno what to do in such situations... during weekends I still tried and avoid the various places that we used to hang out together... because I dun wanna to think about him anymore... Dun ask me why because I have no gd answer for you...
But anyway.. after I met up with my frenz... and after he went off to do his stuffs.. I am supposed to go home.. but the night is still young and considering that I haven't been out at night for a very long time.. I decided to go have a late night coffee at Coffee Bean Boat Quay alone.. it is weird to sit at the same place where me and him used to hang out.. alone now.. watching couples walking past.. watching couples around me engaging in the beautiful night scenary and their romantic sweet talk... 6 yrs ago.. that was the place where me and him always go for coffee... 6 yrs now... I am sitting at the same place alone... how contridicting... i love drama serials and in love drama serials U always see the main leads going back to the places where their love blossomed and remember all the happy times they have... I'll been avoiding such situations but today.... it was a seriously wrong move.. I shld have just went back home... I just realise how pathetic I am... sitting there alone in the midst of lovey couples... I love the Coffee Bean at Starbucks... we always have coffee there... that was the place where we first went drinking... and where our love started blossoming after the drunk incident... now I finally realise why after so long I prefer to stay at home then to go anywhere else on my off days...
My frenz asked me to move on... aren;t I moving on?? What am i holding back for?? I shld really stop this..maybe one day I will find the courage to step out of the darkness... maybe one day I will be able to laugh again like the past...
