NEW BORN BABY!!!

dear dear and me went to Wenliang's baby one month aniversary celebration on Sun afternoon... the baby looks so cute..... hahaha... look like Wenliang.. fair skin with a tint of red blush around the cheek area... hehehe... tiny hands with tiny fingers... tiny feets with tiny toes... so cute sia... the first baby in our group.. everyone is so gaga over the baby.. everyone is so excited over the baby and i bet everyone will love the baby... hahaa

met up with a couple of frenz who we haven't seen for quite some time.. catch up with some of them.. Huiqi and Yingyao is getting married end of the month.. happie for them.. so everyone is asking if we are next on the wedding list.. hahaha.. maybe? hahaha... surprised & shocked to hear the sad news abt another frenz of ours... tell me... what exactly makes a relationship work?? patience, tolerance, committment, trust, love or what?? sometimes i really dun understand..... Ah Qiam is forever Ah Qiam.. hahaha... still the same old Ah Qiam after so long..

worked late yesterday until 11pm night... darling came and picked me up from work... after which we went for a drive around SG.. went up to Mt Faber, went to Kent Ridge Park... wanted to go Labrador Park... wanted to go for satay at Pasir Panjang hawker centre but it was closed... decided to try Satay Club at Sembawang.. closed too... in the end we settled for Chong Pang Nasi Lemak.. ta bao and came home.. by the time it was already 12.30 midnight... damn shag... went to sleep shortly after... fell into a super deep slp until this morning.. hahaha...

I WANT A HOLIDAY.....

i want to go on a holiday... i want to go on a holiday... i want a holiday....!!!!!

at work now... but no mood for work... not tired... just lazy... plain lazy.... dun feel like working... just feel like shopping, sleeping and nuaing in bed... under the comfort of my soft quilt....

went to Friendster and saw some of my frenz beautiful holiday pictures.. so fun, so enjoyable, so beautiful, so nice.... make me want to go also... xian mu le... hehehe... my last trip to Malacca i didnt take much photos.. anyway that place also not much photos to take la.. hahaha..

so sad... i also wan a holiday.... wan to take lots of nice nice photos with my darling.. haha

studying in australia..

suddenly i wish i can go back to Aussie to study again... i miss studying and somehow today i suddenly also miss my aussie lifestyle... i mean i dun think i will ever like staying and working in Australia forever... but i really miss studying there...

i think my 2 yrs studying in Aussie is one of the best periods of my life and I simply wun regret it at all... at least for once i have my own life to myself and noone else.... i am in full control of what i want to do... i go out when i want to.. go wherever i want to.. i eat whatever i feel like having... everything is just perfect really...

and today i really wish i have a air ticket on hand to fly me to australia for another 2 yrs of books, lectures, tutorials and studies... back to the lifestyle when i love so much....

changes at my workplace...

for 2 or 3 weeks.. i haven't had coffee / meetings / chit chat session with my bosses.... and i started to be a little lost about what is going on in my company as there is more and more changes in roles, adjustments with ppl joining and leaving... very hard to imagine that in a small company of less than 10 people.. so much can be happening... don't talk abt another 2 offices in London and Vancouver...

usually ppl dun care... but somehow we are made to care.. my boss is extremely particular abt each and every one of us knowing what is going on in the company worldwide... they made the efforts to inform us... but we need to make the efforts to find out and know about things too... and for a while i find it rather hard to keep track and catch up...

but hmmm yesterday my boss asked me for a chat session which was due long time ago... true true.. hahaha... he should have talked to me long time ago.. anyway he apologised for that.. and asked me if I am alright and how am I feeling... actually I am fine... i do feel the pressure sometimes when i thought i dun seem to be doing my job well enough.. and it makes me feel bad about it... and i have no idea what my bosses think about those hiccups... but last of all I am happie in this job that I am in... the bosses are quite frank abt things so I am sure if I am not doin well they will voice it out...

there is soon going to be new responsibilities for me to take on... not very sure if i will be able to handle the bulk of it.. but i promise i will try... ultimately i can't admit failure without even trying.... and frankly speaking i am glad for those new roles... because it allows me to learn new things which might be useful in the future... and it occupies most of my time.. like what my boss say... ppl who are not willing to take on new roles usually get kicked out... which is true really... anyway the reason why i like this company is because it provides me with many opportunities to learn new things....

wish my luck guys... hahahaha

rashes...plus laziness

i have rashes all over my body... my hands, legs, neck.. everywhere... and the worst of all i dunno what causes it... is it becoz i am allergic to something... is it because i have mosquitos in my room or bedbugs in my bed?? i only get those when i drink beer recently.. but i nv even drink anything with a tiny bit of alcohol in it.. then what the hell causes those rashes?? Haiz..

suddenly realise i haven't been keeping track of my daily expenses much... u know one of those excel sheets created to help you keep track of ur daily expenses... you got to have a daily habit of updating the log everytime u spend something or end of the day... it help you to find out where u spend ur money and why ur money seem to be disappearing into the wind... but but.. hahaha.. i haven't been updating much daily.. so sad right? So ultimately i still have no idea where i am spending most of my money.. damnz... i always have huge chucks of unknown expenses... hahaha.. looks like the excel sheet dun seem to be useful at all...

weekend update..

Hmm.. work is boring this week.. dun ask me why... it just aren't going as smoothly as the weeks before...

finally i managed to survive to Fri.. hehehe... came home for dinner, watched the last episode of the 9pm chinese show on Channel 8... can't wait to see my darling... hehehhee... rushed to shower after the show and there is my darling waiting for me downstairs... hehehehe... *hug hug* *kiss kiss*..

then we are supposed to meet Ah Xiong at Yishun Dam for a chit chat.. but there is a slight drizzle so we decided to go home first.. watched "Da Chang Jin" till 11pm.. rain has stopped by then.. so we went down to Ah Xiong block.. met up with him.. went to the indian shop to da bao teh before going over to Yishun dam.. both guys are sooo excited to show off their bikes... my darling diversion has both its huge side panniers on plus his new TP handle bar... wah huge touring bike... damn cool sia... make lots of ppl turn eyes on the road... Ah Xiong super 4 got a new full system.. super mod bike... so side by side we zoom to Yishum Dam.. hahaha... sat there for drinks plus a chit chat... looking at all the other mod bikes and cars which is also there to show off.. hahahaha... so cool... came home around 1plus... so tired... went to bed straight... nice day with my darling by my side always...

today slept until 11.30am... went down to IMM for lunch.. main purpose is shopping!!! Hahaha... oh on the way there... this ah pek on a Honda ST11 touring bike... (ok i am not damn familiar with bikes but it surely look like a Honda ST11)honk us as a friendly greeting... hahaha.. i told u my darling diversion looks great with his side panniers on.. hahaha... so cool.. hahaha.. u know ppl in cars seldom talk to each other.. but ppl on bikes often talk.. at junctions, at checkpoints when there is a jam... that is what i observe la.. hehe..

anyway we went shopping at Daiso IMM...didn't buy much actually.. i am just there to look for a box to store my increasing number of earrings.. hahaha.. then we came home for a nap... darling went off to his company dinner... hahaha..

going to spend the entire day tomolo on the bike.. wash bike plus do some adjustments on his TP handlebar.. see if we have time to go JB to pump petrol ba.. hehehe...

feeling down....

ok my period is now officially over.. but my depression continues its stay.....

thousands of thoughts are running through my head... none of them which i can catch

my stomach is churning and grumbling after lunch.. i have no idea why...

no mood to concentrate on work... in fact no mood to concentrate on anything at all...

just wanna to hug my darling and baby eeyore to escape from this world of complications... to escape from reality

just like someone out of its bubble, like a fish out of water, i can't breathe...

maybe i am just too simple and naive....

missing another someone...

today morning on the train coming to work i realise i miss out someone from my missing list... hehehe... not missing as in the person went missing.. missing as in i seriously miss that person...

Izabelle...!!! My chionging khaki in Australia.. my best pal.. we basically did everything together... went to classes together, chit chat and gossiped all the way through lessons, went for yucky meals at the school canteen and warm coffee at the coffee club, did projects together, got ourselves pissed drunk at the club... hehehe... crazy fun times we have.. I rememeber everytime we had a meeting for projects, we can never concentrate because we will start talking about everything else but work... boyfrenz, flings, gers, shopping..... nothing is left out from the chatting list...

She wanted so much for me to continue my stay in Australia... do my honours or maybe Masters as she continue with her double major...but too bad... i can't... so sad really... I remembered the last time we met was after my graduation ceremony in Australia.. she was there to cheer for me together with her other frenz during the graduation ceremony and after that we met for a chat at her place together with Jerry and my dad.. hahaha... the two guys were so bored u can imagine.. especially my dad who totally couldn't understand what we were saying as he cannot understand English... but I got to go... and we hugged each other and cried... damnz... I promise myself not to cry... but can't control once she start crying...

but anyway... Miss U Iza...

missing u guys....

it is funni how my blogs always increase with a new skin.. hahaha... maybe i am just a bit too free recently... oei.. dun think too much ok? i am working huh... hahaha.. no la now that my blog is completed with everything i ever want.... i am going to leave it as it is liao... was surfing through my blog today.. realise i forgot to add in my archives... hahahaha... came home and added it in.. now everything is in place... beautiful isn't it?? I feel so proud of myself...

today at work.. i suffered from severe monday blues resulting in serious depression... maybe becoz i am having PMS... maybe becoz i dun feel like working today... but anyway i miss my darling terribly at work today... wish he is there besides me..... dun dare to talk to him on skype or MSN.. scare that he is busy and I will disturb him... but seriously miss him alot sia....

and a couple of people came into my minds and i suddenly remember those happie times I had before...Sharifah.. i know u are reading this blog sometimes when no CCES or students are bothering u.. missing u and MS Teo plus the enclosed office that i use to have with my small working desk cluttered with baby Warner Bros files, pen holders, soft toys and presents from everyone during Christmas... miss those times when we shout and scream together at toopidz students and CCES... miss Thomas my smoking khaki... hahaha... seeing him around brings so much joy to me in that dull boring work environment... now then i realise...

one of my colleague is leaving..... the office before is getting too big for my preference... previously in exams it was just me, MS Teo and Sharifah... then I changed a job with only me, Ling Ling, Alan and Hong Liang.. the next thing u know.. there is 6.. then increase to 7.. then becoming 9 soon... plus all the directors coming down from Vancouver and London... 15 or 16?? Hmmm.. way too much out of my comfort zone... but feel sad that now that she is leaving... got to get used to someone new all over again.......... life is going to be so boring without her... haiz....... new bubble to adapt to....

tagboard...

ok guys.. i got a new tagboard...

previously there was a toopidz virus infection for my tagboard... resulting in a complete destruction in darling and Junxian's computer... make me terribly guilty for it....

now i got a new one.. pray hard everything is alright this time

new blog.....

yipppeeessss

i got a new blog skin.... actually i saw this blog skin long long time ago.... really like it alot.. but as a lot of time need to be spent editing the original blog skin, i decided to give up and find something much easier... but anyway recently i decided that i am sick of my blog skin and frenz keep on complaining to me about how small and tiny my words are... so here is the new one.... hahahahaa..
been searching for it for the entire week.. can you believe it? Haha...

Spent the entire morning editing it... the words, the fonts and the alignments... sorry to the previous owner because ur skin is really not to my preferences.. so i did a couple of customisation here and there... so now it is more or less customised to my liking.. hahaha.. satisfied ger...

If you are one of those who read my blog regularly.. hahaha... as if I am as popular as Xiaxue, you would know that I have been a bit of a shopping fanatic recently... fully engrossed in online shopping.. so gd news to all my galfrenz... hahaha.. i have added a full list of online shopping websites under LINKS which I regularly visit to increase my inventory stocks.. hahaha... actually I still have more on my list.. but I will update them slowly... eyes too tired from all the HTML editing.. so enjoy urself...

helpless for the first time

my darling met with some problems at work... for the first time ever in my life i feel so helpless besides him.... all i can do is to accompany him for dinner and beer and hug him tightly for emotional support....

what else can i do? can't offer him visible solutions... can't help him to solve the problems... so useless, so helpless

all i can do is to stand besides him, hold his hands, hug him tightly and remind him how much i love him.. not becoz of his job, not becoz of his pay but becoz i love him for who he is.... and no matter what happens, i will always be there for him....

we will survive through all these challenges in life, we will cross all these hurdles together and life will go on... this is just one of the setbacks in life but it wun crumble us.... becoz no matter what, he still have me, I still have him and we still have each other....it is no longer just me or just you... we are one together....

dear.. we will solve all the problems.. and no matter what happen in your job.. it doesn't matter... we can always find a better job... maybe in another industry, maybe elsewhere.. life will still carry on... and i still love u...

not in the best of moods 2

HAIZ.....
haiz.....

i think my period is around the corner... that is why i am starting to feel irritated at the smallest little things... a tiny bug flying around my body and face, the hot and humid weather, the noisy and stuffy train ride, my long hair being too thick for the hot weather, the itch on my face caused as a result of my long hair tickling it, the flu that nv seems to stop, my bf saying the wrong things..... and the list goes on and on.... actually none of these things went wrong... given a perfectly normal day, i would have just swap it off as nothing.. but given today.. everything is just plain irritating...

I read in a book somewhere that when a person is feeling down, it is becoz of how he/she think at that particular moment in time.. if u choose to think badly, you will make urself feel badly becoz in ur brain you think nothing is good.... therefore it will interpret nothing as good... and therefore everything turn out to be bad as expected.... i keep on telling myself that I am having a wrong mindset and that is the main reason why i am feeling down...

apparently it didnt work out as what i planned it to be, did I? Hahaha.. if not i certainly wun be writing this blog sulking on how my day sucks... actually it didn't... but haiz.. blame it on my thoughts..... nv ending thoughtssss...

not in the best of moods

not in the best of moods right now...

feeling down....

i said it is just my brain playing silly tricks on me

one of those times when it shutted down automatically

nothing for me to control

yet nothing for me to follow...

dun ask me what the hell am I saying

it is just all the demons that I feel like slaying

judging by appearances

U know it is real funni sometimes how ppl tend to judge someone by their appearances just like judging a book by its cover??

I dunno why but I always give ppl the idea that I am useless, poor and penniless, didn't study much, jobless, professional bummer and very unsucessful in life. Maybe I look a little too young for my age...

Do I look a 16 years old ger still in secondary school?? Hahaha



Maybe I dun dress up well enough. So judging from the plain simple way that I dress in jeans and slippers with a sling on bag and perhaps because I always keep on wearing the same few nice clothings that I have, they figure I am a poor school gal who do not have the money to afford nice clothings like working adults...

Today one of the aunties staying in my block chatted with me in the lift when I was going home for a nice friendly chit chat... of coz the entire conversation goes like that
Auntie: U still studying huh? Where you studying now?
Me: Not studying le
Auntie: Then you just came back from shopping huh? Should find a proper job to do you know at your age after finishing studies
Me: No... I am working le.. have been working for a very long time till now.
Auntie: (Shocked) You dun look like you are working le. Working part time huh?
Me: Bo la.. working full time
Auntie: Working full time? Why you dun have to wear office wear one?
(Now realising that she is refering to my jeans and polo tee with slippers)
Me: No la, my office dun need wear office wear one. Wear causual can le
Auntie: Oh good hor. Your pay high or not huh?
(By the way now we are standing at the lift lobby and she is still continuing to bombard me with questions non stop and making me feel quite irritated entertaining her)
Me: Ok lo... just nice lo... enough for myself can le (I bet she assume that it is super low because she said....)
Auntie: Oh u know hor... this this person (one of our neighbours) earns alot le.... around $1200 every month
Me: (Pissed off by then - she think i am one of those gossip queens meh) huh ok lo... my pay around there la also...
Aunite: Go study more and find a higher pay job lo... earn more better
Me: Auntie sorry got to go le.. talk to ya next time k?

Feel like telling the auntie.. I finished my uni studies, I got a good relaxing job with a good pay now... who u think I am? She most prob think I am those school drops out... hahaha...

I remember a couple of previous incidents with banks. First time I wanted to open a investment cum savings plan. They think I am below 16 and they think i am falsing declaring my pay to be $1500. Insisted that I get the original pay slip signed by the accounts & HR dept with the company stamp before they are willing to proceed with my investment account. Checked this with CPF for my monthly contributions blu blu blu... even called my company to check if this person really exists... and I happen to pick up the phone.. toopidz bank really... recently I wanna to open a CPF investment account.. the same bank called up my current company to check if this person is really working for this company and how much exactly is my pay..? Haiz...

dunno to laugh or to cry

boring blog

I think my blog is becoming rather boring recently.... no interesting updates (basically no time to do so)and the skin is rather boring too (but no time to look for a new one as a change).. plus my life is as boring as it gets.. hahaha....

I have a craze for online window shopping recently... sooner or later I am going to become a online shopaholic... hahahah.. really... earrings, bags, clothes, necklaces even shoes... all so beautiful..... all I want to get... can't control myself.... wanna surf the webpages even during work hours... jialat... let pray hard that my boss wun catch me one day...

And I also have a new hobby... looking for new food recipes.. ok I admit I don't really cook much but I just like looking through the recipes.. see if there is anything interesting and seem nice enough... will copy the recipe down and keep it from future references... already 50+ pages of receipes le... ranging from steaks, soups, salads to local delights.. yummy...

All these stuffs plus work plus spending time with my darling is keeping me soooooo busy.... anyway just went out shopping with my darling over the weekend... brought a pair of "holey shoes" Crocs in fact... I used to hate it very much last time.. can't understand why my darling like the shoes sooo much he will wear it every day... now I got a pair for myself.. how fickle minded can I be? Hahahha... then we brought 3 cutey looking hooks for the wardrode.. one penguin, one sotong and one froggy... then we brought a new helmet for myself... got rid of the loose one on the spot.. hahaha....

Then after shopping we went straight to Johor thru the second link to pump petrol and of coz went to Gelang Patah to eat our fav "Begger Chicken".. came back with a full stomach.. 100% satisfaction.. hahaha... actually three weeks ago we went to Malacca over the long holiday.... our last trip with our X9.. farewell goodbye as the coolant pump offically declared dead after we came back.. thank goodness it managed to carry us all the way to and fro Malacca... anyway it was a cool trip and we both enjoy ourselves together with Zhaowei and Lily... Hahaha.... will update you all on the trip when I have the time to do so

As for now... I am going to continue my chat with darling ... so till the next time I update... Ciaoz ppl... Cheers

network marketing

haiz... one of my staffs from Delifrance called me just now out of the blue... I thought wow... so nice to call me and catch up with me on old times meh? She said she is in the final year of her diploma and is now doing her final year project... and I thought ok I would be nice to help her in her project.. because I know how hard it is to survive through a final year project without help from others... especially when my final year project in university requires 3000 people to help complete a 5 page quetionaire.. first she didn't mention anything about the project like what she was doing, second she never mention what was the purpose of the project she was doing.. she asked about my family situation which is normal for any surveys... then she asked if I can arrange a meeting between her and my family in my house... ok that sounds funni...

i started to ask her what was her project and what she is supposed to do.. and she mention something about creating awareness about a product and finding out comments and feedbacks on it... Ok sound normal but I explained to her that my parents will surely not entertain her... then the more she talk around the bush trying to fix a appointment with my parents, the more irritated I am.. but never mind.. being the nice mdm and manager I am, I probe more and ask more helping her to explain better... of coz which include asking her straight what was her product because she never tell her anything about the product that she is doing a survey on from the very beginning.. then ok I managed to convince her that my parents will not talk to her on any issues beneficial or not...

so I volunteer to help her by talking to her more... then she went on to say since she cannot come to my place to talk more, why not I go to her seminar... OK THAT SOUND LIKE NETWORK MARKETING!!!!.. I asked her straight if she is in network marketing and she admitted it finally... ok I was pissed... sh lied to a nice person on a basis of her 3rd year final year project trying to lure and cheat me to another network marketing seminar.... WHY CAN'T THESE PPL HAVE MORE TRANSPARENCIES IN WHAT THEY DO... if u belong to a network marketing company and u need ppl to go to ur seminar.. SAY SO!!! If ppl are loyal believers of the product, if they are willing to go... they will go... dun try and cheat ppl to seminars when they dun want to be there in the first place..... and start trying to brain wash them about your company and products... and yah they will try and tell u that their company are not one of those bad network marketing scams.. and their products are beneficial to you and your family...

ARGHHH I SERIOUSLY HATE THESE PPL... really to the core... the next thing u know they try and sell u the products, they try to get u to help sell their products, and they will call u every now and then to BEG u to buy their products because they need to earn points to go on a incentive trip and stuffs... CHEATERS & LIERS... i told my staff off straight away in a nice manner of coz... ultimately ppl are just trying to get some experience and earn some quick bucks... you know what.. the government should step in and stop this kind of bad practices... why can't they just hire a proper sale person and do direct selling... rather than dragging ppl one by one to seminars with a underlying motive... with a promise of benefits andbig money...I do have frenz still working in some network marketing companies. but at least they respect me enough not to drag/invite/ask me out to some unknown places which end up to be a network marketing seminar.... they will ask or invite me to their product demonstration seminar or fair and it is up to me to choose if I want to attend it or not... not go there, get a shock of my life when 4 or 5 friendly ppl walk up to u offering a chit chat and then the brain washing and selling starts... and THE WORST THING IS U CAN'T WALK OUT AT UR WISHES no matter how many times u repeat to them U ARE NOT INTERESTED!!!!

pissed off... seriously....

my boss now who happen to be a very good salesperson always insists that a good sales person and company should respect the customer/users wishes... always sell your products accordingly to their needs... if they dun need it.. dun continue to push it to them because it will result in a sense of mistrust... and the next time they need things, they wun look for u anymore... so if someone say no.. there is seriously no need to push things further... it will just make the person pissed off... and always get things nice and clear about the products... be transparent.. let them know about the products,what are the uses of the products, what are the benefits to the person and let the person decide for himself if it will be useful and if he/she needs it and wants it.. this is respect.... and it contributes to a healthy relationship between the customers and the company... because if the person really need it, he/she will be more than willing and happy to use it...

so next time any of my frenz reading my blog, if u ever consider joining a network marketing company.. please take me out of your list of ppl to call for brainwashing.... thank you..

sleepless night

haiz...another sleepless night... tried ways and means to force myself to sleep... but still can't... even Bossa Nova didn't help this time... haiz... there seem to be something at the back of my head... I wonder how long can I take this kind of emotional and physical stress....?

Old frenz....

Tired... but couldn't get to sleep... waiting for my dear to reach home from his drinking session with his colleagues at work...

Anyway met up with a couple of long time no see frenz recently...

Went for dinner just now... saw two of my secondary school frenz.. Cai Jin Feng and Whoo Jin Hao.. Ok i have no idea whether I spelt their names correctly but yah that is roughly their names... hahaha.. I used to walk to school with Jin Hao... and Jin Feng have been with me since kindergarden to primary school to secondary school.. hahaha.. Sui Hui has been going out with these two guyes as a group together with some other secondary school mates and she kept asking me along but firstly I am just too lazy.. secondary I am too shy... hahahaha.... dunno what to talk to them when I see them.. it has been such a long time since I last met any of them... anyway just now I was just walking past them and I saw Jin Hao looking at me and I recognised him at the first look but it took me some time to recognise Jin Feng.. bad right?? seriously I felt very bad that I cannot recognise him.. and I have no idea why... hahaha... and I am toopidz enough to ask him who is he!!! Arghhh... oh my goodness.... he must have seriously hate me for that.. hahaha.. becoz I was on quite good terms with him in school... hahaha... and he recognised me.. U know.. haiz..*shakes head*... I always call them in their full name plus their surname in school which is rather bad of me I agree... and that was exactly what i did again just now... bad habits never do change.. hehehe

Last week or the week before I met up with Julia who flew back to Singapore for a short holiday... so happie to see her.... I haven't seen her for ages really and it is always nice to be able to catch up with a frenz who you haven't seen for a very long time... we of coz went to our fav restaurant at Raffles City Shopping Centre "Out Of The Pan" to have our delightful Peking Duck crepes and desserts....Julia's favourite Tiramisu.. I tried something different this time... I went for the brownie with icecream.. Oh my goodness.. it is so sinful and rich in chocolate... but it is nice end of story.. hahaha... me and Julia we always get excited going to this restaurant becoz we both agreed they serve very good and tasty crepes and desserts.. and we got drinks on the house because Julia's sister has a frenz working there.. of coz Chan Chen and Julia's sister were there with us... we later decided to go for coffee and more chit chat... and we were joined by my darling, Julia's another sister and her husband.. and her sister's frenz.. got to apologize to Julia on this because being the blur me, I cannot differentiate who is the elder sis and the younger sis.. hahaha.. but yah all the sis was there la.. hahaha... but anyway we knew each other including the sisters since poly times so it was still alright.. hahaha

perfect song of the year

I seriously love this song alot... and I think this song contain hell of a meaning to everyone hoping to be in love, already in love or married....

Somebody - Depeche Mode
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it