I am having my pms recently... my mood is just like the sucky weather.. experiencing extreme irritation and anger... looks like all my preaching dun seem to be working on me.... as I am getting frustered at the simplest things...
Everything he do seems to piss me off... even the way he speaks, the way he talks piss me off... oh my god.. what is wrong with me?? I remembered I am watching a show on TV.. very touched by the wedding that was going on and the love story between the couple.... what they have been through to be together... and he made some comments.. and I got seriously pissed....to him I am being too emotional being touched by someone else's story... to me I feel like he dun understand my feelings at all... then we had a slight disagreement... haiz... maybe it is just me... trying to make things difficult... he can make a joke and I think it is irritating... and I get pissed off over it... seriously.... last time he can make the same joke and I think ok he is just joking with me... now I just got pissed and shut up...
Just what is wrong with me? How can anyone in the world tolerate my moods..?
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Thursday, April 13, 2006
wondering...
I can understand the amount of hatred arising from someone who is betrayed by the person he love the most.... the person he has spent half of his life with... the person who he so wanted to spend the rest of his life with... the person who he thought he will be spending the rest of his life with.... the person who gave him the promise of forever love till eternity... the person who he has been discussing and planning abt marriage for so long.... however this is the person who hurt him the most... I know why he hate me... I know why he can't bring himself to forgive me... becoz I hurted him too much from the very beginning.....
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
follow ur heart..
I still have to insist the most important thing in life is to follow ur heart... do what u wan to do, do what u wish to do.. of coz with proper planning and a logical realistic mindset.... not saying that u wish to stay in Banyan Tree Maldives.. u follow ur heart book in for a month there and think abt the huge debt u will incur later in the month.. that is superb foolish... nono... be realistic.. for those you can achieve now.. go ahead and do it... for those u can't achieve it now.. plan how u are going to achieve it in the future... once again there is nothing in this world u can't achieve... but back again nothing in this world is superb necessary except for the basic food and water complusary to keep ur life going on... one have to really learn how to be contented with the simple things in life really...
In life, we often allow ourselves to get all worked up about things that, upon closer examination, aren't really that big a deal or important after all. We focus on the little problems and concerns and blow them way out of proportion and in the end getting ourselves all pissed off, angry and miserable. U have ppl getting pissed off waiting in queues after 5 mins waiting time, u have ppl fighting becoz of a stare... is it neccessary.? Does getting pissed off help..? In fact it doesn't.. it just make things worse.... and u drop deeper and deeper into the hole of misery... in fact actually u didn't drop it.. u dug ur way in urself... u are just so engrossed in getting pissed off at a small thing that u keep on digging and digging in ur own world of thoughts and the next thing u know u are 20 metres deep in the ground probably half buried alive... hahaha.. true.. think abt it...
I used to do that myself... now i am trying to be more patient and more calm looking into things... when i get pissed or angry abt something.. i will think if that thing matter 10 yrs down the road... if it doesn't i discard it to the back of the brain... I have to admit it is hard especially for a foul tempered ppl like me... but I am learning and I am trying.. at least I bother to try... true?? Haha... I just told my best buddy the same thing too... I hope it make sense to him and I hope he will learn how to let go of the small details in life.. sometimes in life it is the big picture that is the most important... looking too much into small details may cause u certain unhappiness.... becoz u are focusing too much in the present.. but ignoring anything in the future.... sometimes the small details wun even count in the long term...
I hope I am making some sense here.. hahaha
In life, we often allow ourselves to get all worked up about things that, upon closer examination, aren't really that big a deal or important after all. We focus on the little problems and concerns and blow them way out of proportion and in the end getting ourselves all pissed off, angry and miserable. U have ppl getting pissed off waiting in queues after 5 mins waiting time, u have ppl fighting becoz of a stare... is it neccessary.? Does getting pissed off help..? In fact it doesn't.. it just make things worse.... and u drop deeper and deeper into the hole of misery... in fact actually u didn't drop it.. u dug ur way in urself... u are just so engrossed in getting pissed off at a small thing that u keep on digging and digging in ur own world of thoughts and the next thing u know u are 20 metres deep in the ground probably half buried alive... hahaha.. true.. think abt it...
I used to do that myself... now i am trying to be more patient and more calm looking into things... when i get pissed or angry abt something.. i will think if that thing matter 10 yrs down the road... if it doesn't i discard it to the back of the brain... I have to admit it is hard especially for a foul tempered ppl like me... but I am learning and I am trying.. at least I bother to try... true?? Haha... I just told my best buddy the same thing too... I hope it make sense to him and I hope he will learn how to let go of the small details in life.. sometimes in life it is the big picture that is the most important... looking too much into small details may cause u certain unhappiness.... becoz u are focusing too much in the present.. but ignoring anything in the future.... sometimes the small details wun even count in the long term...
I hope I am making some sense here.. hahaha
Sunday, April 09, 2006
New Wishlist...
Me and my darling got a new wishlist...comprising of all very expensive thingy.. hahaha...
1. A new bike by the end of next month
2. Wedding by mid of next year
3. A car by the end of next year... or maybe give it another one more year ba..
Expensive hor..?? I seriously thought so.. luckily we already got a house under his name.. save up the additional money which a couple always need to save the first thing they get married...
1. A new bike by the end of next month
2. Wedding by mid of next year
3. A car by the end of next year... or maybe give it another one more year ba..
Expensive hor..?? I seriously thought so.. luckily we already got a house under his name.. save up the additional money which a couple always need to save the first thing they get married...
Friday, March 31, 2006
photos as promised
OK. The photos as promised long long time ago...
The Wedding Car!!
A Pair of Teddies
Family Potrait
Ooh.. Don't be scared. This is just less than half of my entire family tree... hahaha
Centre Stage
Beautiful chandelier
Me & My Bro
Me & My Cousins
Ooh.. Don't be scared. This is just less than half of my entire family tree... hahaha
Sunday, March 26, 2006
weekend update...
Ok. Let start updating from Last Wed 15th March 2006 since the days before that are well spent working and working away.. nothing much to mention about my ordinary and boring life anyway... hahaha
15th March 2006
I met the gals for dinner at Sake Sushi... the gals mentioned refer to my two best pals Sui Hui and Xiang Ling.. hehehe... they are my two best secondary mates who have been with me since my secondary havoc school days... they really saw me through some big changes in my life and I did the same for them as well.. hehehe... those were the days... but it is all still good as we still met up occasionally whenever we can afford the time and money to... we still chat about everything in life such as work and relationships of coz.. plus some minor gossips.. hehehe.. overall meeting up with them is good.. still treasure the time with them alot...
16th March 2006
Bad and gd news... worked late to clear a few stuffs as renewals keep on coming in nonstop... met up with a couple of important people in the industry, called London office, spoke to my prices editor and introduce myself to a couple of ppl in the London office.. just as I am about to call it a day... boss called for a meeting with me... haiz... but anyway I am not in a hurry so boss is always important when it come to work... so went down to a cafe to have a meeting over coffee... that is when the good and bad news come in.. boss has decided to get rid of a customer service gal in the office switching her to a data entry temp position and I will be taking over the full scope of the job.. plus I will need to train a new gal who will be coming in on Mon... hmmmm.. sad to hear that another gal got to go... boss said in this realistic world from a company's point of view.. you can't keep someone who goes off work punctually, do things that she is being told to do with no initiative to help in any things else or take on new responsibilites and who certainly dun have the attitude or passion in what she is doing.. hmm.. yah it is true but haiz.. harsh le.. I can't bear to do this kind of thing... too soft hearted I guess.. anyway boss said maybe this end of the year I will have to make a trip to either London or Vancouver.. will be attached to the office there for a couple of weeks... hahahaha... sounds cool to me.. dear dear is damn upset by the fact that I will have to go overseas again... I just keep on leaving him alone in SG... i am so sorry dear dear... :(.. anyway by the time we finish the meeting around 8+.. forgot that dear is waiting for me to go off work.. to my surprise.. he was waiting for me nearby... hahahaha... so sweet of him isn't it?? Oh yah boss also said this week we will be going drinking again to welcome the new gal.. OMG!!!!! Not again!!!! *shakes head* scared of alcohol now.. one time is enough..
24th March 2006 - 27th March 2006
Went back to Batu Pahat on Fri afternoon... met up with my uncle at Jalan Wong Ah Fook petrol station who drove us back.. went back to attend my cousin's wedding held on Sat... helped out at the wedding here and there... alot of things cropped and messed up.. anyway not my wedding.. hack care.. hahahaha.. there is just a lack of coordination and planning... but really who cares.. hahaha.. came back in a rush today... tired but happy because I get to see my darling... who got sick while I am away... sad case.. noone to take care of him... too tiring for him to take care of baby eeyore alone.. so he fell sick.. met him for dinner and a chat.. plus lots of hugs.. so sweet
Can see I am writing in a rush?? Of coz la.. coming to 12midnight and I am still typing away on my com sia... need to go slp liao.. still got a busy day tomolo at work leh.. hahaha... guess I will post the photos tomolo ba... the internet is just too slow in uploading the photos.. can't afford to wait... sleeping time is precious... nightz...
15th March 2006
I met the gals for dinner at Sake Sushi... the gals mentioned refer to my two best pals Sui Hui and Xiang Ling.. hehehe... they are my two best secondary mates who have been with me since my secondary havoc school days... they really saw me through some big changes in my life and I did the same for them as well.. hehehe... those were the days... but it is all still good as we still met up occasionally whenever we can afford the time and money to... we still chat about everything in life such as work and relationships of coz.. plus some minor gossips.. hehehe.. overall meeting up with them is good.. still treasure the time with them alot...
16th March 2006
Bad and gd news... worked late to clear a few stuffs as renewals keep on coming in nonstop... met up with a couple of important people in the industry, called London office, spoke to my prices editor and introduce myself to a couple of ppl in the London office.. just as I am about to call it a day... boss called for a meeting with me... haiz... but anyway I am not in a hurry so boss is always important when it come to work... so went down to a cafe to have a meeting over coffee... that is when the good and bad news come in.. boss has decided to get rid of a customer service gal in the office switching her to a data entry temp position and I will be taking over the full scope of the job.. plus I will need to train a new gal who will be coming in on Mon... hmmmm.. sad to hear that another gal got to go... boss said in this realistic world from a company's point of view.. you can't keep someone who goes off work punctually, do things that she is being told to do with no initiative to help in any things else or take on new responsibilites and who certainly dun have the attitude or passion in what she is doing.. hmm.. yah it is true but haiz.. harsh le.. I can't bear to do this kind of thing... too soft hearted I guess.. anyway boss said maybe this end of the year I will have to make a trip to either London or Vancouver.. will be attached to the office there for a couple of weeks... hahahaha... sounds cool to me.. dear dear is damn upset by the fact that I will have to go overseas again... I just keep on leaving him alone in SG... i am so sorry dear dear... :(.. anyway by the time we finish the meeting around 8+.. forgot that dear is waiting for me to go off work.. to my surprise.. he was waiting for me nearby... hahahaha... so sweet of him isn't it?? Oh yah boss also said this week we will be going drinking again to welcome the new gal.. OMG!!!!! Not again!!!! *shakes head* scared of alcohol now.. one time is enough..
24th March 2006 - 27th March 2006
Went back to Batu Pahat on Fri afternoon... met up with my uncle at Jalan Wong Ah Fook petrol station who drove us back.. went back to attend my cousin's wedding held on Sat... helped out at the wedding here and there... alot of things cropped and messed up.. anyway not my wedding.. hack care.. hahahaha.. there is just a lack of coordination and planning... but really who cares.. hahaha.. came back in a rush today... tired but happy because I get to see my darling... who got sick while I am away... sad case.. noone to take care of him... too tiring for him to take care of baby eeyore alone.. so he fell sick.. met him for dinner and a chat.. plus lots of hugs.. so sweet
Can see I am writing in a rush?? Of coz la.. coming to 12midnight and I am still typing away on my com sia... need to go slp liao.. still got a busy day tomolo at work leh.. hahaha... guess I will post the photos tomolo ba... the internet is just too slow in uploading the photos.. can't afford to wait... sleeping time is precious... nightz...
Monday, March 20, 2006
giving birth...
Happy News Bulletin
A new baby was born!!!!
A baby Eeyore was born today on the 20th march 2006 at 8.05pm at Suntec Carrefour to a very happy daddy and mummy Eeyore. Daddy and mummy Eeyore are both very happie at the arrival of this new life into this world... both promise to love baby Eeyore forever....
A new baby was born!!!!
A baby Eeyore was born today on the 20th march 2006 at 8.05pm at Suntec Carrefour to a very happy daddy and mummy Eeyore. Daddy and mummy Eeyore are both very happie at the arrival of this new life into this world... both promise to love baby Eeyore forever....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
drunk on an empty stomach...
I finally realise how bad it is to drink too much alcohol on an empty stomach... the side effects last for days.... your stomach hurts.. your head hurts... terrible.. I tell u how things happen..
Yesterday Fri 17th March 2006, my boss decided to treat the entire company to drinks after work to celebrate the expansion of the company and also to have a get to know you session as we have newbies coming in... ok when he say that.. we didn;t realise it doesn't include dinner first... so we worked until about 6pm.. then we went downstairs where a cab is already waiting for us... the cab took us straight to No 5 Emerald Hill... then we sat down and here come the drinks straight away... at first my strategy was to go slow... so at least I dun have to drink so much... some of my collegues drank abit too fast so by the time I finish my drinks they are already on their way to a third drink... but anyway it still doesn't work in the end... hahaha.. I took beers, shots including one unknown shot which my boss ordered for everyone and one lychee martini plus one unknown wine which was supposed to be meant for someone else... but she left before the drinks arrived so I got the task of finishing that drink on behalf... duhz... I must have been pissed.... because by the time I left the pub I seem to be supporting a super heavy big head.. hahaha... anyway I managed to make my way back to dear's house... before falling onto the bed and a deep slumber...
Sat night dear and I went to meet Wenliang, Jesper and Ah Boon for drinks... i thought maybe I can still drink a little... wah.. decided after less than half a mug to give up becoz my stomach couldn't take in any more alcohol... horrible... i think my stomach is still churning with Fri night alcohol.. hahaha...
I am going to slp now... becoz my head is still very very the heavy.. nitez
Yesterday Fri 17th March 2006, my boss decided to treat the entire company to drinks after work to celebrate the expansion of the company and also to have a get to know you session as we have newbies coming in... ok when he say that.. we didn;t realise it doesn't include dinner first... so we worked until about 6pm.. then we went downstairs where a cab is already waiting for us... the cab took us straight to No 5 Emerald Hill... then we sat down and here come the drinks straight away... at first my strategy was to go slow... so at least I dun have to drink so much... some of my collegues drank abit too fast so by the time I finish my drinks they are already on their way to a third drink... but anyway it still doesn't work in the end... hahaha.. I took beers, shots including one unknown shot which my boss ordered for everyone and one lychee martini plus one unknown wine which was supposed to be meant for someone else... but she left before the drinks arrived so I got the task of finishing that drink on behalf... duhz... I must have been pissed.... because by the time I left the pub I seem to be supporting a super heavy big head.. hahaha... anyway I managed to make my way back to dear's house... before falling onto the bed and a deep slumber...
Sat night dear and I went to meet Wenliang, Jesper and Ah Boon for drinks... i thought maybe I can still drink a little... wah.. decided after less than half a mug to give up becoz my stomach couldn't take in any more alcohol... horrible... i think my stomach is still churning with Fri night alcohol.. hahaha...
I am going to slp now... becoz my head is still very very the heavy.. nitez
Saturday, March 18, 2006
nice wedding gown
Was surfing through the net... came across this gown... very beautiful.. but I doubt I will have a chance to wear it.. neither do I think I have the figure to wear it... but it is soooo beautiful isn't it... hahaha
Thursday, March 16, 2006
TV dramas & novels
Ppl always ask me why I like to watch TV dramas, movies or novels associated with love so much.... some tell me it pollutes my mind because it creates false images of a fairy tale love story where the prince and princess of the story lives happily ever after.... some tell me that such TV dramas and novels beautify love too much and that love isn't that beautiful in real life... it just make ppl lives in a unrealistic world of their own...
My point of view...
Yah such TV dramas, movies and novels do beautify love in a certain way to a certain extent.. come on la.. think abt it.. if a author or director is going to write or film abt a damn sad love story.... I seriously doubt many ppl will spend money to watch it... I know that all along...
Yap sometimes it does create false images resulting in a too dreamy me wanting to live in a happily ever after love story with no faults or downsides... ok I admit that sounds pretty bad and serious in my case...
But not all dramas, movies and novels create a happily ever after love story ma... some do show how difficult it takes for a couple to be together at last.. all the things that they went through together.. how they managed to cross all the hurdles... the conflicts, agruments and disagreements... those are things that we can learn and use it in real life isn't it... although the guy and the ger always seem to be better and more understanding than anyone else in real life la.. but but... I dunno... there are so much things that I realise and learn from such dramas, movies and novels.. maybe some good some bad... but it makes me realise alot of things too....
My point of view...
Yah such TV dramas, movies and novels do beautify love in a certain way to a certain extent.. come on la.. think abt it.. if a author or director is going to write or film abt a damn sad love story.... I seriously doubt many ppl will spend money to watch it... I know that all along...
Yap sometimes it does create false images resulting in a too dreamy me wanting to live in a happily ever after love story with no faults or downsides... ok I admit that sounds pretty bad and serious in my case...
But not all dramas, movies and novels create a happily ever after love story ma... some do show how difficult it takes for a couple to be together at last.. all the things that they went through together.. how they managed to cross all the hurdles... the conflicts, agruments and disagreements... those are things that we can learn and use it in real life isn't it... although the guy and the ger always seem to be better and more understanding than anyone else in real life la.. but but... I dunno... there are so much things that I realise and learn from such dramas, movies and novels.. maybe some good some bad... but it makes me realise alot of things too....
Monday, March 13, 2006
weekend over in a min..
I waited so hard and so long for my weekends... but it didn't even seem to last for one min before vanishing into history...
Actually we didn't do much over the weekends.. we nv really did much over any weekends.. Hahaha..
11th March 2006 Saturday
Darling got to work until quite late because got lots of shipments to clear.. so I was lazing around at home watching TV and basically doing nothing while waiting for darling to call... so finally he went off work around 3+ which he came over to pick me up before going for lunch.. poor darling.. didn't manage to eat lunch until 3pm in the late afternoon.. sad.. then we went home.. laze around for a while on the sofa that my darling just moved into his room... then we showered and then we went out again.. to IKEA.. to get a coffee table and a rug for the floor... in order to complete our living room... in the end we didn't get the rug becoz I think it is simply too big and ugly but anyway we ended up getting a photo frame for a huge size poster that I got for him. Then we went to Thomson for kampong chicken rice before moving the stuffs home.. Oh yah the kampong chicken rice was damn damn expensive.. duhz... then we assembled the table and hanged up the poster with the nice photo frame and finally we got our studio apartment nice and cosy looking...
12th March 2006 Sunday
went over to Darling's place early in the morning.. you know we lived so close to one another that we can simply just walk over to each other place.. hahaha... gd sia... anyway it took us the entire morning to clean up his room of all the useless junks and darling finally got an idea on how perfectionist I am in getting every single damn thing centralise, simple and nice looking.. hahaha... then after a hard morning of work we went to the market for lunch before heading home for a short nap... woke up just in time for dinner before shifting his computer to my house.. hahaha..
Boring right?? Nothing much actually but we just enjoyed spending time with one another... hehe
Actually we didn't do much over the weekends.. we nv really did much over any weekends.. Hahaha..
11th March 2006 Saturday
Darling got to work until quite late because got lots of shipments to clear.. so I was lazing around at home watching TV and basically doing nothing while waiting for darling to call... so finally he went off work around 3+ which he came over to pick me up before going for lunch.. poor darling.. didn't manage to eat lunch until 3pm in the late afternoon.. sad.. then we went home.. laze around for a while on the sofa that my darling just moved into his room... then we showered and then we went out again.. to IKEA.. to get a coffee table and a rug for the floor... in order to complete our living room... in the end we didn't get the rug becoz I think it is simply too big and ugly but anyway we ended up getting a photo frame for a huge size poster that I got for him. Then we went to Thomson for kampong chicken rice before moving the stuffs home.. Oh yah the kampong chicken rice was damn damn expensive.. duhz... then we assembled the table and hanged up the poster with the nice photo frame and finally we got our studio apartment nice and cosy looking...
12th March 2006 Sunday
went over to Darling's place early in the morning.. you know we lived so close to one another that we can simply just walk over to each other place.. hahaha... gd sia... anyway it took us the entire morning to clean up his room of all the useless junks and darling finally got an idea on how perfectionist I am in getting every single damn thing centralise, simple and nice looking.. hahaha... then after a hard morning of work we went to the market for lunch before heading home for a short nap... woke up just in time for dinner before shifting his computer to my house.. hahaha..
Boring right?? Nothing much actually but we just enjoyed spending time with one another... hehe
Friday, March 10, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
possesive mindset
I remember I read a book before that say "Love is the more you want to hold on to it, the more you will lose it. Therefore love is a balance between being possesive yet not losing it". Suddenly this sentence make some meaning to me. Sometimes the more you are afraid of losing something, the more tighter you try to hold on to it. The thoughts of holding on get stuck in your mind making you panic in your mind but not wanting to show out how afraid you are. You start picking stones from an egg. You become suspicious because every single little thing he do or say seem to hint you that it is the end of the relationship. You lose your trust, you lose your confidence, you lose your communication and you lose your committment. It makes you tired. In the end you are just a miserable wreck. The book in the end say "Sometimes humans should learn how to let go. Becoz only by knowing that you cannot hold on to things forever, then you will know how to let go and take things easily. This way there wun be anything in this world that you would want to hold on to".
Yesterday night I sat in my bed thinking to myself. Why do everyone say I am grumpy. Why do everyone say I complained about my work. I remember someone telling me this before: "If one ppl come and tell you you have a problem yet noone else say or think the same thing, the problem lies with that person becoz he has a problem with you. But if a lot of ppl comes and tell you the same thing that you have a problem, it means the problem lies with you not with everyone else". So this time it become my problem not everyone else. Maybe that is something I need to change. If not I will just be going round and round in the same cycle over and over again in life.
I am just a simple, easily contented, dreamy gal. I thought this is what you like me for. My best buddy told me this before: "Humans got to learn how to be selfish in order to survive in the complicated and confusing world". I guess I finally decide to learn how to be selfish. I finally decide I want to be selfish yesterday night. Why should I always be taking care of others feelings and happiness when they dun even care a shit about mine? Why do I have to make sure whatever I do, others will be happy? Why do I have to live my life the way they want me to live my life so that they can be happy?? I thought I say before I no longer wanna to compromise my happiness for others?? I do things for myself not for others, I live my life for myself not for others. Now I say I wan to be happy, noone else can spoil that except for myself becoz this is my life.
Be it that I am avoiding problems or what, I just dun feel the need of struggling in a puddle of rain water when it will sooner or later dry up when the sun comes out. And there is no way I can make the puddle of rain water dry out without the sun... struggling in it maybe just makes things worse by spreading it to more areas or bigger puddles.. so I choose to adopt the hack care attitude. I didn't get the best of both worlds becoz utimately both worlds still have flaws that I can't amend. But I shall not let the flaws affect me becoz sooner or later down the road I know it wun be there anymore... why do I have to make myself so unhappy about something which dun even reflect anything 10 yrs down the road?? Like I say before "Some things are just ants swimming in the ocean becoz 10 yrs down the road you dun even remember what happen". Call it avoiding I dun think so ba... call that simple minded... yah maybe I am... Just hide in my bubble with a protective armour where nothing can ever break through and I will be alright. You know just like the show "Bubble Boy" where Adam Sandler hid his life away in a bubble ball? I will just be that... When things happen, just throw it to the dumpster, be quiet, dun talk and carry on with my life... becoz it doesn't concern me much.... becoz I already hack care abt it... it wun affect me anymore becoz I choose not to let it affect me...
In my life, I choose the way I want to be happy... I choose to be happy... take it or leave it...
Yesterday night I sat in my bed thinking to myself. Why do everyone say I am grumpy. Why do everyone say I complained about my work. I remember someone telling me this before: "If one ppl come and tell you you have a problem yet noone else say or think the same thing, the problem lies with that person becoz he has a problem with you. But if a lot of ppl comes and tell you the same thing that you have a problem, it means the problem lies with you not with everyone else". So this time it become my problem not everyone else. Maybe that is something I need to change. If not I will just be going round and round in the same cycle over and over again in life.
I am just a simple, easily contented, dreamy gal. I thought this is what you like me for. My best buddy told me this before: "Humans got to learn how to be selfish in order to survive in the complicated and confusing world". I guess I finally decide to learn how to be selfish. I finally decide I want to be selfish yesterday night. Why should I always be taking care of others feelings and happiness when they dun even care a shit about mine? Why do I have to make sure whatever I do, others will be happy? Why do I have to live my life the way they want me to live my life so that they can be happy?? I thought I say before I no longer wanna to compromise my happiness for others?? I do things for myself not for others, I live my life for myself not for others. Now I say I wan to be happy, noone else can spoil that except for myself becoz this is my life.
Be it that I am avoiding problems or what, I just dun feel the need of struggling in a puddle of rain water when it will sooner or later dry up when the sun comes out. And there is no way I can make the puddle of rain water dry out without the sun... struggling in it maybe just makes things worse by spreading it to more areas or bigger puddles.. so I choose to adopt the hack care attitude. I didn't get the best of both worlds becoz utimately both worlds still have flaws that I can't amend. But I shall not let the flaws affect me becoz sooner or later down the road I know it wun be there anymore... why do I have to make myself so unhappy about something which dun even reflect anything 10 yrs down the road?? Like I say before "Some things are just ants swimming in the ocean becoz 10 yrs down the road you dun even remember what happen". Call it avoiding I dun think so ba... call that simple minded... yah maybe I am... Just hide in my bubble with a protective armour where nothing can ever break through and I will be alright. You know just like the show "Bubble Boy" where Adam Sandler hid his life away in a bubble ball? I will just be that... When things happen, just throw it to the dumpster, be quiet, dun talk and carry on with my life... becoz it doesn't concern me much.... becoz I already hack care abt it... it wun affect me anymore becoz I choose not to let it affect me...
In my life, I choose the way I want to be happy... I choose to be happy... take it or leave it...
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Easily contented in life..
Wah 3am in the morning liao.. fooked.. I still wide awake wor.. darling U dun scold me hor.. I guess I slept too much this afternoon that once again I am unable to sleep at night.. hahaha..
Looking back at all my archives just now.. too much blogs too lazy to read them one by one.. just manage to glance through most of them... wah I have been blogging for over a year le.. can U believe it?? Ddin't realise I have been blogging for so long sia... saw a couple of blogs which I think was rather silly.. I guess I did suffer a minor depression crisis when I was working in Delifrance is it?? Haha.. That is usually what happen where there are too much things on my mind...
Had a nice talk with my dear just now.. dunno why but these few days I kinda of got scared about losing him... had that feeling that he is just going to give up on this relationship... give up on all the promises he had made and most importantly give up on me... I think I have dumped in too much feelings to pull myself out now.. I am too deeply rooted in this relationship... had that feeling that I am trying so hard to hold on to a vanishing relationship and that feeling is certainly not very nice... it hurts... I guess I am one of the worst gerfrenz he can ever had.. frankly speaking I can't blame him too... can I?
What he say is true.. I have a dreamy character.. I knew it all along... that is because I am contented and satisfied with my life now... I have my family and most importantly I have him... I know no matter what he will always be there for me.. to protect me, to comfort me... sometimes when I am just so tired and pissed off from work.. seeing him and getting to hug him just lighten my mood and spirit.. every moment spent with him is a spa retreat of its own... those are the times where I can pull myself away from the confusing complicated world and enjoy myself in true serentity and bliss... we dun have to do much spend much really.. just spending time with him I am glad enough.. always treasure the moments with him.. love him so much....
Looking back at all my archives just now.. too much blogs too lazy to read them one by one.. just manage to glance through most of them... wah I have been blogging for over a year le.. can U believe it?? Ddin't realise I have been blogging for so long sia... saw a couple of blogs which I think was rather silly.. I guess I did suffer a minor depression crisis when I was working in Delifrance is it?? Haha.. That is usually what happen where there are too much things on my mind...
Had a nice talk with my dear just now.. dunno why but these few days I kinda of got scared about losing him... had that feeling that he is just going to give up on this relationship... give up on all the promises he had made and most importantly give up on me... I think I have dumped in too much feelings to pull myself out now.. I am too deeply rooted in this relationship... had that feeling that I am trying so hard to hold on to a vanishing relationship and that feeling is certainly not very nice... it hurts... I guess I am one of the worst gerfrenz he can ever had.. frankly speaking I can't blame him too... can I?
What he say is true.. I have a dreamy character.. I knew it all along... that is because I am contented and satisfied with my life now... I have my family and most importantly I have him... I know no matter what he will always be there for me.. to protect me, to comfort me... sometimes when I am just so tired and pissed off from work.. seeing him and getting to hug him just lighten my mood and spirit.. every moment spent with him is a spa retreat of its own... those are the times where I can pull myself away from the confusing complicated world and enjoy myself in true serentity and bliss... we dun have to do much spend much really.. just spending time with him I am glad enough.. always treasure the moments with him.. love him so much....
Friday, March 03, 2006
Brain Dead
I am so TIRED until I dun wish to think about anything at all, I dun allow myself to think about anything at all and I dun want to think about anything more........ nothing goes in and nothing come out of it... the brain is just an empty nutshell... I am just a walking zombie...
What the hell is wrong???????? What the fuck is going on??
Feelings numb
Tears dried up
Brain dead
Officially announced dead on 3th March 2006 00.02am
But still loving you...
What the hell is wrong???????? What the fuck is going on??
Feelings numb
Tears dried up
Brain dead
Officially announced dead on 3th March 2006 00.02am
But still loving you...
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Quickie..
Haha.. I haven't blog for quite a long time haven't I?? Hmmm...
First of all I need to apologize to two persons... Junxian and Eyore.. so sorrie to infect you with a computer virus from my tagboard... it totally completely slipped passed my detection.. darlingz's office pc went down dragging the entire office network with it and until now I betted it still didn't manage to earn him a new PC to replace the old faulty one... hehehe.. Junxian.. thank god your office PC is alright man.... if not I dunno what would have happen with so much private and confidential data in your com.. can't think abt it... somemore your bank IT director must be screaming over its head because of the vast network your bank has and he/she need to protect... anyway I removed it... hahaha... no longer trust it to serve its purpose...
Ok Apologies done.. next for some updates.... what are the updates?? Me and my darlingz are so busy working until we didn't really have much updates also... duhz... hahahahaha... now you know why I haven't blogged for so long eh.... last Sat darlingz came and fetched me after work and we went back to his place to nua... then at night we are actually supposed to meet Shi An and Leon because it is Sai On's birthday but before that we made our way to Sembawang to meet WenLiang, Ah Boon, Ah P and Ah Xiong for dinner... stingray.. yummy... but the dinner is not nice because first the chilli is not hot.. second the stingray just dun taste nice... had a couple of drinks... beer of coz.... then has a slight disagreement over beer with my darlingz.. hahahaha.. aiyah we always have that... other couples always agrued over dunno what things we agrued over beer... not agruments just disagreements... we nv really have a big agrument before also.. because we always talk things over between us... by end of the day we will both realise we love each other too much to be angry over such petty things.. and things ended nicely with a hug and a kiss...hahahaha...
then Sunday I gave darlingz a surprise in the midst of his sub consicious.. hahaha.. he is awake but not fully awake yet... then both of us slept until quite late then went for lunch at Old market.. wanna to eat pork porridge.. but haiz.. woke up too late for it.. finished liao wor.. so we went for Lion City Teochew Noodles instead... after that went home slept for a while again after watching some TV... then woke up at 6+, his mum cooked fried rice so we ate a bit then we are off to JB for petrol.... met up with Ah Xiong and Wenliang on the way, went to JB together through the old causeway... headed for dunno dinner or supper.. hahaha.. ate stingray, mussels, prawns and vegetables for just hmmm $47RM... hahahaha.. that is only enough for one stingray in SG lo... pls.... after dinner we pumped petrol for darlingz's second wife.. then we came back to SG.. jam sia... but it was still ok... not really that terrible la...
Yesterday darling came and fetched me off work then we went for supper.. stingray again!!! Can U believe it.. hahaha.. darlingz scolded me for eating so many unhealthy food.. hahahahahaha... true true.. I promised him this is going to be one of my last stingray meal.. hehehe.. anyway darlingz brought me a Tigger figurine.. the same collection as the Eyore figurine that I brought him the other time..
k k enough enough got to rush to prepare my stuffs then go work le... haiz...
First of all I need to apologize to two persons... Junxian and Eyore.. so sorrie to infect you with a computer virus from my tagboard... it totally completely slipped passed my detection.. darlingz's office pc went down dragging the entire office network with it and until now I betted it still didn't manage to earn him a new PC to replace the old faulty one... hehehe.. Junxian.. thank god your office PC is alright man.... if not I dunno what would have happen with so much private and confidential data in your com.. can't think abt it... somemore your bank IT director must be screaming over its head because of the vast network your bank has and he/she need to protect... anyway I removed it... hahaha... no longer trust it to serve its purpose...
Ok Apologies done.. next for some updates.... what are the updates?? Me and my darlingz are so busy working until we didn't really have much updates also... duhz... hahahahaha... now you know why I haven't blogged for so long eh.... last Sat darlingz came and fetched me after work and we went back to his place to nua... then at night we are actually supposed to meet Shi An and Leon because it is Sai On's birthday but before that we made our way to Sembawang to meet WenLiang, Ah Boon, Ah P and Ah Xiong for dinner... stingray.. yummy... but the dinner is not nice because first the chilli is not hot.. second the stingray just dun taste nice... had a couple of drinks... beer of coz.... then has a slight disagreement over beer with my darlingz.. hahahaha.. aiyah we always have that... other couples always agrued over dunno what things we agrued over beer... not agruments just disagreements... we nv really have a big agrument before also.. because we always talk things over between us... by end of the day we will both realise we love each other too much to be angry over such petty things.. and things ended nicely with a hug and a kiss...hahahaha...
then Sunday I gave darlingz a surprise in the midst of his sub consicious.. hahaha.. he is awake but not fully awake yet... then both of us slept until quite late then went for lunch at Old market.. wanna to eat pork porridge.. but haiz.. woke up too late for it.. finished liao wor.. so we went for Lion City Teochew Noodles instead... after that went home slept for a while again after watching some TV... then woke up at 6+, his mum cooked fried rice so we ate a bit then we are off to JB for petrol.... met up with Ah Xiong and Wenliang on the way, went to JB together through the old causeway... headed for dunno dinner or supper.. hahaha.. ate stingray, mussels, prawns and vegetables for just hmmm $47RM... hahahaha.. that is only enough for one stingray in SG lo... pls.... after dinner we pumped petrol for darlingz's second wife.. then we came back to SG.. jam sia... but it was still ok... not really that terrible la...
Yesterday darling came and fetched me off work then we went for supper.. stingray again!!! Can U believe it.. hahaha.. darlingz scolded me for eating so many unhealthy food.. hahahahahaha... true true.. I promised him this is going to be one of my last stingray meal.. hehehe.. anyway darlingz brought me a Tigger figurine.. the same collection as the Eyore figurine that I brought him the other time..
k k enough enough got to rush to prepare my stuffs then go work le... haiz...
Friday, February 10, 2006
My Love for U
The first time we chatted, we seems like strangers... that weird feeling of trying to force the north and the south pole of the magnet together... after a few times of chatting, everything becomes more natural.. the topic that we clicked on?? Beer & alcohol... hehehe... you admit that you are a serious regular drinker and we agreed to introduce each other's drinking khakis to each other so we have a bigger gang of drinking khakis to mix around with next time... and we will ask each other out for a drink some day.. hehehe... because you wanted to see how well a ger can drink...I remember there was one time you message me while I am in Malaysia with my cousin from Australia and I didn't remember or know about your mobile number at all... after which it just happens that Ah Gong organise a gathering for WLNY ppl and i am one of the participants.. so I decided to ask you along.. to meet up with more ppl.. I went to meet up with Ah Gong, Alex and Yeeling for KTV while you just went off work and decided not to join us because you are tired... but you said you might be meeting us for dinner at Blk 19.. so when we went down to Blk 19 for dinner, you went to Yishun to meet up with ur frenz and missed dinner too... but as me and the gang were sitting at the old market chit chatting abt everything under the sun, you called me and asked us where we are and you will be coming down to meet up with us... Ah Ger and Ah Gong wanna to play match maker so they decided to shift places so that you will sit besides me... hehe..
I knew it was you when you were walking over... anyway there wasn't alot of ppl walking around there also since it is already so late.. hahaha.. so roughly also can guess it must be you.. as arranged you sat besides me.. but you were actually quite quiet.. maybe because you are not really familiar with the group yet.. except for me who you spoke to before.. hehehe.. felt strange to have you sitting besides me.. it is surely not love at first sight.. but somehow there is that kind of the funni feeling when you seems to know it might develop into something special.. that U might be the one.. I remember I asked you why you went down to Yishun, to pass what to your frenz... and I can smell the strong alcohol smell from you and i asked you if you already started drinking that early.. you gave me a smile in return... hehehe.. after everyone went off.. Ah Gong wanna send me home if you are not because it is already 12plus in the wee hours of the morning... but you said you will be sending me home.. hehehe.. but in the end we ended up going to Blk 211 to buy alcohol and going to the beach for more chit chat.. we are both quite shy at the beginning.. hehehe.. I really have to admit.. our first date?? Considered ba..
The next day you asked me if I have any plans for the night...I said no.. then we decided to go for dinner together... you came and fetched me off work.. hehehe.. asked me for the directions to Informatics Campus.. hehehe... we went to Blk 306 for Mackays.. hehehe.. after which we decided to go to the beach again for a drink of course.. we found out more about each other and realise that there are many things common between both of us... thinking wise especially.. hahaha... that was our second date.. the next day we didn't plan to go out or anything special... it was already night time and I got seriously pissed off abt something and called U to ask if U interested to go out for a drink... hahaha.. just happen that you wanted to message me too... hehehe... anyway U came over to fetch me and we went off to the beach... we grew close to one another and I guess at the same time we both realise that we have a bit of special feelings for each other... that night U wrapped your arms around my waist.. felt real sweet.. hehehe... that night you sent me some messages and I told you how I felt too..
As what U expected, it is a start of a beautiful relationship... the first day in our relationship, we met up for a drink at the beach... that time was awkard.. hehehe.. really... but after that we went to meet up with Leon and Sai On... you made your first appearance as my boyfrenz in front of 2 of my gd buddies.. hehehe.. we drank alot.. hehehe.. I can clearly remember you rubbing my hands.. and I guess I drank a bit too much and did something disgraceful in front of you.. hahaha.. you sent me home and hugged me... felt so blissful that time to have you by my side..
I remember at your chalet Ah Boon called me to tell me you are drunk..and yet you still insist of coming to fetch me from work.. silly boy.. hehehe.. you are so drunk that you keep on hugging on to me once I reached...you told me you are afriad that you will lose me.. and I reassured you I wun.. that was the first time I see you so drunk... you fell asleep and I stayed by your side for a while to make sure you are alright... and you woke up in the middle of the night not knowing what happens.. but I remember you hugged me and we chit chatted for a while before I fell asleep and U decided to continue drinking.. haiz.. you fell asleep besides me dunno when.. so sweet....such a nice day... nice memories..
There is just so much of you... so much memories of you... I love ya so much.. I really hope I can continue to have nice memories of you many years down the road...continue to feel safe and blissful in your arms forever... Can't imagine what to do without you...
I knew it was you when you were walking over... anyway there wasn't alot of ppl walking around there also since it is already so late.. hahaha.. so roughly also can guess it must be you.. as arranged you sat besides me.. but you were actually quite quiet.. maybe because you are not really familiar with the group yet.. except for me who you spoke to before.. hehehe.. felt strange to have you sitting besides me.. it is surely not love at first sight.. but somehow there is that kind of the funni feeling when you seems to know it might develop into something special.. that U might be the one.. I remember I asked you why you went down to Yishun, to pass what to your frenz... and I can smell the strong alcohol smell from you and i asked you if you already started drinking that early.. you gave me a smile in return... hehehe.. after everyone went off.. Ah Gong wanna send me home if you are not because it is already 12plus in the wee hours of the morning... but you said you will be sending me home.. hehehe.. but in the end we ended up going to Blk 211 to buy alcohol and going to the beach for more chit chat.. we are both quite shy at the beginning.. hehehe.. I really have to admit.. our first date?? Considered ba..
The next day you asked me if I have any plans for the night...I said no.. then we decided to go for dinner together... you came and fetched me off work.. hehehe.. asked me for the directions to Informatics Campus.. hehehe... we went to Blk 306 for Mackays.. hehehe.. after which we decided to go to the beach again for a drink of course.. we found out more about each other and realise that there are many things common between both of us... thinking wise especially.. hahaha... that was our second date.. the next day we didn't plan to go out or anything special... it was already night time and I got seriously pissed off abt something and called U to ask if U interested to go out for a drink... hahaha.. just happen that you wanted to message me too... hehehe... anyway U came over to fetch me and we went off to the beach... we grew close to one another and I guess at the same time we both realise that we have a bit of special feelings for each other... that night U wrapped your arms around my waist.. felt real sweet.. hehehe... that night you sent me some messages and I told you how I felt too..
As what U expected, it is a start of a beautiful relationship... the first day in our relationship, we met up for a drink at the beach... that time was awkard.. hehehe.. really... but after that we went to meet up with Leon and Sai On... you made your first appearance as my boyfrenz in front of 2 of my gd buddies.. hehehe.. we drank alot.. hehehe.. I can clearly remember you rubbing my hands.. and I guess I drank a bit too much and did something disgraceful in front of you.. hahaha.. you sent me home and hugged me... felt so blissful that time to have you by my side..
I remember at your chalet Ah Boon called me to tell me you are drunk..and yet you still insist of coming to fetch me from work.. silly boy.. hehehe.. you are so drunk that you keep on hugging on to me once I reached...you told me you are afriad that you will lose me.. and I reassured you I wun.. that was the first time I see you so drunk... you fell asleep and I stayed by your side for a while to make sure you are alright... and you woke up in the middle of the night not knowing what happens.. but I remember you hugged me and we chit chatted for a while before I fell asleep and U decided to continue drinking.. haiz.. you fell asleep besides me dunno when.. so sweet....such a nice day... nice memories..
There is just so much of you... so much memories of you... I love ya so much.. I really hope I can continue to have nice memories of you many years down the road...continue to feel safe and blissful in your arms forever... Can't imagine what to do without you...
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Photos2
Haha.. delayed posting of the photos from Malaysia & Sentosa trip.. hehehe... Sorrie sorrie... here you are...
My outfit for the reunion dinner...chio bo?? Haha
Sentosa Flower Festival
Flowers!!! Nice Nice...
Me & a RA statue
Me & Dear Dear
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Follow Up...
hehe.. Ok continue from my last post... hehehe... yesterday rushing out to go Katong on a house visit with my mum to one of my relative's house.... hehehe..main purpose is of course due to the Chinese New Year.. secondary purpose is to take my relatives' full chinese names in preparation for one of my elder cousin's wedding.. the names are needed for the wedding invitation cards... hehehe.. Dunno why I got involved in my elder cousin's wedding in the first place.. it is not my wedding wat.. hahaha.. anyway can help help lo.. it is quite grand.. the wedding is held in the ballroom of the one and only 4 star hotel Katrina Hotel in Batu Pahat... costs a bomb... hahaha.. as my cousin is marrying a Korean-American.. they need two MC one chinese and one English.. and I got the role of the English MC.. hahaha.. sounds fun.. hehehe... I shld learn from my cousin's wedding.. so next time when it is my turn.. I wun make it as messy as her... so many things to prepare and arrange.. and so much money going out but not in... hahaha... but I seriously can't wait to get married.. hahahaha.. U know that blissful feeling of getting married to someone who U want to spend the rest of ur life with..?? hehehe... that smile just hang on your face... even going through all the trouble dun seem to be any hassle at all... when it is my wedding.. I want to plan everything myself.. hehehe... I learn events management before.. and having so much experience in helping out at other ppl weddings.. I will surely make sure I have my perfect wedding.. small sweet simple but memorable... dun need to be in any big ballrooms of any grand hotels blu blu blu.. hehehe.. anyway me and my darling already saw this wedding guest book that we wanted to get liao.. haha.. wait wait wait.. ahaha.. still long la.. kaos... everyone keep asking us when we want to get married.. kaos.. we just started only lo.. hahaha...
Anyway for the past few days I am staying over at my darling's place.. so sweet to spend so much time with him in and out together... but time really passes very fast... haiz... can't bear to leave my darling's side and start work tomolo again....
27th Jan - 31th Jan
Went back to Batu Pahat my grandpa & grandma kampong to celebrate the Chinese New Year.. haven't been back for so long... especially during the Chinese New Year period because everytime we think about the Woodlands Customs super long jam, we sianz half le.. but this year die die make our way back.. couldn't get any bus tickets so we took a cab back... but luckily we managed to reach there just in time for the reunion dinner... on the first day of Chinese New Year, all my relatives from all over Malaysia started to arrive back.. due to the lack of rooms, my family shifted to a hotel down town.. hehehe together with 3 of my aunties.. wah havoc sia... all the gossips start passing around le.. heheheh.. then we have a reunion dinner at a restaurant down town on the second day of Chinese New Year... hehehe... as I am making my way to my uncle's car, I bumped into one of my USQ school mate from Australia... arghhhhh.. the world just went crazy sia.. he is very close to me in Australia.. hehehe... hahahaha... I mean I nv thought I would bump into him U know.. becoz he lived in Pontian worked in KL.. I nv thought he would be in Batu Pahat for a gathering with his frenz... he invited me for a drink just like the old times in Toowoomba Australia.. but I need to go back to my grandma's place so I say byez to him.. we promised to keep in contact thou... hehehe.. we were both so surprised and shocked to see each other.. haha.. the world is just so small sometimes.. hehehe.. the next day we drove out to SG.. got stuck in Johor for 2 hours.. but in the end we managed to get out still.. thanks god..
1st Feb 2006
Brought my auntie, uncle and their kids to Singapore Science Centre with my mum... but I met up with my darling early in the morning.. he is so sweet u know.. he woke up especially early in the morning just to send me to Yishun Polyclinic for a checkup at 8.15am in the morning... hehehe... then we went for breakfast at Chong Pang.. so happie to see him again after that few days being away from him.. hehehe.. then he drew the directions for me knowing that I am a idiot when it comes to driving and the roads in SG.. hahaha.. then he went back to orh orh while I set off to Science Centre.. hahaha.. but I tell U I am a idiot right? I lost my way even with the directions that he provided.. hahaha... so I kept on calling him for help.. hahaha.. sad case sia.. hehehe.. we finished the Science Centre trip at around 6pm then we made our way back to Causeway Point for dinner at Kampong Days... after dinner dear dear came and fetched me to his place... so glad to be able to hug him to sleep.. i actually have a lot of things to tell him.. but I fell asleep I guess.. hahaha.. too tired...
2nd Feb 2006
Woke up very early in the morning.. because dear dear need to go make his airport pass.. actually I am supposed to go with him in the morning.. but when we woke up in the morning darling say he go alone wor.. and asked me to continue to sleep... he will rush there and rush back asap.. give me a peek on the cheeks before he left.. then I fell asleep.. hehehe... after he came back we showered and rushed back to my place.. because we are going to bring my relatives to Sentosa.. hahaha.. darling is the co-driver this time.. after the mess I made yesterday.. hahaha.. I decided it will be better if he give the directions himself.. hahaha.. it is also the first time my darling offically made an appearance in front of my family.. hehehe... he was so worried abt it.. but hehe... the day turns out well I guess.. we both enjoyed ourself.. and I think he perform real well.. hehehe like acting he told me.. hehehe.. then we came back becoz little baby Brandon fell asleep... I bet he was too tired.. hehehe... we went to Sakae Sushi for dinner.. then dear dear came and fetched me to Uncle Colin's chalet at Pasir Ris where we see baby Melson again.. my darling's baby.. hehehe... reached back home abt 1am or 2am in the morning.. fell asleep soon after
3rd Feb 2006
Oh we slept real late sia... 2pm in the afternoon... both of us woke up real tired and "nua"... hahaha.. I guess we overslept.. too much over the limits.. went to old market for lunch.. not much stores was open anyway due to Chinese New Year.. then we went back home and laze around.. hehehe.. then in the evening we went over to his auntie's place for dinner.. then rushed back to Wdl Partyworld to meet up with Xiang Ling, Ah Gong, Junxian and Maggie for KTV.. sang until abt 1am.. then went for supper at Grand City... dun need to say.. we fell asleep like pigs when we reached home.. hahaha
4th Feb 2006
Woke up around 10am because I need to come back to go house visiting with my mum... darling woke up with me because he need to send me back.. hehehe... then I went house visiting while darling went to Johor with ah Xiong to pump petrol... then we went to meet Ah Gong, Junxian and guys at Chong Pang for dinner.. I am still not done yet so I missed out on the dinner part... when I reached back at WDL darling already at Ginza.. so I decided to take a bus to Chong Pang to meet up with him... while he walked out from Ginza to the bus stop to fetch me.. hehehe.. then we drank and drank... haiz.. a lot of funni things happens... too much to be written down one by one... hehehe... we left around 12am because I am tired.. and darling is a bit tipsy topsy.. hahaha.. talks rubbish whenever he is like that.. hehehehe... but we managed to reach home safety and a day is over just like that... hehehe.. I miss him so much....wishes to spend every single min with him...
Anyway for the past few days I am staying over at my darling's place.. so sweet to spend so much time with him in and out together... but time really passes very fast... haiz... can't bear to leave my darling's side and start work tomolo again....
27th Jan - 31th Jan
Went back to Batu Pahat my grandpa & grandma kampong to celebrate the Chinese New Year.. haven't been back for so long... especially during the Chinese New Year period because everytime we think about the Woodlands Customs super long jam, we sianz half le.. but this year die die make our way back.. couldn't get any bus tickets so we took a cab back... but luckily we managed to reach there just in time for the reunion dinner... on the first day of Chinese New Year, all my relatives from all over Malaysia started to arrive back.. due to the lack of rooms, my family shifted to a hotel down town.. hehehe together with 3 of my aunties.. wah havoc sia... all the gossips start passing around le.. heheheh.. then we have a reunion dinner at a restaurant down town on the second day of Chinese New Year... hehehe... as I am making my way to my uncle's car, I bumped into one of my USQ school mate from Australia... arghhhhh.. the world just went crazy sia.. he is very close to me in Australia.. hehehe... hahahaha... I mean I nv thought I would bump into him U know.. becoz he lived in Pontian worked in KL.. I nv thought he would be in Batu Pahat for a gathering with his frenz... he invited me for a drink just like the old times in Toowoomba Australia.. but I need to go back to my grandma's place so I say byez to him.. we promised to keep in contact thou... hehehe.. we were both so surprised and shocked to see each other.. haha.. the world is just so small sometimes.. hehehe.. the next day we drove out to SG.. got stuck in Johor for 2 hours.. but in the end we managed to get out still.. thanks god..
1st Feb 2006
Brought my auntie, uncle and their kids to Singapore Science Centre with my mum... but I met up with my darling early in the morning.. he is so sweet u know.. he woke up especially early in the morning just to send me to Yishun Polyclinic for a checkup at 8.15am in the morning... hehehe... then we went for breakfast at Chong Pang.. so happie to see him again after that few days being away from him.. hehehe.. then he drew the directions for me knowing that I am a idiot when it comes to driving and the roads in SG.. hahaha.. then he went back to orh orh while I set off to Science Centre.. hahaha.. but I tell U I am a idiot right? I lost my way even with the directions that he provided.. hahaha... so I kept on calling him for help.. hahaha.. sad case sia.. hehehe.. we finished the Science Centre trip at around 6pm then we made our way back to Causeway Point for dinner at Kampong Days... after dinner dear dear came and fetched me to his place... so glad to be able to hug him to sleep.. i actually have a lot of things to tell him.. but I fell asleep I guess.. hahaha.. too tired...
2nd Feb 2006
Woke up very early in the morning.. because dear dear need to go make his airport pass.. actually I am supposed to go with him in the morning.. but when we woke up in the morning darling say he go alone wor.. and asked me to continue to sleep... he will rush there and rush back asap.. give me a peek on the cheeks before he left.. then I fell asleep.. hehehe... after he came back we showered and rushed back to my place.. because we are going to bring my relatives to Sentosa.. hahaha.. darling is the co-driver this time.. after the mess I made yesterday.. hahaha.. I decided it will be better if he give the directions himself.. hahaha.. it is also the first time my darling offically made an appearance in front of my family.. hehehe... he was so worried abt it.. but hehe... the day turns out well I guess.. we both enjoyed ourself.. and I think he perform real well.. hehehe like acting he told me.. hehehe.. then we came back becoz little baby Brandon fell asleep... I bet he was too tired.. hehehe... we went to Sakae Sushi for dinner.. then dear dear came and fetched me to Uncle Colin's chalet at Pasir Ris where we see baby Melson again.. my darling's baby.. hehehe... reached back home abt 1am or 2am in the morning.. fell asleep soon after
3rd Feb 2006
Oh we slept real late sia... 2pm in the afternoon... both of us woke up real tired and "nua"... hahaha.. I guess we overslept.. too much over the limits.. went to old market for lunch.. not much stores was open anyway due to Chinese New Year.. then we went back home and laze around.. hehehe.. then in the evening we went over to his auntie's place for dinner.. then rushed back to Wdl Partyworld to meet up with Xiang Ling, Ah Gong, Junxian and Maggie for KTV.. sang until abt 1am.. then went for supper at Grand City... dun need to say.. we fell asleep like pigs when we reached home.. hahaha
4th Feb 2006
Woke up around 10am because I need to come back to go house visiting with my mum... darling woke up with me because he need to send me back.. hehehe... then I went house visiting while darling went to Johor with ah Xiong to pump petrol... then we went to meet Ah Gong, Junxian and guys at Chong Pang for dinner.. I am still not done yet so I missed out on the dinner part... when I reached back at WDL darling already at Ginza.. so I decided to take a bus to Chong Pang to meet up with him... while he walked out from Ginza to the bus stop to fetch me.. hehehe.. then we drank and drank... haiz.. a lot of funni things happens... too much to be written down one by one... hehehe... we left around 12am because I am tired.. and darling is a bit tipsy topsy.. hahaha.. talks rubbish whenever he is like that.. hehehehe... but we managed to reach home safety and a day is over just like that... hehehe.. I miss him so much....wishes to spend every single min with him...
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