Wah 3am in the morning liao.. fooked.. I still wide awake wor.. darling U dun scold me hor.. I guess I slept too much this afternoon that once again I am unable to sleep at night.. hahaha..
Looking back at all my archives just now.. too much blogs too lazy to read them one by one.. just manage to glance through most of them... wah I have been blogging for over a year le.. can U believe it?? Ddin't realise I have been blogging for so long sia... saw a couple of blogs which I think was rather silly.. I guess I did suffer a minor depression crisis when I was working in Delifrance is it?? Haha.. That is usually what happen where there are too much things on my mind...
Had a nice talk with my dear just now.. dunno why but these few days I kinda of got scared about losing him... had that feeling that he is just going to give up on this relationship... give up on all the promises he had made and most importantly give up on me... I think I have dumped in too much feelings to pull myself out now.. I am too deeply rooted in this relationship... had that feeling that I am trying so hard to hold on to a vanishing relationship and that feeling is certainly not very nice... it hurts... I guess I am one of the worst gerfrenz he can ever had.. frankly speaking I can't blame him too... can I?
What he say is true.. I have a dreamy character.. I knew it all along... that is because I am contented and satisfied with my life now... I have my family and most importantly I have him... I know no matter what he will always be there for me.. to protect me, to comfort me... sometimes when I am just so tired and pissed off from work.. seeing him and getting to hug him just lighten my mood and spirit.. every moment spent with him is a spa retreat of its own... those are the times where I can pull myself away from the confusing complicated world and enjoy myself in true serentity and bliss... we dun have to do much spend much really.. just spending time with him I am glad enough.. always treasure the moments with him.. love him so much....
