Friday, March 31, 2006

photos as promised

OK. The photos as promised long long time ago...

The Wedding Car!!



A Pair of Teddies



Family Potrait


Ooh.. Don't be scared. This is just less than half of my entire family tree... hahaha

Centre Stage



Beautiful chandelier



Me & My Bro



Me & My Cousins


Sunday, March 26, 2006

weekend update...

Ok. Let start updating from Last Wed 15th March 2006 since the days before that are well spent working and working away.. nothing much to mention about my ordinary and boring life anyway... hahaha

15th March 2006
I met the gals for dinner at Sake Sushi... the gals mentioned refer to my two best pals Sui Hui and Xiang Ling.. hehehe... they are my two best secondary mates who have been with me since my secondary havoc school days... they really saw me through some big changes in my life and I did the same for them as well.. hehehe... those were the days... but it is all still good as we still met up occasionally whenever we can afford the time and money to... we still chat about everything in life such as work and relationships of coz.. plus some minor gossips.. hehehe.. overall meeting up with them is good.. still treasure the time with them alot...

16th March 2006
Bad and gd news... worked late to clear a few stuffs as renewals keep on coming in nonstop... met up with a couple of important people in the industry, called London office, spoke to my prices editor and introduce myself to a couple of ppl in the London office.. just as I am about to call it a day... boss called for a meeting with me... haiz... but anyway I am not in a hurry so boss is always important when it come to work... so went down to a cafe to have a meeting over coffee... that is when the good and bad news come in.. boss has decided to get rid of a customer service gal in the office switching her to a data entry temp position and I will be taking over the full scope of the job.. plus I will need to train a new gal who will be coming in on Mon... hmmmm.. sad to hear that another gal got to go... boss said in this realistic world from a company's point of view.. you can't keep someone who goes off work punctually, do things that she is being told to do with no initiative to help in any things else or take on new responsibilites and who certainly dun have the attitude or passion in what she is doing.. hmm.. yah it is true but haiz.. harsh le.. I can't bear to do this kind of thing... too soft hearted I guess.. anyway boss said maybe this end of the year I will have to make a trip to either London or Vancouver.. will be attached to the office there for a couple of weeks... hahahaha... sounds cool to me.. dear dear is damn upset by the fact that I will have to go overseas again... I just keep on leaving him alone in SG... i am so sorry dear dear... :(.. anyway by the time we finish the meeting around 8+.. forgot that dear is waiting for me to go off work.. to my surprise.. he was waiting for me nearby... hahahaha... so sweet of him isn't it?? Oh yah boss also said this week we will be going drinking again to welcome the new gal.. OMG!!!!! Not again!!!! *shakes head* scared of alcohol now.. one time is enough..

24th March 2006 - 27th March 2006
Went back to Batu Pahat on Fri afternoon... met up with my uncle at Jalan Wong Ah Fook petrol station who drove us back.. went back to attend my cousin's wedding held on Sat... helped out at the wedding here and there... alot of things cropped and messed up.. anyway not my wedding.. hack care.. hahahaha.. there is just a lack of coordination and planning... but really who cares.. hahaha.. came back in a rush today... tired but happy because I get to see my darling... who got sick while I am away... sad case.. noone to take care of him... too tiring for him to take care of baby eeyore alone.. so he fell sick.. met him for dinner and a chat.. plus lots of hugs.. so sweet

Can see I am writing in a rush?? Of coz la.. coming to 12midnight and I am still typing away on my com sia... need to go slp liao.. still got a busy day tomolo at work leh.. hahaha... guess I will post the photos tomolo ba... the internet is just too slow in uploading the photos.. can't afford to wait... sleeping time is precious... nightz...

Monday, March 20, 2006

giving birth...

Happy News Bulletin

A new baby was born!!!!
A baby Eeyore was born today on the 20th march 2006 at 8.05pm at Suntec Carrefour to a very happy daddy and mummy Eeyore. Daddy and mummy Eeyore are both very happie at the arrival of this new life into this world... both promise to love baby Eeyore forever....

Sunday, March 19, 2006

drunk on an empty stomach...

I finally realise how bad it is to drink too much alcohol on an empty stomach... the side effects last for days.... your stomach hurts.. your head hurts... terrible.. I tell u how things happen..

Yesterday Fri 17th March 2006, my boss decided to treat the entire company to drinks after work to celebrate the expansion of the company and also to have a get to know you session as we have newbies coming in... ok when he say that.. we didn;t realise it doesn't include dinner first... so we worked until about 6pm.. then we went downstairs where a cab is already waiting for us... the cab took us straight to No 5 Emerald Hill... then we sat down and here come the drinks straight away... at first my strategy was to go slow... so at least I dun have to drink so much... some of my collegues drank abit too fast so by the time I finish my drinks they are already on their way to a third drink... but anyway it still doesn't work in the end... hahaha.. I took beers, shots including one unknown shot which my boss ordered for everyone and one lychee martini plus one unknown wine which was supposed to be meant for someone else... but she left before the drinks arrived so I got the task of finishing that drink on behalf... duhz... I must have been pissed.... because by the time I left the pub I seem to be supporting a super heavy big head.. hahaha... anyway I managed to make my way back to dear's house... before falling onto the bed and a deep slumber...

Sat night dear and I went to meet Wenliang, Jesper and Ah Boon for drinks... i thought maybe I can still drink a little... wah.. decided after less than half a mug to give up becoz my stomach couldn't take in any more alcohol... horrible... i think my stomach is still churning with Fri night alcohol.. hahaha...

I am going to slp now... becoz my head is still very very the heavy.. nitez

Saturday, March 18, 2006

nice wedding gown

Was surfing through the net... came across this gown... very beautiful.. but I doubt I will have a chance to wear it.. neither do I think I have the figure to wear it... but it is soooo beautiful isn't it... hahaha

Thursday, March 16, 2006

photos of my studio apt

Photos of our studio apartment.. hahahaha





TV dramas & novels

Ppl always ask me why I like to watch TV dramas, movies or novels associated with love so much.... some tell me it pollutes my mind because it creates false images of a fairy tale love story where the prince and princess of the story lives happily ever after.... some tell me that such TV dramas and novels beautify love too much and that love isn't that beautiful in real life... it just make ppl lives in a unrealistic world of their own...

My point of view...

Yah such TV dramas, movies and novels do beautify love in a certain way to a certain extent.. come on la.. think abt it.. if a author or director is going to write or film abt a damn sad love story.... I seriously doubt many ppl will spend money to watch it... I know that all along...

Yap sometimes it does create false images resulting in a too dreamy me wanting to live in a happily ever after love story with no faults or downsides... ok I admit that sounds pretty bad and serious in my case...

But not all dramas, movies and novels create a happily ever after love story ma... some do show how difficult it takes for a couple to be together at last.. all the things that they went through together.. how they managed to cross all the hurdles... the conflicts, agruments and disagreements... those are things that we can learn and use it in real life isn't it... although the guy and the ger always seem to be better and more understanding than anyone else in real life la.. but but... I dunno... there are so much things that I realise and learn from such dramas, movies and novels.. maybe some good some bad... but it makes me realise alot of things too....

Monday, March 13, 2006

weekend over in a min..

I waited so hard and so long for my weekends... but it didn't even seem to last for one min before vanishing into history...

Actually we didn't do much over the weekends.. we nv really did much over any weekends.. Hahaha..

11th March 2006 Saturday
Darling got to work until quite late because got lots of shipments to clear.. so I was lazing around at home watching TV and basically doing nothing while waiting for darling to call... so finally he went off work around 3+ which he came over to pick me up before going for lunch.. poor darling.. didn't manage to eat lunch until 3pm in the late afternoon.. sad.. then we went home.. laze around for a while on the sofa that my darling just moved into his room... then we showered and then we went out again.. to IKEA.. to get a coffee table and a rug for the floor... in order to complete our living room... in the end we didn't get the rug becoz I think it is simply too big and ugly but anyway we ended up getting a photo frame for a huge size poster that I got for him. Then we went to Thomson for kampong chicken rice before moving the stuffs home.. Oh yah the kampong chicken rice was damn damn expensive.. duhz... then we assembled the table and hanged up the poster with the nice photo frame and finally we got our studio apartment nice and cosy looking...

12th March 2006 Sunday
went over to Darling's place early in the morning.. you know we lived so close to one another that we can simply just walk over to each other place.. hahaha... gd sia... anyway it took us the entire morning to clean up his room of all the useless junks and darling finally got an idea on how perfectionist I am in getting every single damn thing centralise, simple and nice looking.. hahaha... then after a hard morning of work we went to the market for lunch before heading home for a short nap... woke up just in time for dinner before shifting his computer to my house.. hahaha..

Boring right?? Nothing much actually but we just enjoyed spending time with one another... hehe

Friday, March 10, 2006

sat & sun....

Can't wait for Sat and Sun....
Can't wait to see U...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

possesive mindset

I remember I read a book before that say "Love is the more you want to hold on to it, the more you will lose it. Therefore love is a balance between being possesive yet not losing it". Suddenly this sentence make some meaning to me. Sometimes the more you are afraid of losing something, the more tighter you try to hold on to it. The thoughts of holding on get stuck in your mind making you panic in your mind but not wanting to show out how afraid you are. You start picking stones from an egg. You become suspicious because every single little thing he do or say seem to hint you that it is the end of the relationship. You lose your trust, you lose your confidence, you lose your communication and you lose your committment. It makes you tired. In the end you are just a miserable wreck. The book in the end say "Sometimes humans should learn how to let go. Becoz only by knowing that you cannot hold on to things forever, then you will know how to let go and take things easily. This way there wun be anything in this world that you would want to hold on to".

Yesterday night I sat in my bed thinking to myself. Why do everyone say I am grumpy. Why do everyone say I complained about my work. I remember someone telling me this before: "If one ppl come and tell you you have a problem yet noone else say or think the same thing, the problem lies with that person becoz he has a problem with you. But if a lot of ppl comes and tell you the same thing that you have a problem, it means the problem lies with you not with everyone else". So this time it become my problem not everyone else. Maybe that is something I need to change. If not I will just be going round and round in the same cycle over and over again in life.

I am just a simple, easily contented, dreamy gal. I thought this is what you like me for. My best buddy told me this before: "Humans got to learn how to be selfish in order to survive in the complicated and confusing world". I guess I finally decide to learn how to be selfish. I finally decide I want to be selfish yesterday night. Why should I always be taking care of others feelings and happiness when they dun even care a shit about mine? Why do I have to make sure whatever I do, others will be happy? Why do I have to live my life the way they want me to live my life so that they can be happy?? I thought I say before I no longer wanna to compromise my happiness for others?? I do things for myself not for others, I live my life for myself not for others. Now I say I wan to be happy, noone else can spoil that except for myself becoz this is my life.

Be it that I am avoiding problems or what, I just dun feel the need of struggling in a puddle of rain water when it will sooner or later dry up when the sun comes out. And there is no way I can make the puddle of rain water dry out without the sun... struggling in it maybe just makes things worse by spreading it to more areas or bigger puddles.. so I choose to adopt the hack care attitude. I didn't get the best of both worlds becoz utimately both worlds still have flaws that I can't amend. But I shall not let the flaws affect me becoz sooner or later down the road I know it wun be there anymore... why do I have to make myself so unhappy about something which dun even reflect anything 10 yrs down the road?? Like I say before "Some things are just ants swimming in the ocean becoz 10 yrs down the road you dun even remember what happen". Call it avoiding I dun think so ba... call that simple minded... yah maybe I am... Just hide in my bubble with a protective armour where nothing can ever break through and I will be alright. You know just like the show "Bubble Boy" where Adam Sandler hid his life away in a bubble ball? I will just be that... When things happen, just throw it to the dumpster, be quiet, dun talk and carry on with my life... becoz it doesn't concern me much.... becoz I already hack care abt it... it wun affect me anymore becoz I choose not to let it affect me...

In my life, I choose the way I want to be happy... I choose to be happy... take it or leave it...

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Easily contented in life..

Wah 3am in the morning liao.. fooked.. I still wide awake wor.. darling U dun scold me hor.. I guess I slept too much this afternoon that once again I am unable to sleep at night.. hahaha..

Looking back at all my archives just now.. too much blogs too lazy to read them one by one.. just manage to glance through most of them... wah I have been blogging for over a year le.. can U believe it?? Ddin't realise I have been blogging for so long sia... saw a couple of blogs which I think was rather silly.. I guess I did suffer a minor depression crisis when I was working in Delifrance is it?? Haha.. That is usually what happen where there are too much things on my mind...

Had a nice talk with my dear just now.. dunno why but these few days I kinda of got scared about losing him... had that feeling that he is just going to give up on this relationship... give up on all the promises he had made and most importantly give up on me... I think I have dumped in too much feelings to pull myself out now.. I am too deeply rooted in this relationship... had that feeling that I am trying so hard to hold on to a vanishing relationship and that feeling is certainly not very nice... it hurts... I guess I am one of the worst gerfrenz he can ever had.. frankly speaking I can't blame him too... can I?

What he say is true.. I have a dreamy character.. I knew it all along... that is because I am contented and satisfied with my life now... I have my family and most importantly I have him... I know no matter what he will always be there for me.. to protect me, to comfort me... sometimes when I am just so tired and pissed off from work.. seeing him and getting to hug him just lighten my mood and spirit.. every moment spent with him is a spa retreat of its own... those are the times where I can pull myself away from the confusing complicated world and enjoy myself in true serentity and bliss... we dun have to do much spend much really.. just spending time with him I am glad enough.. always treasure the moments with him.. love him so much....

Friday, March 03, 2006

Brain Dead

I am so TIRED until I dun wish to think about anything at all, I dun allow myself to think about anything at all and I dun want to think about anything more........ nothing goes in and nothing come out of it... the brain is just an empty nutshell... I am just a walking zombie...

What the hell is wrong???????? What the fuck is going on??

Feelings numb

Tears dried up

Brain dead

Officially announced dead on 3th March 2006 00.02am

But still loving you...

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Quickie..

Haha.. I haven't blog for quite a long time haven't I?? Hmmm...

First of all I need to apologize to two persons... Junxian and Eyore.. so sorrie to infect you with a computer virus from my tagboard... it totally completely slipped passed my detection.. darlingz's office pc went down dragging the entire office network with it and until now I betted it still didn't manage to earn him a new PC to replace the old faulty one... hehehe.. Junxian.. thank god your office PC is alright man.... if not I dunno what would have happen with so much private and confidential data in your com.. can't think abt it... somemore your bank IT director must be screaming over its head because of the vast network your bank has and he/she need to protect... anyway I removed it... hahaha... no longer trust it to serve its purpose...

Ok Apologies done.. next for some updates.... what are the updates?? Me and my darlingz are so busy working until we didn't really have much updates also... duhz... hahahahaha... now you know why I haven't blogged for so long eh.... last Sat darlingz came and fetched me after work and we went back to his place to nua... then at night we are actually supposed to meet Shi An and Leon because it is Sai On's birthday but before that we made our way to Sembawang to meet WenLiang, Ah Boon, Ah P and Ah Xiong for dinner... stingray.. yummy... but the dinner is not nice because first the chilli is not hot.. second the stingray just dun taste nice... had a couple of drinks... beer of coz.... then has a slight disagreement over beer with my darlingz.. hahahaha.. aiyah we always have that... other couples always agrued over dunno what things we agrued over beer... not agruments just disagreements... we nv really have a big agrument before also.. because we always talk things over between us... by end of the day we will both realise we love each other too much to be angry over such petty things.. and things ended nicely with a hug and a kiss...hahahaha...

then Sunday I gave darlingz a surprise in the midst of his sub consicious.. hahaha.. he is awake but not fully awake yet... then both of us slept until quite late then went for lunch at Old market.. wanna to eat pork porridge.. but haiz.. woke up too late for it.. finished liao wor.. so we went for Lion City Teochew Noodles instead... after that went home slept for a while again after watching some TV... then woke up at 6+, his mum cooked fried rice so we ate a bit then we are off to JB for petrol.... met up with Ah Xiong and Wenliang on the way, went to JB together through the old causeway... headed for dunno dinner or supper.. hahaha.. ate stingray, mussels, prawns and vegetables for just hmmm $47RM... hahahaha.. that is only enough for one stingray in SG lo... pls.... after dinner we pumped petrol for darlingz's second wife.. then we came back to SG.. jam sia... but it was still ok... not really that terrible la...

Yesterday darling came and fetched me off work then we went for supper.. stingray again!!! Can U believe it.. hahaha.. darlingz scolded me for eating so many unhealthy food.. hahahahahaha... true true.. I promised him this is going to be one of my last stingray meal.. hehehe.. anyway darlingz brought me a Tigger figurine.. the same collection as the Eyore figurine that I brought him the other time..

k k enough enough got to rush to prepare my stuffs then go work le... haiz...