I keep on telling myself, persuading myself, convincing myself, repeating to myself, knocking it into my head a hundred and a thousand times.. I must be strong... I must not be vulnerable... I must not show my soft side... I must not be silly..... I must not be soft hearted...I must keep myself occupied, I must not think back about the past.. I must move on... I must be true to my feelings... I must not regret any decisions that I have made in the past... I will live a better life from now on... I will find someone better..... I must not let loneliness kill me.... I must not crumble in face to difficuilty.... But I realise no matter how much times i keep on repeating to myself, trying very hard to convince myself.. it does not work.....
OH MY GOD what kind of person have I become? Possesive?? Dependant? Soft? Indecisive? Depression? Who am I to have the right to hold on to you like this.... why am I doing all these? U are noone to me.... I got to stop all these... I can move on by myself.. I have always been strong... I can do it by myself.. I dun need U to be there in my life to move on.... Yes I dun.....I am pretty sure I can do it...From today onwards... that is exactly what I am going to do....
