Gerald sat up.

Gerald is becoming more and more amazing these days.

Yesterday while me and hubby are changing clothes for him, he managed to pull himself up into a sitting position from a lying position! Me and hubby got so shocked that we were staring at each other and gerald for like 5 mins! Wow!

Updates

It's 2010!!!! Gerald is already 8 months old and another 4 months later, he will be 1 year old!! Wow doesn't time simply flies..

He is now at his teething stage and starting to become rather fussy... but he is also starting to understand a little of what we are trying to say or tell him or show him at times.. like when he finished his food, we will say no more.. and show him our empty hands and the empty cup/bowl and he will understand and if he is still hungry, he will also try and tell you in his baby language by going.. ah ah ah or if he is really hungry... mummm mummm.. like the other day we say we going gai gai and he actually went over to the door and waited..

Nowadays he has also become rather clingy.. he wouldnt let you out of his sight now.. once you disappeared from his sight.. he will start crying.. which is rather bad.. especially when you urgently need to use the loo! He haven't start to crawl even though he already have the pose.. hahaha.. and he is starting to pull himself up from a sitting position.. to a standing position... even though most of the times he ended up sitting back onto the floor... the other day he stood all by himself.. while holding on the table of coz.. and today he actually walked quite a distance holding on to his walker... with me supporting behind him.. woohoo.. although I can already imagine myself chasing after him when he can walk all by himself.. oh no..

Latest pics of him

Importance...

Was reading a magazine the other day.. and came across this very meaningful paragraph in the article...article is in chinese.. so here's the translated version....

To love someone, sometimes it is very difficult..
Because of him, you now have to worry...
You become too busy worrying that you lost yourself
And forgot about why you are both so much in love...
Without him, yes you do have more of your own space..
But still every night you hope he will sleep by your side
Everywhere you go, you hope he will come along with you..
He has become so important, that you become more paranoid..
Only when you learn to let go, then you will love him more..

Somehow Gerald has become him... because of him in my life, I am constantly worrying... so much so I lost myself in the endless world of worrying about him... sometimes I do crave for my own space.. but still a part of me remains with him.. still worrying.... what is he doing now, is he sleeping, is he eating well.... the list continue... I hope to see him by my side.. and yes I have become paranoid.. so much so I can't enjoy my time with him without worrying if a "Ah" mean something... other than him trying his best to talk...

A frenz asked me the other day.. so when can you rest? I replied.. not till the day I died.. becoz he is my kid and he is my worry forever till the day I died... that's a mum for you... now I completely understand why my mum still insisted on taking care of me now even though I insisted that I am already a adult and know how to take care of myself.... that's a mum for you... that's mums around the world

Long time..

been a long time since i last updated this blog.. but i haven't forgotten it at all...

life has been full ever since Gerald came into our life.. hardly have time to do anything else, personal and couple wise..other than Gerald growing up, the rest in my life seem to be at a standstill.. no more nothing... no more romance, no more couple time, no more my time... when we go out Gerald is always in tow.. even if he is not, we also dunno where to go.... i spent most of my free time with Gerald.. because i wanted soo much to be part of his growing up process.. so it has almost become work and Gerald..

me and Rick is making a long trip to Phuket.. 5 days 4 nights.. it's going to be our 1st trip on a plane.. and we are planning to do lots of snorkelling... hopefully the trip will do us good.. although in fact we just made a 2 days 1 night trip to Port Dickson by ourselves.. but finally everything is booked and confirmed.. so now we just have to wait...

finally realised how much i have aged... with my yellowish looking skin, it's worse and double the impact.. suddenly feel like a old hag.. and i just got married for 2 years, my kid is just less than 1 yr.. i looked around at my peers and sometimes think... did i make the right choice in my life...?? when everyone is enjoying their youth at their prime.. i am married and with kid..

there is always a start to everything.. so i hope it is still not too late now to go for facials to revitalise my skin, to have a proper skincare regime to maintain it, to learn proper make up to enhance my looks further and to have a change of wardrode.. there are things i cant change.. but hopefully i can still change the rest..

hopefully 2010 will be better... get rid of the old and the bad, and move on to a new beginning and hopefully a new life...

More Photos of Gerald

Gerald at Sakae Sushi..



Gerald trying to drive Daddy's car..


Announcement
Gerald now has his first two front teeth!!!

He is a model

I like this pic of Gerald a lot. He looks like a model in a mag shot or something

UPDATE

Havent update for quite some time. Gerald is growing up!

Chair at Toys r us

Gerald very cute chuckle!

High Chair

Brought Gerald out to AMK Hub today together with my parents.. my parents brought a walker for Gerald so he can sit and play in it whenever he is over at our place during the weekend..

After which, we went down to Sembawang for dinner since my bro is flying off to Australia tomorrow... and for the first time Gerald sat in a high chair.. and this time he seem happy about it.. the previous time we tried to put him in a high chair he started crying the very min he was in it.. I am surprised this time he didnt make a big fuss..

Pictures of him happily enjoying his first high class dinner experience..

Ball

Mr Gerald trying to roll himself into a ball.

1.5 million

If I have 1.5 million.. this is what I will do

1. Go for my long awaited Maldives honeymoon
2. Change my Kia Picanto for a Honda Jazz and pay for it at once in full
3. Pay off all my current 3 installments (CPF, Laptop and KKH)in full
4. Pay off the remaining loan amount for the house in full
5. Buy a condo/HDB in full, which must be in a good popular area so i can rent out to earn rent
6. Top up Gerald baby bonus account to the maximum of SGD6000 which the government will add another SGD6000 to make it a total of SGD12000 and earn the interest for the next few years
7. Buy a few lots of shares for the few good companies who have been giving out good dividends.. that will give me a fair share of dividends each year

That should still leave me with quite a bit to invest into a fixed deposit account... while I continue to work for my daily expenses...but no more fixed expenses because it has all been paid off...

Dreaming...

New clothes

Gerald in his new clothes (that is supposed to be for a one year old). Haha and he fit in just nicely

Gerald first Orchard trip

Brought Gerald to Orchard Road today. It is the longest time we ever stayed at one destination with Gerald in tow. Went out around 1.30 and stayed there till 8 or 9pm. And we only walked from Forum Shopping Centre till Orchard Central.

Gerald is starting to play with toys. Brought him to Taka and i took a bear and put it in front of him and he kept laughing, squeaking and giggling at it. It is a really happy laugh and it is perhaps the first time i see him laugh without having to tickle him or talk to him in funny languages. Wanted to buy it for him but the soft toy costs 80 bucks! Just a normal fluffy soft toy. Didnt take a pic of it. This boy really know how to choose. We brought him around the store and no other toys managed to do the trick. Never mind he will start putting it into his mouth anyway. He is putting everything into his mouth!

Quite happy with the trip and i think Gerald had fun exploring Orchard too. Amazed at all the lights and everything that is going on around him. I predict there will be more of such trips in the future.

Beautiful Baby

I was reading the Oct issue of Mother and Baby and there was this article "My baby was born with a hideous birthmark". The story is about this mother who was shocked when her daughter was born with a port-wine stain.

The first paragraph said

My first reaction whe I saw my dauughter after 39 hours of labour was shock. I was expecting to gaze at a beautiful little face but instead my baby had a huge dark purple mark covering her eye and most of the left side of her face

That got me thinking of the very day Gerald was born. When I am pregnant with him, I kept dreaming horrible dreams about my baby being born with problems.. disabled, scarred etc.. horrible dreams that got me waking up in shock at night and it basically haunted me for the remaining days of my pregnancy.. I didnt know what to expect.. especially when none of the scans managed to get a good view of Gerald face... even though the doctor said it's normal.. but I kept telling myself.. that's just the appearance.. what if.. I guess I was just preparing myself for the worst just in case...

When I regained conscious after the operation (I cant do a half body C-Section because I cannot have epidural due to my scoliosis, so I ended up doing a full un-consicious C-section operation), the first thing I asked the nurse was "how's my baby". But the nurse said she didn't get to see my baby.. and when they wheeled me out and when I saw Rick, I anxiously asked "how's the baby". And only when he told me he is okay.. only when I saw his picture on Rick's mobile phone.. then I finally felt a sign of relief... I have given birth to a beautiful looking baby...even though we haven't done the hearing test as of yet.. When I finally got to see Gerald face to face.. I was thanking God that none of the dreams came through..

Born to be a mother

No one is born to know how to be a mum. It is something that you have to experience and learn as you go along.


I was almost on the brink of falling into post natal depression when Gerald was born, being weighed down by the guilt of not being able to take care of him physically from the beginning, the guilt of not being able to breast feed him and the disappointment of not having enough support for me to continue to breast feed. I was very emotional and crying over every little things and staying away from Gerald just in case my depression got the better of me.


Being a new mother i didnt know what to expect. I have high expectations for myself being some one who has a very strong character. I thought things will go the way i thought and wanted it to. To realise nothing went the way i thought. And i just got angry. Angry that no one is saying things i want to hear, doing things the way i want to be done.


Thinking back now, everyone just want the best for gerald and me. I am glad i didnt do anything stupid. I still feel guilty for not being able to breast feed Gerald till now. But that cannot be changed. Slowly i will become better because i just want the best for my baby.

How many months?

Now whenever i see babies outside, the first question i feel like asking is 'how many months?' And i think i am not the only mother out there who have this burning question in mind because i see others asking it too! Haha

We brought Gerald to Rick cousin ROM and there was another baby there. His size is much smaller than Gerald even though he can pretty much sit unsupported. I thought he is younger than Gerald. Turned out he is 6 months old. Haha

Just saw another baby with his father on the train. Really wanted to ask him that question because the baby seem to be around the same age as Gerald. Maybe slightly older as the baby can stretch out the hands and request to be carried. Gerald only reached out his hands to grab stuffs. But they are too far away from me so i didnt ask in the end. Disappointed.

Bumbo seat

Gerald in his Bumbo seat.. he will not be able to sit inside in for long... his thighs are getting too big for the chair.. have trouble trying to pull him out of the chair once he is inside.. hahaha

Sofa

Gerald sitting on e sofa all by himself.

Tired

I am tired..

I need a holiday and a break!