HAIZ.....
haiz.....
i think my period is around the corner... that is why i am starting to feel irritated at the smallest little things... a tiny bug flying around my body and face, the hot and humid weather, the noisy and stuffy train ride, my long hair being too thick for the hot weather, the itch on my face caused as a result of my long hair tickling it, the flu that nv seems to stop, my bf saying the wrong things..... and the list goes on and on.... actually none of these things went wrong... given a perfectly normal day, i would have just swap it off as nothing.. but given today.. everything is just plain irritating...
I read in a book somewhere that when a person is feeling down, it is becoz of how he/she think at that particular moment in time.. if u choose to think badly, you will make urself feel badly becoz in ur brain you think nothing is good.... therefore it will interpret nothing as good... and therefore everything turn out to be bad as expected.... i keep on telling myself that I am having a wrong mindset and that is the main reason why i am feeling down...
apparently it didnt work out as what i planned it to be, did I? Hahaha.. if not i certainly wun be writing this blog sulking on how my day sucks... actually it didn't... but haiz.. blame it on my thoughts..... nv ending thoughtssss...
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
not in the best of moods
not in the best of moods right now...
feeling down....
i said it is just my brain playing silly tricks on me
one of those times when it shutted down automatically
nothing for me to control
yet nothing for me to follow...
dun ask me what the hell am I saying
it is just all the demons that I feel like slaying
feeling down....
i said it is just my brain playing silly tricks on me
one of those times when it shutted down automatically
nothing for me to control
yet nothing for me to follow...
dun ask me what the hell am I saying
it is just all the demons that I feel like slaying
Thursday, May 25, 2006
judging by appearances
U know it is real funni sometimes how ppl tend to judge someone by their appearances just like judging a book by its cover??
I dunno why but I always give ppl the idea that I am useless, poor and penniless, didn't study much, jobless, professional bummer and very unsucessful in life. Maybe I look a little too young for my age...
Do I look a 16 years old ger still in secondary school?? Hahaha
Maybe I dun dress up well enough. So judging from the plain simple way that I dress in jeans and slippers with a sling on bag and perhaps because I always keep on wearing the same few nice clothings that I have, they figure I am a poor school gal who do not have the money to afford nice clothings like working adults...
Today one of the aunties staying in my block chatted with me in the lift when I was going home for a nice friendly chit chat... of coz the entire conversation goes like that
Auntie: U still studying huh? Where you studying now?
Me: Not studying le
Auntie: Then you just came back from shopping huh? Should find a proper job to do you know at your age after finishing studies
Me: No... I am working le.. have been working for a very long time till now.
Auntie: (Shocked) You dun look like you are working le. Working part time huh?
Me: Bo la.. working full time
Auntie: Working full time? Why you dun have to wear office wear one?
(Now realising that she is refering to my jeans and polo tee with slippers)
Me: No la, my office dun need wear office wear one. Wear causual can le
Auntie: Oh good hor. Your pay high or not huh?
(By the way now we are standing at the lift lobby and she is still continuing to bombard me with questions non stop and making me feel quite irritated entertaining her)
Me: Ok lo... just nice lo... enough for myself can le (I bet she assume that it is super low because she said....)
Auntie: Oh u know hor... this this person (one of our neighbours) earns alot le.... around $1200 every month
Me: (Pissed off by then - she think i am one of those gossip queens meh) huh ok lo... my pay around there la also...
Aunite: Go study more and find a higher pay job lo... earn more better
Me: Auntie sorry got to go le.. talk to ya next time k?
Feel like telling the auntie.. I finished my uni studies, I got a good relaxing job with a good pay now... who u think I am? She most prob think I am those school drops out... hahaha...
I remember a couple of previous incidents with banks. First time I wanted to open a investment cum savings plan. They think I am below 16 and they think i am falsing declaring my pay to be $1500. Insisted that I get the original pay slip signed by the accounts & HR dept with the company stamp before they are willing to proceed with my investment account. Checked this with CPF for my monthly contributions blu blu blu... even called my company to check if this person really exists... and I happen to pick up the phone.. toopidz bank really... recently I wanna to open a CPF investment account.. the same bank called up my current company to check if this person is really working for this company and how much exactly is my pay..? Haiz...
dunno to laugh or to cry
I dunno why but I always give ppl the idea that I am useless, poor and penniless, didn't study much, jobless, professional bummer and very unsucessful in life. Maybe I look a little too young for my age...
Do I look a 16 years old ger still in secondary school?? Hahaha
Maybe I dun dress up well enough. So judging from the plain simple way that I dress in jeans and slippers with a sling on bag and perhaps because I always keep on wearing the same few nice clothings that I have, they figure I am a poor school gal who do not have the money to afford nice clothings like working adults...
Today one of the aunties staying in my block chatted with me in the lift when I was going home for a nice friendly chit chat... of coz the entire conversation goes like that
Auntie: U still studying huh? Where you studying now?
Me: Not studying le
Auntie: Then you just came back from shopping huh? Should find a proper job to do you know at your age after finishing studies
Me: No... I am working le.. have been working for a very long time till now.
Auntie: (Shocked) You dun look like you are working le. Working part time huh?
Me: Bo la.. working full time
Auntie: Working full time? Why you dun have to wear office wear one?
(Now realising that she is refering to my jeans and polo tee with slippers)
Me: No la, my office dun need wear office wear one. Wear causual can le
Auntie: Oh good hor. Your pay high or not huh?
(By the way now we are standing at the lift lobby and she is still continuing to bombard me with questions non stop and making me feel quite irritated entertaining her)
Me: Ok lo... just nice lo... enough for myself can le (I bet she assume that it is super low because she said....)
Auntie: Oh u know hor... this this person (one of our neighbours) earns alot le.... around $1200 every month
Me: (Pissed off by then - she think i am one of those gossip queens meh) huh ok lo... my pay around there la also...
Aunite: Go study more and find a higher pay job lo... earn more better
Me: Auntie sorry got to go le.. talk to ya next time k?
Feel like telling the auntie.. I finished my uni studies, I got a good relaxing job with a good pay now... who u think I am? She most prob think I am those school drops out... hahaha...
I remember a couple of previous incidents with banks. First time I wanted to open a investment cum savings plan. They think I am below 16 and they think i am falsing declaring my pay to be $1500. Insisted that I get the original pay slip signed by the accounts & HR dept with the company stamp before they are willing to proceed with my investment account. Checked this with CPF for my monthly contributions blu blu blu... even called my company to check if this person really exists... and I happen to pick up the phone.. toopidz bank really... recently I wanna to open a CPF investment account.. the same bank called up my current company to check if this person is really working for this company and how much exactly is my pay..? Haiz...
dunno to laugh or to cry
Sunday, May 21, 2006
boring blog
I think my blog is becoming rather boring recently.... no interesting updates (basically no time to do so)and the skin is rather boring too (but no time to look for a new one as a change).. plus my life is as boring as it gets.. hahaha....
I have a craze for online window shopping recently... sooner or later I am going to become a online shopaholic... hahahah.. really... earrings, bags, clothes, necklaces even shoes... all so beautiful..... all I want to get... can't control myself.... wanna surf the webpages even during work hours... jialat... let pray hard that my boss wun catch me one day...
And I also have a new hobby... looking for new food recipes.. ok I admit I don't really cook much but I just like looking through the recipes.. see if there is anything interesting and seem nice enough... will copy the recipe down and keep it from future references... already 50+ pages of receipes le... ranging from steaks, soups, salads to local delights.. yummy...
All these stuffs plus work plus spending time with my darling is keeping me soooooo busy.... anyway just went out shopping with my darling over the weekend... brought a pair of "holey shoes" Crocs in fact... I used to hate it very much last time.. can't understand why my darling like the shoes sooo much he will wear it every day... now I got a pair for myself.. how fickle minded can I be? Hahahha... then we brought 3 cutey looking hooks for the wardrode.. one penguin, one sotong and one froggy... then we brought a new helmet for myself... got rid of the loose one on the spot.. hahaha....
Then after shopping we went straight to Johor thru the second link to pump petrol and of coz went to Gelang Patah to eat our fav "Begger Chicken".. came back with a full stomach.. 100% satisfaction.. hahaha... actually three weeks ago we went to Malacca over the long holiday.... our last trip with our X9.. farewell goodbye as the coolant pump offically declared dead after we came back.. thank goodness it managed to carry us all the way to and fro Malacca... anyway it was a cool trip and we both enjoy ourselves together with Zhaowei and Lily... Hahaha.... will update you all on the trip when I have the time to do so
As for now... I am going to continue my chat with darling ... so till the next time I update... Ciaoz ppl... Cheers
I have a craze for online window shopping recently... sooner or later I am going to become a online shopaholic... hahahah.. really... earrings, bags, clothes, necklaces even shoes... all so beautiful..... all I want to get... can't control myself.... wanna surf the webpages even during work hours... jialat... let pray hard that my boss wun catch me one day...
And I also have a new hobby... looking for new food recipes.. ok I admit I don't really cook much but I just like looking through the recipes.. see if there is anything interesting and seem nice enough... will copy the recipe down and keep it from future references... already 50+ pages of receipes le... ranging from steaks, soups, salads to local delights.. yummy...
All these stuffs plus work plus spending time with my darling is keeping me soooooo busy.... anyway just went out shopping with my darling over the weekend... brought a pair of "holey shoes" Crocs in fact... I used to hate it very much last time.. can't understand why my darling like the shoes sooo much he will wear it every day... now I got a pair for myself.. how fickle minded can I be? Hahahha... then we brought 3 cutey looking hooks for the wardrode.. one penguin, one sotong and one froggy... then we brought a new helmet for myself... got rid of the loose one on the spot.. hahaha....
Then after shopping we went straight to Johor thru the second link to pump petrol and of coz went to Gelang Patah to eat our fav "Begger Chicken".. came back with a full stomach.. 100% satisfaction.. hahaha... actually three weeks ago we went to Malacca over the long holiday.... our last trip with our X9.. farewell goodbye as the coolant pump offically declared dead after we came back.. thank goodness it managed to carry us all the way to and fro Malacca... anyway it was a cool trip and we both enjoy ourselves together with Zhaowei and Lily... Hahaha.... will update you all on the trip when I have the time to do so
As for now... I am going to continue my chat with darling ... so till the next time I update... Ciaoz ppl... Cheers
Saturday, April 22, 2006
network marketing
haiz... one of my staffs from Delifrance called me just now out of the blue... I thought wow... so nice to call me and catch up with me on old times meh? She said she is in the final year of her diploma and is now doing her final year project... and I thought ok I would be nice to help her in her project.. because I know how hard it is to survive through a final year project without help from others... especially when my final year project in university requires 3000 people to help complete a 5 page quetionaire.. first she didn't mention anything about the project like what she was doing, second she never mention what was the purpose of the project she was doing.. she asked about my family situation which is normal for any surveys... then she asked if I can arrange a meeting between her and my family in my house... ok that sounds funni...
i started to ask her what was her project and what she is supposed to do.. and she mention something about creating awareness about a product and finding out comments and feedbacks on it... Ok sound normal but I explained to her that my parents will surely not entertain her... then the more she talk around the bush trying to fix a appointment with my parents, the more irritated I am.. but never mind.. being the nice mdm and manager I am, I probe more and ask more helping her to explain better... of coz which include asking her straight what was her product because she never tell her anything about the product that she is doing a survey on from the very beginning.. then ok I managed to convince her that my parents will not talk to her on any issues beneficial or not...
so I volunteer to help her by talking to her more... then she went on to say since she cannot come to my place to talk more, why not I go to her seminar... OK THAT SOUND LIKE NETWORK MARKETING!!!!.. I asked her straight if she is in network marketing and she admitted it finally... ok I was pissed... sh lied to a nice person on a basis of her 3rd year final year project trying to lure and cheat me to another network marketing seminar.... WHY CAN'T THESE PPL HAVE MORE TRANSPARENCIES IN WHAT THEY DO... if u belong to a network marketing company and u need ppl to go to ur seminar.. SAY SO!!! If ppl are loyal believers of the product, if they are willing to go... they will go... dun try and cheat ppl to seminars when they dun want to be there in the first place..... and start trying to brain wash them about your company and products... and yah they will try and tell u that their company are not one of those bad network marketing scams.. and their products are beneficial to you and your family...
ARGHHH I SERIOUSLY HATE THESE PPL... really to the core... the next thing u know they try and sell u the products, they try to get u to help sell their products, and they will call u every now and then to BEG u to buy their products because they need to earn points to go on a incentive trip and stuffs... CHEATERS & LIERS... i told my staff off straight away in a nice manner of coz... ultimately ppl are just trying to get some experience and earn some quick bucks... you know what.. the government should step in and stop this kind of bad practices... why can't they just hire a proper sale person and do direct selling... rather than dragging ppl one by one to seminars with a underlying motive... with a promise of benefits andbig money...I do have frenz still working in some network marketing companies. but at least they respect me enough not to drag/invite/ask me out to some unknown places which end up to be a network marketing seminar.... they will ask or invite me to their product demonstration seminar or fair and it is up to me to choose if I want to attend it or not... not go there, get a shock of my life when 4 or 5 friendly ppl walk up to u offering a chit chat and then the brain washing and selling starts... and THE WORST THING IS U CAN'T WALK OUT AT UR WISHES no matter how many times u repeat to them U ARE NOT INTERESTED!!!!
pissed off... seriously....
my boss now who happen to be a very good salesperson always insists that a good sales person and company should respect the customer/users wishes... always sell your products accordingly to their needs... if they dun need it.. dun continue to push it to them because it will result in a sense of mistrust... and the next time they need things, they wun look for u anymore... so if someone say no.. there is seriously no need to push things further... it will just make the person pissed off... and always get things nice and clear about the products... be transparent.. let them know about the products,what are the uses of the products, what are the benefits to the person and let the person decide for himself if it will be useful and if he/she needs it and wants it.. this is respect.... and it contributes to a healthy relationship between the customers and the company... because if the person really need it, he/she will be more than willing and happy to use it...
so next time any of my frenz reading my blog, if u ever consider joining a network marketing company.. please take me out of your list of ppl to call for brainwashing.... thank you..
i started to ask her what was her project and what she is supposed to do.. and she mention something about creating awareness about a product and finding out comments and feedbacks on it... Ok sound normal but I explained to her that my parents will surely not entertain her... then the more she talk around the bush trying to fix a appointment with my parents, the more irritated I am.. but never mind.. being the nice mdm and manager I am, I probe more and ask more helping her to explain better... of coz which include asking her straight what was her product because she never tell her anything about the product that she is doing a survey on from the very beginning.. then ok I managed to convince her that my parents will not talk to her on any issues beneficial or not...
so I volunteer to help her by talking to her more... then she went on to say since she cannot come to my place to talk more, why not I go to her seminar... OK THAT SOUND LIKE NETWORK MARKETING!!!!.. I asked her straight if she is in network marketing and she admitted it finally... ok I was pissed... sh lied to a nice person on a basis of her 3rd year final year project trying to lure and cheat me to another network marketing seminar.... WHY CAN'T THESE PPL HAVE MORE TRANSPARENCIES IN WHAT THEY DO... if u belong to a network marketing company and u need ppl to go to ur seminar.. SAY SO!!! If ppl are loyal believers of the product, if they are willing to go... they will go... dun try and cheat ppl to seminars when they dun want to be there in the first place..... and start trying to brain wash them about your company and products... and yah they will try and tell u that their company are not one of those bad network marketing scams.. and their products are beneficial to you and your family...
ARGHHH I SERIOUSLY HATE THESE PPL... really to the core... the next thing u know they try and sell u the products, they try to get u to help sell their products, and they will call u every now and then to BEG u to buy their products because they need to earn points to go on a incentive trip and stuffs... CHEATERS & LIERS... i told my staff off straight away in a nice manner of coz... ultimately ppl are just trying to get some experience and earn some quick bucks... you know what.. the government should step in and stop this kind of bad practices... why can't they just hire a proper sale person and do direct selling... rather than dragging ppl one by one to seminars with a underlying motive... with a promise of benefits andbig money...I do have frenz still working in some network marketing companies. but at least they respect me enough not to drag/invite/ask me out to some unknown places which end up to be a network marketing seminar.... they will ask or invite me to their product demonstration seminar or fair and it is up to me to choose if I want to attend it or not... not go there, get a shock of my life when 4 or 5 friendly ppl walk up to u offering a chit chat and then the brain washing and selling starts... and THE WORST THING IS U CAN'T WALK OUT AT UR WISHES no matter how many times u repeat to them U ARE NOT INTERESTED!!!!
pissed off... seriously....
my boss now who happen to be a very good salesperson always insists that a good sales person and company should respect the customer/users wishes... always sell your products accordingly to their needs... if they dun need it.. dun continue to push it to them because it will result in a sense of mistrust... and the next time they need things, they wun look for u anymore... so if someone say no.. there is seriously no need to push things further... it will just make the person pissed off... and always get things nice and clear about the products... be transparent.. let them know about the products,what are the uses of the products, what are the benefits to the person and let the person decide for himself if it will be useful and if he/she needs it and wants it.. this is respect.... and it contributes to a healthy relationship between the customers and the company... because if the person really need it, he/she will be more than willing and happy to use it...
so next time any of my frenz reading my blog, if u ever consider joining a network marketing company.. please take me out of your list of ppl to call for brainwashing.... thank you..
sleepless night
haiz...another sleepless night... tried ways and means to force myself to sleep... but still can't... even Bossa Nova didn't help this time... haiz... there seem to be something at the back of my head... I wonder how long can I take this kind of emotional and physical stress....?
Old frenz....
Tired... but couldn't get to sleep... waiting for my dear to reach home from his drinking session with his colleagues at work...
Anyway met up with a couple of long time no see frenz recently...
Went for dinner just now... saw two of my secondary school frenz.. Cai Jin Feng and Whoo Jin Hao.. Ok i have no idea whether I spelt their names correctly but yah that is roughly their names... hahaha.. I used to walk to school with Jin Hao... and Jin Feng have been with me since kindergarden to primary school to secondary school.. hahaha.. Sui Hui has been going out with these two guyes as a group together with some other secondary school mates and she kept asking me along but firstly I am just too lazy.. secondary I am too shy... hahahaha.... dunno what to talk to them when I see them.. it has been such a long time since I last met any of them... anyway just now I was just walking past them and I saw Jin Hao looking at me and I recognised him at the first look but it took me some time to recognise Jin Feng.. bad right?? seriously I felt very bad that I cannot recognise him.. and I have no idea why... hahaha... and I am toopidz enough to ask him who is he!!! Arghhh... oh my goodness.... he must have seriously hate me for that.. hahaha.. becoz I was on quite good terms with him in school... hahaha... and he recognised me.. U know.. haiz..*shakes head*... I always call them in their full name plus their surname in school which is rather bad of me I agree... and that was exactly what i did again just now... bad habits never do change.. hehehe
Last week or the week before I met up with Julia who flew back to Singapore for a short holiday... so happie to see her.... I haven't seen her for ages really and it is always nice to be able to catch up with a frenz who you haven't seen for a very long time... we of coz went to our fav restaurant at Raffles City Shopping Centre "Out Of The Pan" to have our delightful Peking Duck crepes and desserts....Julia's favourite Tiramisu.. I tried something different this time... I went for the brownie with icecream.. Oh my goodness.. it is so sinful and rich in chocolate... but it is nice end of story.. hahaha... me and Julia we always get excited going to this restaurant becoz we both agreed they serve very good and tasty crepes and desserts.. and we got drinks on the house because Julia's sister has a frenz working there.. of coz Chan Chen and Julia's sister were there with us... we later decided to go for coffee and more chit chat... and we were joined by my darling, Julia's another sister and her husband.. and her sister's frenz.. got to apologize to Julia on this because being the blur me, I cannot differentiate who is the elder sis and the younger sis.. hahaha.. but yah all the sis was there la.. hahaha... but anyway we knew each other including the sisters since poly times so it was still alright.. hahaha
Anyway met up with a couple of long time no see frenz recently...
Went for dinner just now... saw two of my secondary school frenz.. Cai Jin Feng and Whoo Jin Hao.. Ok i have no idea whether I spelt their names correctly but yah that is roughly their names... hahaha.. I used to walk to school with Jin Hao... and Jin Feng have been with me since kindergarden to primary school to secondary school.. hahaha.. Sui Hui has been going out with these two guyes as a group together with some other secondary school mates and she kept asking me along but firstly I am just too lazy.. secondary I am too shy... hahahaha.... dunno what to talk to them when I see them.. it has been such a long time since I last met any of them... anyway just now I was just walking past them and I saw Jin Hao looking at me and I recognised him at the first look but it took me some time to recognise Jin Feng.. bad right?? seriously I felt very bad that I cannot recognise him.. and I have no idea why... hahaha... and I am toopidz enough to ask him who is he!!! Arghhh... oh my goodness.... he must have seriously hate me for that.. hahaha.. becoz I was on quite good terms with him in school... hahaha... and he recognised me.. U know.. haiz..*shakes head*... I always call them in their full name plus their surname in school which is rather bad of me I agree... and that was exactly what i did again just now... bad habits never do change.. hehehe
Last week or the week before I met up with Julia who flew back to Singapore for a short holiday... so happie to see her.... I haven't seen her for ages really and it is always nice to be able to catch up with a frenz who you haven't seen for a very long time... we of coz went to our fav restaurant at Raffles City Shopping Centre "Out Of The Pan" to have our delightful Peking Duck crepes and desserts....Julia's favourite Tiramisu.. I tried something different this time... I went for the brownie with icecream.. Oh my goodness.. it is so sinful and rich in chocolate... but it is nice end of story.. hahaha... me and Julia we always get excited going to this restaurant becoz we both agreed they serve very good and tasty crepes and desserts.. and we got drinks on the house because Julia's sister has a frenz working there.. of coz Chan Chen and Julia's sister were there with us... we later decided to go for coffee and more chit chat... and we were joined by my darling, Julia's another sister and her husband.. and her sister's frenz.. got to apologize to Julia on this because being the blur me, I cannot differentiate who is the elder sis and the younger sis.. hahaha.. but yah all the sis was there la.. hahaha... but anyway we knew each other including the sisters since poly times so it was still alright.. hahaha
Sunday, April 16, 2006
perfect song of the year
I seriously love this song alot... and I think this song contain hell of a meaning to everyone hoping to be in love, already in love or married....
Somebody - Depeche Mode
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Somebody - Depeche Mode
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Saturday, April 15, 2006
having pms
I am having my pms recently... my mood is just like the sucky weather.. experiencing extreme irritation and anger... looks like all my preaching dun seem to be working on me.... as I am getting frustered at the simplest things...
Everything he do seems to piss me off... even the way he speaks, the way he talks piss me off... oh my god.. what is wrong with me?? I remembered I am watching a show on TV.. very touched by the wedding that was going on and the love story between the couple.... what they have been through to be together... and he made some comments.. and I got seriously pissed....to him I am being too emotional being touched by someone else's story... to me I feel like he dun understand my feelings at all... then we had a slight disagreement... haiz... maybe it is just me... trying to make things difficult... he can make a joke and I think it is irritating... and I get pissed off over it... seriously.... last time he can make the same joke and I think ok he is just joking with me... now I just got pissed and shut up...
Just what is wrong with me? How can anyone in the world tolerate my moods..?
Everything he do seems to piss me off... even the way he speaks, the way he talks piss me off... oh my god.. what is wrong with me?? I remembered I am watching a show on TV.. very touched by the wedding that was going on and the love story between the couple.... what they have been through to be together... and he made some comments.. and I got seriously pissed....to him I am being too emotional being touched by someone else's story... to me I feel like he dun understand my feelings at all... then we had a slight disagreement... haiz... maybe it is just me... trying to make things difficult... he can make a joke and I think it is irritating... and I get pissed off over it... seriously.... last time he can make the same joke and I think ok he is just joking with me... now I just got pissed and shut up...
Just what is wrong with me? How can anyone in the world tolerate my moods..?
Thursday, April 13, 2006
wondering...
I can understand the amount of hatred arising from someone who is betrayed by the person he love the most.... the person he has spent half of his life with... the person who he so wanted to spend the rest of his life with... the person who he thought he will be spending the rest of his life with.... the person who gave him the promise of forever love till eternity... the person who he has been discussing and planning abt marriage for so long.... however this is the person who hurt him the most... I know why he hate me... I know why he can't bring himself to forgive me... becoz I hurted him too much from the very beginning.....
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
follow ur heart..
I still have to insist the most important thing in life is to follow ur heart... do what u wan to do, do what u wish to do.. of coz with proper planning and a logical realistic mindset.... not saying that u wish to stay in Banyan Tree Maldives.. u follow ur heart book in for a month there and think abt the huge debt u will incur later in the month.. that is superb foolish... nono... be realistic.. for those you can achieve now.. go ahead and do it... for those u can't achieve it now.. plan how u are going to achieve it in the future... once again there is nothing in this world u can't achieve... but back again nothing in this world is superb necessary except for the basic food and water complusary to keep ur life going on... one have to really learn how to be contented with the simple things in life really...
In life, we often allow ourselves to get all worked up about things that, upon closer examination, aren't really that big a deal or important after all. We focus on the little problems and concerns and blow them way out of proportion and in the end getting ourselves all pissed off, angry and miserable. U have ppl getting pissed off waiting in queues after 5 mins waiting time, u have ppl fighting becoz of a stare... is it neccessary.? Does getting pissed off help..? In fact it doesn't.. it just make things worse.... and u drop deeper and deeper into the hole of misery... in fact actually u didn't drop it.. u dug ur way in urself... u are just so engrossed in getting pissed off at a small thing that u keep on digging and digging in ur own world of thoughts and the next thing u know u are 20 metres deep in the ground probably half buried alive... hahaha.. true.. think abt it...
I used to do that myself... now i am trying to be more patient and more calm looking into things... when i get pissed or angry abt something.. i will think if that thing matter 10 yrs down the road... if it doesn't i discard it to the back of the brain... I have to admit it is hard especially for a foul tempered ppl like me... but I am learning and I am trying.. at least I bother to try... true?? Haha... I just told my best buddy the same thing too... I hope it make sense to him and I hope he will learn how to let go of the small details in life.. sometimes in life it is the big picture that is the most important... looking too much into small details may cause u certain unhappiness.... becoz u are focusing too much in the present.. but ignoring anything in the future.... sometimes the small details wun even count in the long term...
I hope I am making some sense here.. hahaha
In life, we often allow ourselves to get all worked up about things that, upon closer examination, aren't really that big a deal or important after all. We focus on the little problems and concerns and blow them way out of proportion and in the end getting ourselves all pissed off, angry and miserable. U have ppl getting pissed off waiting in queues after 5 mins waiting time, u have ppl fighting becoz of a stare... is it neccessary.? Does getting pissed off help..? In fact it doesn't.. it just make things worse.... and u drop deeper and deeper into the hole of misery... in fact actually u didn't drop it.. u dug ur way in urself... u are just so engrossed in getting pissed off at a small thing that u keep on digging and digging in ur own world of thoughts and the next thing u know u are 20 metres deep in the ground probably half buried alive... hahaha.. true.. think abt it...
I used to do that myself... now i am trying to be more patient and more calm looking into things... when i get pissed or angry abt something.. i will think if that thing matter 10 yrs down the road... if it doesn't i discard it to the back of the brain... I have to admit it is hard especially for a foul tempered ppl like me... but I am learning and I am trying.. at least I bother to try... true?? Haha... I just told my best buddy the same thing too... I hope it make sense to him and I hope he will learn how to let go of the small details in life.. sometimes in life it is the big picture that is the most important... looking too much into small details may cause u certain unhappiness.... becoz u are focusing too much in the present.. but ignoring anything in the future.... sometimes the small details wun even count in the long term...
I hope I am making some sense here.. hahaha
Sunday, April 09, 2006
New Wishlist...
Me and my darling got a new wishlist...comprising of all very expensive thingy.. hahaha...
1. A new bike by the end of next month
2. Wedding by mid of next year
3. A car by the end of next year... or maybe give it another one more year ba..
Expensive hor..?? I seriously thought so.. luckily we already got a house under his name.. save up the additional money which a couple always need to save the first thing they get married...
1. A new bike by the end of next month
2. Wedding by mid of next year
3. A car by the end of next year... or maybe give it another one more year ba..
Expensive hor..?? I seriously thought so.. luckily we already got a house under his name.. save up the additional money which a couple always need to save the first thing they get married...
Friday, March 31, 2006
photos as promised
OK. The photos as promised long long time ago...
The Wedding Car!!
A Pair of Teddies
Family Potrait
Ooh.. Don't be scared. This is just less than half of my entire family tree... hahaha
Centre Stage
Beautiful chandelier
Me & My Bro
Me & My Cousins
Ooh.. Don't be scared. This is just less than half of my entire family tree... hahaha
Sunday, March 26, 2006
weekend update...
Ok. Let start updating from Last Wed 15th March 2006 since the days before that are well spent working and working away.. nothing much to mention about my ordinary and boring life anyway... hahaha
15th March 2006
I met the gals for dinner at Sake Sushi... the gals mentioned refer to my two best pals Sui Hui and Xiang Ling.. hehehe... they are my two best secondary mates who have been with me since my secondary havoc school days... they really saw me through some big changes in my life and I did the same for them as well.. hehehe... those were the days... but it is all still good as we still met up occasionally whenever we can afford the time and money to... we still chat about everything in life such as work and relationships of coz.. plus some minor gossips.. hehehe.. overall meeting up with them is good.. still treasure the time with them alot...
16th March 2006
Bad and gd news... worked late to clear a few stuffs as renewals keep on coming in nonstop... met up with a couple of important people in the industry, called London office, spoke to my prices editor and introduce myself to a couple of ppl in the London office.. just as I am about to call it a day... boss called for a meeting with me... haiz... but anyway I am not in a hurry so boss is always important when it come to work... so went down to a cafe to have a meeting over coffee... that is when the good and bad news come in.. boss has decided to get rid of a customer service gal in the office switching her to a data entry temp position and I will be taking over the full scope of the job.. plus I will need to train a new gal who will be coming in on Mon... hmmmm.. sad to hear that another gal got to go... boss said in this realistic world from a company's point of view.. you can't keep someone who goes off work punctually, do things that she is being told to do with no initiative to help in any things else or take on new responsibilites and who certainly dun have the attitude or passion in what she is doing.. hmm.. yah it is true but haiz.. harsh le.. I can't bear to do this kind of thing... too soft hearted I guess.. anyway boss said maybe this end of the year I will have to make a trip to either London or Vancouver.. will be attached to the office there for a couple of weeks... hahahaha... sounds cool to me.. dear dear is damn upset by the fact that I will have to go overseas again... I just keep on leaving him alone in SG... i am so sorry dear dear... :(.. anyway by the time we finish the meeting around 8+.. forgot that dear is waiting for me to go off work.. to my surprise.. he was waiting for me nearby... hahahaha... so sweet of him isn't it?? Oh yah boss also said this week we will be going drinking again to welcome the new gal.. OMG!!!!! Not again!!!! *shakes head* scared of alcohol now.. one time is enough..
24th March 2006 - 27th March 2006
Went back to Batu Pahat on Fri afternoon... met up with my uncle at Jalan Wong Ah Fook petrol station who drove us back.. went back to attend my cousin's wedding held on Sat... helped out at the wedding here and there... alot of things cropped and messed up.. anyway not my wedding.. hack care.. hahahaha.. there is just a lack of coordination and planning... but really who cares.. hahaha.. came back in a rush today... tired but happy because I get to see my darling... who got sick while I am away... sad case.. noone to take care of him... too tiring for him to take care of baby eeyore alone.. so he fell sick.. met him for dinner and a chat.. plus lots of hugs.. so sweet
Can see I am writing in a rush?? Of coz la.. coming to 12midnight and I am still typing away on my com sia... need to go slp liao.. still got a busy day tomolo at work leh.. hahaha... guess I will post the photos tomolo ba... the internet is just too slow in uploading the photos.. can't afford to wait... sleeping time is precious... nightz...
15th March 2006
I met the gals for dinner at Sake Sushi... the gals mentioned refer to my two best pals Sui Hui and Xiang Ling.. hehehe... they are my two best secondary mates who have been with me since my secondary havoc school days... they really saw me through some big changes in my life and I did the same for them as well.. hehehe... those were the days... but it is all still good as we still met up occasionally whenever we can afford the time and money to... we still chat about everything in life such as work and relationships of coz.. plus some minor gossips.. hehehe.. overall meeting up with them is good.. still treasure the time with them alot...
16th March 2006
Bad and gd news... worked late to clear a few stuffs as renewals keep on coming in nonstop... met up with a couple of important people in the industry, called London office, spoke to my prices editor and introduce myself to a couple of ppl in the London office.. just as I am about to call it a day... boss called for a meeting with me... haiz... but anyway I am not in a hurry so boss is always important when it come to work... so went down to a cafe to have a meeting over coffee... that is when the good and bad news come in.. boss has decided to get rid of a customer service gal in the office switching her to a data entry temp position and I will be taking over the full scope of the job.. plus I will need to train a new gal who will be coming in on Mon... hmmmm.. sad to hear that another gal got to go... boss said in this realistic world from a company's point of view.. you can't keep someone who goes off work punctually, do things that she is being told to do with no initiative to help in any things else or take on new responsibilites and who certainly dun have the attitude or passion in what she is doing.. hmm.. yah it is true but haiz.. harsh le.. I can't bear to do this kind of thing... too soft hearted I guess.. anyway boss said maybe this end of the year I will have to make a trip to either London or Vancouver.. will be attached to the office there for a couple of weeks... hahahaha... sounds cool to me.. dear dear is damn upset by the fact that I will have to go overseas again... I just keep on leaving him alone in SG... i am so sorry dear dear... :(.. anyway by the time we finish the meeting around 8+.. forgot that dear is waiting for me to go off work.. to my surprise.. he was waiting for me nearby... hahahaha... so sweet of him isn't it?? Oh yah boss also said this week we will be going drinking again to welcome the new gal.. OMG!!!!! Not again!!!! *shakes head* scared of alcohol now.. one time is enough..
24th March 2006 - 27th March 2006
Went back to Batu Pahat on Fri afternoon... met up with my uncle at Jalan Wong Ah Fook petrol station who drove us back.. went back to attend my cousin's wedding held on Sat... helped out at the wedding here and there... alot of things cropped and messed up.. anyway not my wedding.. hack care.. hahahaha.. there is just a lack of coordination and planning... but really who cares.. hahaha.. came back in a rush today... tired but happy because I get to see my darling... who got sick while I am away... sad case.. noone to take care of him... too tiring for him to take care of baby eeyore alone.. so he fell sick.. met him for dinner and a chat.. plus lots of hugs.. so sweet
Can see I am writing in a rush?? Of coz la.. coming to 12midnight and I am still typing away on my com sia... need to go slp liao.. still got a busy day tomolo at work leh.. hahaha... guess I will post the photos tomolo ba... the internet is just too slow in uploading the photos.. can't afford to wait... sleeping time is precious... nightz...
Monday, March 20, 2006
giving birth...
Happy News Bulletin
A new baby was born!!!!
A baby Eeyore was born today on the 20th march 2006 at 8.05pm at Suntec Carrefour to a very happy daddy and mummy Eeyore. Daddy and mummy Eeyore are both very happie at the arrival of this new life into this world... both promise to love baby Eeyore forever....
A new baby was born!!!!
A baby Eeyore was born today on the 20th march 2006 at 8.05pm at Suntec Carrefour to a very happy daddy and mummy Eeyore. Daddy and mummy Eeyore are both very happie at the arrival of this new life into this world... both promise to love baby Eeyore forever....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
drunk on an empty stomach...
I finally realise how bad it is to drink too much alcohol on an empty stomach... the side effects last for days.... your stomach hurts.. your head hurts... terrible.. I tell u how things happen..
Yesterday Fri 17th March 2006, my boss decided to treat the entire company to drinks after work to celebrate the expansion of the company and also to have a get to know you session as we have newbies coming in... ok when he say that.. we didn;t realise it doesn't include dinner first... so we worked until about 6pm.. then we went downstairs where a cab is already waiting for us... the cab took us straight to No 5 Emerald Hill... then we sat down and here come the drinks straight away... at first my strategy was to go slow... so at least I dun have to drink so much... some of my collegues drank abit too fast so by the time I finish my drinks they are already on their way to a third drink... but anyway it still doesn't work in the end... hahaha.. I took beers, shots including one unknown shot which my boss ordered for everyone and one lychee martini plus one unknown wine which was supposed to be meant for someone else... but she left before the drinks arrived so I got the task of finishing that drink on behalf... duhz... I must have been pissed.... because by the time I left the pub I seem to be supporting a super heavy big head.. hahaha... anyway I managed to make my way back to dear's house... before falling onto the bed and a deep slumber...
Sat night dear and I went to meet Wenliang, Jesper and Ah Boon for drinks... i thought maybe I can still drink a little... wah.. decided after less than half a mug to give up becoz my stomach couldn't take in any more alcohol... horrible... i think my stomach is still churning with Fri night alcohol.. hahaha...
I am going to slp now... becoz my head is still very very the heavy.. nitez
Yesterday Fri 17th March 2006, my boss decided to treat the entire company to drinks after work to celebrate the expansion of the company and also to have a get to know you session as we have newbies coming in... ok when he say that.. we didn;t realise it doesn't include dinner first... so we worked until about 6pm.. then we went downstairs where a cab is already waiting for us... the cab took us straight to No 5 Emerald Hill... then we sat down and here come the drinks straight away... at first my strategy was to go slow... so at least I dun have to drink so much... some of my collegues drank abit too fast so by the time I finish my drinks they are already on their way to a third drink... but anyway it still doesn't work in the end... hahaha.. I took beers, shots including one unknown shot which my boss ordered for everyone and one lychee martini plus one unknown wine which was supposed to be meant for someone else... but she left before the drinks arrived so I got the task of finishing that drink on behalf... duhz... I must have been pissed.... because by the time I left the pub I seem to be supporting a super heavy big head.. hahaha... anyway I managed to make my way back to dear's house... before falling onto the bed and a deep slumber...
Sat night dear and I went to meet Wenliang, Jesper and Ah Boon for drinks... i thought maybe I can still drink a little... wah.. decided after less than half a mug to give up becoz my stomach couldn't take in any more alcohol... horrible... i think my stomach is still churning with Fri night alcohol.. hahaha...
I am going to slp now... becoz my head is still very very the heavy.. nitez
Saturday, March 18, 2006
nice wedding gown
Was surfing through the net... came across this gown... very beautiful.. but I doubt I will have a chance to wear it.. neither do I think I have the figure to wear it... but it is soooo beautiful isn't it... hahaha
Thursday, March 16, 2006
TV dramas & novels
Ppl always ask me why I like to watch TV dramas, movies or novels associated with love so much.... some tell me it pollutes my mind because it creates false images of a fairy tale love story where the prince and princess of the story lives happily ever after.... some tell me that such TV dramas and novels beautify love too much and that love isn't that beautiful in real life... it just make ppl lives in a unrealistic world of their own...
My point of view...
Yah such TV dramas, movies and novels do beautify love in a certain way to a certain extent.. come on la.. think abt it.. if a author or director is going to write or film abt a damn sad love story.... I seriously doubt many ppl will spend money to watch it... I know that all along...
Yap sometimes it does create false images resulting in a too dreamy me wanting to live in a happily ever after love story with no faults or downsides... ok I admit that sounds pretty bad and serious in my case...
But not all dramas, movies and novels create a happily ever after love story ma... some do show how difficult it takes for a couple to be together at last.. all the things that they went through together.. how they managed to cross all the hurdles... the conflicts, agruments and disagreements... those are things that we can learn and use it in real life isn't it... although the guy and the ger always seem to be better and more understanding than anyone else in real life la.. but but... I dunno... there are so much things that I realise and learn from such dramas, movies and novels.. maybe some good some bad... but it makes me realise alot of things too....
My point of view...
Yah such TV dramas, movies and novels do beautify love in a certain way to a certain extent.. come on la.. think abt it.. if a author or director is going to write or film abt a damn sad love story.... I seriously doubt many ppl will spend money to watch it... I know that all along...
Yap sometimes it does create false images resulting in a too dreamy me wanting to live in a happily ever after love story with no faults or downsides... ok I admit that sounds pretty bad and serious in my case...
But not all dramas, movies and novels create a happily ever after love story ma... some do show how difficult it takes for a couple to be together at last.. all the things that they went through together.. how they managed to cross all the hurdles... the conflicts, agruments and disagreements... those are things that we can learn and use it in real life isn't it... although the guy and the ger always seem to be better and more understanding than anyone else in real life la.. but but... I dunno... there are so much things that I realise and learn from such dramas, movies and novels.. maybe some good some bad... but it makes me realise alot of things too....
Monday, March 13, 2006
weekend over in a min..
I waited so hard and so long for my weekends... but it didn't even seem to last for one min before vanishing into history...
Actually we didn't do much over the weekends.. we nv really did much over any weekends.. Hahaha..
11th March 2006 Saturday
Darling got to work until quite late because got lots of shipments to clear.. so I was lazing around at home watching TV and basically doing nothing while waiting for darling to call... so finally he went off work around 3+ which he came over to pick me up before going for lunch.. poor darling.. didn't manage to eat lunch until 3pm in the late afternoon.. sad.. then we went home.. laze around for a while on the sofa that my darling just moved into his room... then we showered and then we went out again.. to IKEA.. to get a coffee table and a rug for the floor... in order to complete our living room... in the end we didn't get the rug becoz I think it is simply too big and ugly but anyway we ended up getting a photo frame for a huge size poster that I got for him. Then we went to Thomson for kampong chicken rice before moving the stuffs home.. Oh yah the kampong chicken rice was damn damn expensive.. duhz... then we assembled the table and hanged up the poster with the nice photo frame and finally we got our studio apartment nice and cosy looking...
12th March 2006 Sunday
went over to Darling's place early in the morning.. you know we lived so close to one another that we can simply just walk over to each other place.. hahaha... gd sia... anyway it took us the entire morning to clean up his room of all the useless junks and darling finally got an idea on how perfectionist I am in getting every single damn thing centralise, simple and nice looking.. hahaha... then after a hard morning of work we went to the market for lunch before heading home for a short nap... woke up just in time for dinner before shifting his computer to my house.. hahaha..
Boring right?? Nothing much actually but we just enjoyed spending time with one another... hehe
Actually we didn't do much over the weekends.. we nv really did much over any weekends.. Hahaha..
11th March 2006 Saturday
Darling got to work until quite late because got lots of shipments to clear.. so I was lazing around at home watching TV and basically doing nothing while waiting for darling to call... so finally he went off work around 3+ which he came over to pick me up before going for lunch.. poor darling.. didn't manage to eat lunch until 3pm in the late afternoon.. sad.. then we went home.. laze around for a while on the sofa that my darling just moved into his room... then we showered and then we went out again.. to IKEA.. to get a coffee table and a rug for the floor... in order to complete our living room... in the end we didn't get the rug becoz I think it is simply too big and ugly but anyway we ended up getting a photo frame for a huge size poster that I got for him. Then we went to Thomson for kampong chicken rice before moving the stuffs home.. Oh yah the kampong chicken rice was damn damn expensive.. duhz... then we assembled the table and hanged up the poster with the nice photo frame and finally we got our studio apartment nice and cosy looking...
12th March 2006 Sunday
went over to Darling's place early in the morning.. you know we lived so close to one another that we can simply just walk over to each other place.. hahaha... gd sia... anyway it took us the entire morning to clean up his room of all the useless junks and darling finally got an idea on how perfectionist I am in getting every single damn thing centralise, simple and nice looking.. hahaha... then after a hard morning of work we went to the market for lunch before heading home for a short nap... woke up just in time for dinner before shifting his computer to my house.. hahaha..
Boring right?? Nothing much actually but we just enjoyed spending time with one another... hehe
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