All along my thoughts was since i am not going to have a customary banquet dinner and traditional stuffs, i would want a nice rom ceremony at a nice venue followed by food and drinks.. Amara hotel was like e dream come true... Even thou it doesn come with sea view.. It still have a very nice outdoor environment.. I even thought it was much better than changi village... Was about to sign e contract on tuesday but there was some last min stuffs that resulted in e last min backing out from e appt.. So i didnt sign it in e end.. Perhaps things will be much better if i have signed it then.. At least we dun have to think anymore
now i am re thinking about it myself.. My grandpa (e one that is closest to me) is still hanging on for his dear life in malaysia... Whatever happens to him i want to be there... What if i confirm e banquet invite everyone including dad frenz and relatives.. and ah gong passed away (touch wood) during that week or even worse that day..? I cant cancel everything.. I dun think i can have e heart of carrying on with e ceremony and not going back.. Maybe i should just have a simple ceremony at ROM and go for a honeymoon.. At least if anything happen e trip can be postponed.
That will mean i will not have my dream wedding come true... I will just do my one in a lifetime affair away in such a simple affair.. Even thou what dar said is true marriage is a two person affair it does not have to involve so many people..
Dar and i already have some disagreements with this... All my fault... Conflicting views.. How should i convince myself... Which side should i take? What decision should i make? Mum and dad are facing e same decision too.. And they said it is up to me and dar what we want to do in e end... How?
