not in the best of moods 2

HAIZ.....
haiz.....

i think my period is around the corner... that is why i am starting to feel irritated at the smallest little things... a tiny bug flying around my body and face, the hot and humid weather, the noisy and stuffy train ride, my long hair being too thick for the hot weather, the itch on my face caused as a result of my long hair tickling it, the flu that nv seems to stop, my bf saying the wrong things..... and the list goes on and on.... actually none of these things went wrong... given a perfectly normal day, i would have just swap it off as nothing.. but given today.. everything is just plain irritating...

I read in a book somewhere that when a person is feeling down, it is becoz of how he/she think at that particular moment in time.. if u choose to think badly, you will make urself feel badly becoz in ur brain you think nothing is good.... therefore it will interpret nothing as good... and therefore everything turn out to be bad as expected.... i keep on telling myself that I am having a wrong mindset and that is the main reason why i am feeling down...

apparently it didnt work out as what i planned it to be, did I? Hahaha.. if not i certainly wun be writing this blog sulking on how my day sucks... actually it didn't... but haiz.. blame it on my thoughts..... nv ending thoughtssss...

not in the best of moods

not in the best of moods right now...

feeling down....

i said it is just my brain playing silly tricks on me

one of those times when it shutted down automatically

nothing for me to control

yet nothing for me to follow...

dun ask me what the hell am I saying

it is just all the demons that I feel like slaying

judging by appearances

U know it is real funni sometimes how ppl tend to judge someone by their appearances just like judging a book by its cover??

I dunno why but I always give ppl the idea that I am useless, poor and penniless, didn't study much, jobless, professional bummer and very unsucessful in life. Maybe I look a little too young for my age...

Do I look a 16 years old ger still in secondary school?? Hahaha



Maybe I dun dress up well enough. So judging from the plain simple way that I dress in jeans and slippers with a sling on bag and perhaps because I always keep on wearing the same few nice clothings that I have, they figure I am a poor school gal who do not have the money to afford nice clothings like working adults...

Today one of the aunties staying in my block chatted with me in the lift when I was going home for a nice friendly chit chat... of coz the entire conversation goes like that
Auntie: U still studying huh? Where you studying now?
Me: Not studying le
Auntie: Then you just came back from shopping huh? Should find a proper job to do you know at your age after finishing studies
Me: No... I am working le.. have been working for a very long time till now.
Auntie: (Shocked) You dun look like you are working le. Working part time huh?
Me: Bo la.. working full time
Auntie: Working full time? Why you dun have to wear office wear one?
(Now realising that she is refering to my jeans and polo tee with slippers)
Me: No la, my office dun need wear office wear one. Wear causual can le
Auntie: Oh good hor. Your pay high or not huh?
(By the way now we are standing at the lift lobby and she is still continuing to bombard me with questions non stop and making me feel quite irritated entertaining her)
Me: Ok lo... just nice lo... enough for myself can le (I bet she assume that it is super low because she said....)
Auntie: Oh u know hor... this this person (one of our neighbours) earns alot le.... around $1200 every month
Me: (Pissed off by then - she think i am one of those gossip queens meh) huh ok lo... my pay around there la also...
Aunite: Go study more and find a higher pay job lo... earn more better
Me: Auntie sorry got to go le.. talk to ya next time k?

Feel like telling the auntie.. I finished my uni studies, I got a good relaxing job with a good pay now... who u think I am? She most prob think I am those school drops out... hahaha...

I remember a couple of previous incidents with banks. First time I wanted to open a investment cum savings plan. They think I am below 16 and they think i am falsing declaring my pay to be $1500. Insisted that I get the original pay slip signed by the accounts & HR dept with the company stamp before they are willing to proceed with my investment account. Checked this with CPF for my monthly contributions blu blu blu... even called my company to check if this person really exists... and I happen to pick up the phone.. toopidz bank really... recently I wanna to open a CPF investment account.. the same bank called up my current company to check if this person is really working for this company and how much exactly is my pay..? Haiz...

dunno to laugh or to cry

boring blog

I think my blog is becoming rather boring recently.... no interesting updates (basically no time to do so)and the skin is rather boring too (but no time to look for a new one as a change).. plus my life is as boring as it gets.. hahaha....

I have a craze for online window shopping recently... sooner or later I am going to become a online shopaholic... hahahah.. really... earrings, bags, clothes, necklaces even shoes... all so beautiful..... all I want to get... can't control myself.... wanna surf the webpages even during work hours... jialat... let pray hard that my boss wun catch me one day...

And I also have a new hobby... looking for new food recipes.. ok I admit I don't really cook much but I just like looking through the recipes.. see if there is anything interesting and seem nice enough... will copy the recipe down and keep it from future references... already 50+ pages of receipes le... ranging from steaks, soups, salads to local delights.. yummy...

All these stuffs plus work plus spending time with my darling is keeping me soooooo busy.... anyway just went out shopping with my darling over the weekend... brought a pair of "holey shoes" Crocs in fact... I used to hate it very much last time.. can't understand why my darling like the shoes sooo much he will wear it every day... now I got a pair for myself.. how fickle minded can I be? Hahahha... then we brought 3 cutey looking hooks for the wardrode.. one penguin, one sotong and one froggy... then we brought a new helmet for myself... got rid of the loose one on the spot.. hahaha....

Then after shopping we went straight to Johor thru the second link to pump petrol and of coz went to Gelang Patah to eat our fav "Begger Chicken".. came back with a full stomach.. 100% satisfaction.. hahaha... actually three weeks ago we went to Malacca over the long holiday.... our last trip with our X9.. farewell goodbye as the coolant pump offically declared dead after we came back.. thank goodness it managed to carry us all the way to and fro Malacca... anyway it was a cool trip and we both enjoy ourselves together with Zhaowei and Lily... Hahaha.... will update you all on the trip when I have the time to do so

As for now... I am going to continue my chat with darling ... so till the next time I update... Ciaoz ppl... Cheers