I am flying off to Korea today... sob sob... I can't bear to leave my darling luvy behind in SG.. how I wish he can come with me.. we will have so much fun together picking maple leaves, strolling by the beach, going to the hot springs, going to the theme parks.... like what my darlingz said yesterday... we got so much things to do together.... hehehehehe.... then I cannot call you or sms you also.... sob sob... dear dear.. i pick alot of autumn maple leaves for u k?? Hehehe... I am so so so going to miiiissss you... arghh... why dun we meet each other earlier..?? Haiz.. sad le.... even meeting up with U everyday dun seem to be enough.... how I wish I can spend more time with U yesterday..... I can't bear to leave U yesterday sia.. how I wish I can spend forever with U like this in ur arms..... how I wish I can spend the night with U yesterday.... hugging you to sleep.... sad to think of it sia...
It is hard to move on after a 6 yrs relationship.. I realise... there are so much things that you got to restart all over again.. getting to know a new person and letting a new person getting to know you... and getting used to each other's likes, dislikes and habits.... getting into each other's lifes and merging into one entity.. I guess that is the reason why alot of ppl choose to remain with their partner out of habit becoz they dun wan to start a new relationship all over again.... and repeat the entire cycle.... I choose to move on as I beg to be different... I want to find my true love.. someone who will hold my hands 40 yrs down the road and not someone who I stayed with out of habit... but the past came back and haunted me yesterday and it makes me feel so guilty... it is a pull between the past and the future.... not that I thought of returning to my past.. just some things I can't let go as of yet...
Dear.. I am sure we will be able to work out our differences along the way becoz our love is strong enough for eternity... i really love you alot... to the extent I am really scared of losing you someday... to the extent I think too much and become too possessive... I have no idea how I am going to cope with losing you.... not that I am doubting your love for me..... I know you truly love me... I am just scared due to past experiences.. i know U will understand....
