Yesterday I met up with two very best frenz of mine since secondary sch time.. they are the frenz who hang out with me right after I quitted being with my gang frenz.... and I have to say they are the ones who give me the courage and strength to pull it through..... and even though we haven't been in contact for so so long.. some friendship simply cannout be erased off easily... we chatted like nv before.. sitting at MOS burger from 7 to 10 at night... I have to say I learned alot from them in the past....
I remember in secondary sch.. I was the one who is "more mature" in thinking and social skills... since I mixed around with many ppl from all walks of life and have seen more things in the real world.. but to my surprise.. I realised yesterday that after leaving secondary sch life... and advancing in poly and university... I have now become the lagging one.... the one whose thoughts and thinking still remain at the age of 16 in secondary life... and they indeed have grown up alot in thinking.... how sad... this bird has been in the cage for too long really... so all along I am the one who needed support and advice.... not me to others.... but I guess it is good to realise that when I needed it, there are actually so many ppl around me who is willing to offer it.... but one thing U have to accept is that different ppl have different ideas and opinions and while listening to the good ones, U have to also open ur mind to the bad ones....
I realise fate has been quite unfair to me... sometimes it is not that I dun wanna to control things... but things are just not for me to control... I once loved someone very deeply... since secondary school... coming to abt 8 years and even though he is a poor kid with a very bad lifestyle.. I nv once complained abt it.... at that time when I am in love with him.. he got this very pretty and nice gf for 4 years and they are just such a lovely couple... and I believed at that point of time.. they will be together forever... I knew I got to stay away from him... I wun stand a chance as compared to his gf... I dun wan to be the third party.. soon enough we lost contact... and I moved on to another relationship... but one day I got a call to realise that fate has played a cruel trick on us... by taking away the life of his gf in a unforgiving accident... all hopes of a fairy tale story where the prince and princess live happily ever after was smashed in one day... and as much as I wanna to be the next princess in his life.. it will nv be the same again.. and moreover I already have a committment in my life and not having the strength to break free.. fate decide to bypass us again... in fact we loved each other... and cared for each other but somehow we can nv be together..
