Was reading a magazine the other day.. and came across this very meaningful paragraph in the article...article is in chinese.. so here's the translated version....
To love someone, sometimes it is very difficult..
Because of him, you now have to worry...
You become too busy worrying that you lost yourself
And forgot about why you are both so much in love...
Without him, yes you do have more of your own space..
But still every night you hope he will sleep by your side
Everywhere you go, you hope he will come along with you..
He has become so important, that you become more paranoid..
Only when you learn to let go, then you will love him more..
Somehow Gerald has become him... because of him in my life, I am constantly worrying... so much so I lost myself in the endless world of worrying about him... sometimes I do crave for my own space.. but still a part of me remains with him.. still worrying.... what is he doing now, is he sleeping, is he eating well.... the list continue... I hope to see him by my side.. and yes I have become paranoid.. so much so I can't enjoy my time with him without worrying if a "Ah" mean something... other than him trying his best to talk...
A frenz asked me the other day.. so when can you rest? I replied.. not till the day I died.. becoz he is my kid and he is my worry forever till the day I died... that's a mum for you... now I completely understand why my mum still insisted on taking care of me now even though I insisted that I am already a adult and know how to take care of myself.... that's a mum for you... that's mums around the world
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Long time..
been a long time since i last updated this blog.. but i haven't forgotten it at all...
life has been full ever since Gerald came into our life.. hardly have time to do anything else, personal and couple wise..other than Gerald growing up, the rest in my life seem to be at a standstill.. no more nothing... no more romance, no more couple time, no more my time... when we go out Gerald is always in tow.. even if he is not, we also dunno where to go.... i spent most of my free time with Gerald.. because i wanted soo much to be part of his growing up process.. so it has almost become work and Gerald..
me and Rick is making a long trip to Phuket.. 5 days 4 nights.. it's going to be our 1st trip on a plane.. and we are planning to do lots of snorkelling... hopefully the trip will do us good.. although in fact we just made a 2 days 1 night trip to Port Dickson by ourselves.. but finally everything is booked and confirmed.. so now we just have to wait...
finally realised how much i have aged... with my yellowish looking skin, it's worse and double the impact.. suddenly feel like a old hag.. and i just got married for 2 years, my kid is just less than 1 yr.. i looked around at my peers and sometimes think... did i make the right choice in my life...?? when everyone is enjoying their youth at their prime.. i am married and with kid..
there is always a start to everything.. so i hope it is still not too late now to go for facials to revitalise my skin, to have a proper skincare regime to maintain it, to learn proper make up to enhance my looks further and to have a change of wardrode.. there are things i cant change.. but hopefully i can still change the rest..
hopefully 2010 will be better... get rid of the old and the bad, and move on to a new beginning and hopefully a new life...
life has been full ever since Gerald came into our life.. hardly have time to do anything else, personal and couple wise..other than Gerald growing up, the rest in my life seem to be at a standstill.. no more nothing... no more romance, no more couple time, no more my time... when we go out Gerald is always in tow.. even if he is not, we also dunno where to go.... i spent most of my free time with Gerald.. because i wanted soo much to be part of his growing up process.. so it has almost become work and Gerald..
me and Rick is making a long trip to Phuket.. 5 days 4 nights.. it's going to be our 1st trip on a plane.. and we are planning to do lots of snorkelling... hopefully the trip will do us good.. although in fact we just made a 2 days 1 night trip to Port Dickson by ourselves.. but finally everything is booked and confirmed.. so now we just have to wait...
finally realised how much i have aged... with my yellowish looking skin, it's worse and double the impact.. suddenly feel like a old hag.. and i just got married for 2 years, my kid is just less than 1 yr.. i looked around at my peers and sometimes think... did i make the right choice in my life...?? when everyone is enjoying their youth at their prime.. i am married and with kid..
there is always a start to everything.. so i hope it is still not too late now to go for facials to revitalise my skin, to have a proper skincare regime to maintain it, to learn proper make up to enhance my looks further and to have a change of wardrode.. there are things i cant change.. but hopefully i can still change the rest..
hopefully 2010 will be better... get rid of the old and the bad, and move on to a new beginning and hopefully a new life...
Thursday, December 10, 2009
More Photos of Gerald
Gerald at Sakae Sushi..
Gerald trying to drive Daddy's car..
Announcement
Gerald now has his first two front teeth!!!
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